tappin ticker

There's a tappin in my heart, sounds of the waitin hands of time tickin. Jump started by a single kiss, rushin emotion as feelins thickin. Timer is set and ready for action, explodin on impact from a luv callin. Booms set off inside like the fourth of july, from one touch collidin skin to skin. Implosions unseen by the naked eyes point of veiw, ignition switch set to unleash all that's within. With each conversation takin place comes minutes patiently awaitin its time, held deep in tha cavity in which u live.

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on the other side of nighty night

I can feel my dream. Somehow outside of sleep. Living and willing to love me. Giving the moment a chance to own me. She is alive as if I am dreaming. Everything is perfect and I am smiling. Lost in a love made for a distant drifting day dream. Tucked under her angel like wing. Embracing me as if she's happy to be plucked out of la la land. Standing beside me as her man. I can feel her reach for me as my heart beats. Awake and in aww she's knocking me off my feet. This is as real as it gets. Emotions have been met. On the other side of nighty night. Here and now with all our might. She's crossed over to my reality. Given up her immortality. Just to be held in my arms. To get lost in my charm. Dreamland lost one hell of a woman in her. As I gained the meaning of three lil words. Here to stay they'll never get her back. Not until my dying day, and that is a fact.

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pleasurable flavor

Flappin at the gums. Lips r ready to run. Tongue twirlin a vibe. I ain't got an thing to hide. Sound pulsatin my mouth. Throat never chokin on a noun. Verbs slung in truth. Words havin use. Spoken syllibles flung. Aimed n spit then done. Tasted with pleasurable flavor. Heard n savored. Letters speakin aloud. Clear n somethimes fowl. English to the point. Let loose to fill a void.

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drips of MANDY leakin from the lips

Ur luv is like a fine wine. Gettin better with time. The more I sip, the more I feel the effect. Drips of ur luv has me at my best.

Listen, ssh, hear it. Are u ready? Here it comes. Pay close attention. Wait for it. Be patient luv. Its comin. U ready? I. L.u.v. u. W.i.t.h. a.l.l. m.y. h.e.a.r.t.....

I stand with u. Not behind u. Neva in front of u leadin u. But beside u as a friend for life. Hand in hand as a luv'r. Walkin as husband n wife. I am 4eva in luv with u.

Me in u... watcha think? Fillin u up. Touchin u through ur skin I sink deep within. Spreadin muself eva so carefully. Connectin softly in ur heart fulfillin thee.

Cashed. I spent my luv on lil ol u. Every last pound, thumpin in a luv outta the blue. My luv feels this neva endin emotion within, eva so true. Everyday needin only u.

I hope ur day gets better with the hands of time on ur side. Til u get home my luv, waitin 2 hold n embrace u for every1 should have some1 like urself worldside.

My lips keep formin ur name. Drivin my will insane. Drippin in the sound of MANDY! Pleases the taste. I can't wait to get u face to face.

Mmmm! Jus tryin to get ur day goin. Smile luv. Some1 appreciates the meanin u possess in their life.

1 more thing. 1 lil note. 1 thing to say. 1 itty bitty thing to let u know. Ooh how u make my day. That's what u are. The 1, my only. Ilu1!

Do u need me to text u sweet n sexy silence? Only for ur eyes to read. So u can smile n think about somethin else with me.

Have I told u I am so far head over heals in luv with u its ridiculous. U make my smile a perminant feature that will neva fade.

My luv for u will neva fade. For our luv in heaven was made. Til the end in the kingdom. 4eve I will need ya. MANDY! & BUTCHIE!

My 1. Ur the 1. Equalin as 1. For a lifetime as 1. Livin 1 life. In a million to 1 cahance. 1 luv. 1 husband. 1 wife. 1 whole. 1 purpose. 1 true desire. Ur the 1 worth it.

Let me answer u with my luv. Crawl inside ur heart fall in luv. Fill u in ways uve neva imagined. Make u think wtf jus happened. In luv with u I am. As I stand, as ur man.

Findin a true friend is hard enough as it is. So to find that 1 in u & so much more brings tears to my eyes as the joy u give me in so fulfillin. Don't eva stop.

I can imagine u walkin down the alter. Endless luv playin as u stroll eva so slow. Its a beautiful vision as I sit here with a tear for the moment. I can't wait to luv u more than I eva.

Lickin my screen. Tryin to tatse ur pic. Wishin u were here on my lips. Slobbers shortinin out my phone. N all I want is to have u alone.

I'm droppin the dime of what's been blowin around in my mind. N if u listen carefully u can hear uur name released at last in our time, wantin u to 4eva be mine.

Ur name is delicious upon my tongue. Speakin & tryin to say ur name, it comes out ur the 1!

I wanna lick ur pussy & fuck u with pinky. Then lick u again & fuck u repeatidly. Sliddin inside of u my fat azz dick gets so hard. I wanna enjoy u every second as I restrain ur guard. Imma please u from head to toe. Inside & out. Jus so u know.

Can I lick n put my finger in u. Get u off repeatidly. The climb inside u n repeat my actions.

I've waited all day to day this, because my phones was dyin and I couldn't. Use it. I don't know what id do if I couldn't tell u everyday. Everytime my heart felt u. Imma luv u 4eva. Til my heart stops beatin. Wait on u in heaven, jus to luv u for all time. U r my 1. My luv. My only. u are MANDY! Of all people. And u get me.

Id rather show u than tell u. But ilu more than I've eva luv'd any1 I've eva met. I wanna spend our lives together. 4ever. Ilu1!

Ur so natural to me. I don't need to fake the funk. I've needed u for long, & now that I have u imma enjoy our everyday. Every night. Every mornin. I'm urs 1.

I wanna slide down u like a drip of water. Touchin ur skin. Fallin to my knees. Before u. Mind thinkin about bein within. Face burried between ur legs. Hormones twitchin nas I please ur pussy. As the tongue is on a roll. Catchin ur juices flowin down ur thigh. Tryin my damndest not to sigh. Comin back up liftin u carefully. I wanna climb inside.

My luv is what my heart follows. Constantly steppin behind ur every move n its great. I neva seen myself givin self in such a way. Its gotta be fate.

Easy pecks. Cheek checkin. Roamin around ur face. Searchin for the sweet spot. Plottin my next move. Tastin the pleasure of ur lips that soothe.

In my life wrapped softly in luv. Finger catchin a feel of the emotion in a back rub. Layin silently within words unspoken n unslurred. Starin in eyes peekin n unblured. U n I are a match of a lifetime. I am urs as u r mine.

Ill give all my luv to only u. Down to the last drop of what I am tryin to do. For better or worse. With a unique choice of words. This man in which I stand is standin for u. N with an easy hand ill give a luv so true only u can use.

This is a life to live for. U n I united for what's in store. Happiness n luv fillin our hearts. U do so much more than playin the part.

Dreams of u floatin in my head. Waitin on my chance to wed. Speakin words I've neva said. As tears slowly begin to shed.

I've had a silhouette of a woman in my head for yrs. 1 that neva had a face. An image so luvly yet I couldn't touch. U brought her to life n made my heart race.

Ur about four hours away from a real good fuckin on the clock. Tic tic toc. I hope ur ready for a lickin n a stickin from my massive cock. Because ur ur socks imma rock outcha boots for ur so fuckin hot.

For 1 drop of ur luv. For 1 drip landin n burstin on the tatsebuds of my tongue. Jus 1 ripple of satisfaction. Id do anything to feel ur reaction as the 1.

It feels like as if heaven looked down on me and knew I needed u in my life. Sprinkled ur luv in my heart n didn't think twice, knowin 1 day ud become my wife.

Ilu1! With more flava I'm my mouth than words can explain or express the texture of the taste.

I got a real good woman. She luvs me so much. That's y I luv her the way I do. She gets my luv.

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upon the skin

Eyes riding the flesh. Wondering what's next. Scoping from a distance. Without resistance. Peeking around the curves. Unsettled nevres. Sliding upon the skin. With a sinful grin. At one with the shape. I would love to take. Opened to the beauty. Pure nudity.  Staring in disbelief. Wanting the relief. Watching the movement. Dancing you use it. Swaying with your body. Acting all naughty. Popping out of the head. Wanting you in bed. Noticing the language. Tryin to manage. Expressing the desire. You I admire. Flurting and blinking. Self is tweaking. Watching the moment. Breathes begin to vent. Excited by the reaction. Such satisfaction. Gazing hungry. Hearts thumping.Visualizing ur sex. For it is the best.

