"MY LITTLE PIECE OF .COM"
Monday, February 28, 2011
self is not responding anymore....
hello self, how u been? it's been a while since we've last talked. how r things. life treatin u good? i'm jus akin cuz you've been ignorin me. so it seems. does life have u so busy u can't remember my name. it's me. in the flesh. the one u can count on no matter what. it's been so long man. tell me what's new. did u find urs? what ? can't talk? u ain't gettin to big for ur britches r u? come on man. let me hear where uv been. we were so close at one point. what happened? cuz i can't remember y we stopped talkin. for the life of me i jus don't know. so how's life bro? let me in. oh i see. silent treatment. guess ur to good. made it past the self indulgence. well u need to check urself. but wait! that means u need me for that. nah. i'm good. roam inside ur self by urself. i don't need this. im outta here. done. enjoy the outside world where true friends r hard to find. have a nice life.
rubbin the walls
puddles, drippin, wet n moist, formin a lake upon the bed.
splash, as the tongue dives in, leg crimplin, straight to the head.
water like substance, liquifyin the mouth, delicious, stayin strong.
puttin in the work, slurpin it up, cream filled pie, can't go wrong.
takin my time, rubbin the walls, excitment lingers down the chin.
drops of flavor, escapin, gravity pullin, pleasin, wit an evilish grin.
pourin out, pleasure is takin place, down the throat, swallowin my take.
givin my all, jaws of steal, strokin i slide, munchin on her cake.
splash, as the tongue dives in, leg crimplin, straight to the head.
water like substance, liquifyin the mouth, delicious, stayin strong.
puttin in the work, slurpin it up, cream filled pie, can't go wrong.
takin my time, rubbin the walls, excitment lingers down the chin.
drops of flavor, escapin, gravity pullin, pleasin, wit an evilish grin.
pourin out, pleasure is takin place, down the throat, swallowin my take.
givin my all, jaws of steal, strokin i slide, munchin on her cake.
i never knew
your the love i have always wanted, as i sat and stared into nothing.
wondering about the character in which i loved, i never knew it would have ever been you.
trying to find out what it is i want in a woman,
found it in you and that means something.
found it in you and that means something.
wondering about the character in which i loved, i never knew it would have ever been you.
as i searched through the years inside each one,
it all lead me back to the only one for me, within
you.
it all lead me back to the only one for me, within
you.
i picked apart pieces at a time with no regard,
i was waiting on that one to come and give me my start.
i was waiting on that one to come and give me my start.
seen many faces call me their very own one, yet believed not a one for i knew in my heart.
she'd come and i would know without a doubt, she would fulfill my days and empty my nights.
i just never knew it was you i craved this way,
i never knew it was you i waited on til now on this days light.
i never knew it was you i waited on til now on this days light.
it was you all along i compared so many to, torn apart because they just was not you.
it is funny how time plays its unchangeable game,
forcing the learning for one to love in a way so true.
forcing the learning for one to love in a way so true.
tickling love
I tickled love this morning & it laughed your name in happiness!
Watched how it smiled as i feel so head over heels in heavenly bliss.
I could not help myself from falling so far into you as you laid there in comfort.
As if i were hypnotized by the way your eyes captivated my core.
It is truly amazing how you turned out to be so perfect in every way.
For the man in me which i never thought was possible to be tamed.
You have taken control and make me feel so loved in ways i can not explain.
So as I tickle love and watch me dream come true listening to the morning rain.
I hold you within my heart tucked so tight with every breath I take.
For it is because of you this man in me has found its way and has been delivered fate.
Watched how it smiled as i feel so head over heels in heavenly bliss.
I could not help myself from falling so far into you as you laid there in comfort.
As if i were hypnotized by the way your eyes captivated my core.
It is truly amazing how you turned out to be so perfect in every way.
For the man in me which i never thought was possible to be tamed.
You have taken control and make me feel so loved in ways i can not explain.
So as I tickle love and watch me dream come true listening to the morning rain.
I hold you within my heart tucked so tight with every breath I take.
For it is because of you this man in me has found its way and has been delivered fate.
sent my way
luv has made 4 u n sent u my way,
jus so i can feel it's warm embrace.
i've waited for this day to be face to face,
escapin to a place where love itself awaits.
fillin the hearts lonely deserted wasted space,
...i feel fazed n dazed knowin ur what i've craved.
i preyed for direction n u were sent my way,
hopin forever is the way this will stay.
whom
in whom do you turn when grounds are shaky?
when all has gone to hell and back above all.
with those disrupted feelings of frustration.
whom is it that touches your internal?
as you sit daydreaming and side tracked.
out of your very own misplaced norm.
whom puts the pieces back together?
after a little time has been put on and worn.
when night creeps in behind the day.
and all has failed in so many ways.
whom holds you as you feel ever so safe?
making everything more than a.o.k.
whispering softly in a friendly jester.
comforting all that has gone wrong.
bringing you back to life like no other.
whom in which writes the notes to your song?
take a peek in to the eyes in which care.
look long and hard as if nothing can go astray.
is it who you think or thought they are?
clinging to your long fought out day.
