So that's where you've been. there u r. I've been lookin for u. Findin u was hard. Spent a long time searchin. Years growin. Some times I wanted to give up. Cuz of the abscence of showin. U left me standin here. I got lost. Become some else tryin to figure it out. Tryin to wipe the tears away on a smudged mirror. Hidin u were all this time. Waitin n lerkin. Watchin me become me. Smerkin. Why I haven't a clue. Yet I see. Clearer than I ever have. As u heard me beg n plead. Come out. I wanna show u who I am. Without ur help I've taken my tests. N as a man I stand. Was that the point the whole time. When I could've used ur help. Alone I've traveled. Alone I felt. Talk to me. Don't fade into the shadows. Now is not the time. Its been to long n I'm not sure I follow. Who's to say I wouldn't have learned sooner. With u showin me the way. But u were silent. Forcin me to go about my day. Needin u for I knew nothin. Together we could've grown. Within me u cowarded. I should have known. I am u as u shoulda been me. Lost back when it was suppose to mean somethin. I've found the new me n the old me by myself. So I want u out cuz u r nothin. U ran beneath the skin I wear. Feelin the pain. Hidden u absevred abuse. Yet couldn't lead me to my gain. I know me no thanks to u. U r the old me n I am still here. Always have been. Without ur abandoned fear. Leave with what u came with. Show some class. U r no longer me. Nor welcome so forget about my past. U don't deserve to witness this life. I've done it without u. N I refuse to give u the glory. N that's the truth.
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