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babi gurl

My babi gurl. That time has come where u wanna grow up. I'm not ready for that. Ur 14 now n able to start realizin u have a mind of ur own. Ur startin tto grow up to quick for. My lil gurl is almost grown n she won't slow down. N I was startin to lose u. I wish we could go back so u'll always be my babi gurl. Watchin scary movies n pullin legs off of bugs. Now it seems we're distant because of my protection from this world for u. I've always raised u as a friend more than a dad n daughter. I feel the void because ur scared of what id think of ur decisions. Know I trust u. I believe I've taught u enough to have a level head n make the proper choices. U n ur brothers know more than others ur age but haven't been through the walk of ours talks as of yet. Ur a well rounded young woman that I am so proud of. N it hurts to see u vier away from me. Y'all have been my best friends since 94. I put so much work into u 3. But now it seems its time for u to get a feel for this world n I havta start lettin go of my babi. If I don't I'm not helpin u n u won't be ready to spread ur wings. I don't want u to grow up. Yrs have passed n I want to hold on to the last few I have left with u. Thinkin about it brings tears to my eyes. U'll be gone soon n I won't have the time with u I use to. The last 4 yrs haven't been easy n I know this. I've jus been tryin my best. Doin all I can. I understand the reason for a teenager to be allowed to sprout. I was never allowed. I joined this world an idiot. Steppin out with a kid who never knew of this worlds power. I won't shelter u. Its not good for ur mental or emotional growth. I jus want my babi gurl. Ur a beautiful individual who has a great future ahead of her. Never settle for anything. If somethin isn't right, make the change for ur happiness. Know who u r n make sure ur accepted in those who surround u as u walk ur walk. Find u babi n don't forget I am on ur side. Don't be affraid to come to me. I'll never hurt u. Only want the best. There is a reason why I have been the way I have been with u for so long. On so many levels. I already miss u with our most recent situation n it seems imma be missin u a lil more as u want to live. I respect that n I knew it was commin but its hard to swallow that its alreadt here. Our time together is shortenin by the days. I jus want u to be happy n go for urs. Learn things on ur own n if u ever have a question, ask! Ilu babi gurl. Dad

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thinking about you in my life

I don't get excited over words spilled from the mouth. Not unless their about you and their meant from the heart. Sounds don't mean a thing in the line of fire. Unless its your voice calling out my name. Stares can be misleading in a world where everyone seeks for themselves. But in your eyes I see love existing and finding my worth. I've been touched many times and no one could ever be felt. But when you reached for me I felt you land upon me skin before we ever connected. And love is misguided so often its as if its an imaginary dream. Funny thing is you are that dream loving me until the end.

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never had a friend

I neva had a friend in this world. Seems time never had time to give me one. I've been alone all my life. Meetin some along the way that come n go. I use to question why people are the way they are. Or was it me? Never the less i v lived isolated and untrustin. Foes that resemble family. One in which was broken earlier than id like to admit. Its sad but iv learned to go about my way as if I didn't exist. Of no relevance to the purpose to someone else. My feelins of this life were confused. As if it was meant to be me against the world. Seekin inward for the answer and maturin more rapidly than anyone around me. Pausin in the wee hours of solitude findin self. 34 years it took before I found not only a friend but my best friend. The strangest thing is it turned out to be a blast from the past. Someone I lost decades ago. She's been inside of me periodically for so long and I didn't understand why. But now as I look into her eyes and feel her kiss I know. And I'm going to leave it there for she is my world.

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Swimmin in saliva. Tongues drownin n dyin 2 get inside ya. Rollin round stretchin out. About 2 go further south.

Dippin in the flava. Mouth waterin wantin 2 save ya.

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evening the balance

Are u capable to luv? The way it was disigned to be.

Get lost in a promise where actions speak louder than words.

If it reached for u even in ur darkest hour, could u pause for its presence? Becoming more than self in this world.

Are u able to accept the passion ready to explode? Evening the balance u seek within the confusion.

Feeling drawn, can u allow it to guide ur heart? Let ur guard down and do more than protect ur own illusions.

What if the greatest thing uv ever could have imagined stood before u? Listening to where uv been and understood.

Would u grab it and take control of ur emotion? Let them loose and enjoy all its good.

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luv is mature

Luv is mature. It understands the mindset of gettin it done. It guides a pure heart. Becomin one. Luv simplifies the reason. Feels the emotion fillin the void. It concurs the disbeleif. Gives the mind a choice. Luv is a givin joy. Not wantin anything but to be felt. Accepted the way its given. The way its delt. Luv above all other is the untamed beast that craves. Comfortin an expression made to live. Its incredible patient. Jus bein with.

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submission

To depend is not a submission. Its knowing ur in good hands.

Subdoing self in a way happiness lives. Woman and man.

Living cofortably within one an other. Satisfaction gauranteed.

Allowing someone to guide ur heart. Wanting the need.

Depending on them for ends to be met. There's no other way.

Can one do without? Yes, but life wouldn't be the same.

The completion is so soothing with this one around. Confident.

Purpose is given with a kiss, a stare, a smile. Extravagent.

Letting go of selfish ways. Learning to be as one as a pair.

Boundaries crossed. Met more than half way because they care.

A willingness that controls the situation. Living free.

Together as best freinds. Accepting luvs dream.

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becoming the past

Tomorrows waiting there.

Well aware.

Can u see its best?

As u wait on what's next.

Patiently sitting alone.

Defensively in the zone.

Watching u walk on by shortly.

Standing straight and accordingly.

Leaving it after wanting it.

Getting ur fix.

The feature awaits ur presence.

Without hesitance.

Becoming the past.

Rapidly it comes fast.

Moments slip making a day.

In today we'd luv to stay.

Holding on to the now.

Listening to its sounds.

It there lerking in the new light.

Once the dark refuses to hide.

Another chance will be given.

If we can make it with the living.

Time stands still in its time.

Looking for a new find.

Peek an imaginary glimps.

Say its name released from ur lips.

Its what we all crave.

Forgetting to live in today.

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released from the skin

Take me away. Mentally pull me from the confusion. The constant let down within self. I need an illusion. Somewhere inside my mind iv never been. Untampered. Stretched ever so thin. Within the hidden space left in solitutde. Total silence. Away from my raw attitude. Pull me in. Transport me from this reality. Momentarily release me from my skin. Get me back to bein me. Help me find a way. So I can sow my seams. I'm leakin out more steadily as I move. I need to gather myself. I wanna get lost deep as I soothe. Return in a new state of mind. Ready and determined. Ooh the pleasure to unwind.

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stalled out on idle

Choices. Left or right. Right or wrong. Unknowin the outcome. Makin up the mind. Thinkin before actin. Spontanious n reactin. Which way to go. Thoughts flood the imbalance. All under servaillance. Choose or loose. Under the pressure crackin. Passin up the proposal is an act of slackin. Comin undone. Bypassin reason. Self treason. From season to season. Cards on the table and leavin. Tryin to make the right move. Movement staillin out. Froze. Hurry before this goes south. Needed. Wanted ends. Met for tomorrow. Not wantin to borrow. Where to go. When's it time. Pennies build into nickles and losin dimes lost because of their size. Mental management breakin down. Grip strugglin to maintain. Tryin everything to stay sain. Pushin for the meanin that keeps one at a hault. Stalled and on idle. Waitin for that moment. Diggin into the bible. Roamin frustrations pullin at ones eagerness. Listenin to patience lingerin for the answer. Makin it happen is so hard lookin for the treasure. Decide. Lay it on the line. Best is required. Attemptin to push rewind.

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alive

Ouch. To remember were still alive.

So uncomfortable. Yet why.

Pain. Causing tears leaking and slidding.

Trying to hold face. Emotions hiding.

Living and breathing. Crying.

Hurting. In our own timing.

Excrutiating. Unbarable satisfaction.

To know one is here. In desperation.

Begging and pleading. Omg please!

Make it go away. In dyer need.

Feeling the moment of termoil.

That much closer to plot in the soil.

Happy to be able to breath.

Never wanting to leave.

Nerves taking a brutal blow.

For were alive and dying slow.

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giggle bug

Ready for the first time. Its the way u giggle.

The sound of ur happiness as ur bones wiggle.

Laughter rising from that happy place u can not hide.

I here u luv. Chuckling in our time.

Snorting away. Smiling uncontrolably.

And I'm thankful for the oppertunity.

To see u bust a gut.

Tickled by the giggle bug.

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sec.

