tha hooch...

Reinventing the dawg in the middle of the smoke.
He will reemerge as he exhales his last choke.
From within the cloud of luvs faking face....
The beast remembers the selfish games.
Living deep beneath my hidden secrets amused.
Waiting to reveal his own abuse.
The back up out the back door known as plan b.
To the dawghouse n back to the one left that begs to be free.
Lingering in movements satisfying sacred dreams.
Wondering about with ease from backyard to side doors.
Sitting in a comfortable state of mind, it's the tamed male whore.
The me wanting to claim me once again as mine.
A lil here n a bit more over there playing Sancho stealing time.
The anxiety is frustrating the way it feeds the crave.
Blaming me cuz the dawg within thinks I'm afraid.
Yet in between the particles of dust the memory jus wants to be touched.
I know he dreams of the pleasurable lusts.
Selfishly feenin to be flush without emotions.
Exploding with emptiness's false devotion.
It's the dawgs pound that thumps the bump.
Beating in his chest cuz luv is no such luck.
The k-9 times untold numbers stands leashed drooling with desire pulsating through his sight.
The hound in me sits at the edge of me falling into the night.
Howling jus past midnight n gone before mid day.
He remembers the life before captivities cage.
The stray that hadn't a need in being claimed for he was free.
N awaiting is the step of no returns fling.
Chasing tail up the skirts of trees.
He lives for he knows his growl is heard in the way he breathes.
From a young pooch to the legendary hooch.
A Theroux bred ladies man behind the truths.
Set in the glossy glazed eyes unfazed by chains.
Jus wanting to be let loose to own his reign.

enjoyin what becomes the past..

Through u, imma live.
Cuz I've forgotten what it was like.
How strange the concept....
I never thought it be me that hides.
To feel a bit of anything.
Jus to wanna be alive.
I count on u when i know i shouldn't.
Cuz you've captured my untamable mind.
Here in the now i fear.
Endless moments that soon will fade.
Another loss buried in the misplaced past.
Another luv undenied by hate.
I move within cuz of u.
At terms with the pain that follows.
Opened up wide, jump on in.
Feel me, complete me, leave me overflowin til my drain is hollow.
I'm a dead man walkin.
Heartless i feel only u.
As our fingerprints connect n press.
We to will become an afterthoughts uselessness.
So fuckin glad to have met u.
Jus to watch me go.
The emotion simply can not live forever.
As the mind releases a lil place called home.
Driftin into u i remind myself.
Time only lasts so long.
As precious as the memories made.
At some point it can't be prolonged.
I feel u settled in my nerves.
Adjustin the tingle in my rib.
Helpin self to my own.
N i cherish the blink in which we live.
The absence prior to u will come again.
As I'd die one more time inside.
Lost n ruined by the touch that escapes.
Til then I'll believe ur lies.
I'll be ur everything.
The only one you'll ever want.
The best thing that happened to u.
N enjoy the luv that chizzles the numb.
Stomaching tomorrow hasta come.
Eventually takin u away as my paradise.
As irreplaceable as the feel of knowin u.
Outta the back of the mind one day u will climb.
Stuck in the imagination of u n i.
Stranded as I'll face this world alone.
Abandoned n betrayed.
Ur king, my queen, dethroned.

swinging with times thought,

Unseen lines trip every promise that lies.
Losing the battle before the end of time.
Tipping a toe close enough to feel endless life....
Invisible edges disappear n plummeting is the heart down the side.
Limitless devotion fades into the horizon that changes.
As emotion crashes within n confusion rages.
Distance of dreams redirect lookin on in strangers faces.
Becoming a duel stepping with a turn in ten paces.
Words echo n bounce off the canyons deep within the mind.
Repeating memories lost in the rock to the archaeological find.
Forevers slingshot boomerangs n returns to far outta sight.
Believing is giving in to the hype.
What's shared is a selfish act of gimme what i deserve.
As the calm of luv ends up on the tip of nerves.
Seems truth is never expressed so it's never heard.
Left in the past back when honesty becomes a blur.
Falling from the imaginations state of false hope.
Dangling from a cloud by the threads of a rope.
Reality reshapes the ends which is the only thing luv knows.
Swinging with timeless thoughts that eventually lose their moan.
All in the same with the exact effectiveness lingering in mid air.
Meanings lose purpose in worthless pieces suspended in the skies tare.
A leak letting go of danger hanging on to
a stars anchored hair.
Blowing with the breeze out in the middle of nowhere.
As a laughter forms like thunder reaching the pulse that vibes.
The drip that defines the blind is only the matter of time.
Pride from the hands is ripped n deprived.
For this world flips upside down to see u in plain sight.

