The untold finding a voice...

You speak of luv but yet fail to comprehend what it takes to be a friend. There's shit that's never been said as the release is to free weeks from the never coming off the end. Being the biggest person set on repeat as your tongue find it's way around my reputation. As it took hit after hit of all the things I've heard through the years knowing the real situation. N yet, my lips were sealed other than spicing up the stories about me bcuz idgaf what others think. As your name to me was sacred in a sense of why I'm the fuck couldn't I let go of nothing more than a dream. So to hear how you feel of me find me in other's words really sets the mood. Changing I did from a protractor to a man living loose. But it took some time to shake of the one thing I wanted the most. Someone I had no business giving my luv just to feel alone. It seems the chuckle you find in presence was enough to entertain the crowds you've come to know since. Although I don't mind for you're a fucked up individual in every letter it takes to pronounce skittish. Only if your lil fan base that feeds your narcissistic way's knew the truth. Of hope behind the scenes it's much different than what's on display for all to believe you're the one abused. Only thing you've ever known was an addictive life. Had I known myself prior to entangling my feelings with yours I would've cut ties. Let's tell them how you chose a lifestyle over everyone you've claimed to luv. N how I was the one standing still trying to hold it together as someone to trust. Or shall we not go back to the days where I was the one to blame? You were the one that caved. Weak for a reason to dip out on reality you refused to face. As it was I who allowed you to play so many unnecessary games. Secret be told I enjoyed watching you dig you grave. As you played in my chest n I covered you up for my own escape. Or was a beautiful time of getting to know me again. As you still linger at the bottom looking for a sucker to be your next biggest fan. Looks mother like daughter n I know that eats you up inside. But hey, I cannot lie when I say, "your a self inflicted disturbance beneath you own skin as you hide. So point your finger n have everyone stare. Bcuz the life I live simply doesn't fuckin care..