I'm not giving in so easily...

Don't cry. Not for me. I was born to live alone. Please don't take pity. N never turn around. Better you can do. I'm just a conversation at best. A loner afraid to make a move. You'll forget me soon enough. Discriminating me in unfamiliar words. All bcuz I cannot feel luv'd. I don't believe in the concept. I don't mean act harm.  I'm just in you way this I know. Complicating the heart. But it's not my true intent. I wish I could trust. N didn't think of hope as a desperation. I tell no lies. Speak only of the facts. N it's ok for you to walk away. Just don't do it so fast. I may not know what I have in you. But you don't havta wait. I'm the lingering one.  Not once teaching for a use. I'm just in my own lane. Trying to find a real friend. N no emotions don't intrigue me. The rush of them is a sure end. So live your life. Go settle down n find your home. I'm nothing to miss. Don't worry, I won't answer the phone. I don't communicate on a daily with anyone. I'm part the point of giving a fuck. Feelings just don't interest me. They pull n they tug. Confusing the thought process of genuine relations. I may need misunderstood. N not many can understand my frustrations. I'm incapable of opening up too soon. So suggest you seek out another source to feed your depths. I won't be mad if that's what you decide. We all have a life to live n I can relate bcuz it's something I once felt. It just doesn't make much sense to me anymore. N to be honest my heart isn't free. My chest is a time capsule waiting. Patiently positive that it'll loosen to the feel of something more than a dream. So don't regret leaving me in your past. I cannot fulfill the urgency to compromise with desires. Not for a quick fix. N never again to be burned by the flaming fire. Sorrow for me isn't a necessity. N maybe I will die in the middle of overthinking shit. But it's ok. I don't make luv outta fun nor meaningless generosity. So you see, I'm a little different that what it is you think you want. N I'm fine with you admitting it as you go on about your way. I'm here all by myself any other day. N there will be no difference in tomorrow when it comes up to play...

Come my way...

Come on over n snuggle up. I know it's mid day but it's cold out n I wanna warm ur hush. We can get close n feel each other out. Find common grounds n ease back into the lack of sound. As soft whispers communicate in every breath. I bet you'd enjoy the way I'd come from the chest. Pulsating with heartbeats placed upon your back. As you're wrapped up in my arms grasp. Calming you as you're tucked gentle into my palms. Fingertips following across your skin. Just to know how the corners of your mouth create a grin. Come through n relax with me. Maybe watch a movie n set ourselves free. I'm open to whatever may take occur. I just want it to be you bcuz there's no one else is rather defer. Reason with your heart n mind your life. We could be something great in moments defined. Pressed against each other when the world doesn't seem to exist. Just you n I tasting the pleasure upon the lips. Hand in hand gripping the soothe. Feeling every body part twist n move. Swing by n see what we can get into. For a little while we can call a truce...

Emptied out...

The excitement isn't efficient. N when it is lifestyles aren't equivalent. When it's a fit one seeks to need the lasting to remain. When there's a few good ones that'll help emotion escape. N yet situations just haven't that alignment for the heart. As the thought process put in place guidelines so desires can find a spark. The thrill is gone. That eagerness to crave another as time goes on. Witness to those who would mingle every so nicely. But there's a resistance due to certain attributes that aren't timed precisely. Others aren't on the same level mentally n it's a shame. Bcuz if they were the imagination would engine then into the flame. As eyes are opened to see what's free from prior burdens as they linger in life. Willing to adjust with an open mind. Factors are the issue when waiting on a friend to come along. If there not considered relations eventually go wrong. As red flags are triggers to the ugly side of self. So to have patience is truly what's felt. Securing what bad things hurt the most. As tongues flip viciously in a chance to laugh at the roast. The lesson has taken it's toll on how to approach luv. N like is the key to enjoying such. Although many would fill in n live happily ever after. It's just there's more to a good time when lost in the laughter. Will they protect the friendship at any cost? Are they able to check self from lashing out when smiles come to pause? Shits deeper than the flesh that's deceiving in its own. As the anticipation is weakening from the display of others shown. They seem not to be looking in the mirror so they know they're the real deal. To think of who self is so they're worth the feel. The enthusiasm just isn't there where looking from a far. The type that awakens me isn't anywhere healed with scars. Whether they're taken by someone else or distant from the fingertips. I'm so long I haven't felt a comforting set of lips. The passion isn't in it when I do try. There's always something that jumps out as I become the bad guy...

