do what it is u feel u need to...

it's cool... u see, i'm no fool... i know the magic don't mean that much to u... as eyes will neva lie of true intent if we were to be put to use...  use me n get on with ur life... i'm used to it... have ur pride.. as twisted as ur mind rotates the process of the emptiness of ur kiss... don't be afraid of hurtin me... this is only a dream... it's the one thing i know so well... i know it bcuz time n time n again n again from it, i fell...  light the flame to end ur lonely nights... n when u wanna dip out i will not give a fight... i'm not mad bcuz that's what u all do... claimin lies aren't what they are when in fact tongues twirl on the proof... i'm jus here for u awaitin the time it takes for u to turn n walk away... slanderin my name... i know it's a comin... ur lil legs are gonna take off runnin...i feel it... i get it... i'm jus the one to prepare u for someone else... even though within me u are truly felt... i'm only gonna be able to fulfill ur lusts pretendin to be luv... as we become a once was... go, do what it is u feel u need to... walk on me n tell me it's over as i wash my hands of the thought of u... i've been here n it seems every time i get close to someone it goes horribly wrong... as even u won't hold on for to long... no one tends to know what to do with luv lookin em into the eyes... takin for granted all the things trapped in the mind... as the taste of ur memory will strike a nerve... n tones exchanged will go unheard... u see, i don't mind u steppin away from what it is i have within... jus don't turn around n think i'm gonna let u back in... once the emotion disperses ur shit outta luck... after it triggers a different way of thinkin of u, ur so called luv i'll refuse to explore... trust me when i tell u if tempt me to let u go, i will luv u no more... make it easy to rid u from my life... bcuz i've been wonderin how long it'll take for u to run off with the sunset in my eyes... for u to forget who it is i am supposed to be to u would speak to me as i watch u turn on me... without any need.. my purpose in ur life is for u to say goodbye... i already know ur gonna pass me by... there's no correctin my mind so... ur immaturities tell me everything i need to know... lead me on n let me fly... go on about ur way as i release u from my mind... there's nothin here u want other than a moment to figure a way out... i'm not new to this n no i do not believe a single one of ur moanin sounds... those fake azz cumshots only feed ur horny side... as it's someone else u seek behind ur lies... givin to me split seconds of gravity holdin me down... yet, it's a waste of time so feel free to leave as i get back to solide grounds... that is if u cannot look me in the eyes n get lost... i think ur too afraid as ur too fuckin soft... ur jus a good time on ur way to where ur goin jus like the rest... diggin in to twist my own best... do what it is you've come to as i wait on the precise tick that rips my heart out... tell it like it is n tell me what is u found.. jus let it be ur mouth that tells me ur done... run.!. n in the meantime slowly give up on me... ia in't shit to u the way u claim to be...  there's things i can handle n then there's u... n what u say jus ain't the truth... ride out... why wait to tare me from limb form limb jus to hear me cry out loud... show me how it's done...  let it be known i am not the one... make it look like a movie as u rid me of ur happily eva after... it truly doesn't matter... i'm jus gonna sit here the way i've been doin... no longer in wonder in which way u are goin... so, touch me the way u would someone else... give me hope that it is me u use as fingertips are felt... prior to the fade that becomes the feature without u by my side... jus don't eva return to my life...

my best friend...

i wanna look at her n know my heart will neva feel what it already has... the way a friend will always be here n there as even i have emotion needin to be put to use... the miricle in my eyes as life finally steps up n finds the better times that become my last... livin side by side for once with someone that gets the point of luv'n who stands in true form as self callin a truce... jus wantin to be luv'd by her in ways i've only dreamed of... gettin lost every time she touches me to get beneath the rush... i think i'd cried a thousand times if she'd jus show her face... bein the presence of mind in my life that could neva walk away... someone who jus wants to get lost in my eyes n feels my expressions reachin for them within my face... i think of the joy i'm goin without n it truly sucks shit knowin i'm sittin here goin to fuckin waste... i have so mu to give to her if she'd jus come outta hidin n say my name... i wanna hear her tell me what her hands are willin to do... i jus would like to... come back to life with her not havin to worry of my ends of relations... for my luv is not imitation... i only want her n i don't know hwo she is... luv'rs mean nothin compared to the way she could receive my lips... drownin in words so my heart can be heard... as luv is transformed from the innocence that flirts... worth the moments it takes to get to know who it is i am... as she'd be the one thing i'd sure of neva to turn as i'm her biggest fan... my best friend... written in cement...

bests...

they are given to someone that neva deserves it... puttin in work tends to find the outcome of it jus wasn't worth shit... bothered by the facts is the knowin that an other will receive what self gave all to have... often wakin up in a lonely bed feelin that unjustified abandonment touch what will forever be sad... with thoughts of them actually tryin to have relations with an individual somewhere else... as the feet hit the floor past a moment in time to be felt... rememberin what it was like to hold them in their dyin need... as ithe show goes on without them is what makes it damn near hard to breathe.. findin the heart jus doesn't wanna be touched by jus anyone that comes along... for it's been there as luv'rs fled with their best given to what could be another sad song... as in a distance eyes follow them as facs come n go on both ends... thinkin somehow their visual connection through sight refused to see a friend... n as time slips beyond the emotion that was once shared it doesn't hurt as much... healin takes place n redefined as strangers no longer in luv... it's the memory that asks what the fuck did i do to be sidestepped... forced to live with the facts that truths linger in depths... waitin on that one person to show character in how none of them were eva gonna want what the mind has let go of... jus wantin who it is inside to give them what they couldn't find as well within the gesture of the touch... bests clean house as there's lil to no recollection of any prior relations that went astray... even though times seems so long before they get here as it hurts to even say any of those in the pasts name... as they turned n walked away to give to somethin new what was damn near had... simply jus tryin not to imagine how hands feel them in the same sense as passion was spent to wind up in the darkside of the mind as pieces of them are no longer intact... seems they get dismantled as life goes on... neva seen in the same way after they have ripped open what's been torn... it's only every known again a few things feel the need to remind the present that they are no longer here... somewhere in between them, livin jus wants to find who it is to help us forget what once was as the heart has no more fear... as selfishness of wantin to be the only one to reach for them is put into actions as they accept they're is no other... as the one who gets the best set to the side as what has built up is neva smothered... correctin a way of life... mornin noon n night... as bests find a fresh meanin to give with true intent.. no longer teeterin the fence...

skin deep...

left behind like words written to capture things that go unsaid... different versions of this thing we walk becomes a mess... relations rotate in the middle of where we get to goin... as if a needle pullin thread through our own destination tucked in tight like a seam doin what it does... holdin it together n caught up in the rearrangement of patterns that crosses luv... people seem like vultures eatin on emotions feel of not bein good enough knowin they ain't so pretty beneath the faces they hide behind... comin in to shelter own selfishness walkin away with the lies... painted is the clown in the mirrors it takes to create the perfect scenery exposed... as fake as time is as gorgeous as lips that can neva speak the truths grownin old... we're surrounded by fingers that run from the center of attention as pointin places blame on the lack there of... hands applied is supposed to make em feel special in other ways that their exterior shallowness is ever so pretty waitin on lusts... passion is a moment in their eyes always lookin for somethin in the way thet stray needin to be felt as an image that refuses to use a heart made of gold... money tolds to worth feelin the affection turnin into the fold... flippin a new page as chapters tell words how to express what sits in disbelief... tryin to find a reason in someone to last a lil longer the next time as if in em we;d believe... games tame the ability to see under the surface payin attention to signals of maturities on the loose... attractions get lost as more awareness wakes up to find syllables twiddlin of the tongues use... there are some that neva made it through that found self more important than a real mo fo standin in their way bcuz we can... as beauty took em to sit upon a cloud knowin who they were prior to losin again... 

selfishly unselfish...

everything is what it is...
don't for get how to live...
tryin to find that feel that brings u to life again sux...
luv yourself if there's someone to luv...

gathered...

u need to dig a lil deeper into ur past n retrieve ur heart... but don't bring it to me... heal it n fine tune it before u use it it after the initial kick start... learn how to be free... so u know what it's like not to have that drift of uncertainty that isn't into flipping coins... heads or tails is jus that as it would jus be the sex playing out... the longer the greater the understanding relations will make if u give it time to release movements from the joints... coming from a more private prior place back in to the now... redefined n ready in a more mature state of mind... knowing you've become what u always thought u were... bac at a better way of life... that's when i'll accept u so i know neither of us get hurt...