Gotta sec to free the thickness inside the mind.
Open up n release all that’s been in my find.
Telling a tail lived so deep down within.
Sometimes with or without a grin.
N even though i stand solo in my shoes.
I live a love that’s expressed so true.
For a brief moment I come undone.
In a time where a single word is spoken of 1.
Letting loose of all that’s been tempted in my time.
Becoming stronger into me I can not hide.
I’ve found that deepest desire within a woman.
Breaking free of my enter most lost hoodlum.
In minutes I can jot down my thought process.
Secrets that form as another gains access.
I found a way for me to be loved by simply being me.
Yet I can not take credit, for it is she.
Ticking hands round my mind in such a way.
It’s inna smile that gives joy day to day.
From the past to the present as I sit.
I ponder all that lingers in this mix.
I am 4eva young cuz she lives within.
Touches my heart n tickles my rib.
Fate has found a man willing to give.
So in this sec I end n say, I jus wanna live.

rollin through

Hearin the rain fallin, sittin n smellin the scent so fresh n clean.
Listenin to the sound of drops drippin down, beatin on the trees.
Comfortin as the wind that blows in between the drips, they fall.
Cool breeze blows about as I cling to my moment, in a bit of a stall.
Still as movement is absent from motion, I freeze within the display of time.
Graspin the ease of the storm rollin through, beads explode like fine wine.
Layin back, feelin the release of purity give way as I enjoy the show it makes.
Lightning strikes, causin the chest to raise as the heart races n escapes.
At one with the likeliness of cleansin, sounds begin to simmer in the distance.
Done with the battle of gravity, easy come the storm eases gone without resistance.
Leavin the damp scent of dribblits standin in puddles, splattered they lay.
Feelin left behind to moisten life, coverin ground n here to stay.

relations are like roads

Lines separating on coming warnings. Dotted to pass. Solid to stay in ones place. Guidelines for safety. Keeping order within reason. Lights blinding sight in the darkest of hours. Unable to see clearly. Eyes squinting shut. Sun beaming brightly. Like high beams, rays burn the vision away. Miles traveled. Speeding up to get away. Slowing down for a place to rest. Spinning wheels. Rubber spins smoke as they squeal at times. Repeating songs play the same old tune. Knuckles clinch for the taking. Controlling self’s wheel. Easing up for the goodness sake. Paved paths stuck in place. Standing still. Rolled on by so many. Sometimes 2 3 4 wide. Who ever knows where their truly headed? Turn signals telling all directions needing a change. Some follow for a while. Others go about their own way. Break lights halting in caution. Yielding or flat out stopping the journey. It takes time to get where one is going. Accidents happen slowing the progress. But its ones quest to stay on task. Back roads. Shortcuts seem quicker, yet not as affective. A to b. paths not needing a new route. One could get lost or forgotten as they stray off course. Finding self in on a whole new stretch of roads. Winding and twisting a new life as the old way is not as effective.

pulled and stuffed

I was recently hurt from the best.
Thru loves fool proof titanium plated vest.
My heart pulled from the gaping hole in my chest.
I stood strong and showed the will in my test.
Speaking only one word that best describes this.
Yes, I indeed still want this.
As feelings are stuffed back with the rest.
In their own home made comforting nest.
My mind traveled north south east then west.
Felt my worth fall from even less.
Defeated, I was in such a distracted mess.
Easy button destroyed, could not be pressed.
I was heart broken I do confess.
But love finds its own way, I guess.

protectin self cause one jus does'nt know

Strangers walk close enough to see the pupils of another. Yet don’t take a blink of an eye to notice the colors that stare back. Ignoring all life of someone else as if they don’t exist. Sheltering self so selfishly, they do not care to find out the good in another good morning, nor hello. Head hung as if sad. Contact is avoided due to reasons of their own past. Lingering in body language as if filtering out all possibilities of being abused. And it shows in the lack of character expressed as they stroll along quietly. Repeating every movement, day in-day out. Only if they knew the untold stories of those walking the same lonely stroll as them. Peddling feet creep on by while other stand still without sound in crowds. Confusing it is.

People have forgotten to be human and lack the courteous pleasure of simply living along side one another. Some do take into consideration at high volume areas like doors and such. Others find it meaningful to respond to a smile that’s upright and facing the world. Yet it’s the 90% of those who think their above the rest that really haven’t a clue on what their missing. Are some worth the time to even hold a conversation with? No. but how will one ever know if one doesn’t lift thy head and speak out of turn and just say a word or two?

Initiative. Best foot forward. Chance. Letters forming the possibility to find in someone that may never exist if not given the notion of interest sort of speak. Loners I call them. Keeping to self and their so called kind. Knowing we’re all the same. Stuck up, rude or just arrogant. Most have problems with new faces changing shape right in front of them as time ticks away. Slowly deteriorating the fact of trust. Yet we all change. Accepting this in one another is the key. So this is not a good enough excuse.

Humans have become distant due to what we have made this world out to be. It is our fault and duty to give hope back to what I consider a fixable cause. But it will never happen. We will continue to ease on by in our own world and time. Deliberately excusing self from an others way of thinking and way of life. This is how we co-exist. Bubbles of self absorbent bull shit. Living within comfort zones and circle of trust. Protecting the one thing that matters most. Self! It’s not a crime but very much over rated.

And I ask because I’ve been on the other end. How will you know who a friend can be? Who you click with? Where they are hiding? If you, in your best interest don’t look straight forward and at least use some peripheral vision and see what is going on around you. Someone standing next to you tomorrow can make a world of difference and you will never know thinking inside the box. Step outside and find some humor in talking to folks. There are some characters among us that have reasons why they say the things they say. Good or bad, both are accessible threw conversation. And as is for you to decide what grasps your attention. Perhps it’s not all that bad of an idea to live a little. Thing is, you just don’t know.

payin attention

Staying in luv without falling into routine.
Something that’s not hard to do if luv is more than a dream.
Desires fade as patterns get use to someone.
Jus because their there losing sight of the fun.
Long nights of hugs n kisses turn into stillness.
Sex becoming one sided knowing they’d miss this.
Emotions don’t show quite ass often.
Without paying attention the bed will seem like a lonely coffin.
Passion shortened by lips that once craved.
Losing the excitement one always tends to fade away.
Time gives out on those unable to keep it going.
Letting everyday life allow it to be less enjoying.
Hearts grow content now one will always be here.
Sometimes unknowing their own actions seem not to care.
Not everyone knows how to share a luv for a lifetime.
Leaving smiles that fall as they find it hard to shine.
Even in true luv moments don’t last forever.
For a different kind of luv will keep 2 together.
Newness wares off if allowed to slip.
The lack of paying attention will cause one to lose grip.
In luv, hearts are tender n need one another.
If one slacks n forgets the meaning, one is bothered.
Rollin over before the proper appreciation can be expressed.
Causin a lack of something that’s so vital called interest.
But how can one say that they see their one falling into the norm.
Jus acting out repeated action n not long from the storm.
Falling in luv is so easy if u have found your one.
Yet keep in going n paying attention is only half the fun.
Its kind of hard when one is speaking n it’s as if their not being noticed.
Unheard words in hints of dropped phrases that seem hopeless.
Spoken with sound on mute ears, one will give up n jus let shit be.
But what kind of life is that when this merry go round exceeds?
Paying attention is the hardest thing to do.
You have to want it everyday or your one will break into two.

2:35am 11.25.11

passsion of the battle

Hot breaths riddle in my ear.
Telling all the things I luv to hear.
Sweat drips as emotions flare.
Showin how much 1 actually cares.
Lost in luv as the moment is right.
Lips stretch as they collide.
Livin in the passion of the battle.
Man n woman softly tattle.
Telling on self n the way they like.
Givin in to the sexual fight.
Hands search and curve to the bod.
Feelin form n find their spot.
2 fall in the moment in between.
Tryin everything to keep it clean.
Uncontrollingly the time has come.
For the both to come undone.

outside the dome

Freed mind charmed with an imposition to thrill a self conscious core.
Stepping outside the dome setting pace and tracking down what will never bore.
Living on the exterior of its cage thoughts speak with movements possessed.
Comfortable in the surroundings in which it resides on a vacationed recess.
Waves flowing in the breeze catching wind as they drift away with time.
Open to the world around a true state of being with the ability to realize mine.

one

One word. One way. I’m here to stay.
One moment. One enjoyment. Beside u I lay.
One purpose. One life. Please be my wife.
One kiss. One emotion. Throwing rice.
One truth. One pleasure. Be mine forever.
One charm. One satisfaction. Living love together.
One movement. One sigh. Until the end of time.
One goal. One future. Say you’ll be mine.
One hold. One touch. I need you so much.
One breath. One time. Lips kiss pressed and flush.
One cuddle. One smile. I’d go the extra mile.
One friend. One laugh. You are my style.
One once. One chance. Feelings enhanced.
One passion. One love. With you I’d dance.
One attempt. One pause. Just because.
One comfort. One will. Accepting your flaws.
One hug. One desire. You I admire.
One dream. One ilu. You light my fire.

no relevance

It’s in the way they move their mouth as they speak.
Is the past still re-enacting misguiding tears?
Referring to an other without a care.
It’s so irrelevant, especially here.

Key words like bombs drop, killing the gain.
Slipping off the tongue is someone else that never noticed.
Constantly stuck somewhere ones never been.
Losing more than focus.

Smallest hints of other times re-appear, why?
Catching more than ones undivided attention.
Waiting for them to finally move on.
In the eyes of loves unconditional reflection.

It’s the sound of familiarity.
Trying to release love without a hitch.
And the mind lingers with many wonders.
Do they know whom they’re with?

Can they one day let go?
Without pausing ones heart.
Always bringing up how it was.
Isn’t now the best time for a fresh start?

One doesn’t need reminded every other day.
Nor feel the effect of being hurt by an other.
It’s ones true chance here and now.
Or is it being selfish to feel this way when hearing of prior lovers?

Things need to be kept on the hush.
For no one needs to know.
Constantly riddling self of their own pain.
Unable to live in an others will and grow.

Do they know what they slip up say?
How it makes one truly feel?
Is it anymore interesting to be repeated?
Of how another made them peel.

