how it was is how its not

ilu1! i say it everyday. no matter whom i see. mandy is was n always has been my dream. ilu1! n thats no lie. that day is comin soon for us to stand side by side. n imma luv u even more than before. ilu1! its no secret to anyone on how i feel for u. ur my one n only. my woman wife best friend n truth. ilu1! shit got outta hand but look at us now. wantin that feelin of touch back cuz we know where we belong. together we can never go wrong. ilu1! jus be patient n stand up n know i got ur back. i always have n always will. ur my gurl. ilu1! im comin for u. jus gimme a lil time. i miss u n imma fix this at the seems where it let loose............ this is how I felt for u for to long. I'm movin on for my lesson from u was taught. This was not luv from ur end. Hell, in u I've never had a friend. Ur in ur own now n for the rest of time. As for once when it comes to u I'm mine! Dude to u the one I called three luv if my life. N jus think I actually made u my wife. Do u could turn on me as I tried so fuckin hard to make sure u n the kids were ok. But it didn't matter by the end if the day. It'd me doin me now n till the day I lay still. Motionless as I am now to ur fucked up grill. Laughin n gigglin as if I'm really a joke. Yet what u fall to realize is this, git us there us no hour. You've gone n done it n im out like 5 thouy G! I'm a different kinda free. How it was is how its not. I'm not the same n I can't live with doubts. Jus go n don't look back. The man u lost its a thing if the past.