my lil piece of mind

In bed beside my best friend.
She's my comfort from deep within.
A female like no other.
Its the end of the day n MANDY is more than my lover.
My one gettin at life with n choosing me.
Layin close enough to feel my dreams.
A place to her that feels like home.
As her ear rides my heartbeats beating moan.
Mine is hers n hers is mine.
Together we're individually two of a kind.
Deep within my mind is where she's been for so long.
N I try to express to her, over her I'm so far gone, I'm drawn.
Stroking her hair I let her know I'm always gonna be here.
U see I can touch for the first time n feel the real tears.
This is the one I've waited for my whole life.
Two as one MANDY is MY wife.
So snug she wraps herself around me.
I truly feel luv'd by someone in which I believe.
As my passion for her fills my eyes.
I jus gotta say, it's about fucking time!
The best part is I'm ready for her, as a man.
I was lost for years not knowing where to stand.
I didn't even know who I was all the way.
But she changed that one November day.
I cherish this human being as precious her life is.
N it's her n I n we can most definitely can do this.
Stripped to bare necessities like u wouldn't believe.
Yet each day we're stronger as we breath.
Connected in our souls to have a chance to simply luv.
Even the space in between us has vanished without a fuss.
Two to the one that has became luv's design.
Emotions to this day has never once chose to hide.
My lil piece of mind, I can relate to u.
Its us written here for a twinkle in eternities truth.
Forever takin up a bit a space jus for us.
Sharin an unbreakable bond of what always was.
True luv living in a smile that smiles back.
N I jus caught myself in the middle of sigh thinkin, at last!

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If u ask me I'm no longer in my own point of view.
Abscent in the mirror talkin to self all because of u.
Findin there's more to life than what lingers in my own mind.
Diggin into the depths of what u have to offer in our time.
Goodness gracious woman, where in the hell have u been?
I'm standing firm n correct for once with an honest grin.
Tappin out twiddling thumps reminding me in every line.
Writtin our story from a single point of view added

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hovering with a piece of mind

I'd luv to see us through God's point of view.
What ever religion may be right for a angle so new.
To collect the images captured behind his eyes.
Lookin down upon us all with a visual display so high.
Observing the creation as sight takes away my breath.
Just once to gather the peace gathered in a moment's best.
Hovering with a piece of mind to last a life time like no other.
As still as the space in which I rest watching my sisters n brothers.

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tweet chirp whistle listen

Tweets tweeting tweet tweetlin tweeters tweeted.
Chirpin chirpers chirp chirped chirps.
Whistle whistlin whistler whistles whistled.
Listened listener listens listenin listen.

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am i

Am I the same in ur head when I'm not around?
Speakin of me all across this town.
Does my name hold up in moments alone?
Or behind my back when ur on the phone?
Who am I when I can not hear?
Is there somethin I'm missing or perhaps should fear?
Is ur tone remaining the same?
With conversations about our flame.
What do I become when absent so briefly?
How of me r u so needing?
If I wasn't here right now.
How would my name truly sound?
In another room, outside, or even gone.
When u speak do I still belong?
If I were to listen without ur permission.
Do I remain within ur affection?
R u real when ur away from me?
Or am I somethin other than ur dream?
Jus let me hear what u have to say.
When u don't think I'm witness to the game.
What am I when ur eyes close shut.
Do I resemble somethin in the form of luv?
Or the same as if ur were to awaken?
R u real or r u fakin?
Lemme tap into ur secrets without u knowing.
Will I hear ur voice exploding?
With words rippling ears hidden from sight.
Or am I simply worth the fight?
Jus to hear me come from it lips.
Will let me know how I exist.

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a piece missing within

When you feel it breaking, and it smothers air as thin as it flows.
As the bond weakens from the pressure rising slow.
Right in the middle of truth meeting confusion.
Before stability let's loose and grabs ahold of the conclusion.
All the while stumbling within the emotions that becomes to much.
Fading away from like as the heart still loves.
Snapping comfort in two, separated from the past.
Waiting on time to help make it last.
Easing a transforming whole into a void that's unfixable.
Once a loss is unreachable and irreplaceable.
Left with memories stopped never to be made.
Digging for a single reason so deep to remain the same.
Days will drift away sitting with dawn claiming the skies.
Rambling with self of moments that will not hide.
Somehow empty and refusing to let go of what matters.
Trying to remember the chuckles within the laughter.
As if a pause lengthens to long, soon to be gone.
Wonderin how did self wind up bein completely wrong.
It's hard losing patience when silence mutes the tongue.
There's a piece missing within as the soul never wanted to be numb.

