soundless patience

i think back when i may of forgotten who i was.
running from the centering sweet spot where there was no more love.
chasing down a life better than the one i had before.
i believe i have forgotten where i stood as me as i walked out the door.
gone for years past gone too damn long.
trying to find a home somewhere else in time as it appears i was wrong.
i crept out on myself deep in the nights silence.
set on auto pilot, lost and testing every once of my soundless patience.
i put this life i hold out in the wind.
every corner i turned it seemed i could never give in let alone win.
i forgot me in the mix of finding my way.
losing me slowly enough as the softest of touch left me feeling like a stray.
walking away i approached another direction.
step by step i wondered into the same ol shit with the same ol misguided intentions.
falling forward yet leaning towards my past.
everyday seems to be the same and i wondered how long can it possibly last.
losing self is the hardest thing i have ever done.
as lesson on my motionless path of confusion has me in a daze with my one.