complete

complete.
with the ends wrapped around me.
connectin so effortlessly n ever so sweet.
floatin n sweepin me off my feet.
i feel so alive n set so unrealistically free.
like heaven was listenin to me.
givin into my pleads.
ones in which were snuggled tight enough to squeeze a pretty please.
now so in love n ready to get down on my knee.
i got that one i call my lady.
luv pulled from a long forsaken dream.
tucked in a warm embrace made for two to just be.
n tears form happiness as they overflow n stream.
as from the face joy screams.
in a slow unwindin emotional tease.
slidin down the cheek as two are growin their team.
watchin how the light slides across the eyes in the moons beam.
as a more picture perfect view of love becomes more clear n clean.
out shinin all that's been lost of learned experiences as the flee.
more complete everyday sowin up busted seems.

driftin into paradise

it seems i was jus in ur arms. layin n snuggled so sound. fallin in luv. heartbeats not missin a pound. thump. beat fromt he stroke u vibe from within. speakin straigth to my soul. as i let u in. driftin into paradise k close my eyes. rest for a sec. givin u my best of a day worth spent. hopefully passin the test. i fade into u. lost deep in luv i cave into u. wantin this moment to last a life time. i feel it with u........n as i wake in ur arms. shakin off the nights sleepies. i find myself still laid up with a dream i thought id never see. with u still beside me n lookin so damn pretty. what did i do to deserve u? it had to be somethin good to land u. n as i watch u sleep. i cant help but to think, i luv u!

extractin myself

found within me restin n waitin. deflatin in time. escapin memories gravitatin. pressin n elevatin to limits beyond experiencin the driftin of whats forsaken. creepin in within the thin lines in between what is givin in n mistaken. tryin to relate n missin the point set in by the confusion. lost in the mastermindin delusion of deliberate rejection. thinkin i'm dreamin n forgettin the reality slippin from the abusin pieces of stained emotion. greetin the activatin sarcastic expressions life spins in my direction as i begin releasin the pleasin of minds bendin misfortune. all in all searchin n never becomin somethin pretendin to happenin. fleein the cracklin cricks creekin n breakin as i'm hidin deep in the space, layin sideways n over ridin my shine cuz i am watchin n lookin for my moment of extractin myself from me in great timin.

Pause

Take a moment to ease up & enjoy some time.
Grab hold of your lover & show them how slowly you want to find the hype.
Pull them close & reach for a kiss as you come to a pause.
Relax & take notice in how they react as you do it without flaw.
Don't dare to taste the lips you desire so soon, for it will come.
Yet graze them back & forth as you can feel your own heart going home.
Watch how one loses them self in the way you feel for them.
& ask yourself, as you become so emotionally overwhelmed.
Is this the one you've longed for your whole life through?
Is this the one person you crave that does that one indescribable thing to you?
As the heat slips from the shape of the mouth & lands upon ones lips.
Gaze into the eyes of love & you will see life's plan as you please a sip.
Beginning to play a tangled game of cat mouse made for two.
Wanting to beg them to never stop as the both of you have slowly become glued.
Now engaged in a full fledged tongue battle made to share the days flavoring sauce.
Getting the fill with the feeling of being loved in ways one gets lost in the pause.
stuck in a stare wondering how in the hell they do it to ya.
becoming more in a single moment than love allows a life time to show ya.

Fallin

Loves floatin inside a man as it's flowin out & findin it's own path.
Formin upon the tongue with bold statements of what it has.
I'm lovin it's taste cuz i'm into loves angle on this 1 & truly becomin whole.
Hearts are losin their horny points & no longer cold.
Fallin fast I feel me slidin into an other like I've never done.
Lost for words & stutterin a mumblin sound in late night fun.
Real situation revealin itself as pure as the day in which we live in.
Givin in without any questions asked cuz it feels right from within.

drippin with love

snuggled n wrapped in legs n embraced, becoming 1 wit a dream.
loved n accepted 4 me as i am finally set free to be me.
held tight from a brutal past as the comfort is so safe n sound.
getting at the now, slowly gravitating so close as 2 grab a grip on what they've found.
knowing without a doubt laying in each others arms is where we belong 4ever.
falling in deep, so far beyond the norm doing their time wit a single tickling feather.
hovering in a pause as the heat of the two's breath is felt upon the lips that makes the moment.
dripping with love because i can't hold it in n no longer wanna keep it in as they show it.
leaking out trying 2 get 2 one an other in a game of 1 on 1 from within as the want is stronger than b4.
cruising through the night wit the perfect lover, healing the lonely times wasted as 2 take tour.
getting 2 know the moves shook loose from the captivity of waiting so long.
tapping in2 everything built up 2 a point of never wanting it 2 ever go wrong.

lost

i get lost in her long stares.
i was so blinded n unaware.
it's as if i found along lost friend.
as if time reversed itself n found a way 2 bend.
my completion has finally begun.
my heart is jus now feelin it's song bein sung.
gettin back what i've lost so long ago.
we're all grown up as she helps me thaw from bein froze.
after so many long walks in the rain.
she brings an end to the unforgettable pain.
words r lost in the rhythm of her ways.
tongue tied i search the for answers in the unspoken haze.
emotions r 2 mush to handle as the eyes fill.
leakin out the joy trapped within as it no longer sits still.
bracin for 4ever to kick in n show me my 1 at last.
touchin n feelin the same as i n wantin back the forgotten past.
yrs lost n memories remain of 1 an other as if we've never been claimed.
lips chasin across the surface of the everlastin needed exchange.
cravin i feen for her touch 2 reach for me in the dead of the night.
layin so close at times i feel i can't breath as i hold her n my heart takes flight.
i'm @ a loss for words as this is all i can say to express her presence.
it's unbelievable how she does what it is how she does what she can do to what's left of my innocence.