Fresh outta scrabbled letters...

There's nothing left to say. Words aren't flowing today. I hate it when I'm at a loss. But then again that's jus my brain giving me time to hush the cause. I guess it too gets tired of all the resistance. As each n every thought feeds the heart without hesitance. N no I don't wanna talk about it. I'm just bored with life n struggle to live. N if there was something clever to say I'd come clean. Unfortunately I'm just wasting time with black expressions not trying to think. I'm just a case of being prior to closing my eyes. A mute without a memory of life. N I can't find anything worth telling. But if I could I'd find a buyer n begin the selling. Maybe raffle myself off so my lips would move. I believe I've ran outta ways to express my dying use. N now there's just a once was unwilling to partake in the back n forth. As sound is dismissed in the presence of vocal chords. Nothing is all there is coming from the mouth. N how I got here I don't know how. I'm speechless but I like. For once I'm at peace with what I cannot hide. Free in a sense if that's what I am. Content in the silence in my head that let loose on this man. N I move differently with a thought process that is ever so clear. Hushing the noise that reaches for lips tasting tears. I'm weightless in my present state. No longer fighting the confusion of the triangle of games. Sex can go fuck itself getting the need to the floor. Emotional torture I haven't a use for. N I've regained the stability upstairs after all. Things now make sense once I completed the fall. Landing in a situation on needs over wants. Smoothly easing my way along into I someday meet luv...

To be damned...

To live again. Damn. To feel alive. From behind the rhymes. To feel. Softening a heart said to be of steel. To put self to use. Using truths. Gaining a respect. Becoming friends from not than the chest. As the mind calms the fuck down. To be finally found. To come from within. To live. To reclaim emotions proof. Living loose. Allowing inner makings to be seen. To breathe. To drift away from the solitude. To simply call a truce. Damn. To be more than this type man. To sink into a touch. To obtain real luv. To cross back over. To hold a her. To spark the fire that went out. There's gotta be more than the silence of sound. To pull me closer to life. With a surge that doesn't sorry circuit the mind. So thinking isn't pure emotion running wild. Ooh the wonder of such a style. To settle into the thrill. To have free will. Moving in sync with another that co exists. To set aside the shovel that digs. To return from where I had to go. To evolve as me without burying the bone. Damn. To go at it again. To just be. To escape daydreams. Leaving the lessons learned alone. To go the fuck home. To my final place in time. Resting with a mate all night. To enjoy moments lived. To once n for all whisper softly of what I have to give.

The answer...

One. To give a reason of why. Opened up. Defining a stare in the eyes. To have a friend moving with purpose. Having meaning. Someone not so heartless. Not demeaning. Just once. So the heart can thrive. Falling into luv. Somewhere where it's not behind enemy lines. For a face to create a comfort. Sharing expressions. With hands on a nice rumper. Enjoying the bodies dimensions. Feeling the rush. Giving unconditionally to worth. Lasting beyond dreams never hushed. As they stay to be the first. To have a partner to do things with. Everyone to be precise. Tasting on softened lips. Even becoming a better version of sighs. Going from single to willing to mingle. In a different sense of mindsets at ease. Allowing the sensation of the tingle. Actually being able to fuckin breathe. Just to be on the same level n rising. Putting to rest all question of hope. With a truth residing. Never again to be alone. Loosening up to a touch like no other. Feeling the vibe pulsating through the skin. Alive n in motion with a luv'r. Awakening every morning to that familiar kiss...

Time down...

