in between two lives

Leanin in the door frame from the position in which I stand.
Is it safe after so much wrong as been done to this man.
Lookin in from the outside tryin to find reasonin in comin home.
Will things change or is it time to honestly hit the road?
On the doorstep of balance holding my weight for me to see.
Can I trust in such a short time that my own is enough to need?
In middle of a pause at the back door so I can witness what's really goin on.
How am I suppose to know which way this relationship jus goin?
Peeking a looksie n scared to enter for I've been here before.
Is there any way of knowing to be 100% sure?
In between two lives in which I am to decide.
Can anyone tell me the answers I've asked in this time?
On foot in n shaking n other foot out n still.
Can the heart thaw before the freezing chill?
Lost on the putter side of the door the head moves in.
Searchin for a chance to make a positive decision.
I'm frightened of what's inside I left behind.
Cuz to be honest Idk what I'd find.
If I were to fall inward on a past I gave away.
Is it in my best interest for me to stay?
I'm caught dead center of walking in either direction.
N self I having to shield with a lonely protection.
Am I strong enough once in to know my choice is right?
Maybe I should jus disappear for the uncertainties r a constant fight.trapped in between two lives im in the middle of me.
Teeterin on choosing what life I need........

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