flippin birds n talkin shit...

fuck it.. lets open up... nah, don't back down... luv ain't somethin that's escaped the mouth... dig the fuck in.... i'm not playin... or we can jus be friends... relations could even end... n u say u wanna good mutha fucka to hold u down... what happens when my feet leave the ground.?. step up or shut the fuck up... i'm to the point the sounds in the aitr are annoyin my reaction to so called trusts... get the fuck up n get with it... i need a real genuine individual that jus likes to kick it goin lip to lip... there's nothin but time before it runs out to see if we collide or intertwine... don't come at me wrong for i will decide what's good for me... fuck it... dig in... i'm hungry... come on or forget the thought of even gettin the munchies... there's a thing u speak of n i wanna see if u can indeed go all the way... i'm me so get used to my face... i'm here to collaborate on the mood set off by the flutters i get when ur within my sights... choose the life u live through my eyes... i gotta thing for u... only if u knew... psst.. ssh... words no longer walk within my heart... don't make this hard... i know me as i got my end... i found it in me to be a friend... as there's only one use i have for ur lips... flippin birds n talkin shit... i call ur bluff... i'm done listenin to the bullshit, i've had enough...

it's jus one of those things...

as soft as it is, it'll be the first to truly luv u when it opens up... it doesn't know how to say no... all it feels is luv... so i gotta be careful it doesn't get hurt again...things of past tenses haven't been so kind... yet, i've done my best to become a better man... gatherin emotion along the way that's turned on the mind... it falls for a tender face that smiles so beautifully... n once it's embedded into the memories it'll take forever for me to rid the thoughts... findin the feel in a different sense of fulfilling.. when it opens up it goes all the way to the point of no matter what n at all costs... its passion doesn't play games ur used to... that is once it's been properly moved... encouraged by a certain kinda company to make life ease up n live for it's found a use... not jus lingerin on in wonder from time to time goin unused... as gentle as my hands could comfort the feel placed over ur heart... it has a vibe that sways as passerbys are considered jus to know... it's not a game the way it uses my eyes to relate what lays beneath my own look bcuz that's where it starts... intent finds depths meltin metaphorical crowns if needed to be fed comin before the throne... as touch climbs walls tryin to get to a single frame... til then it's the figurin of which way is home... fallin in luv with a certain voice to say my name... luv put on hold...

come to me...

come to me... try to relate to the way things find need.. we all know what it's like for a man to approach a woman these days... n how females chuckle at us lookin in other direction as y'all turn away... it's as if every one of us live as if we're a dog in the streets... come to me... names are only labels beneath the emotion that could light a flame... as it be enjoyment that be the only thing played as games... come on n neva leave... passion tends to fuel the tingle as bodies heat... minds gather thoughts in the shadows comin out to show luv's face... untamed... free to explore the ins n outs of the hearts fame... as together we'd change... off to another place somewhere where our lives found their dreams... in each others eyes starin at what others could neva see... witness to the way our feelings are shared... as we walk to the beat beneath the surface pulsatin in a way luv admits we are rare... jus comin to life in our own as we simultaneously breathe... come to me... for i appear to look like the rest when i approach u n it's unfair... don't be scared...

if we eva did it together...

what if i wound up attached to the way i've gotten use to u.?. found myself in luv with the tears u cause that fall into a drip that would pour if u eva left my truths... if i felt u as if u were a piece of me... as if i've reached in to my very own dreams n touched u as my need... that one person in my life i fell into on an emotional level there was no comin back from... in luv... as like held on long enough to show us that the shit between us is as real as the air we share... what if relatations told me ur heart is where my smile resides as it i'd neva tare.?. if friends actully said hello when we spoke... lookin at u like ur the definition to a lil place called home... unable to take u for granted for the woman i know u to be is beyond what i've eva known... what if breaths were like sighs goin whoa.?. as if time stood still wantin u to jus be who u are... what if u seen me come from within n my actions that speak to u as i fuckin cared.?. havin meanin in each n every kiss placed upon ur lips... if i had purpose in my delivery, do u think, i could feel me vibe in ur rib.?. in tongues of honesty tellin u i can't go on without u in my life... what if i couldn't help but to come at u to show u what's been playin out in my mind.?. what of the things that playful nights could come up with.?. as days woke to what lasted through another night snuggled up in jabberin jibs... jus a talkin as if an open book whispered u to sleep... as if it were the sound of voices that were the comfort of creativity freed... findin a connection in our own lil way... what if i remained the same from the time u met me til through the pain that fell like rain.?. there for u... havin a true use to keep u on another level always in the mood... what if it were u that got in n rearranged the feel of the way i live.?. could u redefine ur own mindset as it be me you'd charish.?. knowin i ain't gonna do a fuckin thing to eva cross the friendship we hold so close... what if u n i were no longer alone.?.

moans...

as my tongue slides up ur thigh....
tastin the way u drip as u sigh...
tied up in the playful side of my mind...
somewhere ur moans spend time...
i feel u twitch n try to get away...
as all i want is to hear u say my name...
to see how i affect u comin out in the emotions on ur face...
as each climax escapes...
when ur clit finally goes numb...
n ur nerves begin to run...
thoughts give chase for it's fun...
i play to much to eva be done...
in luv with the flava or ur twat...
rubbin deep within ur walls claimin ur g-spot...
as u beg me to please stop...
i ease back for a minute jus to listen to u pop...
chained up in my mind u exist...
as details come alive nice n crisp...
pussy felt upon my lips...
the crease invaded with my stick...
as eyes follow the movement of u beneath me...
wrappin me as i shove u full of meat...
moans call out my interests as ur on ur knees...
losin ur breath as u try to breathe...
air finds gasps more enjoyable than bein finger fucked...
as compulsions flow through ur body touched...
showin u even luv has lusts...
as i retreat back down in between ur legs lickin ur trust...
jus wantin u to cum for me as often as u can...
findin my way inside of u once again...
thick n long n thrustin ur inner walls as a full grown man...'
one in which pleasin u til the tingle u cannot stand...
suckin on ur neck n chokin out another orgasm made to be freed...
tryin to jail break all ur naughty lil dreams...
feelin the way u explode as u leak...
deeper i go givin to ur wants in dyer need...
gush n i'll back off as that is a lie...
i'm jus gonna crawl my way to the middle of what u hide...
makin luv to the tenderness awoken in the hype...
as i go one more time so i can get mine...

fire in the hole...

jus pack that shit up... to my mind i want it to make luv... so get to stuffin... lit light n huffin n puffin... ain't nothin like sittin within a cloud... fixin not to do a damn thing right now... jus to go inside the mind n drag what i went in for  out of it... i'd tap my twisted mindset down n allow u in as far u ur gonna get... read the relation i reach to u for u to witness we ain't no different... pass it to the left... the flow works much better when the aroma is in rotation... as the tongue touches the flirtation... goin hard in silent words are unheard other than through the voice u hear me as in ur own head... have we honestly met.?. toke toke hold it... lemme see the smoke raise from ur lips... smokin... in motion... in a circular wrap around to inhale the thought of shit gettin deep... emotion speakin in a typical conversation burnin weed... as if sittin in a cloud easiin back on the visual that hides who we're lookin at... in tune within the poof that exploded around us leavin this fog needin a nap... jus high as fuck... talkin about luv...

bold.!.

what if i told u that i don't wanna lie... n if it were true that it's not jus another line... if i wasn't out to run games on ur heart... would u believe me if i jus didn't wanna play the part... what if, i, wanted, a piece of u.?. if it was my intent u had to in mind through n through... would u stop before i got what i came for.?. if there was one way to be oooooor it's out the door...  no fuckin around as i'm am selfish as fuck... emotion, sex, mental collaboration within the trust... if i told u flat out that there is no other.. i bet you'd try to own me bcuz i am ur luv'r... so do u see how that sounds... i said it right here as i will not to it down... if u were to step to me, there is no turnin around... or u can leave now... if u actually wanted it to be me there'd be different characters amoungst us... yet u want what.?. it takes the movement in opposite direction to collide... n it could possibly be a blindside... anything can happen either way relations go... soooooooooooo.?. if i didn't havta defend who it is i am... as me, fuck bein a man... if u retrained ur thought process that more suits who u truly are... that's when you've earned my heart...