A single grain..

You do not know me.
I am unchanged by time.
Owned only by dreams....
A single grain of sand unseen in the mind.
In between the toes.
With millions jus like me.
Side by side feeling the breezes flow.
Yet there is only one of me.
Clinging to the texture upon your foot.
Wanting to be near you.
I am jus a piece of the scenery as you look.
Down on me as if I have no use.
As if glass looking through me to see the show.
What makes you think I do not matter?
Am I not part of the display that is shown?
It is sad I can not find my way into your chatter.
Seems you are to lost in the waves.
Crashing.
Washing me away.
As the water at your tootsies' comes smashing.
Where the ocean reaches for the shores edge.
Never thought of twice.
My lil ol' world in which you step.
Is only for your eyes as paradise.
For I am jus a simple speck.
Overlooked for the bigger picture.
Yet every piece digs into the chest.
As only the horizon claims the stars that glitter.
The sun that rises & sets so soft.
Changing colors in the distance.
& the moon that glows is a breathless pause.
Taking away from my own uselessness.
I am here for you to stand as you gaze.
Into a more comforting sight.
Beyond the grit that somehow appears to stay the same.
Yet, I am the one that feels your life.
As your soles walk upon my back.
& your body uses me for the moment.
I am the reason memories find a past.
Connecting heartbeats so diligently as if I am the one who's stolen.
I could be anything, only if you knew.
Your imagination set free or your wildest dream come true.
Only if you had it in you to witness what I can do.
With a little bit of curiosity you would see I have much use.

FINGA ROLL!!!

Two curled n clinched gripped fists flickin finga rollin fuck u's as they stand together in the obvious gesture released with so much pleasure. speakin unspoken secrets with slits sore n bleedin. pist with each drip that's $pent a waste as a couple of birds soar before ur eyes for u to witness how they dance in ur minds sky from the hearts enhanced pain that no longer matters. as if they're the definition of art in perfect form, worn free up in ya face n erect ready to be sucked by the blow hole up n under ur nose. The double fisted flippin fun fuses r lit for that boom in ur mind to explode as i will always remain as the tension u hate...

MUTED BY THE CHEW...