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beside open air circlin

Limits on the line.
Comin around to about time.
Standin in front of what is loved.
Alone facing protections brush.
Standards defended within.
Beside open air circlin.
On the edge lookin onward.
Eyes opened to peeking at the awkward.
Holdin balance in a loose grip.
Ignorin ignorant gabbin lips.
In frame of whats right here as of now.
N no one has even showed me how.

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i experience the emotion

Takin valuable irreplaceable turns.
Waiting on ur next move.
In moments we sit n we learn.
Givin hints with clues.
Figuring out my own.
Back n forth accepted as we go.
Bouncin off what has been thrown.
Covers bein blown.
I luv playing without the games.
Makes me feel complete.
I'm also glad I call ur name.
N I experience the emotion from my head to my feet.

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comfort

If I were still in luv with u as u walked outta my life.
What would u expect of me as u refused to be my wife?
For future reference tell me now who I'm suppose to become.
So I know I'd be doin the right thing by u as u run.
If it was as soon as tomorrow ending loves call.
Tell me how u could disown fate as it stalls.
In some time to come nearing the edge dropping off.
Allow the lips to feel the comfort in jus sayin it out loud.
Bein divided by the smoke separated by the head in the cloud.
Do u think u could remember me in the middle of a pause?
In between here n gone for one more moment of us.
Do u believe I could actually watch u give up on luv?
Then be the same after ur presence has had its effect.
After memories were done bein made residing in the chest.
Where would I go to find the comfort away from ur touch?
Speak to me as we cling to share our own way of luv.
Would I be given a chance to correct actions outta wack?
Let me know the possibilities now that we sit here in luv's path.
Is there more to us if a single second crossed u wrong?
Maybe feeling u never have nor ever could belong.
I wanna know the outcome of passin over the bonds comfort.
Jus for fyi's purpose, I'd need a continuance if all has failed comin forth.
For what the difference of the present before what is to come?
Is it in ur heart to fight of give up on the one?
If the twist came n was face to face with ur smile eroding.
When could u actually decide to leave emotions exploding.
Comfort me as a friend n attempt to explore words of reason.
While we're still madly in luv with the change of seasons.

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sharing paths in a lifetime

Thumbs fighting as they move.
Wrestlin over letters speaking of u.
Back n forth tapping on emotions juice.
Expression worth put to use.

Pound for pound thumping what use to be a dream.
Livin in ur presence I am complete.
Round n round words form where the connection meets.
Bouncin off the musical keyboards treat.

Singin to my souls passion clinging to u know who.
Twiddle a rhyme of honest truth.
Puttin time down where it belongs as proof.
Jus wanting to spend moments together so true.

Racin thumb prints smudgin the present.
Into an act of pen men ship speaking of fate bein meant.
Set loose for eyes to see the happiness within as a gent.
Finally free in ways told other than with lips that vent.

Forever to be tangled n mixed with only u by my side.
Our story written sharing paths in a lifetime.
To live on by thumbs tellin all by pressing out their find.
Read periodically placing us in someones mind.

Squeezing drips dotting eyes upon the sight up high.
Paper bonds two souls as one line after line.
Moldin an image made by the power of luv's two of a kind.
Tapping wigglin tips that will never be done on mine.

Claimed as a friend the pitter patter is felt.
Butterflies flap as tapping thumbs r dealt.
Keepin it as real as the sun giving life a chance for u n I to melt.
In the middle of needin one an others help.

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the title

I wanna hit it like I know I can't break it.
N imma have fun tryin as I tame ur fix.
Gimme some of that soft tap u got hidden down there.
I jus need ta feel ya depths changing gears.
I got one bad case of u as no other will do.
Notice how my move, I'm putting to use.
I want ur sexuality to open to true skills.
Mess around n find ya self clinging to ya fill.
I'm here settin the beef on the table.
Feinin to be alone for a bit playing below the naval.
Excessively enjoyin every inch whippin the package.
Lemme take time by showin it craves to be damaged.
I havta make luv, freak, fuck, turn out ur hormones.
Satisfaction awaits the title standing alone........