Hanging within...

1. running to catch the first seat available... kicking back n trying to enjoy a moment to watch u from behind ur eyes... so i can see things the way u do looking back at this world... jus relaxed n in the mood to cross ur mind... Lemme in so I can connect with the way u feel... I promise u there's nothing I will ever steal... It's ur willingness n the way I cross ur mind that matters the most... I jus wanna climb in n attach myself to ur own feeling of being alone...

If they knew...

What if u knew the truth about someone... N u jus couldn't help but to fall in luv... If u try to keep a level head but ur emotion jus wants to live... Thinking something gotta give... What if who they were beneath attraction that draws u to them was more beautiful then the she'll in which they hide... N u couldn't get close enough to them to see them how it is they cross ur mind... As if the open pages of this life is for everyone to read waiting on that one mysterious person yet to step in to their own... As ur doin everything to attempt to say something to turn their head ur way bcuz u know what it is ur workin with n u know for a fact neither of u would every havta be alone... What if u took notice in someone other than self for a change n realized what you've been missing... Channing the feelings u possess as thoughts are twisting... Only if u could reach out so they could be felt by ur empty have willing to be everything that will every make a difference to them... Complimenting their existence jus by doin what it is u do with passion lent...

Weap...

They tend to slip down the inside afraid on the cum in the air... As they leak inward tryin to drown the feelings within that care... The drizzle effect weaps from the minds state of confusion... Lost in thoughts as there's no time soon of defusing them... Emotion gathers each drop n counts The levels of betrayal by the length of time it takes to let go pain... As no one can see the torture pouring down the inner linings of the face... Seams moisten to rot away what needs to be freed... Knowin it could be down back shut to protect self as it leaves... Touching the under layer only felt behind the eyes... On the flip side of the exterior expression lies condone what's taking place to sights... As the falling in luv with what hurts last only so long... Draining the feel the plug is pulled to live again as gettin over relations there is nothing wrong... Remembering the way years slid inward away from the ducks drying the fuck out... Ready now.!.

go time...

Ok... So this happened... clocked out... got to the house... walked in... boots off... downstairs i go... lights on... punk not there... utility side of the basement n the livin side has a door... its open... i'm thinkin punk is up to somethin... cool... i'm game... i peek to the other side... head poking in n out... no punk... hmm... i spin around... head upstairs... livin room is clear... won't be up stairs on the second level... so i checked the first floor rr.. nada. so kitchen it is... i sneak around the wall.. n no punk... sliding door... locked... so he's in the house... as i slowly spin around thinkin he jus got me... nope... this fucker left without tellin me n i thought we were playin hide n seek... yet no one was playin the same game... lol... i spend too much time alone...

Ok... timw to play... So this happened... chirpie af on my way back to the shop as my toes were tappin... clocked out... got to the house... walked in... grinin... boots off... feelin the vibe in my pulse... downstairs i go... yo.!. lights on... body isn't sore... punk not there... beware.!. in between the utility side of the basement n the livin side there's a door... its open... i'm thinkin punk is up to somethin... he'd be seen or it be all or nothin... cool... ha went awol... i'm game... let's play... i peek to the other side... noticin the light... head poking in n out... no sound... no punk... what a rush... hmm... i'm not stoppin til this one is through... i spin around... caredul not to be to loud... head upstairs... very aware... livin room is clear... for really real.?. won't be up stairs on the second level... this jus got mental... so i checked the first floor rr.. boom!!! nada... what the.?. so kitchen it is... i live for this shit... i sneak around the wall.. pause... n no punk... dafuck.?. sliding door... of course.!. locked... i stopped... so he's in the house... it's really on now... as i slowly spin around thinkin he jus got me... geesh... nope... whoa.!. this fucker left without tellin me n i thought we were playin hide n seek... the minds playin with me... n no one was playin the same game... good one, great... lol... the anticipation on the wait... i shoulda known... i spend too much time alone...

leanin in n steppin back...

lean to step in to the move in reverse jus to come with a tilt leaned into the return a lil more intact with the movement to get close... kinda like double dutch when ur tryin to judge the distance in motion as the leap could go either way attemptin not to be a hoe...

It's jus the way shit goes...

There changing of mind happens to the best of us... It's the resurrection of life within the lib... Cut from the clothe of patterns that hey old in the eyes... At some point relations doesn't matter quite like they did f the beginning of the find... When the circus act applies forced faces comin off behind the back... There end rattles like a snake defying the attack... Turned cheeks burn the feel of hearts calling out babes in the middle of night... As self remains the one thing still surgeon in a lonely room that once held grounds to fight... Opening doors swing as luv'rs leave the one place home was supposed to be... Saying goodyes to the water time had become giving emotion away aa if awakening from an endless dream...

Once they're gone...

Once they're gone, memories miss them at times when thoughts linger on their absence... Seems the good ones are trapped in the head to remember where we've been as it's not a bad thing to study back in time without defense... It's not jus luv'rs that's came n went that couldn't see fit to find in us what makes them tick... It's the luv'd ones that cling to the most tender moments replaying on the reels spinning through the mind as if they still live... As relation were cut short forcing us to adjust as if it gets any easier without them here instilling happiness to the feel of our ribs... Faces change n those who aren't with us here in living tension a part of us as we find a tear for them on occasions... N others dance by themselves in their path walk in a different direction... All in which played they're part n touched is in some shape or form... It's one of the things that makes us all the same for we all feel them as close to our hearts as the beat find rhythm known as it's own norm... Just live know someone I'd thinking of u in the same sense... Making a difference the same way others have purposely or unselfishly made situations tense... Luv does exist even though we are somewhere on our own tryin to get in that pain to give... To one day be heard as we to are gone sounding so beautiful released from an others lips...

cum...

come... lets talk a lil imaginary walk... step inside... i wanna talk... psssst... come here... mmmm... there's nothin to fear... i wanna play... do things... n live with the outcome that makes it awkward as i'd be turned the fuck on even more... are u cummin??? do u wanna be???  come on... i'm jus as horny as u... lookin for jus one outta everyone that sorrounds n walks by me... i wanna be ur whore... comin the fuck to life... get over here... help me lose my mind... giime what i want n make what's real tear... as i move as slow has i possibly can go.... but imma come out n ur gonna find a LUV'R on ur hands... fuck it, i'll come to u... jus so u know i want U!!! standin up is the man.... with a tingle only u can fix... i'm comin on to u, on u... i wanna spin the mix... rubbin ur walls like a finger in the puddin bowl... til u run away shakin as i give chase... i wanna play... come to be cummin n jus n say my name...

no lies to u...

don't let me lie to u as i keep space in between the attachments... i'm not behind the scenes kicked back feelin myself laughin... nah, this isn't  game to me as i feel eyes watchin me... i've jus been driftin n hidin from the connections rotation of full fledged dreams... i actually adore the thought of bein in luv... so jus understand at this point in my life some things are unavoidable no matter the feel of the rush... i jus wanna be the lyrics to ur heart before i caould eva open to u without bein a friend first... i'm jus done with the games that's taken over minds  that needs a pop bubble bcuz that shit hurts... ready i am almost as i have babies holdin on to me n i will not let them down... i am fuckin focused on me in a none selfish yet the most selfish way as my laugh has the same meanin as a sound... but it's do or die so relations are vital to my own heartbeat back... i'm goin fuckin home... fuck anything less that wants to steal me away from life no longer on the roam... put up or shut up is at the line of are u a fuckin adult beneath the skin stretched... as when i have a minute i have someone to count on like theses words opened up as it's not me that is a mess... i wanna fuckin build... don't let me lie to u if i look for a reason to fuck with u has my hats tilts... on some real shit... lies to u would have no use to it... i know my kind is rare... it's jus for mine i care.... i'm over here doin the real shit possibly havin a few chuckles along the way til the days comes to know who walked into my life... no lies to u...

In the moment of solitude...