Chasing life will alter the feel of actually living it. Money will steal the heart n leave it alone as time ticks. Then walls close in on the mind confusing the focus. As dealing with the choices made to survive resemble a tad bit hopeless. In a solo act in the middle of life not knowing where home is. Even though there's a roof above there's still no true worth in the ribs. Missing is the unknown version of self when hiding is a thing. Removing all attachments from reach to ease back n away from the scene. So far gone behind locked doors just trying to evolve. Wanting to be appealing in the aftermath of the details solved. All in the same of slipping into a void to remain safe. But hey, who's to blame for all the little mistakes? So why not stabilize in solitude n wait it out? Yet for how long is desires that's been patient to gather what's to be found. Without another sharing space in memories that create a story lived. N that's the kicker of the situation that has forgotten the pleasure of touch through a kiss. All in the makings of digging into a better way. To redefine the comfort from within before ever giving in to a different type of gain. Tucked beneath a front that allows others to believe whatever they want. Telling them all the single life is better by saying fuck luv! But the lie is merely a fib for so long. As the truth trickles through the skin n moves expressions that correct everything that's ever gone wrong. Just to bounce back with an overload that can't wait to get at it again. Although it's costly to think of years spent unaccompanied by a friend hand in hand...

The feeling...

Less than equivalent. More than nothing at all. Somewhere in the middle of life. Trying to stand after the fall. Self is nothing but another face. Years pass into a faded fog. Lost becomes a feeling of comfort. Stagnant settles into a pause. Attempting to define shits within. Talking to the walls. Distant n alone no answer is known. Trapped within the flaws. There's nothing to believe in. No one left to call. Not a single person to confide. Drifting with the feeling of a world not so small. Emotions forgotten n away with the toss. Mirrors aging n afraid to interact. Witness to the truths so raw. Emptied as a person find ever be. Passion is just another thing to gawk. Useless is the inner feeling. Irrelevant to cause. Misplaced n confused missing the point. Unable to remember the feeling of the face placed in a palm. Lower the heart sinks below the surface. Deeper than the eyes will ever talk. Hollow n numb nerves are immune. Breaking out the sidewalk chalk. Damn near dead but still alive. Hanging on to an endless dull. Distant without a reason to crud back over. Hope is gone. The end had come to pass. Every day is just another sideshow that'll never aw. There's isn't much to who used to be. Life changed n the dream broke it's claws. No longer able to cling to the climbinh from from the false. As the enclosure surrounds the pieces  in the smog. Feeling as a thought to others. Beneath the burial of unwanted applause. There sits a loner shaking the head. Moving differently just because. Lacking a purpose in a reality that lives without lies. The solo artist that gave up on being soft...

Free will...

Coming back for seconds. N the enjoyment is what I'll never fail to mention. It says so much when convo isn't the only thing on the menu. Notice intent when words pause to feel the mood. Oh the venture of free will coming up for air. Truth is, boundaries aren't easy to cross when life usually doesn't play fair. N to see it in someone's eyes speaks without mentions. There's just a certain type of ease that breaks through the dimension. N then three n four times the return finds comfort laying still. Wrapped up in the moment of free will. Feeling closer every single second spent with a friend. Again n again. Becoming a norm that fits movements ever so relaxed. Trying to settle in so the world doesn't move so fast. As the wake up one day  realizes luv was in the making the all the while. Living in the stretch of breathtaking smiles. All bcuz two people meet to find a common ground. A stability in the reoccurrence so magical eyes whisper without sound...

Dreamt thoughts...

I get to daydreaming about how you can't keep your hands off of me. Looking at me like I'm the only one who reaches in n touches how u breathe. Stroking sighs to react on such a way u feel weak. Creative u have the strength to see it through bcuz ur free. I drift on the thought of you unable to get enough of who I am. Willing to give every detail of yourself to my hands. Peeking into my eyes as if they're the sunset giving u life. As u lean in to live to exist on the outside of ur mind. My daydreams have me rotating with the scenery of u n I intertwined. But I don't know why it's me you crave. I'm just happy to be in your graces to misbehave. To live a lil better it's forget too fuckin late. I dream in the middle of the day of how you say my name. I feel the purpose reaching for me every time we touch. N for once I believe I am taking back in luv...

Odd man out...