two invest

it can only be expressed.
with interest in ones best.
puttin love to the test.
with a sweet caress.
layin it down with fingers on the flesh.
in love, two invest.
buildin a fulfillin nest.
watchin one another get dressed.
conversatin without the stress.
findin true happiness.
as lips r softly pressed.
n the future is at arrest.
savin a damsel in duress.
a man from his manly mess.
feelin the pressure control the chest.
excited beyond a dream of selflessness.
feelin the hand of helpfulness.
overcome with the bliss.
no longer checkin ones wish list.
as the search is laid to rest.

sway

lemme read ur body.
watch it sway in rythm.
see if can tell what it says.
what flows thru ur system.
as i react 2 u.
feed off ur intentions.
n mind f#ck u.
of all the things u forgot 2 mention.
flirtin in movements.
motions that won't lie.
diggin 2 the groove.
from the music it can't hide.
show how it feels.
slow it down n find the time.
play irresistibly in stare.
as i stop on a dime.
loosin ur hips.
move side 2 side.
gimme somethin 2 think about.
as i begin 2 unwind.
i wanna feel ur body breathe.
heat seepin out ur pours.
flickerin in me eyes.
wantin 2 take a tour.
get lost on ur sway.
on ur lovely curves.
all the way 2 paradise.
lettin the fingers hip surf.

outlastin luv

i always said i've never met anyone i could'nt walk away from.
met a couple i did'nt wanna, but thinkin back it never really felt much like home.
i believed 4 yrs i could withstand n out last luv till i endured a broken heart.
found good times in the wrong womans arms n became more of a man as we had 2 part.
somehow i've shown myself what it means to be me n live a real life n give respect.
jus 2 receive all i need in return as my face is known as what comes next.
after the maturity of growin up has settled in n given a chance 2 shine within it's time.
i'm still me after all these yrs gone a stray n yet a lil wiser cuz i learned from my slow unwindin grind.

outlastin luv was so damn easy to do til i let one in n feel victom to my own game.

leavin me inside myself findin the y's n outside findin mine after a desrvin drain.

tap into the heart

fill it up.
that's what's up.
gimme somethin to feel in the mornin.
cuz 2night we'll b soarin.
floatin in our time.
groovin to a beat commitin crimes.
pour another once of lovin.
top it off n.
i'll bring my a game.
u wanna play?
get tipsy from the flow.
as the heart grows.
i'll be good long nuff to share.
show u what i'm willin to bare.
feel it trickle down as it ova flows.
drippin down upon ur glow.
tap into the heart.
feel how for u it sparks.
@ my best is what u'll get.
leave u sayin ur tha sh!t.
be my ever more.
reachin 4 me as i close the door.
this night is made for 2.
n it's jus me n u.
lemme give u what my intentions feel.
as ur heart i will peel.
pullin back the layers.
i'm no player.
jus a man with interests.
u r my preference.
over ridin everything i ever knew.
i'll keep this night true.
dump ur love into the emptiness i've lived.
n i'll show u what i have 2 give.
prove myself in the eyes of a lover.
when it comes 2 u there is no other.
stretch outta hand n take hold of what u want.
n 4 u it will b done.
get lost with me.
as u wind up off ur feet.
landin n layin ever so perfectly.
have a lil trust in me.
i bring good love.
as i thrust push n shove.
gimme the window i seek.
n u 2 will agree.
we need 2 do this.
cuz u know as well as i that we're on each others wish list.

standin upright

man oh man, i'd ask u how u did this but it's obvious.
now things r gettin ever so irrisistably serious.
as the mind continues to b curious.
almost as if the mind has givin in n become delirious.

changin faces in time n becomin somethin more in this world.
seems it payed off with bein u, u've pulled ur girl.
standin upright as a man who's himself with a tongue a twirl.

leavin the mind in an unbelievable state of thought of luv n wraped in a swirl.

somewhere from within

2 c u brings tears of joy to my eyes. 2 feel u sends chills down my spine. n 2 know u love me simply blows my mind! n 4 the life of me i don't know why. ur presence makes a world of difference within this man. i love to love u the way u stand. holdin hands n dreamin of what if's n what can's. touch me n watch how ur caress i can barely withstand. tremblin deep in the soul i shake at ur fingertips. n to taste ur lips. brings life outta somewhere from withtin. wantin the lights to be dimmed. u do it for me in ways this world can not provide. standin side by side. n my love 4 u i will never hide. 4 i am urs as u r mine. so release within me the potential of love i possess. givin u all my interest. mind wraped around ur hips n lickin my lips. wantin a taste of ur one of a kind luv teasin my intentions wit kindness.