No relevance to the present moment.
Yet still the mouth drips as it leaks.
Drowning in a flooding once upon a time.
Missing the importance of one now in defeat.

When words won’t let go.
As the past will continue to fade.
When’s it fair to real love?
Not hearing of an others name, everyday.

What if one slipped and mentioned a time?
One where this love didn’t exist.
Not knowing what they were doing.
And over and over again, it got old quick.

How would they handle the other side?
Is it disrespectful to a spouse?
To hear all the things one would never do.
Drilled by the irrelevance of its sound.

What if by chance, speech could drain a love.
Never hearing of the life being lived.
Yet they felt misplaced when letters form.
Questioning their own chance to give?

The presence whispers with patience through conversation.
But it seems it could never be as loud as back then.
Years of routine needs to step aside.
For feelings have been more than lent.

Now is the perfect moment to free the pain.
Living comfortably for once for love to settle in.
So how is it really suppose to be?
Seems there is a thought of an other blowing in the wind.

They cling to the thoughts that are unwanted.
For it’s all they know.
Talking more of then, then now.
Someone has to stand up and say no.

Knowing whom one is with is vital.
As they as one realize this to.
Releasing love calling from the lips has got to begin.
For neither heart is healthy when being consumed.

Before the present, all is irrelevant.
Where we’ve been, is gone.
Here is where the memories are made.
And here is to us, never to fade.

my sunshine

There was a time. Once. Now left where it belong, in its place.
Lost in wonder. Alone. Without a true smile upon the face.
Back when i could not and did not want to feel. Emotionless. No one mattered.
It seemed one was not to appear. Misguided. I was broken and shattered.
A time of past memories. Rejected. Turning on any ones love.
Nothing lasts forever. Ending. Hating and feeling with a push and a shove.
I never gave that chance. Afraid. Living for the moment.
Thinking of whom? Where. My love no one ever got to truly hold it.
No connection was felt. Drought. The heart ached for knowing.
Somewhere along the lines I gave up. Defeated. No longer growing.
Shut down for safe keeps. Suppressed. Lingering within wanting more.
Seems everyone was the same as I. Selfish. From the other side of the door.
Starting over. Hard. I should have kept it real and whole hearted, for this I was wrong.
Yet, it was not time. Felt. Deep inside where people did not belonged.
Running from someone else’s fairytale. Faking. I was a silhouette that broke them.
Leaning inward ones feet move. Dreaming. One day I thought, I will bend.
Once lived a man. Clinging. Seeking the opportunity like no other.
In space that is left behind. Smiling. Creeping into the future.
Eyes were wide. Looking. But the head hung as low as it could go.
Giving true self to just anyone. Never. Waiting I played my game slow.
Stretching the truth. Lies. Flew from the mouth of making due.
Desiring that one person. Fate. Beyond all others that completed my all.
Drifting in the meanwhile. Solo. Even with someone else in love with me that was soon to fall.
A loner until she came along. Reaching. Giving more reason than I could understand.
No other could ever come close. Halted. Secretively I eventually ran.
Listening to all the soppy tears. Done. I had to go find where I belonged.
Thinking of why I do this. Over. I was never into an others played out song.
No one ever touched the sweet spot. Chance? Was the impossible of gain.
Sharing self was unheard of. Briefly. Allowing others to believe their claim.
In a time of passion. Missing. I could not honestly try, for it was not there.
It takes two to create magic that sparked the flame. Empty. I played house without a care.
Abusing loves intentions. Refusing. To ever love them back.
There was a time for this. Flirting. They thought I was their one in fact.
They could not get past me. Maintaining. Holding out for a lifetime.
Pausing to attempt expression. Living. For my very own sunshine.
She lived in me. Confused. I knew she was for I felt her.
But where, when no one was her? Blurred. Names was muted and slurred.
Years passed. Sitting. Mandy came to the mind like so many times before.
Searching I found her. Taken. I finally let her go to be with the present of the lore.
Gave a small piece of me. Left. I knew it should have never happened.
Easy to get over. Lust. For self wanted her to go away, heart was dampened.
Time came around and gave. Conversation. Like nothing I have ever known.
Immediately I knew this was it. Finally. The heart opened and moaned.
A voice spoke I so ever craved. Listening. I was just being me for once
Nerves were shaking. Butterflies. My time was here to love my one.
Overwhelmed I gave her the me like I have never done. Real. The me that no one knew.
All the years without found love. Absent. Became to be my hearts greatest joy, she is my boo boo.
Today I live in her heart. Comforting. As Mandy lives within my so called forbidden world.
It is funny when you just know. Completed. I am whole with her as my wife, lady, woman, girl.

music

Bobbin. Weave. Feelin the move streamin thru the vibe.
Grooving. Ease. Bouncing as if my heart can not hide.
Beatin. Within. Souls clingin to the rhythm spinnin.
Noddin. Needin. Driftin my mind compels its finding.
Fallin. Givin. Heads on a tilt wobblin.
Jammin. Livin. Sounds recocheyin the hearts singin.

mindless

Tappin in, tunnin out.
Followin mindless patterns of the minds endless route.
Shiftin images, shaping without form.
Illsusions beggin for ever more.
Zoning, becoming a moanin in the brain.
Sittin still within frame.
Thoughts crossin paths, confusin face.
Tryin to keep up as the minds needin some space.
Backing off, respectin its will.
Spinnin outta control, getting its fill.
Stepping forth into a state of mind surrounded by delusion.
I must be sufferin from a contusion.
Letting loose, free to rip off the edges.
Workin it out, ink plotted smudges.
Visions seekin random day dreams.
Pausing moments in the middle of funny lookin screams.
Peepin in on tweaked out sights of the imaginary.
To bad its time is temporary.

luv'n MANDY!

Diddled phrases of luv leapin from my heart to yours are sounds of happiness enjoyed by the feelin that follows words into the emotional core. i.miss.u.1

My mind is your playground. Heart is your wonderland. Body is yours to have and to hold.and my soul you own next to god.

I have this thing deep down inside of me. That luvs you sooooo fuckin much. N I don’t know what to do with it.

Releasing words of ilu1! As my heart beats my emotions into a race. My mind pushes out an expression of luv that desires only you that is shown on my face.

Life within the grasp of your arms is a joy comforted by a luv worth the emotion expressed from my heart.

I luv watchin u. iv been so long without u. so I take every second I can to notice when I can… ilu MANDY!

Beyond your beauty lays a woman. A real live woman. In the flesh your seen as gorgeous. Yet in my eyes youe more than in between. I see you MANDY! For whom you are and I luv that unique individual.

Smiles that giggle from a face so familiar. Showin happiness in the presence of luv. Grinning so real. So big. So bright. For this I will never lose my sight.

Turning. I catch u peekin back. Connectin eyes holdin. Finding a smile worth sharing. Starin as you turn away. I grin with pleasure knowin your mine 4ever.

I wear my ring with honor of my wife. A symbolism of our luv. Showin the worlds I am taken. As it will never be removed from my finger, for she owns my everything.

I luv when my tongue catches up with my brain, for the sounds of thy heart can only explain one thing. Your name!

I luv when my tongue catches up with ur taste. Drippin sweet flavor upon my day. Lost in makin luv to you through oral……………

Luv me now. Here today. In chosen words tell me its luv. Us. Im the 1. and I’ll spend this moment til the end of my time, givin myself in a way you refuse to let go of.

You ever thought that we’re right back where we began as MANDY & BUTCHIE!

Iv never needed someone in all my life. But you’re a rare one luv.i need your touch. Your smile. Your ways. I need your presence. Your will. Your luv. I need you in my life 1! 4eva…

Can you feel me? Fingertip to fingertip. Runnin through you when visualize my face. Hows it feel to know you matter to someone who trulyluvs you. Cuz I luv it.

I am a very happy man. Lookin back on this past year. I am truly blessed to have a life time to luv you. MANDY! Pictures of this past year resemble a life we should of always shared. & I cherish the moments we’ve lived together.thank you for hittin me on fb luv. You don’t know how bad I needed you in my life as my wife.you make soo much difference, its like a fairytale. I will always luv you and show it everyday. You are luv’d.

I will do anything for you. Your are the one I chose to spend outr lifeout with. Happily intertwined my heart snuggles your luv.you are my one and only as your luv is what its all about.

I luv the feelin of wakin up next to you. Knowin all day long imam get to see you face starin back at me with the same look I express in luv. I get to kiss you daily. Luv you forever. There is no greater fellin. Nor one like it.

Your luv is like a cool breeze on a hot sunny day as the dribblits of drops drippin are small and soft enough to comfort thy skin with a pleasure so sweet it tickles the tiniest of the ticklish spot hidden for you to seek out and find.

I luv the way my smil feels when I see your face. It’s a reaction like no other sent straight from heaven above touchin my heart.showin how much I am so deeply in luv with you. And its been tis way from the very start.

