afterlife

So this is what life is like without u.
This is how I'm left feeling after all is said n done.
How ironic the emotions I fought off.
Glad it was so easy for u to turn on ur one.
N this is how u walk away.
Once upon a time I thought we was forever.
So as I sit here well never know now.
Its a different kinda feeling not bein together.
Its sad who u truly turned out to be.
N how u did me as ur only true friend in our time.
Guess it jus took a few yrs for the real u to surface.
After u couldn't face me cuz of all the lies.
N the games I finally faced.
I tried to show u a new way.
My thoughts r we jus may not be so much alike.
So this is the afterlife were u didn't wanna play.
I feel u on ur journey needing ur fix.
Everyone has a change of heart.
As the mind turns cuz the other has another lifestyle.
Til now I luv'd u from the start.
My best was wasted on ur selfishness.
U tore all 11 of our lives apart without care.
So go get ur justification pleasing ur high.
Separated ashes jus doesn't seem fair.
Yet I accept with smile the outcome.
For I know who u truly r now standin alone.
This is my life walking in the other direction.
Feelin u fade as I begin to roam.
Pushin u out of that one place no one could ever touch.
N it amazes me how a luv so pure could end.
Left in a moment of truth I found u.
N I'm better off as sad as it sounds cuz u wanted to pretend.
But we both know y we really stopped this rollercoaster.
Lets jus sat my side was willing a able.
Gettin at what I wanted in my presence.
N it may hurt that I'm not the one that's unstable.
Leavin u in a place where I woulda never thought I'd leave u.
Gone I'm off seeking my true calling.
With my head clearer than I've ever thunk.
I'm not wasting no more time on u Stalling.
As I rest in what's left of us released.
Goodbye MANDY!
I will miss u but life is not over.
Yet my realization of u is u r only eye candy..........

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