when all has gone to hell and back above all.
with those disrupted feelings of frustration.
whom is it that touches your internal?
as you sit daydreaming and side tracked.
out of your very own misplaced norm.
whom puts the pieces back together?
after a little time has been put on and worn.
when night creeps in behind the day.
and all has failed in so many ways.
whom holds you as you feel ever so safe?
making everything more than a.o.k.
whispering softly in a friendly jester.
comforting all that has gone wrong.
bringing you back to life like no other.
whom in which writes the notes to your song?
take a peek in to the eyes in which care.
look long and hard as if nothing can go astray.
is it who you think or thought they are?
clinging to your long fought out day.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
side
inside outside upside down,
you flipped the script and turned me around.
my side your side our side wow,
you speak to me without ever making a sound.
this side that side what side now,
giving more than a face painted clown.
his side her side side by side how,
showing some love that would make cupid proud.
you flipped the script and turned me around.
my side your side our side wow,
you speak to me without ever making a sound.
this side that side what side now,
giving more than a face painted clown.
his side her side side by side how,
showing some love that would make cupid proud.
fallin
fallin away like letters losing their meaning.
but for some strange odd reason it appears i'm to strong to lay down and lose, instead of win.
i'm winning yet it doesn't seem i'm holding my end of this thing.
every turn it's all been the same.one foot forward and three feet back, as i spin inside my cage.
thoughts haunting the day cracking through the eyelids.
trying, i'm falling away from why it is i can't get my feet planted level with gripped fists.crumbling inward as self is frustrated with me always pushing.
to get back to the basics is all i ever seem to make as i shut down in confusion.it's how life has always been.
never to get ahead, no matter how much i give.
not in an individual in which i spend time.
yet in other that don't seem to give up on hard times of falling away from the comforting mind.facts of life keep me open to one day it'll all come to an end.
yet my past is one in which the pattern must be broke for me to do more than simply fend.it's coming and i feel it in my bones.
still i can't help feeling i'm suppose to damn near made of stone.
chipping away as my will is falling outta sync when i wanna ball up n give in.but for some strange odd reason it appears i'm to strong to lay down and lose, instead of win.
i don't know?
fallin slowly into my final resting place, i just don't know?
Saturday, February 26, 2011
standing in frame
pushin, limits have no boundaries.
givin, all n beyond for my love to unfold.
showin, how it is i know how to love.holdin, standing in frame yet never to bold.
learnin, ways of the hearts simplicity.warmin, feelings filling the empty pit.
livin, making memories made so pure.wishin, all comes full circle in the seat i sit.
Friday, February 25, 2011
i feen for the moment
pants rising upward in a state of pleasure speaking without words to be spoken just wanting to get it on.
i am weak in the sense of the over whelming feeling passion that fills me as i can not seem to fight the urge to please the need live porn.
thrusting at the hits in a rocking like motion to feed the starving monster of its kill that is more than willing to play a game of who is next.
i feen for the moment of impact that two of a kind become one in an act of all out flesh on flesh feverishly heated as if there is no cure but an orgasm fused by sex.
i feen for the moment of impact that two of a kind become one in an act of all out flesh on flesh feverishly heated as if there is no cure but an orgasm fused by sex.
longing to give all i am to that of another sexuality for i am as good as my qualities i have worked on that can speak for themselves.
given a chance at the title i can most definitely become more than the prior experiences one has had as i will excel.
given a chance at the title i can most definitely become more than the prior experiences one has had as i will excel.
something else
love wraps.
finger tight.
love holds.
after every fight.
love gives.
more than anything.
love smiles.
at everything.
love knows.
what it has.
love brings.
forth the bad.
love over rides.
killing the pain.
love shows face.
enjoying the rain.
love feels.
like nothing else.
love is a gift.
made for more than self.
love cares.
as if it wants.
loves desires.
to be touched.
love when expressed.
can complete two.
love has become something else.
when i found you.
finger tight.
love holds.
after every fight.
love gives.
more than anything.
love smiles.
at everything.
love knows.
what it has.
love brings.
forth the bad.
love over rides.
killing the pain.
love shows face.
enjoying the rain.
love feels.
like nothing else.
love is a gift.
made for more than self.
love cares.
as if it wants.
loves desires.
to be touched.
love when expressed.
can complete two.
love has become something else.
when i found you.
interior
fiddlin inside the interior of the face in which everyone around me sees.
playin in my time with expressions hidden in between all the dreams.
i sit alone with company in which i choose to have before i switch scenes.
lost within thought cuz anything can happen behind realities unheard screams.
on the other side of the eye where no one can venture other than self as i.closin eyes i slip away into neva neva where you jus may be in my mind.
i am the one callin the shots like a god outta control as i enjoy my find.
yet i am unable to hide the exterior jesters squeezed through a smilin grind.