Singling out syllables muttering n untamed.
Playing within the fetish of the minds secret games.
As the muted tone on the lips has fled.
As the shape of the reformed delivery embeds.
Deep beneath the surface in the thoughts afterlife, buried.
Ancient secrets are locked away with dead fairies.
With those that said they were the one.
Landing in the head as a lusting crutch.
Tripping on the curves of untold truths.
Every letter seems to remain singled out n accused.
Remembering the abuse set still in words.
Actions outspoken as intentions lurked.
In the shadows behind Luvs selfish will.
Stranded in the middle of lifes high priced bill.
Paid in full is the twisting of trust set a sail.
Feeling ripples crash like waves behind the tale.
End of times repeating within the overloaded dome.
The images linger as the memory roams.
Capturing a language reinvented by emotion.
Here is the outcome of fondling devotion.
Another tender attempt to capture the design.
In frame & unable to fucking hide.
Tasting yet a new passion reaching for an answer.
Lost between A & Z scrambling is the panther.
Thinking pink lace with the prowling interest.
Griping a written style clinched by playful fists.
Individually unique the pronunciation rips loose.
In the empty spaces in between words separating the clues.
The puzzle of the depths surface to connect.
Piecing me together for I could never be perfect.
In expressions lapping thoughts on the other side of ur eyes.
Smeared in every babbling twisted line.
Real facts are infected by the past.
Falling forward with life in a wiser grasp.
Use me.
By passing mercies weakness to set me free.
I'm zipped up as if stitched in.
The raw untouched truth is as of yet, without a grin.
Now the rhyme switches to every other line.
Prolonging the imagination to make time wait.
For a different feel stretching the mind.
Yet always on point & never once fake.
Going unheard n unspoken.
All cuz ears don't care to hear Luvs slave.
With purpose in the rhythm less tone.
If ever the meaning could reach the spotlight upon the stage.
Imprisoned within the walls of the mouth.
Forced to obey & maintain.
Dissecting self in every inch repeating ouch.
Building up speed as if a locomotive train.
Truths lay in shreds upon the tongue.
Tasted to learn.
Lessons of letters torn apart jus for fun.
Losing & missing out on their own worth.
Words.... Muted by the chew.
Screaming between the teeth.
As the lips were taught never to show the munch without proof.
Swallowed with the never ending reality.
Quietly still as the silence lurks like a shadow inside.
Ready to choke from the restraint that gags.
Trapped as the alphabet rearranges in time.
Speaking a different kinda vocabulary with every toe tagged.
It lives beneath the cracks crumbling the skin.
Changing the expressions craving thought.
With a flavor sautéed for grown azz men.
Hanging on to the enamel as if plaque caught.
Drowning in the slobbers slick crusade.
Is the past reconstructed & awaiting its day.
Redefined to be freed with a spine no longer enslaved.
Tickling the change of selfs own misinformed hate.

cheese as if u r them...

Smile for them.
Put on a pretty face.
Show them u you can be what they are.
Play the part.
Stand for what they believe in....
Let them own ur depths.
Become someone other than yourself.
Be a good pet.
Repeating commands obeyed.
Follow the leaders that followed an other themselves.
Be like them who'll accept you for giving away individuality.
Give in so you'll never be felt.
Let them feed you the poison eating your mind alive.
Blinding your existence to stand as you are.
In true form daring Anything or anyone to enter.
Turning on yourself, be a sport.
Take one for the team controlling your train of thought.
N don't forget to take a grin.
Tryin to be like them to satisfy their ignorance.
It's your life, spread yourself thin.

PAIN!

Pain! Mmm...
The dreadful reminder of life.
Inflicted to feel the only thing you've been given....
Wishing for death to come from time to time.
Pain! Ooh...
The agonizing torture felt.
In many different forms it captures holding ones own.
Building strength as another notch under the belt.
Pain! Ahh...
Not exactly the comfort that's ever so wanted.
Pushing the limits to unknown depths.
Coming away with a memory earned n flaunted.
Pain! Hmm...
The thought cringes in the mind.
Better U than me giving sympathy.
No one likes what it feels like to cry.
Pain! Noo...
The begging always seems to come to call.
Please, riddles in turns taken so intense.
The hopelessly enslaved pleads to the walls.
Pain! Boo...
It'll sneak up on u n touch ur collapse.
Sending unpleasant thoughts through ur mind.
Then release u for a bit as it retracts.

moonwalk

Walking backwards in a forward motion.
In reverse mode, blown back under emotions.
Looking straight with driven legs....
Losing steps stomping towards the gain.
Crushing the shadow wondering wtf.
A moon walking glide loosening the lunge.
Going nowhere faster than a stand still.
Moving outta reach of comforts thrill.
From where I've come from marching on.
From birth born till the day I'm mourned.
Strides rotate under my torso, left right left.
Trying to get to where i havta get to rest.
Drifting in the wrong direction within my footprints.
Taking turns the knees are bent.
Slinging the feet flung into place.
Right where they started, stalled out in pace.
Maneuvered like a bubble in a breeze.
Against still air unable to lead.
Leaning into where I have never been.
A soldier sort of speak, nowhere I go, repeat n again.
Making it look good, unable to be stopped.
Looking more n more like the king of pop.
Under the spotlight for the world to see.
Jus to combine my reality with my dreams.

