My babi gurl. That time has come where u wanna grow up. I'm not ready for that. Ur 14 now n able to start realizin u have a mind of ur own. Ur startin tto grow up to quick for. My lil gurl is almost grown n she won't slow down. N I was startin to lose u. I wish we could go back so u'll always be my babi gurl. Watchin scary movies n pullin legs off of bugs. Now it seems we're distant because of my protection from this world for u. I've always raised u as a friend more than a dad n daughter. I feel the void because ur scared of what id think of ur decisions. Know I trust u. I believe I've taught u enough to have a level head n make the proper choices. U n ur brothers know more than others ur age but haven't been through the walk of ours talks as of yet. Ur a well rounded young woman that I am so proud of. N it hurts to see u vier away from me. Y'all have been my best friends since 94. I put so much work into u 3. But now it seems its time for u to get a feel for this world n I havta start lettin go of my babi. If I don't I'm not helpin u n u won't be ready to spread ur wings. I don't want u to grow up. Yrs have passed n I want to hold on to the last few I have left with u. Thinkin about it brings tears to my eyes. U'll be gone soon n I won't have the time with u I use to. The last 4 yrs haven't been easy n I know this. I've jus been tryin my best. Doin all I can. I understand the reason for a teenager to be allowed to sprout. I was never allowed. I joined this world an idiot. Steppin out with a kid who never knew of this worlds power. I won't shelter u. Its not good for ur mental or emotional growth. I jus want my babi gurl. Ur a beautiful individual who has a great future ahead of her. Never settle for anything. If somethin isn't right, make the change for ur happiness. Know who u r n make sure ur accepted in those who surround u as u walk ur walk. Find u babi n don't forget I am on ur side. Don't be affraid to come to me. I'll never hurt u. Only want the best. There is a reason why I have been the way I have been with u for so long. On so many levels. I already miss u with our most recent situation n it seems imma be missin u a lil more as u want to live. I respect that n I knew it was commin but its hard to swallow that its alreadt here. Our time together is shortenin by the days. I jus want u to be happy n go for urs. Learn things on ur own n if u ever have a question, ask! Ilu babi gurl. Dad
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