Monday, February 21, 2011
driftin wind
crawlin dust simmerin. fallin n settlin. closin eyes openin. visualizin n surfacin. becomin mind bogglin. driftin particles settin. givin n realizin. cloudin thoughts disappearin. smokin dust givin in. relaxin n retrievin. findin sight surprisin. losin nor fadin. blindin acts behavin. escapin the cravin. sweepin dust liftin. exrpessin lungs deflatin. showin the fallen. growin old foldin. weepin for a weapon. clearin minds clingin. shiftin mental aggression. pickin n choosin. livin n realizin. tryin by timin. cryin cuz of lyin. emptyin numb feelins. greivin helpin relievin. endin the rainin. showerin away the stainin. sayin ones done playin. attemptin whats affectin. justifyin one stayin. relatin n acceptin. attendin n perfectin. diddlin n rhymin. dyin wind blowin. bringin the slow waitin.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
learn of yourself
as long as your head is on straight and your heart does not teeter,
no one can ever break you as you never want to never mistreat her.
if your mind can relate and your heart can love without hate,
plans will follow the way you give life a shove into your very own escape.
loose yourself in the way she loves you with so much to give,
watch how things play out as life becomes something one wants to live.
become one and taste the expressions expressed in actions in her ways,
and nothing can ever come between the two of you as time fades.
listen and learn of yourself from another caring enough to teach,
as you tell all and find a friend within a lover you can reach.
no one can ever break you as you never want to never mistreat her.
if your mind can relate and your heart can love without hate,
plans will follow the way you give life a shove into your very own escape.
loose yourself in the way she loves you with so much to give,
watch how things play out as life becomes something one wants to live.
become one and taste the expressions expressed in actions in her ways,
and nothing can ever come between the two of you as time fades.
listen and learn of yourself from another caring enough to teach,
as you tell all and find a friend within a lover you can reach.
lack of oxygen
i can't breath when i'm next to you. finding the air to express myself is a task. weezing i try. gasping as i kiss your lips. felling the love grab hold of my throat i fall deeper in each moment we're stuck together. idk how this is possible. i've never felt strangled with a soft touch of a hand. oxygen is very much needed, yet i'd give my last to your if your smile could live on forever. ilu MANDY! always in love, only with you.
Friday, February 18, 2011
overflowing
i can't get it out.
i feel it.
i see it.
but it wont release itself from the silent part of the mind.
i can't say a thing.
tongues tasting the flavor.
yet unspoken.
i am searching as deep as i can hold my breath.
visualized.
expressed in motion.
actions speaking out.
but i am at a loss when alone.
grabbing at hints.
dragged out of the head.
to tell my end of this tale.
i feel i can't get it out the right way.
i have it.
spread upon my lips.
giving purpose.
what is it i am trying to say?
mixed signals unable to reach the box.
sound is absent as the form it was released is misinterpreted.
re-verbalized into mumbling moans.
confused by my very own intentions.
words playing hide and seek.
poking at reality.
bouncing off the walls cluttered with still frames.
photo copied within the memory.
yet i still can not push it out.
overflowing.
i can not spit it into the wind.
sticking to my inner deliverance.
trapped deep enough beneath the communication.
i reach a helping hand.
yet it does not seem interested in being relieved.
freed....................................
i feel it.
i see it.
but it wont release itself from the silent part of the mind.
i can't say a thing.
tongues tasting the flavor.
yet unspoken.
i am searching as deep as i can hold my breath.
visualized.
expressed in motion.
actions speaking out.
but i am at a loss when alone.
grabbing at hints.
dragged out of the head.
to tell my end of this tale.
i feel i can't get it out the right way.
i have it.
spread upon my lips.
giving purpose.
what is it i am trying to say?
mixed signals unable to reach the box.
sound is absent as the form it was released is misinterpreted.
re-verbalized into mumbling moans.
confused by my very own intentions.
words playing hide and seek.
poking at reality.
bouncing off the walls cluttered with still frames.
photo copied within the memory.
yet i still can not push it out.
overflowing.
i can not spit it into the wind.
sticking to my inner deliverance.
trapped deep enough beneath the communication.
i reach a helping hand.
yet it does not seem interested in being relieved.
freed....................................
feeling it
out of the minds over emotional sight
words abandoning me and faster they run.
clouding the mind and plugging the heart.
corners curving for a greater turn.
hearts gripping a hold of the yearning.
feeling it as it stays at last.
knowing i understand and accept my find.
back from somewhere lost in the past.
easing the blanker side of the wondering mind.
hearts so far past being head over heels in love.
time giving one shot at a true chance.
this should of been what never happened in was.
now involved instead of a imagined glance.
doing a little more than just fitting in.
clinging to what is and always has been considered mine.
who pushed this into me and where has this been.
falling forward we are so far behind.
past now mature, ready and arriving.
moments made to cherish the hold.
meant for the soul purpose of simply surviving.
growing together as age is showing how time makes us old.
void filled with the little fulfillment of having the one.
self has been carefully prepared to be repaired.
taking away the chill in the bone while love's having fun.
words abandoning me and faster they run.
clouding the mind and plugging the heart.
corners curving for a greater turn.
hearts gripping a hold of the yearning.
feeling it as it stays at last.
knowing i understand and accept my find.
back from somewhere lost in the past.
easing the blanker side of the wondering mind.
hearts so far past being head over heels in love.