cuz i deserve

I'd take from the rich n give to my fuckin self.
Fuck u n u n u cuz not a one of u ever gave me shit.
I came from the bottom n it was all me puttin in the work.
Stood on the platue n dripped from the lip like useless spit.
Fell n wound up in the mirrors gutter figuring a fingering fuck....
Was the best way to pass some time til shit wrapped back around my mind.
Waiting on my light bulb to come on lingering above my head.
Time has no waste when the money grows a spine.
Ripped out n taken for keeps sake jus as greedy as the rest.
Mine is mine when it touches the palm that grips a fist in it's fold.
I'd drain myself of my blood before I'd part with a single copper Lincoln.
All cuz i get the point of gettin mine in a world so cold.

id luv to

Ooooh... Damn.
Mmm Mmm mmm.
Do u mind if i say what i can?
N say it like a man.
Even though u got it....
What i want isn't exactly explicit.
You see, u do turn me on.
Flick of the switch without even makin a home made porn.
Lil woman I'm in luv with your mind.
N to hear my name bounce from your lips like they have the time.
I'd match the mental level of understanding in life as you I'd nab.
Standing next to what it is I see that you already know you have.
Don't take me wrong, I ain't giving in to the over used emotions.
But your personality has me putting on the lotion.
Unlike Ted Bundy I wouldn't hold you against your will.
But I gotta let you know there's a secret place within me for you that spills.
In my thoughts jus to get close enough to better my life having you in it as a plus.
I'm jus straight up feeling you from the floor up.
I ain't seen nothing quite like you in all my days.
N I'd luv to be the reason for your happiness to blame.
To be at fault for your ability to open the fuck up.
On a whole new level of maturity where like lives before luv.
In all seriousness that vibe you're working with is bouncing quite nice.
I'm feeling it tap at my own drum pounding as it's spliced.
Ready to connect with the pulse n ease up on your world.
Cuz you're what they call a catch, a lone pearl.
Yet it's the stability of your mind that's got me sprung.
A satisfaction draped in my desire to come undone.
But you'll never know for reasons never spoke.
Sitting here without a name as true intention are wrote.
Breaking the silenced truths in ink jus beneath the look down to be witnessed.
Right in front of the attention taken as a secret could be what's missed.
It's real n goin to waste cuz I value even the thought of you.
Lil do you know, quietly, I think of putting it to use.
Yet there's things in this life I don't wanna part with.
N you being one in which losing would change the depth of my very own ditch.
Dug up n filled in to cover up a loss like no other.
It's the only term I come to of why I don't bother.

slits open up the back...

What turn wound me up here.
What really went wrong switching gears.
I jus woke up looking around wondering wtf.
Seems i paid the ultimate price in the name of luv.
I think I've came down a one way street....
Sitting face to face with a dead ends treat.
Met with a four way stop sign standing in the middle of life.
Everything points to the now n I feel it's spike.
Unable to return from which way I've come.
One lump or two George as I've awakened with the lumps.
Sucked in daily attempting to figure out where home went.
N for the life of me i believe my patience is spent.
Damn near outta options my mind runs wild.
Extracting the lack of truth I've kept on file.
Shit jus doesn't add up to wind up being betrayed.
As I'm doing everything possible to swallow the rage.
For everytime i turn around slits open up the back.
But at least i can not see what faces my past.
Restless n fighting for an end result.
Shaking my head cuz the final word jus doesn't come without a pause.
Captured by time for a better way.
In all honesty it's all the same by the dawn unchanged.
With pouring rain as far as the horizons edge.
Like tears overflowing the windows ledge.
Watching the seasons change as if tomorrow doesn't exist.
Stuck in idle mode as the head nods to the b.s.
I've landed without the bounce withstanding the memory.
Cuz the past is back in a fresh set of eyes capturing the testimony.
Same ol' let down collapsing n dragging behind.
Somehow the three sixty set me in a dead centers rewind.
Replaying relations I can not escape the threat.
On a personal level I thought I part this test.
Seems the feel is apparently identical every go around.
As my profile attracts the candy looking for burial grounds.
It'll never make sense to an outer shell shallow n needing a fill.
A fool to reel in n mislead as willingness is only words for cheep thrills.
I've awakened to this pulling me in to be devoured.
All cuz the want n think they have the fuckin power.