I jus am for I don't know how else to be. Living is a thing I do when I escape my dreams. I'm nothing special to the naked eye that eventually looks away. As I truly don't wanna be recognized as a name. Different I am in ways that most don't understand. Complicating relations on the matter of not having a number one fan. Stubborn is what I'm called when there's things I refuse to accept in my life. I believe that ones own defines the character wanting more than a hype. Loose I live to the indescribable crave to open up. Yet the conflict of connectivity always sides with eyes that have been hushed. Deeper I go into depths but I don't want another to friend within me. Emotions do to much n lose the whole sense of self wanting to breathe. I'm no one to anyone bcuz I know it'll take for me to come out n play. I just can't say much on it for chameleons pretending to be fate. My thoughts are heavy and my pulse is weak n faint. As there's more to a woman than exploiting her in between the sheets. So I drift as a loner longing to find a home. I'm no stray but I am lost without the desperation of hope. As in the real world I can relate to the facts as they come. But in my dreams I'm free to luv without the tsunami raping my shores of the beauty I cannot remember when I awaken as such. N even though I'm a lil of a bit of a mystery I'm confused on how others aren't capable to adapt to what life has to offer. As relations aren't what they seem to be into so it's an ease for me to not have a need to walk down the alter. Although I am a human that smiles bcuz I am alive. Even though I'm the first one to waste huge portions of my time. Digging into my downtime I simply want a friend that'll never leave. But it ain't so easy when I am the me they seek. Guarded n alert as I will figure them out. As it could even be situational as that deciphers the coming n going beneath the clouds. Special I could never be for I'm too humble to me arrogant. N fit the life of me I don't know which way the old me went...

The way you insist...

It sounds so good when you're coming on to me. But lil do you know I'll have you on your knees. With my cock in your mouth n then to your twat. I'll even fuck you in the azz as you're begging me to stop. So if you know what's best you'll leave me the fuck alone. Bcuz I ain't got time unless I'm coming in your holes. With a big ol dick to make you moan a lil tune. Talk dirty to me n I'll eventually watch your body move. Grinding as you moan with my tongue between your legs. Just to flip you over until you beg. Not once, not twice, not even a third as you don't want me to stop. Telling me your fantasies is the sound I crave as you climb atop. You say things that speak to my curiosities. As thoughts take form in the shape of you exploring my generosities. To please the words upon your tongue. Rolling over on you to slow down the motions rushed. You best not mimic a thrill by leading me on. I'm not what you think as I'll play from dusk till dawn. Have you sore ASF waiting for your hormones to bounce back. But if you learn the hard way, press the facts. I like how you nibble on my name. N honestly I wanna change the revisions upon your face. As you bite that pretty lil lip. With my fingertips digging into your hips. Moan for me n say not one thing else. Feel the way I am to be felt. Naturally exploiting your inner most desires on the run. Keep on babbling at the gums n imma have dinner fun...

Inward tug...

Backtracking, I'm fading back down that fuckin hole again. Seems I can get so far n then... Into reverse mode I collapse thinking too much. Into the downward spiral I cannot escape I fall away from even lusts. Oh the feeling of the desperation of hope that doesn't exist. I wish I believed in something other than the darkness deep in my very own pits. But yet to descend without a lifeline is what has always been. As the comfort of selfs embrace never lies, but then again. It pretends to be a friend although there's no convo in the silence. Just an echo in my head that gets lost from time to time when I tuck away the difference. Hiding from the knowing of others that I fall apart. Feeling the grasp of the one true thing that comforts the heart. N it's easy to bury the insanity behind the eyes. Countering observant stares everytime someone tells me smiles as if it isn't a lie. Forced upon the face to shield the drifting within. Pulled into the suction of the core that always wins. Wasting time n waiting on tomorrow to come. Maybe it'll be a lil better if with my mind I didn't run...

Going home...