time giving one shot at a true chance.
this should of been what never happened in was.
now involved instead of a imagined glance.
doing a little more than just fitting in.
clinging to what is and always has been considered mine.
who pushed this into me and where has this been.
falling forward we are so far behind.
past now mature, ready and arriving.
moments made to cherish the hold.
meant for the soul purpose of simply surviving.
growing together as age is showing how time makes us old.
void filled with the little fulfillment of having the one.
self has been carefully prepared to be repaired.
taking away the chill in the bone while love's having fun.
perfect
putting it all on the line.
my heart is finally level with my mind.
now seeing clearly eye to eye.
and it's about fucking time.
my heart is finally level with my mind.
now seeing clearly eye to eye.
and it's about fucking time.
times truly come full circle.
setting up a perfect learning hurdle.
as my face is no longer purple.
my hearts moving faster than a turtle.
giving me because i know it's right.
this time around i need not to hide.
no questions of wondering why's.
just to simply step up and try.
this time around i need not to hide.
no questions of wondering why's.
just to simply step up and try.
i found something within me.
feening for the better part of me.
dragged so far outside of me.
losing myself within thee.
it's in the stare you ware.
upon the glare you dare.
the way you show you care.
and how we make a perfect pair.
upon the glare you dare.
the way you show you care.
and how we make a perfect pair.
stable in frame
been a few days gone by since i've last emptied my endless mind. draining it out into thin air in form of a man willing to do his time. thoughts building within the walls as i scrape away the oozing process. bleeding inward on thoughts brought upon by relentless open access. brain teasers scream til freed in a moment of truth or live with it. as their unable to be held in they leak from the heads centering bullshit. days past emptying thy will to keep things down and stable in frame. roaming weaknesses scatter as the shattering light places blame. creeping back inside the pockets of the brains only way to stay maintained. realism sometimes hides long enough for words to be exchanged. thinking of ways to suppress over thought out blank expressions. just to see how things play out and those who surround meet expectations.
lilly padded out
floating down stream.
lilly padded out.
smooth sailing.
stretched about.
living the life.
relaxing for a bit.
feet splashing.
as i take a look as i sit.
bobbing softly.
drifting away.
taking in the scenery.
feeling the day.
skin needing the warmth.
sun feeding my smile.
breeze on my back.
easing on by.....
lilly padded out.
smooth sailing.
stretched about.
living the life.
relaxing for a bit.
feet splashing.
as i take a look as i sit.
bobbing softly.
drifting away.
taking in the scenery.
feeling the day.
skin needing the warmth.
sun feeding my smile.
breeze on my back.
easing on by.....
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
as i lay and think
when after slipping away for so long past?
will two ever make it and enjoy it last.
how does one say it without a sigh?
and get it out soft enough just right.
where is the words stuttered upon?
tripping the tongues ever lost song.
why has it taken hearts so long?
seems it was misplaced lost and gone.
who is it i have longed to become?
winding up to someone their number one.
what is i had to endure as i learned?
before i had my true chance and my turn.
have i become me in a place in time?
without the option to pretend to hide.
does it begin where i stand right here?
without something i no longer fear.
can i be me with the one i call love?
i believe so as i lay and think turning in a snuggling roll.
will two ever make it and enjoy it last.
how does one say it without a sigh?
and get it out soft enough just right.
where is the words stuttered upon?
tripping the tongues ever lost song.
why has it taken hearts so long?
seems it was misplaced lost and gone.
who is it i have longed to become?
winding up to someone their number one.
what is i had to endure as i learned?
before i had my true chance and my turn.
have i become me in a place in time?
without the option to pretend to hide.
does it begin where i stand right here?
without something i no longer fear.
can i be me with the one i call love?
i believe so as i lay and think turning in a snuggling roll.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
a story of love
childhood. feeling scared yet overwhelmed in your presents.
thoughts lingered. wanting your acceptance.
disappearing into the wind. you were gone and i was left to fill in the blanks.
wondering you became a memory. you were the top of the ranks.
yrs. faded without ever knowing where you were.
i hid you deep inside. missing you as you slowly became a blur.
re-found. after time seemed to be somewhat right.
forced to give up. quietly i released you still without a fight.
time feeling lost. the last piece of a friend was gone.
inside of me. a man no longer held on strong.
months flew. coming patiently and back around.
meeting once again. frowns turned quickly upside down.
given a much needed window. we both prayed for change.
feeling done. becoming one outside our abandoned cage.
things never told. coming true to the ear through something as thin as the air.
all in the same. we once missed our chance as a pair.
now face to face. in our time to love and hold one another.
making it last. for we have found our long lost friend and lover.
a story of love. one to tell over and over for years to come.
as we both kept it inside. bringing to a head that we are indeed the one.
we stare into eyes. knowing we feel the same way somehow.
living a love so pure. from way back then to the presence of now.
craving for some odd reason. not knowing why the urge to want pounds away.
the heart knows what it wants. and love has it playing music day by day.
thoughts lingered. wanting your acceptance.
disappearing into the wind. you were gone and i was left to fill in the blanks.