Softly I wanna slide my tongue in between your lips and stroke you upward. Tatse how you juice for me as I kiss and lick you slowly.legs spread open far and wide. Face buried in your pussy as I slither iinside. Pleasing not only you for I get hard when I gaive you head. I wanna eat you out ova ova ova ova and ova again. Make luv to you with my mouth. Digging deep for those orgasm while im spending time down south.i wanna show you how bad you turn me on. I wanna play! All night long.

My heart beats the rythm of your name with each and every syllable tappin its way along soothiin the fellin of bein so in luv wit you as one.

Feelin you against me and how our body heat battles beneath the sheet sends my heart into an emotional crave that only you can do to me. You are myhappy place.

When ever im not havin a good day, it is you that picks my smile up ansd sends it flyin. Only you an do that. Just thinknin about you and my grinenjoys the days we share.


I give you me as an expression of luv, with an unbreakable bond. So do as you please with the magic we share., for I am your very own wond. Use me as needed to make your dreams come true and your night complete. I am at your mercy. And as always, I remain discrete.
Knowin I LUV YOU like no other will forever bring greta joy to my everything.

I wanna feel you. Touch you. Try and show you the luv I feel for you through a simple graze. Along a brush of your skin as its filled with everything I am For you in each individual connectin moment are a life of happiness waitin to happen.

U R L.O.V.E! U R MY ONE. U R THE ONLY. U OWN MY HEART. POSSES MY MIND. U R THE MEANIN OF LUVS PURPOSE. TIL THE END OF TIME. U R.

luv is here

I feel ur pain. What uv been thru. But u gotta let it fade.
Things aren’t the same. Its me u n i. Times have changed.
Flyin by r the days. Further from ur struggle. Havin new ways.
Ones worth the stay. Luv is here. Ur in a good place.
Til were old n gray. Imma show u. jus be brave.
Keep walkin away. Each step with me. As we pray.
The future is 2day. Now in the present. Ease ur head as its layed.
Know what u gave. Cuz that’s what I give. As u take our name.
Allen ray. Mandy jo. Morgan is a powerful thang.
So lets play. Live our life 2 the fullest. Without the games.
With u im made. Bein me. Ur not a slave.
Free 2 live unafraid. With good intensions. N no1 2 blame.
With us in a frame. Hung on the wall. Sheltered from the rain.
Ur my everythang. U own a real man. Its time u land.
Feet firm hand in hand. 2gether we got this. As we stand.
B 1 with luvs plan. Its me butchie. With a golden band.
4eva in luv im ur biggest fan. Ur my 1. jus want my chance.
It can b grand. Knowin without a doubt u r luvd. N I know I can.
luv u always ever more than. AILOWY! this I know u undastand.

loved by u i am

IT’S IN YOUR HANDS.
CRADDLED WITH CARE.
SNUG AND WARM.
I AM NO LONGER SCARED.
LAYING AND PEEKING.
THROUGH YOUR FINGERS.
I AM YOURS MY LORD.
HOPE NOT IN DANGER.
MY FAITH SITS COMFORTABLY.
WAITING ON WHAT YOU WILL.
HARMS WAY HAS PAST ME BY.
RELAXED I AM STILL.
LOVED BY YOU I AM.
SMILING FROM EAR TO EAR.
BECAUSE I KNOW I CAN.
SHELTERED IN LOVE.
ALLOWED TO LIVE.
MY HEART I S WHOLE.
AND HAS SO MUCH TO GIVE.

live urs

DO U, THAT’S WHAT IT IS ABOUT.
BUT DON’T FORGET ABOUT THAT ONE THAT’S DOIN U.
LIVE, HAVE IT UR WAY.
JUS REMEMBER THEIRS SOMEONE HELPIN UR NEEDS TO.

WHEN U GET URS, N LIFE IS MORE THAN U IMAGINED.
GIVE BACK THE WAY UV BEEN GIVEN TO.
ACCEPTIN IS ONLY HALF THE FUN. AS AN OTHER WAITS.
SHOWIN IN EVERY WAY THEIR VERY OWN LUV IS TRUE.

LIFE IS URS. GRAB HOLD N FIND UR GROOVE.
LET NO ONE STAND IN UR WAY.
YET IF SOME ONE WALKS STRIDE FOR STRIDE.
LET EM KNOW THROUGH WILLINGNESS EVERYDAY.

WHEN UR ON THE GO. PAUSE FOR THEM HERE N THERE.
IF ITS ALL ABOUT U THEY WILL FADE AWAY.
STILL LUV’N U BUT IN NEED OF A 2 WAY STREET.
LIVIN N WANTINTO GET THEIRS AS WELL N NOT STRAY.

BE HAPPY. DO FOR SELF TO THE FULLEST.
HAVE EVERY THING THAT MAKES U CLICK.
STOPPIN TO SEE THE BREEZE BLOW BY.
YET WHEN AN OTHER GIVES LIKE NO OTHER N U HESITATE, BE CAREFUL FOR U WILL SLIP.

knocked off my feet

Clinging to love the best way I know how.
Wondering how’d I get here from there to now.
Holding ground when needed the most.
Savoring the moment, glasses tipping a toast to.
Riddling a rhythm with no beat.
Somehow I’ve been knocked off my feet.
Forever is in thy eyes and telling my story.
In love with you is a selfish glory.
Tossing words of love back and fourth.
Craving each syllable wanting more.
Catching phrases released from the mouth.
Clear as day accepted as they come out.
Believing in tone formed by character.
Love has a way with its little miracle.
Tears speak in none belief.
Heart over come with such relief.
Reaching and met after so long.
A notion that this can never go wrong.
Touch and feel pleasing thy nerve.
Getting lost in every word.
Minds at ease with satisfaction guaranteed.
Knowing this one has set me free.
Mine until the end of life itself.
You own me as everyday I melt.
One last step before happily ever after begins.
With your hand at marriage is my only grin.
A life in love is my expectations.
Only with you I feel the gravitation.

In sync.

Sleepin in between winks.
Linked together in movement as we sink.
Dreamin a thought to think.
Clung together in an awakenin blink.
Necks a kink.
Turning as if written in ink.
Connected like fur on a mink.
In sync.

in between

want to come up in between the rain.
Sliding smooth as I’d never get touched.
Back and forth coming up fast.
Sneaking through the drips falling around us.
As I silently grab a hold of lil ol you.
Smiling at the happiness we share in love.
A connecting embrace reaching for something worth more.
Moving as one as our bodies are flush.
Pouring down we’d dance as if we were one.
Creeping together and invisible to the moistened rub.
Getting lost looking through the diamond like water beads flowing.
Magnifying the purity of falling in love with you is such a rush.
Cutting with chilled winds unable to come in between.
Forgetting how the storm blanketed without a fuss.
Leaking eyes loving the only wetness witnessed so true.
The heart feels the leakage of turning to slush.
Bobbing with the drops of cool tears let loose from heaven.
Cleansing what resembles the clarity of what we was.

i ain't lettin go!

I aint lettin go. I got my teeth dug into this. Grittin. I am in this til the end. Gripped. I hold on to my life. Unchanged from day 1. I stand for mine. I am see this through. Neva losin my feel. This lives within me. So to let it slip is unheard of. Mine! Getting it our way. Theres something bout it. I cant get nuff of. Soothes the system. Satisfyin my core. Limitless bound. Id die for it. So wheres that leave me but in my situation? Here n ready this is my way of life. Livin in comfort with thee 1. Pleasin the curve of my smile. I refuse to release tension of the point of impact. It’s the way it is. Me n mine. Mine n me. 2 of a kind. As 1 we cling. N I aint letting go!

holdin the moment

I glide a ¼ inch from her everythings surface.
Lowering the hand deliberately with a touch on purpose.
Twiddling thru fine hairs stood upright.
I tease with a tickling touch breaking a lovers fight.
Trembling a spontaneous shake she’s jerking.
Twitching and calling without complaining or hurting.
Pushing the feeling to the limit beyond lust.
Past the desire of trust as it turns into true luv.
Contact pressing, forming in the need of want.
Having an un-controlling groping, I hunt.
Searching a seek as I find a game still and waiting.
Pleasure fulfilled by more than a exploration of mating.
Backing off to hover in a stare as eyes connect.
Digging the ease of the over whelming respect.
I’m at the finger tips of loves teasing level.
As she reaches out, pulling me into her navel.
Hot breaths bounce in between the moment.
Wondering how long I can actually hold it.
Moving slightly as I slowly creep down.
Sliding softly as I begin to cover ground.
Lightly kissing the flesh of a lovers quiver.
Breathing upon the region and feeling her shiver.
I break for a glance into her eyes before I continue.
Looking for the passion of capture to be subdued.
Glancing quickly then back to work I go.
Licking a taste into a set of lips that flow.
Giving me to the one that gets my all to come.
Squeezing thighs as my head is cradled as she runs.
Dripping with a sensation of helplessness to me.
Controlling the situation as I set her free down on my knees.
Once, twice three times she lets emotions rip loose.
Quickly climbing upon her before she calls truce.
Filling her expectations with hormones of a man.
Standing strong and firm she receives as I land.
Trusting half way then all in, full force.
Switching it up I go back down then of course.
I purposely drive her crazy in love with my skill.
Climaxing again showing my open will.
I cum with her in the heat of the moment.
But only because I could no longer hold it…………

grip my grin

Sittin in the eye of the storm.
Feelin the calm.
At peace with self.
Finding my all.
Watchin the world spin.
Outta control.
Around my head.
It neva slows.
Im as still as one can be.
Damn near froze stiff.
Scared of the 2nd comin.
Something I thought of as a myth.
Inside bracin I cry.
Iv gave all I can.
To be blown away.
N its hard to stand.
Its comfy here.
Relaxin to the bone.
Yet the other side jus came.
N im afraid to be alone.
I fought off the hail.
Sheilded self from the rain.
Bit the burr.
N im frightened of the pain.
What to do blinkin eyes drainin.
Run with it or face the wind?
This is my world closing in.
As I grip my grin.