I'm those moments alone where time tends to pause... Words can not be found as if having locked jaw... Jus heavy sighs of frustration fill the room... Putting a damper on the loneliness spread through the mood... Feeling useless as luv don't seem to exist... Jus wanting to hear someone say we're it... Nights come n days get lost in day dreams dreampt jus wanting something more... As if it's possible for someone to walk through the door... Crashing down like the waves of a loner stuck in a faze... Life losses it's feel after a while taking refuge in the shade... Looking at others as if they'll never do... All bcuz the list we've made, has certain qualities that nit pick those loons... N somewhere inside we break within our own... When there's no one there to make a house feel like a home... As talking to self is the only option to find comfort on the move... We come to a crossroads that jus wants to live loose... Tapping out from the pain in which we cause ourselves living in such silliness... For the mind eventually comes full circle in allowing an other to attend the hell of happiness... It's the finer things in this crazy place that surrounds all the good in which we hide... We jus havta remember we're worth more than a bind... One that holds us in restraints with pages of hurt reminding us what we're supposed to be... Yeah, I know all too well of the the mission to stand back up n believe... Taking the alternative... Bcuz life is worth it...

Walking the dog...

I need u to tame the whowh within me... It needs jus one to use me like a piece of meat... A tree freak even sexuality wants to play... One in which who's willing to do more than stay... With the nakedness of the mind exposed like the nudity of ur holes... I need to be fucked n tired down to mymy deepe hormones... Treating me like u have use to please someone other than yourself... Hands on my buddy I do need it help... Touching n stroking my cum him my shatf... Riding ur pretty lil heart away n making luv last... There's tons that turn me on that no jus anyone is worth... As I have a thing for us ur whimpers at times sounds like ur being hurt... I need someone to tease all their dirty look attentions from their mind... Wanting to hey on their knees n suck me ifo bcuz it's what they like... Unchain me from this solitude n the hooch will remain faithful to only u... I wanna hell the way u move...

come in peace...

there's no reason in manipulating intent... i jus wanna see u in true form as a friend... so i don't say shit that might alter ur own thoughts for me... i don't see the point in u becoming what i want u to be... seeing u as u come is the best thing i could eva relate to... as time will speak up on actions calling truce... what's the point in forcing the mind to cater to false motions jus looking for a use.?. that's like a backhand when interest gives up on what is u think i want... when it's u in true from that causes the fuss... jus getting in my head with the gift of self.. i'm not gonna tell u what i like so i know ur coming at me to be felt... selfishness is not a thing i feel... i like my content a lil more real... so i to can fall in luv with someone like u... the way u drift into me telling truths... it should be like a new day everyday... when we awaken to life jus to say each others names... as there's no point in words that rearranges mindsets on the loose... captivity is an prison hung on a noose... so i say, show me... n i'll show u as we meet in the middle of this crazy world so u can witness how i've come to think... not once reacting... as fresh dawns rise to u n i interacting...

if i were to step up...

what if i wanted to feel u?
opened up n jus gave in to what gets u loose.
without the sexual content due to i jus wanna be a friend.
is it possible it be me standin with u in the end.'
neva havin to worry about where i'd eva be.
meetin u where reality confronts a dream.
if i were to step on up.
to be given a chance to figure out luv.
what if i had it in me to do u right?
neva to lie.
to always take u into consideration livin my life.
givin to u what i could on levels that confide.
what if i had an interest to see what we could become?
n u felt me in the way i touch u n such.
true n to the point ready to fuck some shit up.
gettin at it as a must.
showin u i ain't one for all the bullshit.
allowin the heart to live.
what of the thought that comes to mind when i speak of this?
let's jus say i'd neva leave u without a fight.
attratcted to ur wits.
would it matter to u if someone is willin to take flight?
to find out who it is u are.
walkin together is the bigger picture isn't it?
knowin the back is guarded from the rest.
as the realist thing u could eva find.
mentally wrapped up in ur arms until the end of time.
as far as that could even stretch.
like rubber band snappin back when we're forced to live without one an other.
buried in the adrenaline awakened as luv'rs.
side by side known as u n i no matter where we go.
the perfect duo.
if i were to give u that piece of me.
what is it i'd get to ease the way i breathe?

turning out...

it's when the shit breaks the fuck down...
when u see for yourself how much u mean to them spewing from their mouth...
finding true intent behind the eyes...
turning luv confused into a spiral of lies...
knowing they could walk away like u ain't shit...
yeah, that does it...
listening to them tare u apart...
cutting u with words that decode the art...
hearing the hate in their tone...
as the thought comes along of this is home.?.
after everything how is it they jus don't care.?.
as if ur not the reason of rare...
it ain't easy when they forget who u were supposed to be...
watching them rant n rave n scream...
losing mature grounds like they need to get away...
thing is they never truly luv'd u from the very first day...
friends don't somehow close off the emotion...
as lips mumble with the attempt to hold still in the middle of the explosion...
it's damn near like they are about themselves...
throwing temper tantrums with their inability to felt...
violently pushing ur buttons causing so much pain...
crippling the heart as each cut bleeds out...
as luv reverses n retracts due to the sounds...
loud n abrupt with childish like behavior leaking from hidden acts...
wondering is the bubble of the head that reads leave them in the past...
jus get away...
with exclamations use punctuation's to reveal what comes from thee insane...
dripping with saliva spit hits the face...
they do everything they can to provoke what's been inslaved...
as every last moment that's been shoved below can see the light...
finding legs walking into a different life...
turning on the leave of absence...
poof, gone like magic...
drifting on wtf happened when it was u that made the so fuckin happy...
it's saddening...
ignorant due to the facts of u never wanted for it to end so soon...
yet, the mind simply went kaboom.!.

follow...

society believes in man made reasons to fit its own selfish wants n needs... capturing the way we think... labeling, categorizing n bringing the imagination to life... creating time... none in which existed before human need to rule... fools...

without...

There's times when I get off work, sore n tired, n would luv to say I can go home... To a lil place where there's this woman who appreciates me in her life... Yet all I've eva known is how to be alone... Even though the thought every now n again crosses my mind... As there's things I don't speak of nor go looking for... Relations neva has worked out for me as I went all in... N as I sit here feeling lost as I so often do I feel the need of something more... But I don't have much to offer so I lean back n force a grin... I got me is what I tell myself... Peeking at faces n closing my eyes... Is there someone out there that could define the word help.?. Piecing comfort together within these empty lines... I could use what I shun away... I'd rather go without that silly lil thing that makes the ends meet... I don't need it so fuck it all... As I pretend I'm about to wake up from this fucked up dream...

givin, gaspin, playin, crawlin...

there is no givin up until u throw in the white flag tryin to get away..
it's on as hands begin to explore ur shape...
i wanna witness the way u tap the fuck out...
givin chase to the way sighs fall from ur mouth...
gaspin in the motion it takes to cringe to the tingle of trust unable to give up...
all bcuz fingertips felt a touch...
playin with the sounds u can make...
there's somethin about the visual of how ur legs shake...
naked n crawlin the way u would...
as i put this thought back in my head with the mood...
u jus seemed to cross my mind...
i'm fine...

visual pleasure...

it's ready...the mood between u n i... hop on in the tub... enjoy a lil of life.. candles are lit n the water is hot... enjoy a moment while i watch... setting my eyes upon the way u ease on back... damn,  what a scene to place my sights upon the way u splash... beautiful... those petals look real good on the way ur body plays with the surface of the water highlighting ripples as if musical... heard through the movement as swooshes takes the attention u need from me... making it hard for me to breathe... admiring the flow of bubbles hiding the tenderness of ur skin... as i sit still with a moment reflect how much the visual pleasure is a win win... i wish i could tell u what it is i see... attracted beyond my wildest dreams... as my silence is respectful to only two rules... for the teasing is intended for a good time as wet is redefined as wanting to swim in ur pool... finding self unable to touch u until ur done... happy it's u i feel is the one... as i'm actin as if i'm not in the room... so do what it is u do.. ur secrets behind closed doors is that of what hushes trust... for when ur finished, imma practice lusts turning in to luv... for i'm not allowed to make a sound... but once ur out n u drop that towel... thoughts will come to life behind the way these eyes gather what they've see... as it's u bare butt naked standing in front of me...