wondering you became a memory. you were the top of the ranks.
yrs. faded without ever knowing where you were.
i hid you deep inside. missing you as you slowly became a blur.
re-found. after time seemed to be somewhat right.
forced to give up. quietly i released you still without a fight.
time feeling lost. the last piece of a friend was gone.
inside of me. a man no longer held on strong.
months flew. coming patiently and back around.
meeting once again. frowns turned quickly upside down.
given a much needed window. we both prayed for change.
feeling done. becoming one outside our abandoned cage.
things never told. coming true to the ear through something as thin as the air.
all in the same. we once missed our chance as a pair.
now face to face. in our time to love and hold one another.
making it last. for we have found our long lost friend and lover.
a story of love. one to tell over and over for years to come.
as we both kept it inside. bringing to a head that we are indeed the one.
we stare into eyes. knowing we feel the same way somehow.
living a love so pure. from way back then to the presence of now.
craving for some odd reason. not knowing why the urge to want pounds away.
the heart knows what it wants. and love has it playing music day by day.
i am overflowing
you are filling me in a way i can feel how i was so fucking empty inside for years, looking back into the past and wondering why in the hell i never found you as my one.
it does not matter if you are here beside me or miles away in some distant land, you made an impression and i can feel you as if you have crawled inside me and made yourself a home.
i am overflowing
blank for so long i sat inside of me thinking where do i belong in a time where i just can not seem to get it or even fit in, finding me is a hard task to be worth the while.
to have you touch me with out feeling me upon my skin soothes the human within like no one has ever known until now, as i have fallen deep within your smile.
i am overflowing
the hearts dancing with the mind as you come across thy thoughts of a happier love being shared, i found mine within you after feeling like the moon chasing down the sun.
always one step behind i have been where you have stepped, catching up you have crept in and release me from my very own sheltered shell to finally have a little fun.
i am overflowing
i have been given life after giving up on a thought of you ever looking my way, beside myself in a way love has taken full control of every once this longing pitiful ol fool.
you have become that missing link i desired for years parished without one an other, as we both were stuck with the where in the back of our minds of what ever happened to??
i am overflowing
it does not matter if you are here beside me or miles away in some distant land, you made an impression and i can feel you as if you have crawled inside me and made yourself a home.
i am overflowing
blank for so long i sat inside of me thinking where do i belong in a time where i just can not seem to get it or even fit in, finding me is a hard task to be worth the while.
to have you touch me with out feeling me upon my skin soothes the human within like no one has ever known until now, as i have fallen deep within your smile.
i am overflowing
the hearts dancing with the mind as you come across thy thoughts of a happier love being shared, i found mine within you after feeling like the moon chasing down the sun.
always one step behind i have been where you have stepped, catching up you have crept in and release me from my very own sheltered shell to finally have a little fun.
i am overflowing
i have been given life after giving up on a thought of you ever looking my way, beside myself in a way love has taken full control of every once this longing pitiful ol fool.
you have become that missing link i desired for years parished without one an other, as we both were stuck with the where in the back of our minds of what ever happened to??
i am overflowing
Friday, February 11, 2011
connecting
when we get close enough that space has become contact. connecting what the heart is saying silently through the vibes pulsating upon the chest. understanding every beat felt as air escapes from between our love. when the vibes bounce like ripples across the skin. trying to reach one another as if fate has found its true way. there is no helping craving hearts feeling the shock waves of the emotions expressed. losing control of the inner individual exploding inside for the sounds of a flawless love is un-describable. as we fall deeper for us and become one in our time of having that one. ilu MANDY!
Thursday, February 10, 2011
seeping from our souls
time must have stood still long enough to realize it screwed up long ago with us. never giving in to a love that was meant to be as if we were over looked. i wonder what it felt when we were given this chance and said ilu for the first time. feeling more than the meaning behind the definition of the word and the way it has completed what the love inside our hearts is truly about. drifting off in long stares and lost within each others eyes as they connect. releasing the knowing of true love as it seeps from our souls with a touch of forever to come. finding a friendship that speaks without words. i am deeply madly and crazy in love with you.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
questions of if
if their was no tomorrow, what would be your last thoughts of me?
if tonight was all you had, how is it you'd want to have me?
if a moment shared was all we had left, do you think it mean more?
if once upon a time came to it's dying end, where inside you would i be stored?
if life had passed us by, do you think it was worth every second held?
if that day were here, how fast do you think we'd do it all over again and melt?
if yesterday told a story of love, what do you believe it speak of us?
if we got lost and time slipped away, would you want it back for the sake of love?
if today were the last we stared into on an others eyes, would you die inside?
if all this were true and you'd be on your way, is it your feelings you'd hide?
if this thing is on a collision course, would you try and prevent it?
if and only if a love was meant to be felt like this, should we sit back and enjoy it?
if tonight was all you had, how is it you'd want to have me?
if a moment shared was all we had left, do you think it mean more?
if once upon a time came to it's dying end, where inside you would i be stored?
if life had passed us by, do you think it was worth every second held?
if that day were here, how fast do you think we'd do it all over again and melt?