good relations

Ohh, how sweet. How ur luv’n reaches for me.
Streaching its wings out n wrapping me up. Mmm luv.
Ur unique way eases n soothes. Wit u I can not lose.
Holdin on for more. Feelin emotions down in the core.
My whole life iv waited. To b wanted, now mated.
In u lays the woman iv dreamed of often. Lips r sotfened.
Kissin the mouth of an angel. For u n I have the same angle.
The touch of the feel. Ohh, how u feel so real.
Relaxin thy mind over ran wit questions. U give good relations.
Ur warmth is so comfortin. As my luv builds n is exportin.
As the need n desire for u grabs hold. My luv unfolds.
U release the man iv been but couldn’t find. N I sigh.
Thinking of the very thought of us. Madly, deeply, truly in luv.
To tell u ilu every chance I get. Mmm, is a blessin as I sit.
Wonderin what I did to enjoy ur presence. Cuz u luv me without hesitance.
Acceptin my flaws yet not b4 my will. Lady, me u completely fill.
Wit luv not of this world. U’ll foreva n always b my girl.
My 1, my only. Wit u I’ll neva again feel lonely.
For u complete everything in my life. N it tickles me that u r my wife!

four arms of a cross

FOUR ARMS OF A CROSS, SYMBOLISING WHAT THIS WORLD HAS LOST.
FAR FETCH TO THE EYE OF THE PATH I ONCE WALKED. MY VOICE SO DESPERATELY NEEDED HIS CALL.
BROKEN DOWN I HAD NO WHERE TO TURN. YET I WAS STUBBURN AND DID NOT WAN TTO LEARN.
MY FEET MOVED IN A DIRECTION OF SELFISHNESS AND STYLE. BUT NONE OF WHICH WAS EVEN WORTH THE WHILE.
ACCEPTED STILL MY SOUL HAS BEEN CLAIMED BY THE LORD ABOVE. WITH OPEN ARMS FILLING ME WITH HEAVENLY LOVE.
I FEEL THE PRESENCE I NEVER FELT BEFORE. OVERCOME WITH A WILL TO LIVE MY LIFE I HAVE BEEN GIVEN EVERN MORE.
PURPOSE CAME CALLING ONE EVENING OUT THE BLUE. AS MY DEAREST FRIEND MADE CLEAR OF WHAT I WAS TRYING TO DO.
EACH POINT STANDING FIRM IN MY MIND. SPREADING THOUGHTS ON EVERY LINE.
I CHANGED ME FOR I WAS NOT WHOLE. LOOKING FOR THE POWER IN AN EMPTY SOUL.
GIVEN THE WORD THROUGH SOMEONE I TRUST. THE LORD WORKS AND IS A MUST.

flightless

Broken heart, beating at my wings.
Clipping feathers, from a tree I sing.
Flying I try, plummeting I fall.
Crashing down, reduced to small.
Above the clouds, belonging to the sky.
Looking up, clouds push on by.
Attempting to soar, I give a good fight.
All day long, I still sit into the night.
Flightless and restricted, my joy is missing.
Swinging alone, the wind is whistling.
Grounded I wait, for my moment to launch.
Unable to depart, down near the mulch.

everybody knows

Everybody knows. I was made for you.
Everybody knows. You are more than a choice.
Everybody knows. How you are the one.
Everybody has to listen to the noise.

Everybody knows. You complete me.
Everybody knows. Why I do what I do.
Everybody knows. You are whom I was made for.
Everybody wishes they can find a love so true.

Everybody knows. I give you my all.
Everybody knows. You are my everything.
Everybody knows. I will always love you.
Everybody notices the rings.

Everybody knows. You are my breath of fresh air.
Everybody knows. My feelings show.
Everybody knows. I can not do without you.
Everybody and everybody will know.

ILU1!

emotions move the wrist

Love in the fingers. A touch felt by the heart.
Easing in slowly. Way to far apart.
Brushing by swiftly. Breezing a flow.
Teasing the skin. Smiles on a roll.
Back around second landing. Contact is made.
Pausing for the moment. Playing without games.
Sliding down. Hands shaking in fate.
Gliding with caress. The feelings great.
Caring and flush. Emotions move the wrist.
Passion filling the notion. Enduring the wish.
Creeping smoothly like silk. Playing with nerves.
Pleasing with a stroke. Without a word.

drum roll

There is a soft drum roll thumping in my chest every time we reach each other.
When close enough to touch my pulse accelerates and the beat intensifies down to my finger tips.
I can not for the life of me explain what is going on inside of me other than I am madly in love with you.
My nerves still get that need as my gut butterflies up when
You lean wit a kiss.
I am going through something I can honestly say I love feeling with you in my life.
I fein for you as if I must have a little more of you everyday.
I think of you constantly, wanting to be that one in your life just by being myself.
Love, when you speak my ears sends a smile straight to my heart and it happens all day.
Some how you bring out of me what I have never been willing to do for anyone.
You ease everything around me in ways I can not help but to love you as I do.
I find you irresistibly pleasant to enjoy as our life together plays out so deeply in love.
And all I ever want is my chance to help you smile day in day out for what we have found is true.
ILU1!

driftin to be

WHAT ARE DREAMS?
LOST IN SLEEP.
CREEPING IN SILENCE.
SO REAL UNABLE TO LEAP.
HOLDING ON TO THE NGHT.
MIND PLAYING ITS GAMES.
DRIFTING TO BE.
NEEDED N UNTAMED.
IN A BETTER PLACE.
SAFE IN THE SHELTER.
INSIDE THE DOME.
DEEP WHERE ONE FELT HER.
LEAKING IN THE EYES.
CRUST BUILDS WITH MOISTURE.
LIES OF THE UNKNOWN.
TEMPTING THE TORTURE.
ONE HAS TO WAKE.
JOIN THE WORLD.
TAKING ALL BUT HER NAME.
MISPLACED WITHOUT ONES GIRL.
HOLDING ON TO THE THOUGHT.
AWAKENED TO ANOTHER DAY.
SETTING IN FAST.
WITHOUT HER FACE.

i wanna

I DON’T WANT MUCH. JUS A FW SIMPLE THINGS.
LUV N SUCH. A SET OF RINGS.
FREINDSHIP THAT LASTS. DON’T WANNA START OVER.
UNLIKE THE PAST. LATE NIGHT LUV’R.
WANTIN IN RETURN. UNMEATIONED POSSIBILITIES.
WILLIGNESS FOR MY TURN. SETTLIN MY INSECURITIES.
I NEED LIKE THE NEXT. A LIL TOUCH N RUB.
PASSIONATE SEX. CUDDLIN A HUG.
PLEASURE OVER PAIN. A KISS FROM AN ANGEL.
DRYIN UP THE RAIN. CUZ I KNOW HER ANGLE.
FELT THE WAY I FEEL. ACCEPTED AS ONE.
A LUV THAT’S REAL. TIL LIFE IS DONE.
I NEED WHAT’S BEIN GIVEN. SHOWN TRUE EMOTIONS.
INTENSION THAT R LIVIN. FILLED WITH DEVOTION.
WITH ENDS THAT R MET. ACTIONS THAT SPEAK.
WORDS THAT COMFORT MY REST. FALLIN DEEP.
I WANNA BDESIRED. THROUGH A SMILE.
EVEN WHEN TIRED. WORTH SOME ONES WHILE.
LUV’D LIKE NO OTHER. ALL THE LIL THINGS.
NEVER SMOTHERED. AS SHE SPREADS HER WINGS.
SPOILED JUS TO SHOW. WHAT I MEAN.
SO I CAN KNOW. CUZ IM THEIR DREAM.
GOIN OUTTA THEIR WAY. JUS FOR ME.
EXPRESSIN EVERYDAY. ON ME THEY LEAN.
ENJOYIN MY PRESENCE. FELT BENEATH THE FINGERS.

diggin in

Nails gliddin. Damn near digging. Scratchin the surface. Tryin to feel the under layer. Clawing at the skin. Peelin the flesh. Feelin the pleasure. Scrappin in such an enjoyable pain. Clingin to the emotion. Rackin down. Draggin slowly. Puncturein the nerve wit explosion.

