Set adrift...

I told myself if I ever feel in luv again I'd never come back. So I held out waiting for what was to present itself to the facts. I fell in luv just to ask for my heart to be returned to me. As I stood emptied from head to toe lost in a dream. Knowing emotion found it's calling after so long. N every moment was captured in the lyrics of each song. Damn the years it took to let go so I could listen to certain jams again. But when it's real it never heals just right. It just fades in time until the tingle isn't affected by the mind. It was the hardest thing to admit. That the one way street was my willingness set adrift. As friends wouldn't make to the now. A far fetched reality is as is that has been found. Once luv'd in a way eyes had truths unseen till this day. As desire was more than a sexual interaction stretched upon the face. Oh the memories that remain are intense. As they're fun to go through bcuz everything here today makes perfect sense. From never seeing self wanting anyone else to regaining what was lost times ten. As I think to myself, the loss was a win that hurt in places I'll prolly never reach again. In a timeless era of life I've lived n luv'd all I share. In belief I believed I hadn't anything to spare. Without reason of self worth was shattered. Creating a new version of a clown to take away from the details that mattered...