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r u serious

Do u know where ur heart is......
Could it be drowning in ya secrets......
Is it u think I'm that naive......
Maybe ok with living with the sound that defeats....
Please help me understand......
Where do lies fit into this equation......
When is it time to walk away.....
Y do u feed my frustration....
How does life wind up from here..
Who's to really blame.....
Is it I'm suppose to accept betrayal...
Is it not suppose to hurt bein called names........
How's that fair.........
Where's my friend.........
N how's this suppose to work..
Can this be the end.........
Did u forget about me........
Am I here for ur own gain....
Where do I fit in.
What if I don't wanna play....
Who's loss is this......
R u serious...........
How in the fuck am I suppose to react...
Y dies it seem ur not half bit curious..
Do u know I know a few things......
What if I can't live a certain way...
U even considered I have that right........
Can u feel my pain....
What have I gotten myself into...
Wheres the hidden intentions u hide.
R they real enough to be the truth............
Do we truly co-inside.........
Is ur own that needy..
Does it mean to cause so much pain.....
What do I do now............
How do u feel to know u drove me insane....
Y all the hush behind my back.
Don't u think I'm watching u...............
Maybe u jus don't give a fuck..........
Am I to jus allow this to happen...
How is that lil thing called touch..............
Can u find what's leaving soon..
Or do u even realize what ur destroyin.
If tonight isn't a wake up call......
Do u think i'll be here in the mornin?

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run away with who youve been

care. somewhere along the lines.
share. dare to be creative somehow before its time.
face. invade the space air forces in between.
taste. the days lips made for dreams.
take. make a moments notice known.
fate. awaits pleasure willin to be shown.
hold. the unfoldin of emotions gathered.
mold. lovs roll being captured.
bend. for the mendin of an other.
defend. a friend as a lover.
enjoy. a void filled within the heart.
choice. with a voice speakin in art.
become. one listening to the comfort settlin in.
cum. run away with who youve been.

once again

Just a bit of truth beneath the tongue.
Held in for selfishness's own plunge.
Ears can not hear a friend's silence.
Burnin the heart picking up speed with mileage.
Faster the pulse races closer to disaster.
Fillin holes punched by frustration with plaster.
The middle is somewhere in between close to the other.
Wonderin if honesty isn't a necessity, y me as a luv'r?
Left in the black then the white areas outside of grays.
Once again giving in on y ur needed to stay.
Where's the line when an agreement was madec
Jus before the emotions let loose fade.

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saddening effect

Shifting thoughts move the eyes as the head follows.
I don't feel like much of anything anymore, jus hollow.
Whispers crawl through the mind haunting to self.
In a state of bein alone, I believe I need help.
Somethings goin wrong inside where no one can see.
Confusion bounces of my shell as others watch me dream.
Idk what's goin on day to day as friends have shown faces.
Uncertain of the clearity in an others intentions failin embraces.
Questions riddle the info eating behind lids shut to be ignored.
I haven't a clue to how I fell to lies n secrets hidden, y for?
Slipping I'm caving beneath the skin peeking at smiles.
Knowin imma never be met makes me less than worth while.
Saddening effect twists a change of pace colliding with the best thing ever.
Noticin how partnership is losing interest in me, can I be better?
Where does it leave me when more is to be said from lips that don't speak?
Truths blanketed by what I need to know as nothin more is leaked.
There's somethin in the way of my gut tellin me to explore.
Yet I don't wanna know the answers to the fear in my core.

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way

In a way of realism, be in the way.
Make the scene behind u seem so far away.
Stand in between me n where I was goin.
Make it known that's the direction ur rollin.
T-bone me, show me what I haven't learned.
Four way, one direction transforming words.
Don't forget to jus do what comes natural.
Find hearts in a mingle so compatible.

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misunderstood n unheard

Settled yet restless.
Dead calm gasping breathes.
Unmatched yet matched.
Idknows opposite of facts.
Giving in yet standing firm.
Misunderstood n unheard.
Blank stares form inside a smile.
Ends calling to mommy like a small child.
Down the hatch tipped ever bitter.
Same expression with or without the liqueur.
Here's an unthinkable thought.
Alone once met now to damn soft.
Swimmin in sand witnessing truths.
Eyes slamming shut from clues.
Loads to much by self's moan.
Puttin down subtle crossroads.
Now then back when here is different again.
Half way trying is absent, and?
Partners advantage unseen yet noticed.
Luv loses hope blurring focus.

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stuck in times path

Winding down closer to outta time.
Coming up short rattling the mind.
Seeking a way beyond the boundaries.
Waiting for answers made for diaries.
Forced to stand still legs push on the run.
Fingers tap to the beat of the hearts drum.
Stuck in times path never to change demeanor.
Purpose driving wills meaning standing as a dreamer.
Fight swings at every bob forcing a weave.
Toes sit n cling at the line wiggling with need.

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the flow

Settled like dirt in a cool rain. Somethings calmed the nerve of open space. Easy motion sways in the trees. Somewhat relaxing for a moment to breathe. Taking the edge off of age old patterns. Releasing the mind from the irrelevance to what truly matters. Jus watching the breeze flow in between the leaves comforts the soul. Havin one single day to sit back n be with time as it unfolds. Head tilted in a shift layed in adjustment. Movement as slow as life hovering about so hesitant. Goin with the flow haulting in the presence of day. Knowing once it fades nothing will remain the same.