the song you can not hear

putting words together riddled with the song in my head you can not hear.
trying to explain whats going on in between the floating notes waiting patiently to shed a happy tear.
bouncing off the reasons before consuming my every thought, all in together like i never knew.
softly whispering rhymes that make me want to lay you down & roll under the covers embracing you as a long lost lover i wish i could whoo.
showing u whats been roaming carelessly free, as it's been telling me what it wants to show you.
thoughts rattling a verbal slang built up & expressed as its aimed directly towards something as true as u.
& i'm needing just a few moments to gather & collect these thoughts before their known.
until now what i'v always thought could never happen in a million years, has never been shown.
sharing all the little things in which i could never seem to get a grip.
handle this thing i feel or even shoot from the hip.
so as i chitter a chatter in the dark with one thing in mind that makes a grown man sigh.
how to get you near? living & sharing the space that's in between & outside the lines, all at the same time in which i rhyme.
& i cant seem to put us together as smooth as my dreams have dreamed, or as i oh so ever wanted.
seems like i'm tongue tied again, who would've thought 1 could have ever thunk it.
& this is just a note to self of a masterpiece made for you, laying round enjoying the sounds in my head.
lounging about until the time gives way for me to say what's needing to be said.
& it's that song you can not hear pounding it's echoing enjoyment in a special place throughout my mind.
as the red carpets been unrolled for you to embrace a melody i've been desperately trying to hide from someone that i believe is my kind, & i don't know why?
all i ever wanted is to finish this song you can not hear, because it's never been expressed in your ear the way it feels from within me as my lips have been sealed for years in fear.

shaping the pieces back together

if i were to melt in the presents on ur day.
jus give in to everything u say.
would u know how to scult me back together?
cuz im lookin 4 that friend in u like no other.
the one that knows me through n through.
can tell me things about me i never knew.
so as i become puddy in ur hands.
give me shape n tell me what kinda man u think i am.
cuz i believe ur somthin worth keepin in my mind.
trapped in my heart for of time.
knowin what u'll allow to be known.
i'd piece u back together upon a thrown.
show u how much u mean to me.
as u live ur life ever so free.

fresh start

from there to here. minds catching up as i begin to hear the fear lose grip n vere. soft twiddled phrases of love being spoken. ever so clear and not choking. for the first time in my life i haven't a doubt in my mind if this thing will last. forgetting the past. hearts healing like never before in a lovers arms i longed to hold. as we begin to slowly unfold. opening up and finding after years of lost time and unmade memories we are on in the same. & together we will climb out of the places we've been for so long in the wrong persons arms. without the sounds of alarms. breaking ground in ways of love that define true happiness. we both have to have this. the desire is to much not have & to hold til death do us part. beginning now with a fresh start in our hearts. feeling the vibe of knowing that the other feels the same inside. about each other that can not hide. wonders of both parties have filled the mind threw the years. finding ourselves empty & hollow with dried up tears. always finding the end of the road for no other compared. as if we truly cared. it's a complex situation of the heart that wants what it wants. & it will never give up it's hunt until it's won.

no more than a man

steppin into me early in the mornin i stand for what i am. yet at night i crawl out of me as i lay in bed realizin i am no more than a man. n as i lay silent as if dead to this world, thinkin. a come to n release my thoughts into the air as my eyes r blinkin. growin tired n weary of a long lost day i jus endured. on that will never return. i'm fightin sleep for one more chance to stay awake n live as long as i can. but the body it beatin for it is ran so hard i can not stand. slippin of all i can remember of this day is that it's over now. out of reach as the clock spins midnight upon the night n i still can't seem to frown. for i feel life easin through my lungs as my comfort settles in. jus hope i wake to give a go at this thing with a grin.

bobbing in confusion-n done with the b.s.

numb mind searching in between the glory & the confusion for answers i may never find. walking & kicking in locked doors to find that reveal absolutely nothing, i'm lost inside my mind. backs sliding down the walls as i spin out of control without a chance in hell to figure this shit out. losing the thought process of everything i've learned in a sort time of my dying & hurting inside out. heads heavy enough that the hands can't seem to hold it up anymore, as if it's given up. swinging from left to right, bobbing in the confusion of everything i was told as i believed & thunk. swollen & clouded the mind is tired & alone in it's own time of misunderstanding & misfortune. & lately i feel it's time has expired on thoughts of all the bullshit that's not worth the sound of my tune. ringing in places i never knew existed deep within the wasted lost space i don't seem to use. & i've had my run of it in ways a man should never stoop as i fell, landing upright as usual just to see how short the fuse.

tryin to shine

we stand as a men with warn out hands squeezin the only thing i know in life.
feelin stranded @ times as if we were only handed a mouthful of lies.
branded our faces seems dull, n we can't hear our call ringinin in utter silence.
feelin the fall creepin its hard to stand tall n tightly hold in the violence.
when's nuff enough when others faces r ova stuffed n ovaflowin, it's sickenin.
n it's a lil to fuckin much when u cant stand the touch of everything that's happenin.
constantly pull n dragged, some what nagged by the whippin wind of life n what it hides.
like we've been had n left flustered inside this mad man, n one can't seem to take his own side.
fightin within our own lil world n outside ones skin feels thin n somehow dreams r missin.
swingin on the grin of those who fake where they've been as if we were to listen.
it's all part time n how we find out who it is we r to sort a of unspoken term, become.
tryin to shine in the bottomless pit of cries in which we fight from becomin emotionally numb.

