day of oct. 24, 2011

Day of October 24, 2011
Amanda Jo Morgan,

Deep within is where you have always lived as it is been too long. My memories reoccurring dreams stuck like a distant world all my own. Feeding on your unknown where about as I look back. You were the missing link to my happiness, as you are now. Visions of your face every now and then seemed to make me smile. I felt you creeping along with me my whole life and did not even know it. Your imprint was sketched inside me long ago as if fate was waiting its turn. Marked for the taking, my guess is I needed to learn a few things before we were allowed to make a home. I got lost with out you one, misplaced and stolen from time. At my minds end, tempting life to do me in for it was endless. Love did not exist as far as my heart could feel as I only had a thought. There was no one for me for I was the unlovable one. I could not love anyone the way they were willing to give self to me. It is like subconsciously I knew, yet I could not grasp my own. Only if I would have thought about it or you more often, I should have known. Or maybe I should have said a few words once upon a time ago, expressing me to you. But I am human, living to learn for a new day the change the shape of my smile. My face shines because you are in my life, and that is no lie. No other will ever do, for you own more than my heart. I feel something has had its plan from day one when we first met. Just took us to live and let live to have all we ever wanted in each other. I look back and wish we could have lived as one in our home built in love. But then again, neither of us we’re ready for what was in store. That is the way times hand has played our seconds through the years. Then again I believe if given that chance and who we really are. We would have made it to the present in which we stand in love today. Together with a bond and friendship no one can ever break. In love like no one on earth has ever been or felt since its creation. Deep in love is where I am with you and always will be. My one. My only. MANDY! There is no other that could ever come half as close as you do to me. You complete parts of me I often wonder of and never knew was even there to begin with. I love you with all my heart. I am yours to do as please with. All I ask is for a chance to show you how much I am willing to love. All else will fall into place. Ilu1!

Yours forever,
Allen Ray Morgan (Butchie)