the irreplaceable lover

i can not afford for the loose ends to break.
trying to hold on to a love frayed and dying to escape.
and who else but me do i have to thank within the mix?
for a situation i can not take and probably can never fix.
eyes never lie with stares of who really cared.
way to much of me has slowly been bared.
losing control beneath the face in which i have carried.
feelings are pushing an expression of being buried.
packed deep under the comfort of pretending it never mattered.
truth is i feel so beaten with scars and left shattered.
grabbing a hold of what is left of a man i can no longer find.
coming up empty handed of what i find within the space of my mind.
even there i am literally alone and damaged.
between the walls of my head i am a sandwich.
left to rot in time without a mouth to taste me before i mold.
where is the ending i seen at one time or another?
one where i had a great irreplaceable lover.