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wrapped n filled

Click click. As the door closes.
What ur in for is in an act of clotheless.
Flip, flame. Candle lit by the fire.
One by one. Playing into desires.
Movement slow. Eyes connect.
Speakin soft with respect.
The moment of truths at hand.
Breakin a still stand.
Fingers slide as knees crawl.
Up the body comin to ur vault.
Pausing briefly. Here I come.
Loops moving n on the run.
Past the navel to a set of twins.
Findin my way to ur grin.
Hoverin calmly. Staring u down.
Kiss kiss the face all around.
Givin time n patience with luv.
Lower I go. Bodies touch.
Feel me land easy. Never to fast.
Pleasure. Makin the moment last.
Like candy ur so sweet. Mmmm.
Comfortable we lay. Hmmm.
Its time. Below the waist I go.
Tongue rolls. Showin u how u were meant to flow.
Face buried. Enjoyin the skill.
U feel so good. On the tastebuds fill.
Grab my head. Yeah jus like that.
The moments urself. Make it last.
1, 2, 3 times straight. Fourth even longer.
Breaking to climb inside. Oooh.
Fittin jus right. Deep with moves.
Pullin a thrust pulsating. Cum.
I luv the moment when u feel the rush.
There. Get it. Get it girl.
Activatin the hips I twirl.
4 n 5. Ur in for it.
With every inch of this stick.
Wrapped n filled. Damn, I fucking luv u.
Falling back to ur wet spot. Momentarily on mute.
I see it in ur eyes. Lappin the delicious fluid.
Speakin in a international language so fluent.
6 to the 7th. Straight to the eight.
How does it feel to have me as ur mate?
Now my turn. Long n hard.
Poundin at ur orgasms. Doin my Part.
Losin count. I'm over ran with hormones.
OMFG! Toes bend as I moan..........

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ruined

Backs turned as faces change.
Rearranging life's same untamed.
Direction unknown lost n amazed.
Blame damaging sight dazed.
Clashing intensions without gain.
Attaching thoughts to words enslaved.
Hate riddles uncontrolled pain.
Playin right n wrong games.
Tempers inflamed before the rain.
Draining a bond literally slayed.
Slaughtered in the ends remains.
One seed gone bad loose in the brain.
Ruined beyond imaginable claim.
Repair destroyed between the grain.
So far distant from range.
Missing pictures in frames.

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i got u

come along....

follow my lead.

dont worry.

i know what im doin.

i got u.

jus ease the tension.

its been to damn long.

imma do somethin for ya.

if u allow me to.

cuz i see it in ya eyes.

its there.

in a cold stare.

i know for a fact youve never.

ssshhh.

relax!

ur in good hands.

i'll take ny time.

dont worry.

ur about to live the dream.

put a lil faith in me.

i got skills.

n the fact is you've never.

its shows.

ur frustrated.

what?

dont u know what im tryin to say.

lemme show u.

i got the time.

to give u satisfaction.

al i need is for u to be willin.

r u able?

r u ready?

its ok.

imma blow ur mind.

cuz youve never had a real orgasm.

i can tell.

its so fuckin obvious.

but have no fear.

i got what u need............

dont be affraid to go with the flow.

here we go.

i got u

come along....

follow my lead.

dont worry.

i know what im doin.

i got u.

jus ease the tension.

its been to damn long.

imma do somethin for ya.

if u allow me to.

cuz i see it in ya eyes.

its there.

in a cold stare.

i know for a fact youve never.

ssshhh.

relax!

ur in good hands.

i'll take ny time.

dont worry.

ur about to live the dream.

put a lil faith in me.

i got skills.

n the fact is you've never.

its shows.

ur frustrated.

what?

dont u know what im tryin to say.

lemme show u.

i got the time.

to give u satisfaction.

al i need is for u to be willin.

r u able?

r u ready?

its ok.

imma blow ur mind.

cuz youve never had a real orgasm.

i can tell.

its so fuckin obvious.

but have no fear.

i got what u need............

dont be affraid to go with the flow.

here we go.

as lips form conversation

With every syllable u speak, ripples crash like waves as the flow of ur luv sounds my name.
Its the movement of ur lips as words reach for my ears, comforting the emotions gripped like a fist.
Tell me again what it is u love about me in a way I've become an irresistible touch.
Then listen to the response as I rattle my own feelings released in a dibble dabble.
Drips leaking from the shells hidden truths rolling as I quietly tell.
Shaping ur name in perfect form of how u brought me back to the norm.
I wanna here u say what the core within can not help but to explore.
N i'll follow with the depths untouched til now as we meet at the lips.
Talk to me in a way confidentiality will never be broken, as u, i'll always be holding.
Back n forth giving purpose behind the actions together that r felt n known forever.
Become one with me n find me as I do u in our own lil weird way in time.
All u havta do is open up n live jus a lil as us will form somewhere in the middle.

