I'm not giving in so easily...

Don't cry. Not for me. I was born to live alone. Please don't take pity. N never turn around. Better you can do. I'm just a conversation at best. A loner afraid to make a move. You'll forget me soon enough. Discriminating me in unfamiliar words. All bcuz I cannot feel luv'd. I don't believe in the concept. I don't mean act harm.  I'm just in you way this I know. Complicating the heart. But it's not my true intent. I wish I could trust. N didn't think of hope as a desperation. I tell no lies. Speak only of the facts. N it's ok for you to walk away. Just don't do it so fast. I may not know what I have in you. But you don't havta wait. I'm the lingering one.  Not once teaching for a use. I'm just in my own lane. Trying to find a real friend. N no emotions don't intrigue me. The rush of them is a sure end. So live your life. Go settle down n find your home. I'm nothing to miss. Don't worry, I won't answer the phone. I don't communicate on a daily with anyone. I'm part the point of giving a fuck. Feelings just don't interest me. They pull n they tug. Confusing the thought process of genuine relations. I may need misunderstood. N not many can understand my frustrations. I'm incapable of opening up too soon. So suggest you seek out another source to feed your depths. I won't be mad if that's what you decide. We all have a life to live n I can relate bcuz it's something I once felt. It just doesn't make much sense to me anymore. N to be honest my heart isn't free. My chest is a time capsule waiting. Patiently positive that it'll loosen to the feel of something more than a dream. So don't regret leaving me in your past. I cannot fulfill the urgency to compromise with desires. Not for a quick fix. N never again to be burned by the flaming fire. Sorrow for me isn't a necessity. N maybe I will die in the middle of overthinking shit. But it's ok. I don't make luv outta fun nor meaningless generosity. So you see, I'm a little different that what it is you think you want. N I'm fine with you admitting it as you go on about your way. I'm here all by myself any other day. N there will be no difference in tomorrow when it comes up to play...