the switch

Spending life right back at it's own.
Folding up days within the creases bullshiting moans.
Laying the struggle to rest at the needs foot rest....
Turning to the pillow to concur what's worth to invest.
Escaping reality to less chaotic dreams.
Slowing down the rapid rhythm in the way one breathes.
For givin a fuck is in something of a dying need.
Deep beneath the covers, leaping from the feet.
The sliding underdog jus wants to slip away.
Flipping the switch on the logic running through the brain.
Worn down n finding the lack of comfort has confidence shaking.
Yelling at life of what is felt here as of lately.
With a good night n a fuck you to.
The string of use is confused n cut the fuck loose.
Untying the constant restraints resistance life has to offer.
Freeing the leg from the ball n chains roster.
For the living proof has claimed a wicked disappointment.
Within another day that shoulda been avoided.
Putting into life with no returns.
The will fades into a drift like a ostrich into a whole.
Character is vulnerable to crack catering to the caress of time.
Bein feed the fuck up with the feast for words remain a lie.
Handin over the noose before pushed over the ledge.
Jus sittin calmly within findin what functions at the edge.
Unable to lunge into what can't get right with the mind.
There's to many canyons with a horizon worth a sigh.
But very few echo with passions tone makin luv to thy name.
Steppin back from emotional suicide goin insane.
The drop jus isn't as tender to the heart plummeting.
This change is answered by truth surfacing.
Catching up to slow the poser smiling in make believe.
Worth reached in n flipped the switch of relief.
The beloved disconnection released the hooks feed.
Shit jus ain't what appears to the eyes that peek a simple lil look-see.

Influence by lies seen coming from get go.
Never having a chance buy going for the gold.
It's a twist to enjoy something fingers just wanna touch.
Knowing the end beginning rounds reach mornings hush.
Only wanting a bit of time to hold a memory that cracks a smile....
Digging into the comfort of being alone with an other for as long as it lasts.
Somewhere in the middle of the feel of having them before the clash.
Making the most of owns truths as life goes on.
Opening up for their presence to become worn

goin down...