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louder yells scream

Stubborn eyes bouncin off stares direct aim.
Slicin through airs flow forcing a gust carrying names.
Words spit from the tongue not meant to be said.
In the heat of the battles defense plays to protect the head.
Controlled by the hearts emotional twist that gets in the way.
Feelin alone in the middle of confrontations relentless pain.
At it with a friend that doesn't deserve the situation takin place.
Watchin the frustration build on what was once a luv'n face.
Triggerin a nerve of betrayal that seems to defend.
As if the lines were over stepped n this is the end.
Feelings get hurt in time of one backing down.
Yet neither give ground as filth falls from the mouth.
Arguin the point of self bein right as we all do.
Louder yells scream for the bed is now a lonely noose.
Cold n bigger than just one body needs for comfort.
As muted vocals hush the sound of that hover.
Like a red halo that glows within the night's depths.
Its gonna be a while before all is normal of what's left.

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a stares drizzle

It's the way u look at her.
Even a man can have a twinkle.
Set loose upon her presence.
Deep in a stares drizzle.
Leakin a single drip of luv.
As she's witness to true emotion.
Never held back for the chance.
In a visual display of devotion.....
AILOWY!

silently active

A man never hides behind his ego.
Nor gives falsifications let loose into echoes.
He docent lie for he has no reason for the tongue to twist.
A sure thing that's guaranteed as pure as life's gift.
A real individual that gives his all n watches time change.
Sitting back just to enjoy the luv he shares on the main stage.
The truth is in his actions that r silently active.
N all he'll ever need is a lil ladies hand to help him live.

AILOWY!

Nov. 29TH 2011

LORD I KNOW ITS BEEN A LONG TIME N I FEEL SO FAR AWAY FROM U. BUT I JUS WANNA SAY AS I SIT HERE LOOKIN AT MY LIL MAN ALL GROWN UP N BUSTED UP, THANK U FOR SPARIN HIM ON THIS DAY N NOT TAKIN HIM 2 SOON. WE'RE NOT DONE LUVIN HIM.

happy groove

I've never been happier in my life.
There's this lil lady I've known for so long that has become my wife.
If it gets any better I'm going to explode and the love will trickle down like rain on those closest to me as they will feel their heart ease with the capability of exhaling.
I've been given a woman that makes so much difference who hasn't failed me.
Kids who has kept me walking a straight line.
Keeping ahead of the pace I've stayed time after time.
Friends that look after my best interests.
Ones if anything happened to I'd miss.
Thank you god for giving me the chance to simply breath.
I'm truly blessed.
For the ability to think for myself and a heart that has figured out how to express itself with clarity.
All that's expected is is for me to share me.
I found my groove!
As I've been put to use.

thinking behind the blinking

If u speak, ur wrong.
It's the same old song.
If ur silent u can't win.
Lights fading to dim.
If self is forward, words hurt.
As they're aimed words.
If u shy away, somethings not right.
Morning to night.
If emotions feel, u feed in.
Beginning how to live.
If they don't u don't care.
Just because u won't dare.
If u want something, ur selfish.
Don't go for it ur helpless.
If u give, u spoil.
Bursting boils.
If u believe in ur opinion, its all about u.
There is no truce.
If u take more interest in someone else's, ur not true to u.
Who knew?
If all u want is time, it ticks away.
During the duration of ur stay.
If u want it to hurry.
There will be many worries.
It takes to long.
To feel u belong.
Just thinking.
behind the blinking.

lil by lil

There's a time in every mans life where he truly wakes up.

Lil by lil, enough is enough.

Every situation is so unique.

Every 5 to 10 he's someone more complete.

Changed by time given wisdom's gift.

Putting fools aside released from their grip.

In a mans world reality is his only friend.

Truth n facts balance his constant bend.

peep

Its when communication breaks down n shits to high to walk through.

In these moments is when it counts the most as feelings begin to lose.

Who is it that makes a stand in the mist of the battle that first says I luv u?

Showing an other the presence of mind that even in the hardest of times they mean something to use........

That is when actions are proving with more than intentions seeking purpose!

