as if I was felt

Did u feel the loss of lisin me when u threw me away? Where did I ever fit into emotions when shit broke down furhter everyday. When u gave up as if I wasnt worth livin life with, how was I felt when the games were played? Was I missed when I wouldnt go away cuz I cared or was I a an irritation that wanted to stay? How is it u lost sight of me when it was me standin in the middle of luv fightin for ur hand to behave? Am I suppose ti believe u thought of me everyday as u accepted an other dude to replace me so easily as u strayed? How in the fuck can u say u have always luvd me when u did what u did n I was left facin life afraid. Diggin deep as u had ur fun cuz I was never good enough off rip n now im the way. Im not comprehendin nor understand how someone can purposely destroy somethin so pure n rare n then turn round n want it as if they deserve it after the pain. Please help me cuz im not feedin into bein hurt as I once was by how u claimed to luv in a way its always been me u yourself gave. When we both know the truths of y our hardship has happened n y its hard for me to believe the way u speak for idk if this luv can be saved. When was I truly felt when u decided from get go never to be real with me as if I was a lame? Cuz the saddest thing ever would be lettin go of how I feel for u cuz I have nothin real in over three yrs to go on n its u that changed ur face.