mandy!

put urself in my shoes. look at urself. n as u stand in my place. feel the ova whelmin serge take control. try n hold it in. ive been tryin for yrs n cant.

ur not jus any1 to me. ur MANDY! n ive been waitin. noy knowin i had a chance. n at times i wanna cry a happy tear. im urs. do as u please.

sit back. watch my expression. see how my eyes atre u down. follow wm n get lost.

kiss me. no no no. not there, but there. oh yeah. do it again. thats it. ohh. now here.

ramblin sounds of joy bouncin off my ear drums. landin in my mind sent 2 my heart 4 the experience of a lifetime.

it wont stop. i cant get it to ease up. its so beautiful. 2 good to quit. so real. i refuse to slow down. what is it u ask? ur love. it hits a sweet spot.

if i were to melt. would u know how to scult me back together? cuz im lookin 4 that friend in u like no other. the one that knows me thru n thru.

2 c u brings tears of joy to my eyes. 2 feel u sends chills down my spine. n 2 know u love me simply blows my mind!

u goy away once. that was enough. i want u in my life. i had 2 release u 2 find my way. n now here we r today.

uv bcum da sweetest thing in my life. somethin undescibable. a newe heartbeat. n somethin fairytales say r irreplacable.

u have every once of me feenin 4 the woman u r. stirin emotions burstin inside. i luv u the exact way u r. n it's as if u fell from the sky.

do it like that. the way u do what ur doin to me. jus the w u know how. mmm hmm. gimme what u got. straight to the heart thru the mind. ur my kind.

luv. bringin my baby back 2 me. luv. is what i will show thee. luv. is what iv learned how 2 use. luv. bcuz i choose u.

luv is the silent smiles showin the emotion from within. bringin life upon the face n formin an unspeakable grin.

recognizein the stare in ur eyes. linin up perfectly with mine. lost in amazment we get stuck loookin in standoffs. wit a glare ever so gentle n soft.

open up n give in2 me. lemme inside. feel my presence. as i ride. lay back n relax. strokin u never 2 fast. wit my deliverance.

lip surfin in ur ocean. readin ur motions. lookin 4 the climax noyion. tastin ur potion. feelin ur emotion serge thru my insertion.

mind in the gutter cuz it's stuck on u. the way u wiggle gots it doin somethin new. it's outta control in the zone. oh how i like when ur layin about in my zone.

im twistin my mind around ur curves.touchin every hormonic nerve. oh how id luv 2 b able 2 serve. as every inch of ur body id like 2 slurp.

starin u down in the heat of battle. boy meets girl n im strapped as u ride my sattle.

i keep catchin myself in daydreams thinikn of u. openin y mind as my heart follows the thought of bein with u. i luv how u do what u do as ur luv is so true.

my heart beats 2 evry letter of ur name. every silible spoken. my tongue tastes ur grace.

u r the only woman i will ever b with again. the only woman i will fantasies about. the only 1 worth the thoguht of love. my 1 is u.

i'll give all my luv 2 u. only u. cuz it is u. MANDY my luv is meant 4 u. so ture. all i ever wanted was u. for it is u. makin me speak so true in words i neva knew.

i cant wait to b truly urs. day in day out. livin life bside u. 2 me thats what luv is about. u n i. standin the test of time like we've always done.

as i drift in a place without u. i will search high n low til i find u. take u 2 paradise. sweep u off ur feet n look in2 ur eyes. as i tell u, ilu.

i wanna watch as u wiggle n shake. as u gasp 4 air n ur juices escape. peepin who try n tame what goin on in btween ur legs. sparkin a new flame.

tastin ur lips i crave 4 the flavor. tryin 2 stay calm i fall victom 2 horniesh behavior.

i found myself in u. slowly as i grew. hangin around as u did in me. waitin patiently 2 live wit a dream.

2 ova kind

THE POWER OF LOVE ONLY EXISTS IN PAIRS,

TWO HEARTS UNITED AS ONE EMOTIONAL DARE.

TRYING TO MAKE IT THE DISTANCE LESS TRAVELED,

HEALING THE HEART AND WATCHING IT UNRAVEL..

........

If love showed its face,

If it held you in a warm embrace,

Touched you like you’ve never thought imaginable,

Would you think love is possible?

If when held close enough to love,

If two hearts felt the beat of one.

Pulsating out of control,

Could feelings be intertwined as they attempt to hold?

If you felt as if you’ve found life’s little miracle,

Willing to help you with your very own obstacles.