dream of me...

it used to be no one else could be her... so glad that faze is over lookin at the world for exactly that... someone that  can entertain me... inter-fuckin-act... it's nice knowin where it is i am... in the middle of my presence no matter where i could possibly be... jus a waitin on days to come n go as even the night is a good time to be awake... some day the one will sit beside me... as i live with who it is i have become as of right now... smiling jus bcuz i can... not even givin a mental turn around... jus bcuz i'm better in luv... yeah, i kow what will correct the feel in it's momentarily lapse as a man... fixed by the ends of holes in my own head filled in... jus waitin out how long it's gona be til she comes along... lit up here where i've found a better version of self... i need not beat on my chest as if i'm kong... i know what rests for now... far enough beneath the surface it's safe to relate... emotion able to collect the thought process that wants under the skin... n there's no changin my face... i giggle jus fine on my own... an other is jus an addition to the vibe that bounces in between thoughts... awaitin desire to be willin to swing with saloon doors as we go inside... as only once will the heart pause... feelin that initial incision that awakens likes becomin luv... playin in a more appropriate way that suits our own fuckin mood... knowin we're all unique in our own way... we are free to live n move.. doin what luv'rs n friends do... findin words so easily expressed up close n personal... face to face drfitin in the design of opened eyes... i'm good to go listening to more than vocals... absolutely gorgeous... known as two names once the alignment of hearts ride the same wave... i sit in comfort jus to know i've rounded out real nice like... sssh... jus wait...

Wet...

The shower is on and the water is heated up... Step on in n I'll follow you with the soup feeling silky smooth as I feel you within the touch... Let your hair down with your guard dripping wet... I'll wash you clean as time I will invest... Massaging the lather of the smell in your skin... Just to feel you beneath my fingerprints clinched... Watching the way the suds flow with your curves... Listening to the way you speak to me as not one word goes unheard... There is no need in doing it yourself tonight... I need me some of you to fix my sighs... As I rinse your body with my hands ever so gently... Waking up the feel of luv within me... With your head tilted back cover your eyes... Shampoo and conditioner will be applied... Deeper into the scalp trying to ease u your day... just trying to show you i do think about you in my own way... Allowing the bubbles to sit for a minute as I go down on you... Feel the way my tongue slips in between your thighs with use... Rolling on the clitoris until you cum with that delicious taste... Just to rise and spin you around after seeing the expression upon my face... In I'll go as you're bent over pressed against the wall... Feeling the way I reach every fucking never without a flaw... Telling you how much I missed you today with whispers in your ear... Cumming once again on my shaft so I too can hear... The moans it takes for you to get what you've been missing in your life... This is the kind of thing that rests on my mind...

Irreplaceable...

Life is to irreplaceable to allow u to be interchangeable as the changing of ur face would look like someone else aging... I'm jus saying, not jus anyone is allowed in bcuz that dig doesn't make no fucking sense... That is too fucking tense... Interactions cannot fade as if ur boredom is still looking for ur fairytale based Knight... I have a choice in what I will n will not allow in my life... The features that are too rest in my mind is that of a friend not jus a luv'r on their way to an other as they steal pieces of me for a lil while... I can't feel it if ur attractions do not reside further down beneath the surface gaining the smirks that form smiles... Time is the one thing that is irreplaceable n no matter how deep eyes lust on the flesh of shallowness I'm worth more than careless acts... Plunging is for shit that cannot be flushed so going swimming in emptiness isn't something that touches happiness passed the feel of when are u gonna dip out n that's a fact... Tongues connected to minds that wrap the flava of the heart as the rarest motion to move in sync with... So that coming n goin of trial n error doesn't interest me much as it is me that wants to live... I don't get trapped by an insufficient passerby looking for the moment pretending luv is what pulls them closer to me without like being understood with everything they have to give... Real n to the point I enjoy being straight up no matter the outcome... Rushing what could remain flush wares on the trust taking away the fun once one goes dutch... All in behind the scenes isn't a game worth playing if passion doesn't feel as if I am the freak that brings u to life... I do not hide as I refuse to open the door for those that cannot comprehend the feel of my own sighs... There's things that triggers interest that flows with the stream of the beauty of creating luv... So what of us from ur point of view that verifies the perfect disaster of when n where we're to part as hands find someone new in relations feeling the drain between us rust.?. U see, there's no one else that steps in other than u as the one who's gonna remain for there is no other after me that will ever do... As they'd be the end of the seek n search waking to the mornings rolling into whoever it be that puts me to fucking use... There is no happily ever after for it is a past tense situation where the living in with the sway is the realest shit I've eva known... As even goofiness is mature enough to neva let go of what hands hold... I'm at peace with the single life as chuckles drift with ribs of neva looking back... Ur either here or u can get it in now n subject yourself into my past...

In jus a short time...

As eyes took notice thoughts came to mind...  The smile on ur face reminded me of life... I paused on a photo of u staring in my direction... It was almost as we stopped to take notes on perfections... In the moment I wondered what ur life was like... All from where I was sitting passing by... Something grab ahold of the situation as I chuckled... Mumbles spoke up from within their muffles... Damn. bein drawn flipped from the tongue yet u couldn't hear a word... Only if u knew how my creativity began to flirt... Moments passed as convo endlessly emerged... Finding topics upon the lips full of perks... As interest come out to roll with the comfort wondering in silence... Secretly scrolling through pics catching up to sights so intense... From ur height beginning at ur itsy bitsy lil tootsie's to the color of ur hair... Ur body type stroked my mind as the thought captured didn't play fair... N I contiplated what u were like... Goin through scenes captured if u stuck in time... They beauty, the vibrance, the way u jus seemed so alive... U had my wondering what made u shine... From the cleanliness of ur style to the delivery u nonchalantly landed within these lines... The visual I seen told me u were my type... Yet I had no idea who u were... Jus an image imagined on the other end of messages growing smirks... Passion spoke up on how it seemed u could use someone to relate to... As some day you'd want to feel someone come to u... Hold u in their arms n drift away with the nights... As luv would be made to make ur dreams feel the hype... Taking seriously with desire leap i ng from f.i.n.g.e.r.t.i.p.s. I knew u jus wanted to be felt... So I came up with this lil diddle hoping ur heart wouldn't actually melt... As it may or could be the first of yet, more to come... Not knowin what the future holds jus living alone...

Friendly written tendencies...

B-With the world always spinning their wheels I want to just take my time and go slow...feel the natural flow with no worries just free flowing

M-jus to know how touch feels to the texture... i wanna drift away with that one friend wrapped u in pleasure...

B-Going deeper and deeper feeling all my senses explode....
Fireworks as the soft touch of love fills my body

M-reachin in with ligaments to feel the secrets of my heart unfold... running with the shiver of the spine getin naughty...

B-As time stands still there is no words to say...just the touch of your strong hands flood my body...my mind is in euphoria just for that instance

M-for a moment to be felt the way emotion tends to wanna live as fantasies find reality bringin dreams from the mind...
flush n rare... temptin a stranger to open to the feel of the rush... raisin neck hairs n collapsin beneath the tenderness of their touch...

B-As our dreams become reality my body trembles with passion and the thought of being desired sends me soaking in the sea

M-as free as the wind to take flight... blowin sails within ur oceans waves... romantically feelin that tingle the comes from deep inside... hearin tones in names chance as passion drives the mood insane...
fingertips searchin for a way in beneath the skin...findin their way to ur lips raisin a grin... caressed jus to hear a moan release its sound... as intent comes from the mouth,,,
with a whisper in ur ear, emotion smelt into my hands... listen if u will, of how i softly tell u i jus might be ur biggest fan...

