what you didn't witness was how i gave my all.
and the everything in the way i couldn't help but to fall.
there was a unique sting in getting lost.
what you didn't see was me sitting within a long drawn out pause.
it took years to correct the details of self.
i spent so much time locked away without help.
you never had the chance to capture me opening up.
and how the heart felt attacked by a word called luv.
there was a moment where i would've looked weak to the naked eye.
but what you missed was depths dipped in truths evolving with a sigh.
you see i've descended deeper than i've ever gone.
as the only friend i ever found was me misled by pawns.
the harsh reality i aloud was to know true intent.
and in a form of use i hadn't a part to play pretend.
there's things you'll never be able to experience with me.
the pain in relations just isn't my will to live in a daydream.
you weren't around when i found who i am drifting along.
moving in motion that made sense to to everything that went wrong.
as reason surfaced to be able to redefine a clearer purpose in my mind.
thing is you don't havta fix me in the middle of life.
i did me in a way i can see through the fake fading before they even go.
and i don't believe in a desperation called hope.
i'm here in the now as is bcuz i've was there for my wellbeing.
from the trenches of emotion i climbed and i'm not afraid of leaving.
but if you're intact and ready to be an adult there's a possibility to intertwine.
i won't reflect on what you should be by the likings of what i thought i found in others.
i'll stand before and ease into opening up as luv'rs.
as freinds find comfort in the outcome of who we've come to know.
maybe then we can speak of a place called home.
for what you came in late on was an individual getting it in.
to one day be able to rest in the presence of a friendly set of lips.
in a calm that settles the nerves from the wonder of if i'd ever wanna feel again.
in due process making memories hand in hand.
no longer fearing if images in the head will eventually become pointless as fuck.
so you can remain in my norm doing everything you do falling into luv.