Allowing the motion of emotion to live,

Could you find it in your heart, for yourself to give?

sprung

makin luv thru so many slow easy words. watch how my tongue curves as i say ur complete name. gettin drippin wet wit extended word play. taste the rythm flowin from my hungered mouth. b4 i even attempt go south n enjoy a lil game. i'm willin t go there n that's all i can say. peep the lil letters bouncin off my lips. windin up in a kiss caressin the skin that's all over u. u know exactly what it is i wanna do. i notice how u react to my vocab. n u can have every stretched stretched n spaced out line. as i dabble inside ur beautiful mind. i got the alphabet so far sprung on u. teasin only u n pleasin the incredible woman uv become. vibratin til ur done n over run in fun. every rhyme i release from within of whom u see. as i free true emotion n willingness. n ur the one that's on my wish list. jottin down phrases in form of love. lettin it be known of what it is i want b4 it turns n overlooks me. can u feel me as i speak to thee?

losin grip

flippin scripts, its a trip how we live this sh!t. lips dried n ripped, constantly openin a new split. it's bullsh!t n ludicrous, how life hits when we're losin grip. thinkin it, when where gonna hold on 2 it. spittin words hittin nerves. jus 2 be curved n thrown back is absurd, 2 the 3rd power of wantin 2 be heard. that's for sure. visions blurred n feelins hurt. livin days insecure, turnin on slurred letters of who we were. n yet still da facts remains the same. either go insane or maintain. explain 2 self ones own selfish ways or fade. grown n live to see another day. inna way that today is what's left of yesterday. yet feelin da same seems 2 leak out pain. da game changed when names rain. purin n placin blame. face caught up in shape shiftin shades of gray. only to exchange words of a dyin fate. as hate squeezes loves debate. uncontrolled n irate. there's somethin in it that was fake. but now it's a lil 2 late. we've escaped. memories erased. tastin da misplaced graze of grace. trimmed in lace. left inna open space 2 find ones self is inna open n closed closed case. losin da race one no longer feels safe. in it's a shame we force a smile upon the sun rays.

lost in a blur

i found her!
lost in a blur.
she's been there all this time.
in my mind.
travelin with me.
in between my dreams.
in & out of my visions.
true intentions.
tongue slippin wishes.
missin kisses.
gone she's returned.
to have some fun.
i got her.
& she's got hers.
in me she's found her one.
feelin we've both won.
reactin for time has taken too long.
to give back after bein wrong.
we were almost robbed.
this was a prob.
we got lost & learned.
all in our own turn.
crossin paths & connectin eyes.
healin lonely cries.

one chance to earn it

ONE CHANCE. ONE CRACK AT A SMILE. UR SMILE. LEMME HAVE THAT SHOT. LEMME SHOW YOU WHAT IT IS I AM SO WILLIN TO DO. JUS CUZ IT IS INDEED U. OPEN UP CUZ I AM FINALLY HERE. AS A MAN. ONE IN WHICH I HAVE TWEAKED & TRIMMED FOR SO LONG. JUS TO MAKE IT BACK TO U. N I AASK OF NOTHIN IN RETURN. OTHER THAN LET ME EARN UR LOVE. EARN..... I WANT IT NO OTHER WAY. U SEE. U'VE BEEN IN & OUTTA MY HEAD FOR SO LONG. ALL I'M ASKIN IS FOR U TO LOOK INTO ME. THRU MY EYES. LOOK DEEP. N SEE WHAT IT IS I FEEL. I WANT ONE TIME TO WATCH YOU SMILE LIKE U'VE NEVER DONE. CAN U UNDASTAND THAT? CUZ I THINK WE'RE ON THE SAME PAGE. OUR STORIES LINE UP SO RIGHT. I GIVE GOOD LUV. N SO MUCH MORE. I'D SPOIL THE HELL OUTTA YOU. JUS BY BEIN ME. WHO I AM. LOST IN WHO U ARE. LEMME SEE IF AT ALL POSSIBLE I CAN EARN UR TRUST. U MIGHT JUS BE IMPRESSED. BUT THAT'S NOT WHAT I'M LOOKIN FOR. TIME & PATIENCE. JUS SO U CAN SEE ME FOR WHO I AM. HOW MUCH TIME CAN U SPARE? CUZ I GOTTA LIFE TO SPEND. & ITS ALREADY SEEMS LIKE IT'S BEEN 4EVER. OPEN ME A WINDOW. LEMME PROVE MYSELF. ONCE. & IF U LIKE I'D DO IT EVERYDAY FROM HERE ON OUT. LET ME IN. WHAT HAVE YOU GOT TO LOSE? EXPERIENCE TRUE EMOTION. LET YOUR INNER SELF BE TOUCHED. GIVE IN & TRY SOMETHING THAT HAS BEEN SO FAR PAST DUE! ALL I AM ASKIN IS FOR ONE CHANCE TO EARN IT. ALL I NEED IS THE LETE CUZ I HAVE THE COMP.