Missing the getting of going home. After a hard day's work. To see that one face that makes a difference. Getting them in a hug with so much worth. There's a void in what life has become. A standby of emotions idling n offset. The thought of going home is an empty sigh. Especially when there's more unused comment buried in the chest. Waiting to open that door to witness a friend. N yet there's a misplacement no matter where I go. Without an answer the question reveals no regards. I jus want that feeling others have of going home. To be someone's they don't wanna attempt life without me. The way I'd return everyday to lay my eyes upon their gaze. Bridging a connection from the heart to the mind. N if they ain't home yet, I'll wait...

Only with you...

There's so many thing that I wanna do. But I don't wanna do any of them if I cannot do them with you. So I sit n wait hoping you don't pass me by. As I'm outta reach of others trying to enjoy moments of my time. Outta sight is prolly where I need not to be. If I wanna do these things I'll prolly havta to be seen. So life can be felt doing everything I've never done. Side by side with you having fun. But I'm afraid to do any of it without you here with me. N I don't know if you're even looking to set yourself free. To enjoy a friend in your time of making it happen. As dreams come true in the makings of laughing. But you're the only one I'd open up all the fuckin thoughts to. To share where I'd wanna be alone with you. Getting lost somewhere in the memory holding on later in life. Recalling all the silly lil things we ran if to that are cherished in the mind. If this you can understand, come out n play. I'm willing n free to show myself to your chuckles day after day. Wandering around the world like we can't get enough. N in every place we drift off to, we make luv. In sync with the thrill of who we are together. Moving our feet to the feeling of riding a shooting star straight past forever. Open to concur the details that make us, us. Waking up to fall asleep every night in luv...

Free will...

You can go if that's what you wanna do. I won't fight your decision to believe you can do better. Nor will I ever play the game to see if I'll try n stop you before you go. What I'm doin has nothing to do with becoming the great pretender. I'll respect your wishes to be left completely alone. We all have the right to find where it is we feel wet belong. N I too one day wanna sink into the findings of home. So please choose in which direction your heart is too follow the beat of a specific song. As a face id indentured as the only one that could ever loosen you up. I'm not in your way n don't wanna be a hiccup in the road. Hey to where your going n I'll applaud you as you fall in luv. I believe in happiness n the makings of trust so passion no longer roams. If I'm not the friend you seek you're free to do so you please. The save way you've been to with our without me in you life. I'm just here attempting the possibility of wants n needs. As me as self with a rare n unusual mind. Backing your every option to fulfill whatever it is you resolve within. Bcuz I know the feeling of lost all too well. So smile for it's ok if our thoughts aren't sharing the same type of grin. Just do it before I drift into the linger of your desires felt. It wouldn't be easy if you crave another n I was left in a memory. But I'd understand even though I wouldn't wanna see you turn away. Never to be seen again by eyes that find you complimentary. Familiar or a stranger is the choosing day by day. With thoughts changing as we grow into who we are to become. Care just enough song the way to reason with a use of free will. As promises cannot be made for we do not know what is to come. Just be clear on intent surfacing in the here n now for me to witness the thrill...

Until...

You're just passing through n it's cool. Here for a bit n them removed. You're not meant to stay long n I can't say that's wrong. But ain't it just another day song. Sharing a lil of your time to ease my mind. N eventually you're gonna be home for life. Damn the thought of getting to know you comeS with a cost. N until then imma live in this pause. 

Enjoying you like there's no tomorrow.

Avoiding the emptiness of the sorrow.

Pretending the stories will never end.

In luv with my perfect friend.

Only if you knew how hard it is for my to let down my guard. It's torcher knowing imma lose everything shit you but the pieces left in my heart. You're not the type that think of me as the answer to your hype. I'm just waiting my turn for the day you say goodbye. One season attached a time like a session soon to be up but I won't cry. Simply put, you're not mine.

So I'll do what I can until the coming of tomorrow.

Bringing in the linger of you to the feeling of sorrow.

I'll pretend that you're my friend.

One that'll last until the end...

Simply put...