Making them feeling more than the pits deep down known as worthless........................peep.

the calmin rush

When words r a bit to much. N all that's needed is a gentle touch. Its simply feelin the luv in the middle of bein flush that gives the calmin rush. In a moment when bein luv'd is a need. N freein unanswered questions asked within untold dreams ins the way arms r wrapped as u tilt to lean. Damn near fallin n closer to an other than life can be. Its when the comfort makes the difference. To be felt the same as self in a breif sigh of silence. Its havin deliverance in an embrace that emotions find more than the callin of balance....... unwindin into a perfect alliance.

watch ya step

The simplest things in life makes the difference. Staying behind the perimeter of pointed picked fences. Anything more u will get side tracked. Out of bounds will never last. Watch ya step for life has twists. Some times speaking with loose lips. Keep ya mind intact. Know the purpose that uses the facts.........head over heart til the end. Finding a true friend. Tilted sideways, anything more than whats needed is distraction. Responding to others reactions. So if u find yourself dealing with more than whats needed. Somethings need to be weeded. Over running the mind impacted. To tight for thoughts in a small package..... peep!

earned...... stay

If u can't earn ur place.................... U can't enjoy ur stay.

U have to work at everything........... Or everything will lead u to nothing.

Day by day with head over heart...... Knowin how to do selfs part.

Doin all one can in every way.......... To laugh with a single giggle that luvs to play.....

waking in the morning with purpose. So loved ones don't feel worthless.

Steppin lively putting in the time....... To slack only plays games on the mind.

Moments r what counts the most..... Otherwise the heart will roast.

Showing true emotion in the face....  Knockin one out the park from home plate.....

Lord. On behalf of us all. When our time comes to call. Take each n every one of us home. Allow our spirits to roam. Good or bad we r only human in the flesh. Here on earth doin our best. Each n every one of us needs ur presence. It is us ur children asking for u to allow us into heaven without hesitance.

The simple necessities...

What does happiness mean to u?
Dig inside self n find the truth.
When everything is subject to change.
N life at any moment can be rearranged.
What is it u do to hold on?
Knowing tomorrow will still be going.
Who instead of self comes first?
Giving interest to a friends worth.
Breaking down the meaning within.
Understand what makes u grin.
Y do u do what u do for who?
What purpose do they have to use?
Sit with self n conversate openly.
What if what u know were to end suddenly.
Who's fault would it be?
Who failed fulfilling a dream?
Take a moment n realize the reasons.
Cuz if u don't, life will change as quick as the four seasons.

HOW FAST

LICKIN MY LIPS N MAKIN IT LOOK SMOOTH LIKE L.L.

TAKE NOTICE CUZ U KNOW THATS SHITS HOT.

COOL LIKE THE J THAT BEGINS THE MIDDLE OF YA NAME.

MAKIN U THINK BOUT MY TONGUE ON YA G SPOT.

TEASIN U WITH A TWIRL OF A FINE TUNED SKILL.

I GOT U STARIN N U PROBABLY WONT BE ABLE TO STOP THINKIN.

SO WHAT IS IT THATS ON YA CURIOUS MIND PLAYIN QUIETLY?

YET THE REAL QUESTION IS, HOW FAST DO YA WANT ME TO GO DOWN N SINK IN?......

UMPFH!

Idk! I haven't a clue. I'm stuck. Puzzled. Laughin at self. Losin my mind. Hmmm. Only if I could tell ya. Then I'd know to. Wish I did. Wonder if I ever will. Lost. Speechless. Heads on swivel. Passin time. I think I thought about it. Yet got no reply. I got kicked outta my own damn mind. Pricless. UMPFH! Oh well. I guess.....

when?

When is the level of respect met?
When truths n trust isn't played like Russian roulette.
When stepping over the line to be with someone.
When does one know behind honesty there is luv?
When can the guard relax n be equal as one?
When tryin to figure an others angle on so much.
When does a pair connect without questions that linger?
When becoming whole winds up on a finger.
When time tells all n allows true emotion to live.
When one knows best interest comes with.
When is the guarantees presence truly felt?
When a couple stands face to face without stealth.
When is secrets layer at the doorstep of sake?
When bein delivered the satisfaction of fate.
When can self open up n free whom they r?
When in that moment it's not another playing the part...

at the change

When the heads to heavy for shoulder, where does it lay?
As a friend misplaces time, where to does it slip away?
When a moment is a bit much to give, where is one's place?
If awake with self is a wonder, where can one go to hide from the day?
When a lil sum sum is all that's needed, how does one fit in to a frame?
After actions call out in silence, when does muted words remain the same?
Changing the face that resembles the hearts smile, when, after bein claimed?
If shown the opposite of speech, who's to believe the gain?
Passed over on self's interests, can u feel the pain?
If u couldn't be seen standing in sight, is it ur tamed?
When the takin for granted has begun, how did things get rearranged?
In the middle of emotions met, how does luv turn n walk in the riain?