M-wet n ready feet walk along the beach...  eyes off into the distance slowin the way u breathe... collectin sand between toes leadin the way... splashin with ever step waitin for the horizon to change...  noticed in a moment that brings my heart to life... as i go step for step with u by my side... driftin in to new memories made to hold for all time... correctin the train of thought of luv in the mind...

rollin off the tongue...

my mind is that of my own but i can share with u the thoughts it took me to come away from u... u see, sights like what they're lookin in on as it's not easy from u to look away... yeah ur vanity played it's roll to suck me in to the way u get involved with the way u carry yourself... yet, i'm more in tuned mentally with the way u cross my mind on an intellectual level of knowin luv is a mindset first n foremost as it could neva be tamed... i stare not only at what ur outter makings make u appear to be but what's comin from deep within... n all i've been waitin on is to see who it is that flows with me as i'm feelin u... thing is i haven't felt s few things in quite some time n i was jus thinkin to myself of the possibilities of jus what would come of u peekin in on me to see if i had what ur desires possessed... it's been brewin for a while but i'm not the one to intervene in what makes u who u are through my eyes put to use... nah, it's not only sexual even though i can't help but to imagine human intent breakin free... i jus get caught up from time to time livin with u tucked inside the secrets u know nothin of.. on some real shit i can only express to u what it is that i'm drawn to as if you'd skip with me on down by the river for a walk... jibber a jab n chat, talk, chuckle n find a giggle to to ease on out in the open of the wheel spun up in my mind... it's more than a luv'r as ur heart would become the one thing i'd show who it is i am n what i'd be willin to do to touch lips with u in a pause... it's behind my eyes takin in ur natural way of life that turns me on as i'm intrigued in a different sense... n if honesty was to speak  straight from the only thing i've eva known, it be u i'd wanna get to know... turned inside out as it's my mind i will keep as my own as u can reside there as i'd tell ya all the lil things you've neva heard... as an individual that can relate through words backed by actions comin true, to u, i jus wanna be know...

u n i... ty...

let's get this... take a night n jus feel our way around... jus u n i... escaping from life... in tune with the sounds that come about... goin up n down... do a lil taste testing... then once the sun comes up we can get to resting... flirtation is the best way to begin fantasies... we can fuck like we're enemies... acting full grown as bodies dance with shadows along the walls... as hormones from within go awol... on the loose dripped in sweat... eyes locked when met... doin all the lil things that's been on our minds... stopping to have a good time here in the middle of life... there's no sense in hiding what's so fuckin real... come n climb aboard passion as it peels... i have some drift wood that ain't bein used... as i know there's a kitty needing some attention through n through... i'm talking the true freak locked up hidden behind intent... letting go of societies rules from around the time the sun sets til light peeks in through the blinds to continue with interest... imma full grown man n i'm not busy if u wanna hear the way i pop... u have my word even if u wanted me to i wouldn't stop... as the way you'd come unglued to the attachments in ur thoughts would paint the perfect picture of u n i... played with as if a toy gettin u to wanna run from the tickle in ur sighs... moaning to the rhythm of the motion it takes to release what it is i wanna witness with my very own sights... u cumin to life...

the struggle is real...

only if life wasn't so fucked up for me right around this point where i can't seem to offer much... yeah self is the most important but shit got fucked up n i can't feel the luv... there's things i need to do n i gave my word i'd get it done this time... i have no more weights holdin me down as even the thought eases my mind... yet, the tenderness of what the heart wants is unimaginable as i'm jus better off... the emotion within digs in a lil too far n i can't afford another distraction tryin to open up when i can't even enjoy bein touched... it only teases the flesh as goosebumps become renegade soldiers givin away the truths of what it is that clings to me...  ooooh by golly time has halted at the standoff no one else can see as my smile is as if passion exists behind closed doors, so it seems... to allow somethin in would break my own word that refuses attachments until i have it in me to snuggle on down... even though i miss the feel of relations as hands roam without sound... i cannot think that way as i'm beginnin to realize there's distance beneath the surface that is unsettled due to what has become of where i am here fightin to survive... n leanin in to someone jus bcuz i need a ll help so fuckin bad isn't an option bcuz i know i'd be gone the first chance i had once i was revived... runnin back into the sea of cowards with someones heart chasin me until it in its own couldn't keep up.... so alone i sit as the mornin comes back in the a.m. for another chance to reachin a lil closer to an other as i work my azz off as i've had enough... it's sad to go to such a waste as memories haven't a moment to be made hidden behind what jus can't be redifined... my facial expressions are not of that of anyone else's as i have things to do prior to collidin with the one that has no idea of what i have in mind...

huh.?.

fuck the missin stage of thinkin within a mindset of not bein able to be layin flush... those awkward moments feelin like u can't wait to get back to someone sucks... damn that part of relations tryin to start up... i don't wanna feel that clingin to pieces of me claimin it wants to be luv'd... i run from bein crushed.. it's jus not worth the rush always in need of that bs kickin around dust... even though it builds a lil somethin called trust... fuck layin alone at night not bein able to get to someone to far away feelin like the loneliness is rust... where's the plus.?. i'v felt that kinda simple minded goofiness for what it was... i ain't got it in me to open the gates jus to go without n become one with the wait goin numb... there's no way i can allow myself to go through the heart ache n lust... all over a lil bit of crumbs... playin with myself is easy the way i'm hung... i don't even havta breathe heavy n lose my wind escapin my lungs... so what's the fuss.?. sittin around holdin on to time listenin to the way the mouth can cuss... why tease self with the emptiness of such.?. when the night know not of how to be a crutch... always feelin the need in wantin a hug... as if lost walkin alone jus to keep intensions on the hush... it's a drag that comes in waves like gusts... i'd rather keep the feel of my own gut... tellin me to ride out n smoke a blunt... there's no point in goin over the shit mentally from dawn til dusk... what the fuck.!. i'd jus want the real thing in like pizza havin crust... the way the sky looks like it's been brushed... so huh.?. jus ssh, that other shit ain't no fuckin fun...

Where's mine.?.

Wheres that click..?. That neva ending pressing of lips... The feel of the movement as hands rest on her hips... Where's the need of neva having to be missed.?. The way words insist... As two people simultaneously exist... Where's the luv ticking in the emotion that drips.?. The passion in a deep azz kiss... Where is it hormones live.?. Shared as hers n his... As depths begin to rip... Where's the give.?.

back when...

Back when i was willin to show them there was better, as if they were afraid to come out n play...They had so called men in their lives they thought they couldn't get past... I'd give them a reason to venture beyond what they thought was their capabilities jus to show them they were limitations stretched across their face... whether it be a game at first jus fuckin around to strike their curiousity or been straight to the point when i told the i could show them what else there was that could actually last... There were some that even paid for the time i had to come on through so their ex's wouldn't bother them much... As ages ranged to get ahold of the feel of wantin to know what it's like to be complete... Although i told them from the jump, emotion is somethin i had nothin to do with as it to found a use for luv... A dog in a sense with good intent gettin what it was i wanted as i swept them off their feet... Fallin in behind closed doors as class was in session so the too figure a way to tweak the opposing gender in which they craved to have around their finger... It wasn't shit to run off the competition for they weren't worth the time to even speak of... I was so different back when a point to have better rose up before them n freed who it was they were inside that lingered... Some got a lil too clingy but it was in all good fun to allow them to enjoy me before they put skills upon the stillness of touch... Others neva caught on n thought it was all jus an act until they found themselves face to face with what i could give them playin out... Thank you's came from time to time as i knew they'd found someone on a different level lookin back at them lookin at me... females were neva hard to manipulate as i did it for a good cause that went without a sound... N i cannot remember a few nor heard anything once they got focused n went on to live with a different approach simply free... No ties n no strings was the rule as i could relate to them of what a man was thinkin n why as they visualized how to respond... It was kinda like hitch with a twist that benefited me until there was nothin more i could do but stroke them down... As that was one of those things when they were in between relations gettin licked n fondled... Neva to say their names due to most of them are still intact with their man gettin pounded... It was a lil thing i knew i could pull of in my spare time makin their loneliness more enjoyable jus bcuz i wanted mine... It was a win win that swapped my creativity for the balance of them easin the fuck up to let someone come into their lives as the sex was the fuckin bomb... Gettin loose from the inside out as nothin was off limits so the knew they had the next mutha fucka on point livin life... It's funny how secrets neva leave the tongue that coulda broken them down n made them sob... Back when i had somethin to prove jus before i tried liuv on myself, i was good at what i did... Chasin their abuse away sop they found comfort in a male willin to relax n ease the fuck up... I may be a juggilo to whoever may be readin those readin this but my give a fucks neva cared to much on what others have eva thought of they way i lived... I had this thing n when i said it they knew it was trust...

the game...

