through the motions

Make love 2 life n let it teach u something of itself. It 's what one is willin 2 learn from it n carry with them that will help one reach that next level. don't fake ur way strollin along. be real with those that surround u. i'm finding myself goin through motion that need to end. livin a life that won't be here long. change is very much needed but i'm having fun. truth is key. yet i'm finding myself speakin in a tongues language only i know it's meaning. with a young one. 10 yrs, 5 outside my 5 yr rule in age. not so much in common other than basic human instinct. what to do? keep it goin or look in the other direction. i knew from the start on this one. it would never work. but i had nothin else at the moment. playin a game i fell in. don't wanna see her go. yet, she eventaully must do jus that. i know this. she knows this. wow. guess it can only go one of two ways. n i am prepared. n as sad as that sounds, i do love her......... she's jus not ready. n i don't know if i have it in me to teach the unteachable. it's not how it's suppose to work. fuck it. the way i see it it i'm going to a little fun before it's over. even though i'd love to see this thing work out.