Getting it in...

Getting it in...

Not to brag but I've always been the better half. N that's why I do so much better on my own. It's a raw reality that creates a loner within. Trusting no one that is into the claims of thrones. As it's seen as an immaturity with a follow the lingo to fit in mindset. N that's when the disbelief of realism kicks in. For knowing ones place aside from the pretending to be more than a figurative thought. Knowing by myself I'd rather live. Not too brag but I've always been in my right state of mind. Having a drive that's gone unmatched by another faking their way. Even after losing so much there's just no stopping me. As my smile continues to stretch across my face. It seems that "fit" just isn't what it's said to be. With others falling victim to their own untold truths. Time has spoken over n again of how the level of use has me single ASF. N I'm not even out here in the middle of life running loose. Not too brag but I'm rare in many ways. Humbled by choices of a past that's grounded my heart. Being just one individual in a world of wtf's. No one within relations has ever stood on their word like it was so fuckin hard. Somehow to do good in life I've had to stick to myself. But I can't categorize everyone else for it's my own attractions that's failed to deliver. I like what I like so that's just the way it must be. I'm just a giver that would rather see the sliver of fake fucks floating facedown downriver. Not too brag n all but I'm more than what I'm willing to admit. But I'm just being me the only way I know how. In a solitude lifestyle that has a way to thrive. Without a leech sucking on sex as if I'm the same typical azz dude in the now. As there's pieces of me hidden behind the stare in my eyes. Well protected by the eagerness of freedom wanting to live. As the thought of what I must do compared to how I'd luv to give into depths that justifies the never ending hype. N it takes the vibe from the chuckles torn completely away from my ribs. Not to brag but I've got me the ways I cannot trust another to have. It's a solo act to step into each n every day. Trying to shake off the disbelief in people I simply cannot do. But hey, I tell myself "life is great". As I awaken to a financial world in which I must do more than consider. I havta survive without a friend by my side. With every night there's a peace that settles the nerve. It's the way it is n I don't know why. Not too brag but I've grown accustomed to dying as I live. I'm unable to miss what everyone else takes for granted when chasing relations. Recognizable facts make up intent in need to find comfort. N I've found it in me without the constant let down of distasteful imitations. Somehow I've simplified my situation by counting on me. Most say I'm broken but they don't understand the break corrected who I am. Now I'm here on the other side avoiding the same ol shit others are into. Distant yet intact bcuz I can enjoy being unaccompanied by tender hands...