luv is like a drop step right before the dunk that posterizes it's trademark move all up in ya face... scorin on the humiliation it takes to allow an other to do as they please when it comes to our names... emotion is jus the trickery of the pass we don't see comin as it turns the head sideways as a distraction... dribblin until it sucks us outta position as the rim job hurts more than the attachments of the ego let go of with the interaction... dribbling shakes the confusion within for which way the feet move is so fuckin unknown... set up on the walk as space closes half way down to defend a lifestyle of money talkin bs playiin zones... all fed the chance to earn keep by the inbound time startin by contacts will to do what it takes to put points on the board... like it somehow became a sport to fuck with ones feelings opened up to exhaustion to  lose damn near crawlin on the floor...

for u, i wanna...

i wanna taste u... tastin me... as names find themselves upon the lips... feelin the heat comin from dreams... as the flava would drive me insane... n i hope that can be in a good way... depends on how u think of me... as i fade into u... i know givin in could feel so fuckin good... the way i'd begin to kiss u... i'd put u to use... i wanna feel u... in n out... turn around... mmm... i could use someome like u... knowin u have a mind to work with... one in which i wanna find myself settin up shop... feelin the vibes bounce within the ribs... talkin about don't u eva stop... damn, jus to invade ur space... i'd leanin with purpose... imaginin u on top... u ain't too late... could u use a serpent.?. runnin around in flip flops... i wanna get my hands on u... jus lettin them roam... wavin a white flag callin a truce... i wouldn't be able to leave u alone.. only if u had a face.... shown you'd be more than worth it... craved... i wanna get in ur way a grasp a tight grip... n offer u who it is i am willin to grow with u checkin tones... straight surrender to the likeliness of u... down for whateva comes about in life's free will... draped with my eyes upon the smoothness of ur flesh... thinkin no further than where u stand with my very own thrill... i wanna slip within u in every way i can... as neva the less, as a man...

dreams do not exist...

day to day... without the checkin in... where statuses play no parts... n life is jus livin... feelin the sway interact with the movement of where it is i'm goin... alive without the everyday convo of relations rushin the facts... luv can wait if times will is willin to give up the goods... the fire that burns behind the masks... with no hidden intents... no overload of emotions clingin to the feel of hope headed in different directions... the darkness needs not to roll with foes tryin to fit in wherever they can get in... like a bad infection... feelings ain't to be fucked with... for when they change, things are neva the same... as bein envoled doesn't havta mean side by side... whereabouts can lay together simultaneously once time rests the figurin of faces  that jus don't change... loose is the only thing i've come to know... n i'm not broken, i've jus seen a lil to much... there's no rush in overnights becomin residents sharin bills... private lives will always round there ways to where the gettin is good enough to drop guards n luv... til then dirt has been swept over the feel of goodbyes... as lookin into eyes is a thing of restless sighs... there's nothin here until safe zones has been gone through... n there's no reason in sayin good night... it ain't all like that when we sleep alone... tossin wakes the mind to think as we all know... thing is, i jus wanna make sure my heart is in good hands... so givin me up to daily routines isn't gonna pop off as covers are blown... from the bedroom to the nakedness of a smile that excites a way of life... dreams do not exist here in reality... nothin eva happens over night... real is more than an expression that feels the need to speak... yeah i'm different n u cannot get in... there's no passwords the get beneath my skin... i feel nothin until i know i can't help but to be pulled back like some foreskin...

in due time...

can we jus be friends.?. find the reason why it's possible that we can coexist... maybe take a lil time n simply jus live without the complications for a while... before relations change who we are to become a habit that smiles... jus let luv come in due time so like can open its eyes... possibly know a lil somethin prior to fallin in way to soon as that type of shit ends lives... those in which as if it were a past one that i've already walked through... i know u know of the betrayal of bein forgotten that comes connected to the abused... jus move n let shit be... come full circle when all that's left has come out to play in reality... seein all the hidden gestures so i too can feel my way through... along ur walls as i'm free to come n go as a friend who isn't rediculed... i ain't the clowns that have filled ur time as u now sit alone... i don't need the distractions as i'm on my way home... i've been down the twisted roads that led me here to be known... as i look at the use of who it is i could become to someone that can think about what's bein shown... can we jus live n come to whatever it's gonna be when we get there.?. bcuz if imma dig in when im ready, im goin to wanna feel someone who does more than care... packages don't begin as a wrapped present waitin to be torn apart... it takes a moment to fold the creases without settin off alarms... only fools pretend forever exists... as i'd rather have somethin real to hold on to as words wind up escapin the lips...

my lil toy...

tap n i'll let u up... yet know if i do imma think u jus ain't no fun... that u can't go through with ur own satisfactions... cuttin me short of goin all out n playin with u in ways i come out n taste the attraction... tied to ur homones bustin into a squirt all over me... doin things that'll define what climaxin is supposed to be... as the restraints are to fill the void in which u say u have... jus don;t give up on me n i won't half azz the feel of the most tenderized twitch that tingles with the pretty lil games... wigglin to the gasps as u cream... verbally connectin with the way u cannot help but to scream... beggin me to stop... yeah,,, that's hot... my lil toy that gives her body up for ur own twist triggered by submittin yourself to my pleasure of doin u til there's noting left... totally exhausted as every single nerve has been felt... 

on the run...

running to feel the need i have never felt... thoughts twisted n sent back into dreams to find more help... legs spinning n daring intentions to keep up with the rotation going all the way... away from the same ol games... words cannot pin the tale on what it can;t seem to catch...  n it's for the desire to have me close enough to grab... drifting in my own lil world jus to realize someone wants me to remain with them... to feel the emotion come over me for once that maybe i too have a friend... feeling home open up n allow me to come on in... i flee until touch reminds me of how human i can be as distance applies to all angles trying to get past the taste of lips... reaching in gets the avoidance in motion as the body creates new moves to get outta the line of fire...going as far as time will allow me to retreat until she comes along n wants to confide in me walking the wire... that fine line where knowing isn't a fucking thought that comes n goes... as life wraps its fingers in more than my seams trying to tare me from my own... 

In the eye...

Layin still listening to the way the storm has come... with every lil drop making it's presence known reachin for luv... Fall like we have in past relations even we've healed to make it here... As the breeze blows the rain sideways sometimes to land a lil closer then near... Flush n laid up in bed is the most logical way to spend the day... Feeling the body of choice to snuggle up under the downfall of relations fame... Hidden away from this crazy world lookin through the window safe n sound... As the wind whips dragging out the mood somehow found... Hearing whispers hold conversations in between topics jus to talk... Leaning in a lil more tighter in a moment making memories worth the pause... Drips even moistens the eyes that leak... Playing hooky from all the bs as hearts come back around n meet... Beneath the overflow cuttin loose from the sky still intact... Curled up as flush as two can get squeeze chuckles from a sweet spot wanting to interact... Smelling natural scents perform the actions of life doin its part... Feeling the way bodies relax in a set of arms... Pounding with the thunder coming to life... As each ting on the roof relates to feel of claiming mine... In total comfort wrapped up n spread across the bed that's become a mess... Thoughts play out on the hush side of reaching for more within the chest... With every crackle that rumbles the airwaves... Time resides with a friend in which feels the same...

it only wants the real thing...

i can feel it... n it's hiding somewhere it doesn't wanna be found... seems the chaos went to the rodeo n confronted a tornado standing strong... i hear it but it refuses to make a sound... i could pull it out yet, there's no fun in forcing the issue... it only bring tomorrow in some time to come to a dead end to nowhere that'll take so fuckin long... as sanity feels the restless nights calling to the changing of names... i can feel it scrumaging through the remains of what's already come along... it wants to wait for me to define the angle in which interest lingers in our direction.... it wants to know that it ain;t gonna come out jus to be put back where it was found with even more damage done... as i went in after it as it ran somewhere inside my mind... seems it knows of a few places still unchartered by friendly foes taring apart another home... it clings to the shadows as the darkness of night allows it to linger in the silence of reality... unafraid it finds jus enough light to watch me sleep... i know it's there bcuz it's a part of who it is i am... i'm jus respecting its wishes as it tells me not jus anyone is to step foot in to its dreams...

jus to have someone...