day of oct. 24, 2011

Day of October 24, 2011
Amanda Jo Morgan,

Deep within is where you have always lived as it is been too long. My memories reoccurring dreams stuck like a distant world all my own. Feeding on your unknown where about as I look back. You were the missing link to my happiness, as you are now. Visions of your face every now and then seemed to make me smile. I felt you creeping along with me my whole life and did not even know it. Your imprint was sketched inside me long ago as if fate was waiting its turn. Marked for the taking, my guess is I needed to learn a few things before we were allowed to make a home. I got lost with out you one, misplaced and stolen from time. At my minds end, tempting life to do me in for it was endless. Love did not exist as far as my heart could feel as I only had a thought. There was no one for me for I was the unlovable one. I could not love anyone the way they were willing to give self to me. It is like subconsciously I knew, yet I could not grasp my own. Only if I would have thought about it or you more often, I should have known. Or maybe I should have said a few words once upon a time ago, expressing me to you. But I am human, living to learn for a new day the change the shape of my smile. My face shines because you are in my life, and that is no lie. No other will ever do, for you own more than my heart. I feel something has had its plan from day one when we first met. Just took us to live and let live to have all we ever wanted in each other. I look back and wish we could have lived as one in our home built in love. But then again, neither of us we’re ready for what was in store. That is the way times hand has played our seconds through the years. Then again I believe if given that chance and who we really are. We would have made it to the present in which we stand in love today. Together with a bond and friendship no one can ever break. In love like no one on earth has ever been or felt since its creation. Deep in love is where I am with you and always will be. My one. My only. MANDY! There is no other that could ever come half as close as you do to me. You complete parts of me I often wonder of and never knew was even there to begin with. I love you with all my heart. I am yours to do as please with. All I ask is for a chance to show you how much I am willing to love. All else will fall into place. Ilu1!

Yours forever,
Allen Ray Morgan (Butchie)

clinky

Left break, handin off the hazy.
Laid back, putting down the crazy.
Comin round, once again here it a comes.
Release da drift, my true luv.
Puff puff give, send er round my way.
Eyes chinky, smoking my pay away.
Don’t choke, mu fucka jus give er here.
Lemme hit my bitch, my dear.
As our lips meet, ooh I luv er taste.
Straight to the head, neva a waste.
Oooooh weeee, damn I can feel er flow.
Toke with me, experience how she blows.
Pass it off, don’t let er choke.
Inhale her scent, feel a flaot.
She’s urs, Sit back n ease.
Let er take ova, try not to weeze.
She’ll have u bent, sideways n done.
Put er to the test, she’s the one.

change is subject. changing subjects

LOSIN FRIENDS.
LOVERS RUN.
FADIN HEARTS.
TIL THEIR DONE.
FIGHTIN FEELINS.
EMOTIONAL WRECK.
TIMES R CHANGIN.
WHAT THE HECK.
SAVIN FACE.
HOLDIN ON.
DEEPER BREATHS.
WHATS GOIN ON.
TIMES TRIAL.
ENDIN RELATIONS.
FINDIN SELF.
LOVES IMMITATION.
BACK TO 1.
SELF CONSUMED.
WHY THIS.
FEELIN DOOMED.
LIFE WAS GOOD.
TRUE INTENTIONS.
GIVIN SELF.
MEETIN EXPECTATIONS.
1 NEVA KNOWS.
FUTURES BRUTAL.
CHANGIN WITHIN.
MINDS LIKE A NOODLE.
.JUST ONCE.
TO HAVE IT BACK.
FEELIN ASTRY.
LOVE IS LACKED.

can't sleep

Cant sleep. Minds over workin again.
Loss of comfort. Dream took off n ran.
Blank face n questions. Ruinin my night.
Heads bangin. Darkness killin my sight.
Tossin a turn. Why cant I leave me alone?
Echoes scream. Hollow thoughts fillin a moan.
What the fuck! I need to relax.
Pillows fightin. Tired of my facts.
Restless covers. Wrestling for space.
Im up, damn. Eyes leakin down face.
Why do I do this. To me im so harsh.
Always fuckin with me. Pickin me apart.
Rockin on the bed side. I sit confused.
Cold n restless. Thoughts on me I abuse.
Silence fills the room. No ones awake.
Yet I cant sleep. Drownin in my lake.
Never enough repeats in my head. N its sad.
So hard on self. I feel so bad.
Whats wrong with me. Hands coverin emotion.
So quietly I ache. With out a motion.
Shivers give in. snuggles callin.
Yet I cant sleep. To busy fallin.
Images n no words. Letters n no sound.
Thoughts without reason. Merry go round.
Lost in the night. Hopin to crash.
Minds wide open. Hearts feelin a lash.
Somethins wrong. Choking myself I have no control.
Blackened eyes. As the brain unfolds.
Deep breaths form as fog. Chill in the bone.
Half the man I am. Outside my zone.
Wheres the answers? Where to turn?
Caught in a self made battle. N yet in yearn.
Comprehension fades with the switch. Flip.
Every night I over think it. Gotta getta grip.
Cant sleep. Starin at walls.
Here I am. Alone in my draws….

can u feel

CAN U FEEL IT? THE LOVE BETWEEN A KISS THAT COLLIDES.
WITHIN THE MOMENT. LINGERIN WHERE THE EMOTIONS RESIDE.
SWIRLIN AROUND THE HONESTY GIVEN. INTERWINED.
FLOWIN AND CLINGIN. PULLIN US CLOSER THAN WE ARE INSIDE.

CAN U FEEL ITS PRESENCE? VIBIN A RIPPLE STRAIGHT THRU OUR HEARTS.
BEATIN AS ONE. SOFTENIN THE SHELL THAT TIME MADE SO HARD.
TOUCHIN A PLACE SO DEEP WE CRAVE. PASSION FILLS ITS PART.
FILLIN IN THE PIECES CREATIN THE MOOD WHOLE. SPARKIN ITS MARK.

FLOATIN WITH INTENT. INVISIBLE TO THE NAKED EYE.
CAN U FEEL THE WAY IT REACHES? THE WAY IT BLOWS THE MIND.
CUSHIONIN THE IMPACT AS OUR BODIES MEET. AS WE SIGH.
READY FOR OUR TIME. FOR OUR CHANCE TO ENJOY LOVS RIDE.

breeze a drift

Loner calling to the wind to breeze a drift to lift him away.
Pleading for the moment of fresh air consuming lungs collapsing.
The touch if the cool to soothe his heart made of brutal stone.
Ready for the whisk of the refreshing chill to be warmed.
Flowing so free he wishes to be taken to that place he’s dreamed.
Riding away on a gust of happiness releasing him of the torment.
Soaring high as the mind will allow him to escape past the present.
He’s felt the heat of the battle and wants it to be never again and no more.
Swept he needs the replacement of everything he has ever known.
Breaking free with ease he begs for a safer landing filled with love.

BREAKIN THE SILENCE

Swallowed, slidin down. Feelin gravity pull at the lump. Nerves bouncing. Heart sinkin. Twitchin mind foldin. Ears waitin for the sound. Mouth open. Words silent. Moments passin. Times creepin. Losin thy will. Eatin letters untold. Hands sweatin. Persperatin fear. Chancing thy find. Feelin the urge slip. Frozen motion. Emotions race. Beggin for sake. Racin vibes. Pulsate within. Bringin forth thy pleasure. Slippin out. Syllables connected. Movin tongue. Lips release the glory. Said at last. Holdin face. Patiently waitin.

BLEEPING FUDGE

Lost in this world nobody reads.
No one cares and no one needs.
Words sling emotions that fall mute.
Yet without a reader I can not lose.
Speaking inside leaking about.
If one listens I think I’d shout.
Misplaced letters form in my head.
Yet without some ones interest they might as well be dead.
The hearts passion has a fire so hot.
And no one feels so o think not.
Simmering compassion settles the nerve.
But to the eye is nothing but a blur.
Released by the mind I swing thy fingers.
Too bad I’m the only one who lingers.
Just once I’d like to be heard.
I don’t think I’ll ever learn.
No one gives a bleeping fudge.
Of words on paper coming flush.
It’s me out of me spread so thin.
Just a piece of me out on a limb.
So where’s the love in of interest in me.
Guess it’s my own written down dream.

AILOWY!