Down is the only and best way to go.
Listening to her sound as she grabs ahold.
With a fist full of head between her legs.
It won't be long until she begs.
Destroying her memories of what she thought was great.
The skills unleashed force her tone to call out thy name.
Dropping down one level to peek at the spreads display.
Simply following the tongue to her drought moistened by a moment enslaved.
Owned by the twirl spinning around and flattening out.
Stealing a taste flavored by exploding hormones caressed by the mouth.
Lips to lips making out with her moans counting orgasms.
Pulse to pulse bouncing and vibrating into spasms.
Feeling her rip loose and cumming completely undone.
Enjoying her desire to be a few hours of fun.
Beneath the waist lookin up as hands wrap around the thighs.
Held in place givin everything to blow her mind.
At one with the way she moves to the tender touch.
Teasing time buried in the art where she glides upon the rush.
Becoming her play thing that pleases a never ending g-spot.
Jus under the navel a few inches past what has been chopped.
Trimmed for a delightful treat in which there is no match.
Breaking out the bag of tricks following her path.
One, two, three times the feel down on the knees.
Rising flush in full control as she feels the meat.
Inserted two lil, four lil, six, eight inches and a bit more at a time.
Worked in to her fantasies within her mind.
Deep inside where she craves the depths to be felt.
Wall to wall, bottomed out as her passions melt.
Dripping in a flow as the slide is so fuckin smooth.
Spinning her thoughts outta control finding her groove.
As low as the pelvis can swing and slide side to side, round and round and plunging just right.
Slowly playing her gasps against her that accept the girth in her with might.
Where she claims to imprison hearts unable to leave.
Down, is the only place you'll ever get her to pleads.
Begging for more the stiffer it gets.
Never desperate, she's just in need of some real to good to be true dick.
Popping, her body tightens and clings to thy hips.
Squeezing out an ooh my fuckin.... Squeezing the covers in her fists.
Just to drop below and do what she never saw coming.
Round two, Mmm, deliciously nummy!
Touchdown, through the uprights up and over the shoulders.
Extra points just for the pleasure that unfolds her.
Rolling a swivel, stroking a drooling untamed breathe.
Telling on her sweet spot exposed and expressing nothing less.
Than the exertion of secrets deliquently fondled.
As fingers interlock and intertwine on thoughts surrendered.
Owning another bust faced close enough to witness the ripples.
Finding the hands running for her nipples.
Forcefully flipped and climbing to the back of her neck.
Strengthening the pulses satisfaction laying down ones best.
Filling her nature addicted to the correction.
Moving with ease, she takes full advantage of a true erection.
Breaking barriers of a language never spoken and reckless.
Settling her lost untold sensitivity missed.
Just to feel the grip of her walls grab hold of the shaft.
Arching the back and pressing into the pursuing fact.
Enjoying how the feel takes her away.
Screaming harder as she's drained.
At the tip of the climax bursting out loud.
Rescued by the release doing her proud.
She's a tenderoni of pure perfection.
Down to reinvent a more reliable resurrection.
Sitting motionless in her depths as she finishes her twitch.
Going down to the tips of her toes curling for the fix.

the change

Watching them change before your own eyes.
No longer the one you fell for as you have to say goodbye.
The desire that fluttered faces the fear of never seeing them again.
Teaches the faces torn decision to made a stand.
Finding happiness left as they can not find you in their heart....
No matter what or how long you stood next to them doing more than your part.
The change of pace paves an exit strategy with reason.
Settling nerves merging as reality wraps the bends meaning.
Who one was is not who they've turned out to be.
As wasted time was enjoyed behind the eyelids lead.
Blinded by the emotion believing in what will never seem to become.
Letting go as the ease of understanding singles out the definition of done.
As arms release the comfort that holds time unjustified.
Not once wanting them to be perfect but to simply just be life.
The way it was meant as the day luv started to build.
Yet, reaching for them dropping the mic to scream what spills.
It just isn't worth the attention given to waste moments that doesn't mean shit.
As the audience of friends in the head chatters on a sad reality that has flipped.
Turning on a pivot so self doesn't travel back down the same road.
The mind wraps around how useless it would be to claim framed walls as a home.
Hiding the distance in between a luv coming to a close.
Attempting to protect self misguided and misplaced by the roast.
Tearing devotion apart within each word ripping the r.i.p. From the p.i.n.g.
That bounced off the head getting caught up with what was more than a fling.
But to every beginning there is an end.
Everything is subject to change as u lose another friend.
As the choice was made to stand in the presence to fit in.
Seems the real individual beneath the surface lives with a different kinda grin.
Luv is a disease that kills that fuzzy feeling of connecting strengths.
Unraveling in the actions intent bold faced enough to breathe.
Faces change but the same ol game surfaces to play.
Flat out, no one believes in you in motion just before the hate.....

