A loose end…

I’ve met more days I had no need to feel. Got lost as a dead man walking as it felt so real. The twisted thoughts made more sense when I opened up to life is nothing more than a dream. As that’s when I dropped the mic and did me. Unable to fit in I reversed my mind and related to what norm that no one understands. And I’m fine with the facts that I’m on the outside knowing I’m more than just a loose end playing along with the band. As listening to the same ol bs just isn’t in the way I believe live to revolve. I’m my eyes I am the problem solved. As I look back at this world with disbelief embedded deep within my eyes that refuse to cry. Hi! I’m alone and I, I’m alive! Falling in the middle of life to a dwelling that redefined my train of thought. Watching everyone go on with the silliness unveiling to question the end results. I’m free. There’s nothing I need. To die in the moment I could only ask for another second to live. And I could care less if I’m missed. Luv’d ones fade Just the same so existence is in a blink and we’re all gone. I’ve gained me in the process to be bcuz there’s not a ring better than to breathe before life goes on. With mornings that sounds like mourning I don’t speak such things. As I’m delusional in words spoken when others tell there version of who I am in the revealing of truths of me.  And yet no one is more correct than the confusion blinded to depths on the run. Knowing like is so much more than the expression of a reoccurring luv. I’ve seen pieces shape shift as it changed the way I coexist. I’m a far fetched compromise to trained obedience that reflects a possessed set of lips. And I cannot comprehend how use has been compromised. As my face has lost expressions that meant so much to me before I realized the effectiveness of lies. Though rare form I haven’t been since I faded into the shadows that claim everything about throwing in the towel. There’s just too many fuckin people that are foul. I’m solo bcuz the harmony of humanity  hasn’t a unique drift that makes sense. So to the side I’ve been pushed as I don’t mind the path for it I was meant. I’ve seen more nights that reminded me of death than I care to admit. But it helped me rise up and claim a better mental stability in which I can understand a true tickle in my own ribs. I’m here until I’m not. As the sun brings the light back around that gives us all a chance to choose the reality that share from one person to the next. Trying configure the contents of what lingers in the chest. To mingle or fall back is a decision made depending off the process of how one thinks. And I gave up as I’d rather remain in solitude due to behind the back there’s always a wink. I’m at peace with myself. To luv me I crave no help…