Love, you’ve been my one my whole life.
And it’s time we live like there’s no tomorrow and make it right.
From when we were young you’ve played in my head.
Stuck around and now I want you to wed.
I remember how scared I was back in the day.
Seeing your face after so long just made me pray.
Some one like you is so hard to find.
And I get the opportunity to call you all mine.
How it’s possible, I haven’t a clue.
But to keep you I know just what to do.
It’s funny how one person can complete so much.
By the simplest thing in a single touch.
There are no words I can gather to put into true form.
Just know without you in my life I was torn.
I didn’t know who to be when I was trying to be me.
And some how you came strolling back into my life and set me free.
I’ve missed you in ways I never knew I had.
I never thought this day would come and I’m so glad.
You and I together is a dream far better than any I’ve ever dreamt.
I have feelings so real for you, so far down with love that is met.
So long ago I couldn’t speak for you were the one.
Something I never knew until Nov. 28th and you became my fun.
Years are gone that we can never get back.
And those memories will be missed yet we now have a chance to make a past.
Only if I could have known you’d mean so much.
I would have done anything to be held n your easing clutch.
I’m deeply in love with who you are.
My angel fallen into my heart from the hovering stars.
This is me realizing what it is I have in you.
And without a doubt I am always in love, only with you!
Be Mrs. Morgan and merry me.
And I promise I will always enjoy the movement beneath you feet.

a morning to love

Life in the morning, given another chance.
Waking to the day, eyes open to another glance.
Digging out the sleepers, rising up with love by my side.
I am blessed every morning no doubt, and that is no lie.
Tucked in tight, not wanting to budge.
I lean with a kiss, for my very own one I call love.
Winking a sigh. cracking a smile as she turns to me.
Dear god thank you so much, for the one you have given me.
I’m in love, as cuddles form under the covers trying to stay warm.
Just a little moment, one I enjoy as our love all day will be worn.
Skin touching, feeling the desire filling my core.
Wanting to stay in bed, needing the memory to last a forever more.
Wrapped and draped, the comfort of her gives me pleasure.
She is not a trophy, yet she is my treasure.
A morning to live, gives the day meaning to kiss.
Living within our time, being self and we are already missed.
Fully awake holding on, the heart and mind knows what it wants.
And I get to do it again, over and over every morning so deeply in love.

a bug in a web

Tangled n stuck. That's my luck. Shoulda wathed my step. Layin in this sticky net. Waitin for patience to run out. Drained to a drought. Tired of fightin. Where's it hidin. Come n get me. Make me scream. Have me ur way. Skin a stain. I am ready. Slow n steady. End this fate. Or let me ecsape. Fill n suck. Spill my guts. 8 legged freak. Please. Release me. I'm caught in ur web. But I'm not dead. immoble n twitchin. I'm easy pickins. Wonderin I trespassed. Times up at last. Here u come. Get u some. Live from me. Life is merly a dream.

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in this moment

To touch u is a joy felt deep in the heart. To feel u brings tears to my eyes and at times idk where to start. Under my fingers u lay so beautifully. Waitin on the contact of the force between the emotion so comfortably. One sigh as I get close enough to enjoy the mood. Glidin above the surface of ur skins groove. Landin softly, carressin goosebumps risin for the occation. Hand movin slowly as the finger tips play with the situation. Breezin like the wind brushin by the moment. I don't know how much longer I can hold it. Gently grippin ur side in a way I'm tryin to hold out. But somethin inside me wants to know what ur about. Rubbin carefully my lips press along ur neck. Kissin with patience as u feel my breath. Walkin up ur check the pause for the pleasure of u. Slidin sideways n meetin mouths so deeply in luv. Easin up n hoverin to take notice of my one before me. N its in this moment that brings out the best for u set me free.

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maybe its

Maybe its ur smile. Maybe ur touch. It can possiibly be who u r. But I think its ur luv. Maybe its ur ways. Maybe ur the woman in u. Possibly the way u kiss. Yet it can possibly be a simple thing as u being u. Maybe by chance its us. Maybe fate. Its possible we were made to be. But its most definately the way u say. Ilu.

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rounding the curve

Its funny when uv come full cicle. When ur face turns from purple. When all anwers r felt without a doubt. Met half way n direction has truned from goin south. When everything seems in the moment of completion. Living the life one desires the most through devotion. Getting the best out of what is to come. Opened up and just being one. Its an obsticle course made to be. Some how oddly enough set in place to set you free. When all rounds in a curve and is headed ur way. The greatest joy in life will meat u with a smile that can make ur day. Pleasantly pleasing the pleasure of trust. All in the sake of two coming us.

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froze like stone

Passin time sittin still. Hopin time gives a fill. Back n forth the mind linger. In a constant wonder. Froze like stone in place. Jus takin up some1elses unwanted space. Drift a dream relaxin. Settin pace relapsin. Releasin all thoughts to clear the mind. Tryin to unwind. Emptyin all that's worng. For its been to damn long. I gotta get mine. No longer can I hide.

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on the plain

On the playin feild of luv awaits pain. Watchin the moments enjoyed n figurin out how to take its gain. Its a game played out with the innoscence at stake. For the heart is only the emotions bait. Once felt n luv'd in a way tomorrow neva has to come. The betrayed feelins r force to questions of one. Battlin on the plain of luvs begginin the truth is patient. For time is its enemy n hate is its replacment. Torchered when captured by the hands that promise to neva hurt. Defeat settles in as the ache takes control n u know ur worth. Spoken in the rage of war of a thousand words misused. Verbal slang slings straight through what was so true. Killin intention that made relations so great. One gave n slipped n fell into a lil thing called fate. Takin all it wants for selfishness exists. Leavin the situation empty on the battlefeild with clinched fists. Of what was suppose to the best eva n feelin beatin without reason. One will sit alone lost in memories dreamin.

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imaginations peir

Sittin on the end of the imaginations peir. Feet swingin n driftin the mind has no fear. Comfy I sit relaxed daydreamin once again. Toes feelin the breeze pulled from a distant land. Lost in my own zone I'm content in thought. Thinkin bout life n how to this point I faught. Restin dockside I smile for I have enjoy the moment. Jus tryin to hold on to it. In my own space fallin into me. N the view is to die for, I'm free. No one is here takin the beauty of seconds tickin by. Slowly passin time. Leanin back acceptin the moods grin. For I know where iv been. Creepin along inside my shoes that r currently removed. I found my groove.

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Where's my groove?

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good shit

This is good shit. U n I. Livin unconditionally. I wanna try.  Harder than iv eva. For ur way beta. Lost u found me driftin. Listenin to the wind. For u I'll bend. Backwards. Forwards. Side by side. Without lies. Ur my all. Callin my out. Pullin on my smile. Worth my while. Drop it luv. Freak a push n a shove. Give it the best way u know how. Make me scream wow.

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i felt

I felt ur pain. N I felt it when u delt it my way. I felt ya smile. N I felt it when it faded away. I felt. Ya here n I felt ya slip n come back. I felt u in n out. I felt ur pleasure n I felt the way u wanted to leave. I felt it luv. I felt u. I felt all the in betweens. N I feel me tryin to figure it out. I felt emotions stronger than iv eva felt. I felt em break as I release u. I felt me feel ur prasense n io felt me give up n fade. I felt it all. N I'm still feelin the way u luv me.

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When ur mind isn't ur own. When the best gets u a runnin. When there's nowhere to turn. What's the meanin lingerin? When's enough is enough. When times spent it tick. When a smile fraks the fuck out. What's the reasonin commited? When's playin it safe worth the risk. When the rainm cleanses. When tomorrow is worth it. What's the moment mean? When luv whispers. When a touch comforts. When all has felt to be met. What's the point in a stare? When a kiss is felt. When today is now. When the breath melts. What's the reaction delt?

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tappin out

Clinky. Tap tap. wrist is spinnin. One space gaps. Poke. Pickin letters. Inked out. Pen with a feather. Thinkin. Spread thin. Easy pickins. I feel my grin. Cheesin. Teasin the mood. Findin my groove. Words swimmin. Minds drownin. Mouths tastin. N there's no need in wastin emotion. Pluckin the mind of the hearts desire. Turnin a point. Breakin free. Opened up. Listenin 2 me. Fillin a void. Releasin self. Like no one can. Outside slippin. Glidin before the eyes. Get it. Dancin across the page. Squigglies bouncin. Freakin the moment. Gettin loose. Losin control. A's findin z's to hold. Spit jus right. Drips burst. Airborne. Quenchin a dryin thurst. Drainin the inner reflections. Reactin. Neva pausin. Springin the untamed. Givin my all. Bringin the alphebet to life. Delicately entertainin the sound of drizzlin rain. Drippin from the lip. Fallin n landin. Splashin in form. Born. Tellin a story. Without a worry of disapointment. Self enjoyment. Comforted by the makins of realism. Flung like a monkey with poo. Freed. Doin what I do best. Straight from the chest. Passin n collectin thoughts. Combinin n gatherin info. Lettin the fuck go. My outlet. Wantin to live. With a lil time spent. N I have so much to give!

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fingers

I think my finger are so deeply in luv with you my luv.
Surfing the surface of your silkish desired skin.
Feeling their way along your soothing untamed sighs.
I try to pull them away but they cling to my best friend.

Holding on as if they don't want to leave your side.
My fingers need the contact carefully brushing and softening.
Easing back and forth pleasing and riding your curves.
Stuck to you as you are who you are enjoying what's happening.

Having their way and own intension to satisfy themselves.
It's the touch encountered that is felt between you and them.
The invaded space where air itself can not seem to ever go.
Fingers reaching and stretching out from my limbs.

Trying to get closer to the feel of your everlasting enjoyment.
Being teased in comfort like no other could ever accomplish.
Wanting the carress of every stroke expressed in luv.
To the fingers, you my one are far more than a luv'r or a crush.

I think my finger are in luv with u.
Smoothin the surace of you skin.
Feeling their way along