if yesterday told a story of love, what do you believe it speak of us?
if we got lost and time slipped away, would you want it back for the sake of love?
if today were the last we stared into on an others eyes, would you die inside?
if all this were true and you'd be on your way, is it your feelings you'd hide?
if this thing is on a collision course, would you try and prevent it?
if and only if a love was meant to be felt like this, should we sit back and enjoy it?
expression
g: i love you as high as the sky and deep as the sea.
g: I can't wait til the day I can look you in your eyes and say, "I do."
b: i feel you deeper than i've ever felt you in a dream.
g: u make me the happiest woman ever!
g: Your my dream come true.b: you're my sails and my endless flight of feather.
b: plucked from a sleepless desire you touch my roots.
g: I catch myself falling deeper in love with you everyday.
b: lost in precious moments of us growing old and gray.b: me for the better of you as this love has began to brew.
livin a dream
layin down to dream of my dream with my dream layin beside me. i fall into dream land where my dream is awaitin in a dream. dreamin dreamy things only a dream will allow one to do. my dreams bend for my mind to drift in n outta dreams where my dream plays hide n seek. deep sleep dreamin along side a dream within a dream i lay with a smile outside my dream. lost in a dream settin made for two my dream of dreams is comin true. slowly findin the reality on the other side of my inner dreams. i dreamed a dream. n wake in the same dream n live it all the same. my dream is no dream. eyes open i walk next to my dream. touch a dream worth pullin from the nights mind easin as a dreamer. float n fly away within a dream with my dream goin anywhere my dream will take us. i luv my dream. my dream gives meanin to a dream come true. dreamin or not. my long lived dream dreams of me when a dream is to be dreamed. dreamin of me as i dream of the best dream i ever had. jus to rise from the dream we dreamed n embrace the same dream from our dreams. livin a dream.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
soundless patience
i think back when i may of forgotten who i was.
running from the centering sweet spot where there was no more love.
chasing down a life better than the one i had before.
i believe i have forgotten where i stood as me as i walked out the door.
gone for years past gone too damn long.
trying to find a home somewhere else in time as it appears i was wrong.
i crept out on myself deep in the nights silence.
set on auto pilot, lost and testing every once of my soundless patience.
i put this life i hold out in the wind.
every corner i turned it seemed i could never give in let alone win.
i forgot me in the mix of finding my way.
losing me slowly enough as the softest of touch left me feeling like a stray.
walking away i approached another direction.
step by step i wondered into the same ol shit with the same ol misguided intentions.
falling forward yet leaning towards my past.
everyday seems to be the same and i wondered how long can it possibly last.
losing self is the hardest thing i have ever done.
as lesson on my motionless path of confusion has me in a daze with my one.
running from the centering sweet spot where there was no more love.
chasing down a life better than the one i had before.
i believe i have forgotten where i stood as me as i walked out the door.
gone for years past gone too damn long.
trying to find a home somewhere else in time as it appears i was wrong.
i crept out on myself deep in the nights silence.
set on auto pilot, lost and testing every once of my soundless patience.
i put this life i hold out in the wind.
every corner i turned it seemed i could never give in let alone win.
i forgot me in the mix of finding my way.
losing me slowly enough as the softest of touch left me feeling like a stray.
walking away i approached another direction.
step by step i wondered into the same ol shit with the same ol misguided intentions.
falling forward yet leaning towards my past.
everyday seems to be the same and i wondered how long can it possibly last.
losing self is the hardest thing i have ever done.
as lesson on my motionless path of confusion has me in a daze with my one.
Friday, February 4, 2011
slinging poo
empty heads feeding pitiful words falling from choking mouths in loveless hate.
words spoken to cut form within a hollow mind gone mad on its own irritated fate.
slobbering drool spit without direction for anyone to notice and give attention.
tasting their own foolish lies built inside a rotten core made of self stimulating infliction.
unable to bite tongues and save face before gaining the respect of missing friends lost.
as if it matters what anyone else thinks as overflowing filth is being tossed.
thrown at the world like a monkey slinging poo with great excitement.
sitting back with blank stares after all said and done plotting their next act of enticement.
words spoken to cut form within a hollow mind gone mad on its own irritated fate.
slobbering drool spit without direction for anyone to notice and give attention.
tasting their own foolish lies built inside a rotten core made of self stimulating infliction.
unable to bite tongues and save face before gaining the respect of missing friends lost.
as if it matters what anyone else thinks as overflowing filth is being tossed.
thrown at the world like a monkey slinging poo with great excitement.
sitting back with blank stares after all said and done plotting their next act of enticement.
clickin clock
time has switched its licking toward us as we fight for another day to click and tick in each others hearts in love. as we found ourselves picking up the pieces and the light flickered as it busted when time itself gave us a shove. we fell into one another because we were made for one an others tickling teasing oh so pleasing touch. finding the clock spinning out of control as the slow winding toc helps you and i find us in our own time to love. you see, ilu MANDY!
for once
1 thing iv learned is this.
i'm nothing special.
but is any of us anyways?
i sat and wondered for years.
what make me so special every time i turn around.