men

What is a man? When do we become one? When does one know he's made it? Earning the title............... it's not until he is on his death bed as his family surrounds him. Knowin he has done everything possible to do more than what was expected of him. Ready to pass the torch. Learnin as he was taught. Loved as he was loved. Felt as he enjoyed those in his life. In the last moments is when we males realize if we have indeed became a man. For it will be known without a word bein spoke. He knows what he is. A man knows when he has crossed into an elite group of individuals not all of us can understand. Not a moment sooner. Anyone who claims to be a man before their time, hasn't a clue of what a man is. We all still have much to learn. Simply put, on the road to becoming a man, one will learn of himself daily n fix his flaws as he fills his shoes eventually everyday!

what r u about?

Be about it if ur about it. Not some of the time. All of the time. Give ur life ur best cuz ur at ur best. Take nothin for granted for life has been granted. Give purpose to those around u. U know they luv u. Show with proof through actions. Before every reaction is ur action. Allow an other to enjoy balance. Match them on the teeter attempting the balance. If those around u r worth it. When it comes to ur ground u should hold it.

sharted

Once upon a time, way back when. 30 some odd years ago. My daddy sharted. N out came a squirt as it fell outta his crack n ran down his leg. On contact of meeting the ground there was a splatter as it bounced upward in form n there I was. My daddy shit me out. So here I am........

real true luv

If luv is what u share. Then standing behind someone weather their right or wrong isn't a problem. Standin in front of them to protect them you'd lay ur life on the line right? Standing beside them as a partner til the end isn't to long. Leaning Back to back to watch their back as their other art of eyes as a friend til the end. N face to face whenever u can find the time to tell them u luv em is always on the mind. That is if u truly luv em.

ur still my daddy!

Hey papa.

I just wanna say I luv ya.

Since I was little I was a mama's boy.

But truth be known before that joy.

I was daddies buddy.

Yeah I remember how you loved me.

I was a little image of you looking up.

Only wanting a hug.

I can still hear Bob Segar playing.

I think of you every time he gets to singing.

And the night you scared us from beneath the bed.

I thought the boogie man had me and I was dead.

You were my daddy.

Then you were gone as if a dream.

From time to time I'd see your face.

I knew you cared as your love for me wasn't a waste.

I really didn't understand what had happened back then.

But every time I felt alone I thought of you being at least a friend.

Mama kept you away for unknown reasons.

Stopping by when you could, no matter what the season.

I kept a place for you in my heart.

Always have from the start.

And I hope you know I was in heaven in Zanesville that one winter in 89.

My daddy came for me once upon a time.

More years fell away as I thought of you.

Becoming a daddy myself I felt the love from you.

Turning my devotion to my own little me.

I gave him my longest running dream.

To be the daddy I knew when I came into this world.

My mothers name was Phyl and my daddies name was Earl.

As moments slipped further away I searched.

Finding you a bit to late I learned.

Moving just before contact the moment escaped.

Even missed grandpops by a few months and some odd days.  

Then out of the blue there you were.

Looking for me in return.

My ol man!

I knew you cared.

Know after everything, I love you to.

All I want is to put us back to use.

We lost so many memories never made.

But here we are, today.

Trying to find the pieces that fit just right.

Putting a puzzle together of our own lost life.

I don't know how much time we left.

Just know if needed I'd give you the heart outta my chest.

I've missed your presence every since I can remember.

When I was young I always thought we'd be forever.

I forgive what needs to be forgiven.

For we are still living.

I now have a brief moment to spend with you.

Something through the years I wanted to come true.

So from me to u I just wanna let u know.

As the emotions behind the hidden tears that flow.

You are my Daddy and I am still Butchie.

I have only one question and that is, how much did you miss me?

You see hearing your voice always makes me smile.

So if you could keep calling every once in a while.

Because through they years of growing from a wee bit lad.

It w

as worth every moment to finally be able to call you my dad.

I just wanna be a kid again as you hold me in your arms.

Maybe once again let me drive the car.

I love you daddy....... can you say I love you son?

I don't wanna wait til it's to late and life is done.

This is not the easiest thing for me.

On this situation I've never attempted to speak.

It's something I've hidden and tucked away.

It's funny how life has its own weird way.

So if this strikes a nerve and pulls a tear down your face.

Know your not the only one that cried as emotions raced. 

I just had to tell you that your the only daddy I have.

Finally, with a chance to make it last.
I hope this gives you some comfort in your heart.
As i lifts the bars.