a letter to friends

k. hears the story! u know what has happened between me n rach for the most part. some things i still have'nt told anyone. i walked away sunday for good. finished. had a few choice of words for her. n i was done. now tryin to be mature about it. i don't hate her. if she needed anything, i'd still help her. everyone has the right to walk their own walk. i accept that.
with sayin that i was sittin on fb sunday night n someone from yrs past contacted me. someone i went lookin for back in feb when i was single over the winter. checked her out n found she was doin her own thing. so i didn't take it any further.
her first words were did i make mends with my gf. i told her no, was forced to walk away. n she gave me the line of how stupid she was n i looked to b a great dad, man, guy, handsome n so on. i thanked her as i satback beside myself in amazment of whom i was talkin to.
we got into a conversation n i slowly realized she didn't recognize who i was. so i began to fuck with her like i do everyone. dropin hints of where i was from n who her mom was. all the time she's wondering who in the hell i am? until i told her my moms name. phil! she stopped I.M.ing me for a minute. i asked her was she still there?
she later said she jumped for joy at that moment of who i was! so i told her i had the biggest crush on her when we were comin up. i wasn't gonna wait any longer to tell her. it had been long enough. i've known her since we were six. her mom n my mom use to tease us about each other through the yrs. she told me the same things i was telling her. blowin each others minds. at this point i am now a loss for words.
she began to tell me she didn't realize that it was me n didn't know why we shared a friend in common here on fb. also. she had been checkin me out n watchin my whole ordeal go down with rachell for a couple of months. said she was so attracted to me. not jus becaus ei was a good lookin man. in her words.
we both had been wonderin about each other for yrs. what if's to who we became because in time we drifted apart n neither of us expressed ourselves. didn't think the other was interested. n we were so scared to say anything.
i found out we are still so much alike n have so much in common. after yrs of separation we are damn near the same person, still. alike in so many ways! always have been. i've craved this woman secretively most of my life. 28 yrs, as she has me. n never knew how she felt. jus to find out she craved me the same. hollywood couldn't write this shit!
here's the crazy part! i went to see my mama in august. knew things were turnin the corner with me n rach. i sat and asked my mama to point me in the right direction cuz i didn't know if rach was in it for the long haul. i started noticing lil things about how she was. who she was. begged my mama to let me know before the holidays got here if this was meant to be.
on november 5th everything went to hell. i found out who she really was n finally got my heart broken. all n a three week span. everyone saw it go down. i hid nothin. expressed myself fully. i got cut deep. i tried to hang onto her with everything i had. started prayin to a god i never believed in to show me the way. n i found out what luv really is as i was forced to walk away.
when i did decide to walk away for good. n become a jiggalo. n believe me, i was done treatin women good. i was jus goin to do me for a while n shut feelins down. the strangest thing happened. mandy appeared out of nowhere. my all time one. i believe in my heart i was suppose to go through this process of bein broken n findin my way so i wouldn't break mandy's. i never in a million yrs thought this was possible. put it outta mind even though i did look for her earlier this yr. i also believe my mama is over my shoulder because i try to be a good person, friend, dad, n man.
idk how else to explain this. i've been an atheist for yrs. but when i asked for a lil help for the first time n meant it, everything came into play. i've been talkin to someone n i think someone's listenin that is not of this world.
i am currently tryin to get a place with her up north near westerville. there is nothing no one can tell me on this. this is who n what I WANT! always have. n now that i have her im never lettin go. her feelings r mutual. n i'm luvin every minute of it. i'm goin for my gold!

inside out

let me in! i wanna find u. the real u. unda the shell. behind ur eyes. where u can not hide. let me see 4 myself who u don't appear 2 b. beneath what every1 sees. let me in 2 ur world. where u roam alone. let's see if i can comfort ur thoughts. find a way 2 touch ur heart. that's where i wanna b. consumin u as ur consumin me. let me reach 4 u. allow me 2 climb inside of u. settle in n live a lil thing called love. if at all possible. find a home n jus b. love is waitin 4 u 2 accept it's worth. i'm knockin, let me in. i'll show u i'm nothin like any1 u've ever met. i wanna see how beautiful ur mind really is. let me snuggle ur heart. melt down n cover it. take it's shape n heal ur wounds. comfort n love it. i'm callin ur name. can u hear me? no longer whisperin. speakin 2 u face 2 face. blow my mind n pull me in. call 4 me. open ur doors u've locked. let me see what no one knows. n i'll share everything i've ever known. had have or lost. feel me against ur skin. creepin up on u. wantin u bad. touch! i won't hurt u. i'm ur best friend. give me the light of day. 1 chance. 1 attempt 2 help u smile. i bet u'd like what u'd see. i'm jus me bein me. i neva lie. let me in 2 release the wonderin of us. don't b scared. there's only 1 way 2 know 4 sure. but it's on u. can i b somethin worth jus lil more? pay the price of time spent. i ask nothin of u in return. jus wanna get inside. tap tap tap. i'm outside. waitin on my turn.

GOODBYES R 4EVER

DELETIN MEMORIES!
ERASIN DREAMS.
COPY & PASTED.
MEMORIES WASTED.
RECYLIN BIN EMPTIED.
NO TRACE OF U N ME.
FUTURE READY.
SLOW N STEADY.
GETTIN MINE.
IT'S MY TIME.
OVER THE B.S.
NO LONGER STRESSED.
I'VE FOUND MY WAY.
LIVIN 4 2DAY.
GOODBYES R 4EVER.
SOMETIMES 4 THE BETTER.
& I'M STROLLIN.
HEARTS UNFOLDIN.
IN AN OTHERS EYES.
ROAMIN IN AN OTHER MIND.
IT IS WHAT IT IS.
CHECKED OFF THE LIST.
SAYIN PEACE.
UR RELEASED.