when every time mr. wonderful is left standing alone.
i'm everything one has looked for again and again.
yet i am just me living in my very own dream.
i can only do the best i can to be happy.
earning my way and my keep.
even ig it keeps me broke i"ll pull my weight.
keeping things simple and as real as possible.
dealing with issues that come up in everyday ordeals.
and until now, they've now left me to myself in disbelief.
yet i'm so perfect in every way.
so unbelievably sweet as i am giving what i can within me.
yeah i can felt love as i sat with my heart in my hands!
i just want to be me for once as i'm seen for who i am.
not what i do or what i say in a days time.
and i think i've found it in someone just like me.
giving great joy and relieving my bones.
she thinks i'm the one as i do her.
something i never imagines myself saying.
as she also thinks i'm special.
what can i say?
guess i'm never going to shake it.
how can i if what i do is said to be more than they've asked for?
maybe it's just how i approach a lover.
give them my all because that's what i quietly would love to receive.
yet i'd never ask or speak of it.
and even know i let it be known with this one.
she gets my all because she is different in ways no other can surpass.
i want to see this one go all the way to the end of time.
and if i'm special in her eyes, so it must be.
i'm just going to have to live with it and live and let live for once.
because she see's the real me leaking out with every letter of ilu.
so what have i learned?
if i've learned anything at all it is this.
and if you don't nderstand.
read it again until you do...........
i'm nothing special.
but is any of us anyways?
i sat and wondered for years.
what make me so special every time i turn around.
when every time mr. wonderful is left standing alone.
i'm everything one has looked for again and again.
yet i am just me living in my very own dream.
i can only do the best i can to be happy.
earning my way and my keep.
even ig it keeps me broke i"ll pull my weight.
keeping things simple and as real as possible.
dealing with issues that come up in everyday ordeals.
and until now, they've now left me to myself in disbelief.
yet i'm so perfect in every way.
so unbelievably sweet as i am giving what i can within me.
yeah i can felt love as i sat with my heart in my hands!
i just want to be me for once as i'm seen for who i am.
not what i do or what i say in a days time.
and i think i've found it in someone just like me.
giving great joy and relieving my bones.
she thinks i'm the one as i do her.
something i never imagines myself saying.
as she also thinks i'm special.
what can i say?
guess i'm never going to shake it.
how can i if what i do is said to be more than they've asked for?
maybe it's just how i approach a lover.
give them my all because that's what i quietly would love to receive.
yet i'd never ask or speak of it.
and even know i let it be known with this one.
she gets my all because she is different in ways no other can surpass.
i want to see this one go all the way to the end of time.
and if i'm special in her eyes, so it must be.
i'm just going to have to live with it and live and let live for once.
because she see's the real me leaking out with every letter of ilu.
so what have i learned?
if i've learned anything at all it is this.
and if you don't nderstand.
read it again until you do...........
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Shoulda
I'm finding myself doing another mans daily duties n I'm not complainin one bit. For it was suppose to be my life in the makin with kids that shoulda been by me. Getting close enough they feel like my own and the have a daddy that is biologically theirs. Yet it doesn't change what I'm feeling for none of them because the way I see it, they shoulda been by me. I have three and she has six. Together there is nine. And I will stand for all of them as my own, no bloodline or not.
I'm falling deeper than I ever thought I would by any means for any woman. I swore it would take a hell of a woman to do what this impaticullar female is doing without doing a thing as I am loving it. I always knew there was something about her. Something that lived inside of me with hope, but I never knew until here recently as I have the oppertunity to live a life I dreamed of for years. It shoulda been our all the while as fate is giving us a chance to do us in a time of redefining true love.
The saddest thing I am finding I have to endure is I'll never have a chance for her to bare my child. It pains me in ways as she is filling a void and the emptiness is there. It's making my desire for her stronger by the day. Feeding a love for this woman of my dreams, my very own happiness. I'd just like to see her smile as it is me on the other end of her everything. Like it shoulda been as this time.
I have gone so long with only images flooding thoughts with and in between lovers I knew it would never work with. Lying my way along, even though I believed I'd never have a chance with my one. Dissecting all their good intentions apart and breaking down their flaws for they could never be her. I know it's been so long since I've seen her but when we talked for the first time after so many long wasted years. We knew this was our fate. For she lived with me in her the same as I did her. It's unexplainable to say the least. All I know is I have her in my arms every night and she's loving me back. I feel I've done something to deserve this and I'd do it again if I knew this were the outcome. For it shoulda been us until the end.
These are feeling leaking out as true as the can ever be felt. Uncontrolled and thrown at any ear willing to listen as they are meant to be read from a place love was created. I'd give my own life for this woman I have craved over for so long. We are one in the same. Not having to explain ours pasts to anyone that could never understand our past. Getting a glare of wtf did you just say in now a distant memory we'll never endure again. My one has pulled me from a place I felt so utterly lost in. Giving life back to who I truly am as I am a fresh breath of old familiar air flowing within her. Even after drifting apart like we shoulda never had been.