What I can do by self. Somehow doesn't mimic what I've been able to do with another by my side. I do better. I stand stronger. I feel it to be fucked up beyond measures of reason. But this is life. Fuck being fair. Just make it happen. Even if the solo act is a bit too much. Stand in the mirror n live as the turn away is laughing. With a way to take care of the inner makings.  With grunts one the side. Knowing worth is more than the single life. But it's okay when the ends are met time after time. Oh the heart doesn't wanna listen to reason. It can't hear. It can only feel. N it's the truest thing to what is real. Reminding the mind of a settling fact. The body needs to be touched. Felt like fingertips that crave to wander upon someone else. Breaking down in the presence of luv. To bare the hidden details no one knows. In an act on wants n needs. Going to waste without the thrill. Only if I could do what I do with another doing what they do to simply breathe...

The next level...

One time. To never turn back. For a willing desire to live on. With luv intact. The dream. Opening a piece of self. For trust to hold. Simply felt. Considered by another. Enjoyed by a smile. Loosening up with life for once. Until the end of ends with style. Just once. To feel depths come to life. Confirmed n complete. Comforted by sighs. In the moment n living. In true form. Moving to the thrill. Wanting jus one thing, a norm. A fair chance to shine. To be as is. With more than hope. Lost in the twist of a kiss. All that's needed is a friend. A partner knowing what they have. Someone who's leveled up. To go in on halves. Damn it would be nice. To outlive what's come to be known. To cross back over. Shedding the feeling of being alone. Expressing true intent. Gradually giving all. Redefining belief. Staring into the eyes that come to a pause. Looking back with a common interest. Smirking just bcuz. The thought is there. N it drives me nuts...

To be taken...

I had to test her. I need to know. It was the look have me. I wanted to get her moan. So with one hand I reached for her. N she didn't move. She just did there waiting. N I took my time to work hey loose. Playing with her crave. Tempting her to give in. With a chuckle her eyes dared me. N all she did was lift her chin. As my fingers wrapped get throat. Feeling the warmth of her neck. The pulse racing to my palm. She grinned to accept. My jaw dropped. I squeezed. Her truths sighed. N then the stare changed the way we breathed. It was slow at first. Both surging from within.  Having found a new common worth. She submitted. I began to give her something to trust. As I could feel her coming to life. N my grasp she leaned in to be hushed. To be taken. To come from within the passion of her fantasies. Knowing it was I she had awakened. To play with every inch of her body. She stood still. Groped n fondled in ways my touch completed her. She was good. As my fingertips flowed with her curves. Growing the flesh. Slapping her azz. I'm total fuckin control. She gave me herself as I didn't even ask. It was natural. Real. Something that cannot be explained. It was something we both could feel. As she was spun around n bent over the bed. Back arched. Legs spread. She was a with of art. In sync with my desires to please her at will. In any which way I chose to take her. Her skin was silk. Sighs were like whispers without words. That's when I instructed her to open her mouth. As I climbed up in front of her perfectly hung. With a shh, just suck. She began to speak to me in tongue. No hands. All skill. She was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. My kinda thrill. Mine all mine. As I was her very own Dom. But I wasn't done. I needed to hear her explode like a bursting bomb. As I pulled her hair back n kissed her face. Letting her know I was in charge. As we locked eye to eye. I could see it in her that she didn't expect me to be so large. N I told her I was going to penetrate her until she came. N I want gonna stop until her knees gave in. So from behind her I slide deep within her walls. N the sound of pure innocence made me grin. With one movent she was taken from the rear. Oh she was tight. Motionless n taking every inch. As I fit inside of her oh so nice. Grabbing her hips. Thrusting like animal fucking for the first time. She took it until the shook in her stance. As I pulled out n forced her down in front myself to swallow mine. N with everything in me I twitched. As she sucked. As I came. I believe it was I that got mind fucked...

Ever changing...

What can't be seen behind a smile rests the emptiness hidden in the eyes. Within the design is the details of life taking it's toll on the mind. With muted words never to touch the lips nor gasp in a sigh waiting on a luv'r. What lies beneath the surface is a depth dug to bury one friend after another. In turn as in order from start to finish. As feelings drift in thoughts remembering the undertow of emotions that were made to feel squeamish. What sits just outta view from the knowing. Others need not point at the entanglements defining the overthrowing. For inner content to lay in the shadow only to move like a puppet. To mimic a facial gesture as if a half hearted grin placed upon a muppet. Telling tales of the good put in front of the world to be displayed. As the changing of the stare has no need in anymore games...