ends & beginings

have u ever cried a love away?
one u never wanted to see stray.
forcin u to think differently of them.
losin ur very own precious gem.
jus to find somethin so much better.
somethin that will last thru the stormy weather.
u ever wanted someone so bad.
they drove u damn near mad.
thru u away as if u were no one to them at all.
left thinkin what the hell? as u balled.
jus to rise up & unfold as ur witness to ur own life.
turn corners & realize love would never cut u like a knife.
makin it easy to get over the B.S. & open ur eyes to someone u never saw comin.
someone that couldn't wait to come runnin.
healin all the pain from yrs past that's damaged the will.
never replacin, yet claimin their true place in u to b filled.
when all the ends have been broken beyond repair.
those who were meant will show their true face & care.
luv will never turn so easily & leave u empty handed.
lost & alone as u seem to not to b able to withstand it.
deletin photos of times desertin what was & will never b again.
allowin the music of an others smile feel u as a woman or a man.
learnin valuable lessons on ur way into their arms.
gettin lost in their very own irresistible charm.

finally

bells ringin. love is in the air. outlastin life. deep in long stares. puttin cupid outta business. it's serious. hearts have found what they seek. no longer curious. isle walkin. watchin the stroll of 4ever comin home. grinin in a mans direction. he no longer needs to roam. vowels of happiness. breath takin n life changin at last. all two ever wanted b4 each other. face 2 face reachin in the hearts stash. comin up with one another. fiindin paths that cross once again. yet this time niether will let go. we're each others biggest fan. feelin the connection. one that was always there. never got lost in time. n now we're here. expressin true emotion after so long. not holdin back a single letter. talkin bout losin last names. we both know this is 4ever. it's jus taken this long to learn our place. take our turn at pain. realize what love really is. so we can enjoy the rain. together as we walk out the doors of fate. hand in hand walkin away. as we drive off into our future. together as we spend our days. it's that serious! you've always been my girl.

in the path of love

when we change. the ground beneath us is left behind as we creep along our way. sometimes forgettin faces. names misplaced n forgotten as pictures are rippin. burnin bridges crosses in the love path. now jus a memory of a time where nothing could go bad. tears have fallen. pain erased all the good one filled another with for so long, ballin. standin ground to keep it movin. it's a shame how we all lose that somethin so soothin. losin face in ones eyes to gain it in another time after time. always wonderin why? searchin 4 answer that can not speak. everyone at some point has been left uncomfortably weak. n all we can ever do is push 2 find what is is we seek. tryin 2 find the grass that everyone says is green. sad but true thing is we all must be someone else ever so often. n this long ride if we're lucky jus seems it never softens.

get it girl..........

imagine me n u naked.
touchin.
kissin.
tryin to ease into it.
attemptin not 2 lose control.
playin who can hold out the longest.
wantin to give in.
starin in amazement in2 the eyes of a long lost lover.
meltin.
feelin every emotion runnin thru the body.
beggin each other never 2 stop.
pleasin the soul.
cravin it 2 happen.
slowly.
but not yet ready.
the skin isn't done with the fingertips sensation.
fallin in2 each other.
knowin this it is.
love.
speakin softly in whisperin moans.
ready 2 explode.
2 be taken.
given all 1 has 2 offer.
as sweat dribbles down the back.
hands clingin 2 whatever they can.
becomin so close air can not breath.
as 1.
as we were meant to b.
doin us.
fightin 2 control all the yrs past due.
here i come.
slippin.
sliddin in2 ur world.
feel me as i show the concept of love.
breakin all rules.
crossin boundaries.
4u.
as i lay within.
n taste ur lips.
can u feel me fill u?
ur man?
breakin u off.
properly.
the way a man n woman was built 4 each other.
fittin ever so nicely.
listenin.
waitin 4 that moment 2 shine.
patiently.
takin the time 2 mae sure u know ur the 1.
above all others.
as u get 2 ur point.
as i give u even more.
climbin 2 the top of ur climax.
grabbin hold.
givin in2 the fellin of losin it.
heavy pants.
lack of oxygen.
heat risin.
get it girl.........

each other

love is good if one knows how to truly become real and hold onto it.
to touch it and to feel it is powerful, for one can only grow attempt with it.
love is a bond between two hearts baring and caring.
sharing all the lil things as life seems to be matching and paring.
allowing emotions to rise and giving love a chance in ones time.
we've found it within each other and claim each other as mine.
releasing feelings we are only willing to give to each other.
after so long of holding on to the hope of becoming each others lover.
we're now finding time is no longer separating our true selves from falling.
into each other as we have finally took a chance to cast our calling.
i love you baby! and i want us to be forever and so much more.
take my hand and lets walk this path for us, as our love soars.

within

growin n showin the one within. keepin it movin for where we've been. grins in sin begins to trim. to win is to show what one is feelin. simplifyin the dimness of thoughts agin. trimblin as days r slippin n knowin goodeyes of yesteryears r incapable of changin. hangin around n playin games in the minds shapin of who one is becomin. throwin in the towel at times n givin in to the flowin of wantin. glidin n outshinin in brief seconds with what's happenin. learnin n daydreamin of the one that fills in the spacin in between the lines of livin. bendin to touch without replacin all that's gone wrong wit a friend. yet acceptin n placin trust in one to fill in the blanks as blinks of gazin eyes stare in good timin. fazin in short memories of losin to regain what's left within. openin up to find a one of a kind fulfillin the blazin emotions connectin the ends.