ur super hero

Watching the spike shed u from limb to limb.
Sucking u inward as ur figure shrinks thin.
Owned by the domination of getting away.
Mummified into a comatose state of escape.
Drifting outta reality u slip into a trans....
Unable to cope with this world again.
Gone n outta reach of the good u possess.
Beneath the head u lay a waste in the chest.
Numb to the poison that taps the vein.
Without a care ur worth has been tamed.
I'm witness to u fall up n under a spell.
As muted words to anyone I jus cannot tell.
Hidden away like ur true self safe n sound.
Only if u could see, in u, what I've found.
Yet ur strength gives in as it's given up.
Unable to feel anything that resembles luv.
N daily, I sit in wonder of the reason why.
For my eyes are in need of new sights.
Damn near dead u teeter with death.
As this lifestyle I jus cannot accept.
You've become the opposite of what I want in my life.
N it's sad to say, ur losing my fight.
To bare to visualize u fade with every tie.
Hurts as another piece of u escapes my mind.
The display of the lifelessness' ur blinded to.
Has settled in the design of my eyes truce.
Alone in ur own world u drift away.
Soon to awaken to I jus couldn't stay.
Leaving this burden that is not of my own.
No matter the depth of luvn here that is shown.
My friend, please understand ur monkeys don't play nice.
As ur weight is to heavy for me to live a lie.
It's as if I'm the one at the end of ur string.
In pain, injecting the bittersweet into ur bloodstream.
The ache u cannot feel is losing it's mind.
For there's nothing I can do but redirect my time.
In another life, distant from this so called hell.
Only if I woulda known this was the real u, I wouldn't have fell.
Ur addicted to the feel of the needle changing ur face.
N it's ur life it owns, with it's cape.
Ur super hero that comes n makes everything all better.
Floating on a high as if it was made of feathers.
Weightless, ur to heavy for me to carry the distance.
Luv, it's almost as if u have no existence.

Gone.....

One more peek at the endless luv.
A split second in a glimpse.
To curve ur face....
Ooh, these eyes wouldn't flinch.

For the blink would take u away.
Lost again forever.
Gone in the mind runnin.
From the shoulders I jus want u severed.
Dumpin the head.
Freein u once again into my reality.
Here where it matters the most.
It be so nice, into me if u could lean.
Held safe.
Back to ur roots.
Standin with the fraction of time.
I'd promise never to take my sights off of u.
Jus for a bit.
To sit n hear ur voice.
To show u the luv left here for u.
Only if I could fill the void.
You've been gone to long.
Lost in the past.
Followin the linger into the now.
As days become years that end up gone to fast.
Seems I hold u still.
In my emotions ache.
As thoughts remind me of what we couldn't have.
U coulda never have left a lil to late.
U remain welcome in my life.
Yet the end came for u.
How in the fuck can i relate?
No one else will ever do.
U were the best ground I've ever had.
There's no one here quite like u.
It was u n me til the end remember.
Two of a kind livin loose.
N ur outlastin the pain.
Livin an eternity in my heart.
But now it jus seems...
Yeah.
Ur gone!
As it's silent here without ur sound.
Cuz u simply jus vanished.
N ooh how life now jus drags out.
Shit ain't been the same since u went ghost.
Guess that's how it goes.
Those worth a damn jus havta go.
Creasin the heart into a permanent fold.
Tuckin a memory to come back to later.
In my own story written without u.
Invisible in my mind ur fadin.
Needin pics to show the proof.
Of the life we once lived.
The life that escaped.
Damn...
What I'd do jus to see ur face.
So here's a pic for u to remember us.
Ur babies.
What u lived for.
The ones that need u more n more here lately.

no mans land

Trapped tryin to get back to u. against my will, theres no excuse. fallin into a life i cant excape. held within my own face. beneath the expression that misses the smile. so i retreat deep inside. stuck somewhere else jus wantin to go home. n im losin hope. fadin is everything i once knew. ive been imprisoned in a place in which i have no use. so much is wromg here. slippin into my deepest fear. unable to return to u. ive been captured by this silent abuse. as the rage has r...eplaced the pain. diggin into my own untamed. this is not where i belong. this side attraction has been prolonged. there is no help where i stand. n all i think about is u in my life again. ur there but ur too many miles away. as im the one to blame. jus know this is not my life. im jus tryin to make it back to u by my side. as it hurts livin this way. hands tied or homeless are my only options year to date. in the now i sit n miss ur face. fightin what u cannot see. u are the reason for in which the way i breathe. my will lives cuz u still believe in me. n im comin jus as soon as i figure out this horrifyin dream. im in no mans land. swimmin in quicksand. lost without bein able to make things right. but im on my way n that is no lie.