Able to chuckle...

Memories have faces that tug on expression when the mind drifts. Visions of prior moments that linger periodically that once tasted the lips. To remember in the down time is a reflection of self evolving in this world that had no remorse. Luv'rs come n go n others last a lil longer to to split always looking for something more. As being alone sits on the mind heavily in a wondering state of, wtf? Looking through the images that never made it into the now hushed. Another upside down shot glass triggers the heart to reminisce. Able to chuckle bcuz good times live in a better place buried in every kiss. Triggering the smile in full acceptance to lift at the edges like horns that never die. Knowing the chaos cannot touch sacred leftovers that have molded truths. N then it's back to reality to continue the journey bcuz ones own still has a use. To be luv'd in due time when the fit wraps emotions in arms. For lessons learned show the maturity grown deep in the stake scared heart. Fit the meeting it out alive has been one crazy azz ride. All with whispering silent childish forever meant goodbyes. For what's good for fit self is what remains every single day. Not in the head trapped n locked away from how pain wasn't meant to wear chains...

When one knows...

Once a person has found n has been forced to let go of someone they could've luv'd forever. They know what it is their heart desires most as anything less is simply a never ever. For the level of happiness that uplifted them is in the way of a sacred bond. A presence that entices will to play with the feel of emotion's sweet spot. It's the linger of a smile n the truth of how the connection is more than a physical attraction. It's the depths of a pure satisfaction. A one in the same type of honesty that lives without trying. With a the rare sensitivity that gives a sensation of fulfillment that becomes defying. It's not a face that claims their place side by side. It's the person within that comes out to be seen in the middle of life. Someone so perfect in imperfections that fits without hesitations. Creating a sigh that lasts in acceptance that opens up the mind guiding memories into their final destination. N there's very few that can cause a surge that triggers the terrible in the eyes. Anything less is nothing more than a moment to pass until a spark ignites the unconditional vibe...

The calm...

Exciting to no one. Fading behind the scenes. Lock doors won't come unhinged. Lost in the confinement of dreams. Thoughts drift in the dark. Unseen is the face. Whereabouts are unknown. Stupid hides in the escape. Into the peace n quiet. Time being the enemy ticking away. Alone n safe from the chaos. Playing not one single game. The calm creates a reason. The silence drives one mad. Listening to the heart pulsate with a pound. Facing the lonely facts. Having not another close enough to touch. To feel the comfort supposedly trusted. Emotion waits on luv. Patience stretch to limits exposed. Purposely avoiding a friend to be made. Attachments linger in choices not so sure. Believing the burn comes from the flame. Not to be found anytime soon. Eyes glance at best. Afraid to make contact with a stranger. Unaware what is contained in their chest. Moving solo is the flow in life. Settled in to the ease redefined. Evading the thrill of lusts reaching in. Letting thoughts clear in the mind. As desires twist into a funk. Frustrated by the lack of trust. The bed seems far to big to be enjoyed. But it's so much better than faking n crushed...

At some point...

I don't wanna see you cry. But damn you if at some point you don't look at me with tears in your eyes. As the luv leaks down your cheek. So overwhelmed in thought just looking at me. Feeling the emotion rush to the surface. As your tongue wiggles in your mouth to sit up my name. With a stare of recognition pausing your expressions. Felt in a better sense of an obsession. Living in the moment of the crave. Able to admit to self life without me just wouldn't be the same. As the heart opens up n it flows uncontrollably. Witness to me luv'n you respectfully. Feeling my thumb wipe away drips away. With a reassurance of I'm here to stay. Bcuz I could only hope I can get that far into you. with a kiss to your fists as you lean in to me calming you woos. Holding you until you come back from that place you just went. At some point of like to know if it's me in which you can vent. Free to release truths that shouldn't be held in. As you didn't chuckle with a grin. Knowing you're such a girl just for me. At some point I wanna live the dream...