I'm falling deeper than I ever thought I would by any means for any woman. I swore it would take a hell of a woman to do what this impaticullar female is doing without doing a thing as I am loving it. I always knew there was something about her. Something that lived inside of me with hope, but I never knew until here recently as I have the oppertunity to live a life I dreamed of for years. It shoulda been our all the while as fate is giving us a chance to do us in a time of redefining true love.
The saddest thing I am finding I have to endure is I'll never have a chance for her to bare my child. It pains me in ways as she is filling a void and the emptiness is there. It's making my desire for her stronger by the day. Feeding a love for this woman of my dreams, my very own happiness. I'd just like to see her smile as it is me on the other end of her everything. Like it shoulda been as this time.
I have gone so long with only images flooding thoughts with and in between lovers I knew it would never work with. Lying my way along, even though I believed I'd never have a chance with my one. Dissecting all their good intentions apart and breaking down their flaws for they could never be her. I know it's been so long since I've seen her but when we talked for the first time after so many long wasted years. We knew this was our fate. For she lived with me in her the same as I did her. It's unexplainable to say the least. All I know is I have her in my arms every night and she's loving me back. I feel I've done something to deserve this and I'd do it again if I knew this were the outcome. For it shoulda been us until the end.
These are feeling leaking out as true as the can ever be felt. Uncontrolled and thrown at any ear willing to listen as they are meant to be read from a place love was created. I'd give my own life for this woman I have craved over for so long. We are one in the same. Not having to explain ours pasts to anyone that could never understand our past. Getting a glare of wtf did you just say in now a distant memory we'll never endure again. My one has pulled me from a place I felt so utterly lost in. Giving life back to who I truly am as I am a fresh breath of old familiar air flowing within her. Even after drifting apart like we shoulda never had been.
doing all i can
til the end of the path we walk, i will do all i can to do more than carry you.
deeper than any other in my heart, your in for a lifetime as my love is true. your my one and only, as i am doing all i can to help you create a perfect smile. breaking down time to make it a little more than just a moment of worthwhile. slowly earning our way so far upward in our time to the promised land. i will give all i am that lingers inside of me to show you i am your biggest fan. within me, you have grown faster than i have ever felt another as we stroll. i am loving how it feels to truly love because we as a pair, simply know. i would place myself on the edge and stand a man in front of life itself. wedding you so this world knows i am yours as you'd become my wife and we are felt. i find myself believing in the way your eyes scan my face as they stare and move.as i glide across your skin and lips slide in a perfect erotic, sexual, mental groove. depth of a touch from a friend like no other with caressing, dancing fingertips. living in the present as the future is finally within our outreached grip. on the back of a forever in which i could never seem to understand or believe in. yet i now smile with great joy and happiness cherishing your irreplaceable good lovin. i am willing to carry more than my end through the course of our short lived time. to the other side of this thing others can not seem to attempt to want to find. it is you and i as i see us winning the test to win one an others untamed love. never to be lonely again for we have found purity in the other side of rough.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
on the flip side of smilin faces
as the face smiles...............
depth. more powerful & soothing to my will more than thy has ever touched or felt.
stealth. hidden feelings meaning & dealing more than promises thy has ever been fed or dealt.
help. it finds & strikes every nerve deluding the pain that concurs thy endless name.
melt. liquefied by the way it offers so much to gain as the hidden tear fades in the rain.
on the flip side.........
deep. emerging from depths under & beneath the cores centering insides as it climbs.
sleep. dreaming of a safer place in a time of it's thy mind within thy cage that has to hide.
creep. sliding & taring away the imperfections imagined and accelerated by confused intentions.
repeat. watching it play out with such a great satisfaction to thy selfish sensual sensations.
depth. more powerful & soothing to my will more than thy has ever touched or felt.
stealth. hidden feelings meaning & dealing more than promises thy has ever been fed or dealt.
help. it finds & strikes every nerve deluding the pain that concurs thy endless name.
melt. liquefied by the way it offers so much to gain as the hidden tear fades in the rain.
on the flip side.........
deep. emerging from depths under & beneath the cores centering insides as it climbs.
sleep. dreaming of a safer place in a time of it's thy mind within thy cage that has to hide.
creep. sliding & taring away the imperfections imagined and accelerated by confused intentions.
repeat. watching it play out with such a great satisfaction to thy selfish sensual sensations.
you are
alone and feeling you,
that's all i ever need.
i find great comfort in your smile,
you are the one for me.
i crave your presence,
only for you i feen.
more than a woman,
more than any lover i'v ever seen.
to you and only you,
i so want to cling.
you are my angel,
as i am tucked under your wing.
you are on the mind,
thinking i dream so many things.
falling i feel so complete,
it's only you that does it for me.
singing a slow verse,
you are a song sung so sweet.
that's all i ever need.
i find great comfort in your smile,
you are the one for me.
i crave your presence,
only for you i feen.
more than a woman,
more than any lover i'v ever seen.
to you and only you,
i so want to cling.
you are my angel,
as i am tucked under your wing.
you are on the mind,
thinking i dream so many things.
falling i feel so complete,
it's only you that does it for me.
singing a slow verse,
you are a song sung so sweet.
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