Ol man, papa..... ur still my daddy!

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jus to find, to find

To attempt an other. Givin self as a luv'r.

Jus to see if it's possible. Or becomes hostel.

To give reason to interest. Met one at their best.

Jus to find a friend. Before it all ends.

To tempt luvs fate. As lifelong mates.

Jus to unfold the creases. Fillin in the pieces.

To notice the comfort. As emotion come forth.

Jus to be witnessed. Layin down defenses.

To give purpose. In a way life will hurt less.

Jus to help a smile. N be a part of it for a while.

To calm the nerve. Actions before words.

Jus to  feel alive. Never again hide.

To find truth in passion. Hearts collidin n crashing.

Jus to force the issue. To figure out if I'd miss u.

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naw

Fiddling fast half past outlastin the sleeps crash.

Watchin the snooze on cruise control rule the blues.

Made to accept the distant mindsets different from aspects.

One lays as still as will holdin the spill of emotions absent from the grill.

Keepin focus of hocus pocus tryin not to feel hopeless.

Nerves crawl n actions stalling n standing strong sayin naw.

It can't be the heartbeat needing a dream to set thoughts free.

As the mind finds time to ignore blind eyes that lie.

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the distance

I am the distance at a far.

Settled in between the stars.

Driftin on the other side of the wind.

On the edge of sights spin.

Rollin on the horizons peek.

Out there where I can only be seen.

Layin in the eyes at temptations ease.

Givin dreams a place to feel free.

Relaxing on the clouds so soft.

Floatin with sounds fluctuating cause.

I'm there jus within notice.

To be witnessed when put into focus.

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as the truths close

just in thought, restless and waiting on the unwritten answers.
a bit uneasy, patiently tempting the fates question of danger.
frozen still and riding on nerves, biting the lips fold.
emotions hold back on the feeding, as the truths r close to being told.
the outcome seems unwanted, needing to know the facts.
so long its been behind the mentioned, hearing the words at last.
here and now has become the moment, not wanting to listen.
slowly the mouth shapes form, filling up with whats been missing.
how long the pause that felt like an eternity, taking its time.
the wonder of the torture or pleasant peace, toeing the line.
sound begins to spill, springing from the tongues loosened twist.
to know is all that was ever to be known, the best is wished.

set aside

Here I am awakened by life's answers to questions never asked.

The realization of the truth has smacked me hard enough to remove the mask.

How in the hell did I not see the angle I've gotten lost in?

Life is easing along n I'm paused unable to remember why it is I live.

I'm here in the middle of the night with a clear mind straight outta a dream.

Somehow I stoped living for what was always considered me.

The raw concept of the situation is considerably unfair.

But I know the reasons n purpose in which I truly care.

N the complications are evident, I need some me time.

Always there for others putting self aside.

As if I no longer exist as I do nothing for me anymore.

In everyone else's world doin what they want as they do nothin I'd like to explore.

I've gotten away from living in one sense to living in another sense.

It doesn't seem to make sense but perfect sense is understandably on defense.

I put me on the sidelines to watch me become in another world.

Along side the best friend a man could ever have in a girl.

How did I forget how to enjoy me when I enjoy so much?

When my calling has come n I'm so madly in luv.

Can I figure out a way to balance the task of the matter in my hands?

I wanna do things I put on hold to earn a luv worth times sand.

Needin my own lil thing as others have their space they fill.

Otherswise imma keep feeling like I'm constantly standing still.

The urgency of complete happiness of me lookin out for self is my responsibility.

Its not an others life goal to take after my own relying respectability.

It's strange that I've awakened deep in the nights absence of light.

With such a thought that I see the delivery that landed in my mind.

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heads or tails

Here comes the dime that stops on a cracks curve.
Flipped up to fall as connecting to a bounce rolling off the curb.
Heads or tails is fate gambling with chance at its best.
Staring still waiting on the settling coin to tell emotions what to do from the chest.
Give or take, life goes on for as long as time is air tossed away.
As a flattened circle delivers n takes the pains stay.

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using life's goggles

Peripheral vision in focus with a 180° wide screen view.
I'm witness with my head on swivel moving in n outta zoom.
Payin attention is clearly as near as far as sights can see.
Beyond in the distance creeping a sneaky peek at me.
Seen coming from the blind side by cats eyes outside a night's dream.
Using life's goggles I'm alert n take notice to a visual scene.
Before the windows giving truths to actions captured within.
In a photogenic memory a reel is placed so still as pictures grin.
Of the surroundings on the opposite side of the insides stare.
Only realizing movement in shape n form of real time bared.

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