Non existant...

I don't get around much anymore. Kinda left the games to the upcoming whores. Guess i felt it was their turn to play. But they'll never get it in the way i could'nt be tamed. Without a lie slipping from my lips i spoke the truth. Had my fun n gave pleasure to those who needed to cut loose. As it's been some time that I've juggled females with a smile. Knowing damn well not a one of us set out to gain relations to be worth while. But the snippidy snippers snipped strings attaching themselves to pieces of me. For there was nothing beyond the physical attraction that set me free. N it's even been yrs since I've gotten out n about to see what's what. The minds been too busy to attempt anything that partains to trust. As the moment of the loner is passing like a phase swept away with the breeze. With thoughts switching momentum to access capabilities hidden deep within daydreams. I've become a dreamer reminiscing of prior entanglements that were oh so good. As my eyes close to take a look. Cheap thrills n ex luv'rs gather in the memories in my time alone. Making me wonder if I'll ever find a place called home. Triggering intent to be honest with self before it's too late. But i don't wanna go back too multiple friends sitting on my face. I'm reserving that space for someone special to ride until her hormones can't take no more. But i haven't stepped into the light of day for anyone to catch a glimpse of who i really am. I can go right or left n be content if it's sex i seek coming from the core. Although this isn't the old me mingling in the crowd gripping a squeeze. Even though it would be nice to hold on to just one like she was never to leave. But as i sit mentally recalling the transformation yet to break one the fuck off. I just i haven't opened the door to breathe the fresh air bcuz i don't wanna get lost. The temptations are real i must admit but i don't wanna do anyone wrong if i make a move. Nothings changed in that aspect about me so I'll try to build up the nerve to live n play a lil peekaboo. Yet i need not to believe in the lusts that once consumed my heart. I'll need a lil something more than a flickerin spark in the dark. Or it just may be old ways is all there is. Being the let down with everything about me to give...