TURN OF PLAY

TURN OF PLAY. WE ALL HAVE OUR MOMENT IN TIME. SOME GOOD. SOME BAD. ALL FORMING LIKE A LYRICAL RHYME. TIDE IN TO FLUSH IT ALL AWAY. AS THE HEART FEELS HEAVY. JUST FOR THE TIDE TO RELEASE THE PAIN. BREAKING THE LEVY. SMILES CREATED FROM THE OUTSIDE. FELT WITHIN THE SHELL. FEELING THE THING MOST DESIRED, BELLS. SOME NEVER KNOW IT'S MEANING. GETTING LOST ON THIS COLD ROCK. ALWAYS LOOKING FOR THE NEXT BEST THING. MISSING OUT ON THE PERFECT SPOT. TURNING CORNERS. BREAKING NECKS. PEOPLE ARE A TRIP. STEPPING STONES ON NECKS MADE OF FLESH. LOSING EVERYTHING IN A HAND WILLING TO GRIP. SINKING FAST WITHOUT A MOMENT TO SPARE. AS IF ONE COULD ONLY ACT LIKE THEY CARED. BURYING BONES MISPLACED N UNGUARDED UNTIL THE UP DIGGING BY FOES. USED AGAINST ONE IN A SO CALLED RIGHTEOUS ACT OF MATURE ECHOES. PASTS CATCHING UP. BRINGING UP OLD WAYS OF LIFE. KARMA HAS SHOWN IT'S FACE N IS SLITTING ONE OPEN WITH IT'S KNIFE. STAINING THE PRESENT OF OUTRUNNING THE WRONGED. STANDING STILL. FORCED TO HEAR ONES LONG OVER DUE UNHEARD UNPLAYED SONG.

come with me

reach out n touch me.
feel the skin that clings to me.
ever so gently.
take ur time n show me.
what it is u intend to do with me.
set urself free.
be urself with with me.
live out this ongoing dream.
let me in n think of me.
for a brief moment what do u see?
lip smackin tastin me.
lay ur kiss upon me.
tell me if u want me?
play n tease me.
allow me to feel thee.
grab hold of me.
never let go of me.
ur at the top of what iv seen.
i feel u gettin the best of me.
come with me.
lets live n jus simply be.
take a moment to do u n me.
lets slow it down n make it we.
cuz it is the whole package i feen.
come get ur very own treat.
knock me off my feet.
lets slowly creep.
take some time n find u n me.
come with me n see how u fit within me.
in my chest n on my heart u lean.
pleasin the individual within me.

imagine!

imagine a world of lost causes. people walkin by the one person that could make that difference. not knowin. or not havin the courage to step up. imagine if u will. two human beings drifted apart. two individuals cravin each other. imagine. for years thoughts roamin their minds. emptiness fillin their hearts as if somethin is seriously missin. imagine luv is bein missed out on. as the walk of life and learnin comes to an end. n oppertunity is knockin. imagine luv at ur fingertips. findin out things one never knew. n if known could have made a world of difference. imagine none of us make all the right decisions. for whatever reason. n we live in our own minds, explainin to our hearts, game time judgement calls. imagine all the missed seconds. precious moments. memories that never happened. time bein lost without knowin the way things were suppose to b. now imagine a boy n a girl crushin on each other. scared of each other. young n wantin to jus say what it is on their tongues. imagine they've drifted apert without tellin. thinkin of each other the whole time. wonderin where? who r they now? what do they look like? what has become of them? imagine all of it comin to surface. contact has finally been made. conversation was set into play. imagine one of them had no idea who the other was, but had been lookin at them for months. thinkin hmmm? imagine the words spoken when the one realized the other didn't know who they were talkin to. n a lil game of guesse who was indeed played. imagine. the one that got away didn't recognize u. n when they were messed with until they figured it out. n once they did they jumped for joy that they found u. n imagine two paths walked seperately away from each other for so long lined up perfectly. with so much in common. as if they were one in the same. two kids all over again. now grown n ready. imagine one tellin the other how much they crushed on the other. n gettin the same response back. perfect alignment. always cravin each other n didn't know the other felt the same way. imagine bein given a chance to be with that one person that has floated about in ur head for so long is now before u. lookin in ur the eyes. tellin u some mind blowin information. changin everthing in ur life to that point. imagine ur one wantin u the same way ur wantin them. always have, always will. secretively. now out in the open. imagine!

in the mix

present urself upright. who is it u wanna be in the mix of the fight.

take a peeksie n see. who is it inside of u chained down on their knees.

that one controlled. sold out to self n let be to sit n mold as u become molded.

put on hold to find how u seek within before all else fails losin self n folded.

a moment of touch n go

hands, pitterin a pattern soft nuff to stroke the skin.
lightly slidin, grazin upon the flesh feelin somethin stir within.
every brush stroked, contact shivers the spine.
tryin everything in my power to keep my mind in line.
roundin every curve shapin ur woman hood so well.
it's hard to fight the will of takin control n givin u ur fill.
pleasure damn near drippin from the tongue as thy mouth waters.
teasin the man wantin to lay u down n show u who matters.
my hands gently make luv to the feelin of watchin ur squirm.
yet the sensation of u movin to the caress i sit n learn.
payin close attention to the sounds of ur day releasin itself within my palms.
and i'm once again findin it oh so "hard" to stay calm.
as i tickle the side by accidentally flowin upward to slowly.
seein a smile stretch in my direction as if u were to truly know me.
it's a moment of touch n go freein to tension outside the room.
becomin a lil more than friends as we set our very own unforgettable mood.