leavin

Heres a certainty thru words expressed by feelins thatll never lie. A passion held in at the lips while the written is release what I hide inside. Its the truth wrapped around my nerves thats unsettled n completely undone. As time itself is near the hand that ticks of my own happiness on the run. Two demons lay about in my mind that riddle in need of an answer. Rippin me into two with an uncertainty that one or the other will make it thru. In one palm I hold the one I considered th luv of my life with an unconditional type of cherish. In the other Im currently feelin with fingertips that eases my own pain as I feel her upon my lips. Between the two a decision has been made for room. N its me that has to decide to end in truth. My wife n what I thought was my best friend is trapped n reachin for my hand to help her redeem what it is I thought we shared. The other is friend thats stands by me n is there for shes in need of a change like self as I to care. Mandy! The completion of a lifetime is was n will always be what was. What we had is not a never endin luv u left madly in luv, I can nit stand next to u. For my knowledge of what ur has come true. Shelby! To hurt u like everyone has done ur whole life is not what I want. Cuz I enjoy our time together n have so much fun. So to walk away n leave u without anyone in this world, nah, im urs to own. That alone would break down the man in me cuz I know our friendship at this point is growin n my hearts not on loan. Im my own way back to normal n a way out of whats been known for as long as one has been alive. N the sadest thing I know in life is I to know which one of the two will feel the knife. Im no longer in pieces tryin to put my own life back together again. N I guess im felt for the way I stand as a man. Ive never cheated nor have I ever lied. But the truth this time around will close a chapter as im sorry to say, only the one can stand by my side. To choose is done, n I already know whats goin to happen. My smile works differently in the presence of Mrs Morgan laughin. She owned my heart n fulfilled my dreams. So Ms. Darby please dont ever think u were second best to me. I didnt start this thinkin id feel this way bout u as u face me n I turn on my past. Jus know as I step away I found u givin reason to me n thats a fact. So missin u I will not do n I will remember how I had to decide for my own smile to live. Jus know if she ever came for me id stand beside u no matter ur age cuz I know what u give. Imma find a home in u n feel ur truths. So Mandy!  For the record, I ask, dont ever hold a grudge for someone that had ur husbands back when it shoulda been u holdin for me a use!