faces neva lie when eyes notice the changin of expressions doin everything they can turn the head... when the pain doesn't wanna be seen without luv as even bein in the middle of relations is lonelier than an empty bed... tones fade as hearts drift on to other emotions as if what was could've neva been enough... as friends lose sight of the common interest growin apart with time goin in different directions in a rush... only lips spit false hopes that promise things words have no business in... breakin dreams to be fulfilled by an other is the shallow ends of what's been hidden within... beneath the rubble sellin intentions that drop raw truths when honesty of the waste coulda been known well before hand... as it's all jus to have someone walkin a path to where two were headed for that split second until differences settle ifs n ands... fibs tell lusts pretendin to be somethin deeper is the wait... with patience to see if real is the same as tongues tastin worth thrown into the flames... blazin upon candle wicks until the fire gets a lil to close for comforts greed... burnin down a home for the scenery to switch the visual effect to feed the need... as memories pay the ultimate price tryin to find the moments in between that can be kept as keep sakes... knowin the chance goinin n the outcome was bound to take place... sayin goodbyes before they were ever meant to be said... luv'rs are led...

is it ur own.?.

who have all the bad dreams been about.?. there's always someone who's rounded that corner, hid them away n zipped the mouth... was it u holdin self in chains bcuz ur word wasn't allowed to be lifted due to who it is u truly are.?. did u allow an other to devour ur heart.?. as the tuck resided to attach emotions to the ghost like images left of them in ur thoughts... how long or are u still payin the cost.?. who is it trapped in ur head.?. jus fuckin with ur inability to consider the case to be dead... is it u keepin the torment goin so u don't havta let go.?. how long before the end steps up n takes control.?. have u eva considered that is wsn't them that was outta line first n foremost.?. jus raise ur glass to a toast... one that says good riddens knowin it was self that put another before ones own meanin here in the only thing we all share... can u believe it was u that convinced ur own mind that life wouldn't be the same without them clingin to the tare.?. as somewhere prior to them comin along u actually were alive... so who's fault is it ur trapped behind ur own fuckin eyes.?. seriously jus ask yourself, what if they neva came to cross ur path... who's face would it had been that would have replaced the blame so sad.?. could it be choice that did u in.?. finalizin ur own attempts to continue to open the flood gates within.., how well do ur hinges hang.?. behind ur locked up heart that took a shot that went bang... did u actually die inside.?. what is relations in ur mind.?. are u free to live without ur own ridicule for once.?. u know, trust yourself so u too can be luv'd.!.

Behind the madness...

I wanna make luv to someone as emotions explode long before orgasm every do... Firing on all pistons in tuned with the feel of bodies wrapping themselves in a unique situation where passion becomes brand new... Felt above the waste n below the neck as sexual use has found a calling to sway slow.... I wanna move with someone's motion with no clothes on jus to feel for myself that there is someone real enough to open up to every level of moans.... Speaking as every inch through n through are allowed to be used... With body language bein a top property to play with in ways fresh experiences are welcome to go boom.!. Goin hard in the satisfaction cut loose to enjoy fingertips take charge of the minds fantasies comin out... I wanna do some things my taste buds will crave to repeat on multiple occasions as oral defines the definition by mouth... To be with them in a precise moment where nothin else in the world could eva fuckin matter... Hearing the ticks of the heart drop gaurd n fall as deep as the pounding touches places that feels like they're gonna shatter... No bs, no foul play... Jus the nakedness of skin on skin sliding in sweat as expressions come the face... Locked eye to eye as lips take in the flava of hair bein pulled in real life... Vulnerable with the feel of I don't give a fuck bcuz I'm doin it to come alive... Let's talk about where we could possibly reside inside...  Throbes intensified by sighs... As home finds luv lost n goin without... Makin beautifully vibrant sounds... I wanna become what she can neva get enough of... Visualizing a bound form into someone I can trust... Unable to tell me no as truths cum better with a friend as a luv'r... I wanna fuck her like there is no other.!.

lifeless actions...

In the mind of the reason where it'll do the most damage... As emotion goes solo n tares metaphoric boundaries apart... Thoughts get occupied as time switches scenes... All bcuz luv tends to cling to the heart... Well, whatta u know... At the bottom has been delightful to say the least... Emotion steps up in true form... Thoughts dissect angles to correct the value of lifes needs... As babbling finds words n nothing more than expressions without sound... Fuck!!! I'm tired of living on paper... Wow...

Driftwood...

Steppin over limitations. Moving forward into the closest of the future that can meet me ready to get it in... No juke moves needed goin straight up the middle to wind up where I'm to reside... Life ain't done nothin but fall through as I took the lead of my own destination... The whereabouts in which where I wind up... Still unknown as I'm lookin for home as time is the only thing worth the wait... Running outta patience as distance closes I've been known here lately too hesitate... All bcuz not everyone truly knows of the power of luv... As I leave my standards on the horizon... So the morning can remind the lovely nights of what it is I expect... For it isn't much... Jus morals n respect n a few other things found in my writings... Finding picky isn't a necessity after all... It be the fear that holds me back... The one thing that refuses to let me forget of what people are capable of n willing to do lookin out for they're in number one... Some jus come unannounced to the findings of deeper flaws... N selfish isn't somethin that awaits me in my time off dying... Lost is a drift for I jus haven't been able to close the only door I need to shut behind me... It's the simple shit that has been let loose of... As minds reminds me of child like thoughts unable to free themselves from departed dreams... Real fun n enjoyment is what I rest to have... Jus goin on about my way... Takin notice in actions along the way... N it comes to be that others, when told they ain't for me, get somewhat mad... But I know what it is I'd luv to keep in my life... That for sure thing that speaks... Who is it imma truly wanna begin to feel n find that one person passing them by bcuz of takin the first thing that came through n filled a void.?. Been there n done it n I ain't gonna make me sad... Getting along is not connectimg past a friendship n this I know... I've come to pass those kinda moments that only end up at dead ends feeling paused... I'm sidelined n keeping the bench warm... Goin with the movements that rectify who it is I am in my zone...

Idled out...

There's no emotion I can come to open... I cannot feel a thing worth the time of hoping... There's something within that jus isn't working right... I try to pry a crack to release what it is behind my eyes... Yet I don't know how to flip the switch... I turn away from everything within my grip... The grasp isn't feeling to urge to slip into relations... Seems there's a lil more than what I thought goin on with the dead end flirtations... I ain't broken n this I know... My consciousness jus ain't with the whole luv without a home... I have interest in opened mouths that wonder why I jus don't wanna be felt... Others keep goin as I watch them walk away as their own heart melts... I hold nothin in that was to be removed... Past times have come n gone n are way beyond through... I jus cannot come to lookin long term as hrs feels like an eternity... Like something I'd to be worthy of me... I know I'm nothin special to say the least... N I ain't one for building myself up with a need to have them on their knees... My heart jus saying lettin anything in... N my thinking process backs the movement in which saves my grin... Not that someone cannot add to my passions trapped inside... It's jus a lil thing of outta mind, out to a sight... I can't be hurt if I linger along the likings of trust... Even though I'd luv to fall deeper than thrusts... As hands have opened to me willingly... All to close within me in them submitting wings... They fly away as I never look back... N I don't mean to cause no pain, it's jus, I'm not looking for anything until it finds me in the middle of a laugh... I'm not built for another round of the end result of self forced to give up again... There's only one person that has a chance to get in n land... N right now I honestly don't know who she is... But I'm listening to words sittin upon useful lips... As direction looks around for a better way to live... With one question as if yet unanswered n that is, what is it I cannot refuse to give.?.

Wondering...

I wouldn't know if you'd be listening with the read along as if ur eyes were to catch a piece of me waitin on u to come the fuck on... Only if these words could reach u wherever you'd be doin what it is u do wondering of me n where'd I find myself movin on the goin... Then again, who's to say if open up n allow u to touch me somewhere attachments do the hurting as luv tends to walk away... I'm jus one man livin on the edge of the jus nothin goin on n I've about had enough of life as it's gone astray... Ain't shit ever started the same here as my legs keep spinnin beneath me as if I have no quit... Time jus ticks as memories aren't allowed to be kept over n again as I alone have went invest jus wondering when n where we'd click...