Many never answered the calling...

With so many that's come n gone n everything in between the numbers that cannot be recalled. As faces resides in memories that never made it into the now of raw. One knows what it'll take to open up to interest standing still. For the touch has felt on too many prior to the heart finding a home worth the fill. From whores to hoes to freaks to the boring fucks that got attached. The one thing yet to be found is the reoccurring presence of a friend that doesn't retract. N through the yrs as the pain showed it's bitter ways ever so often. Many haven't gotten closer enough to be felt on levels past sexual encounters for emotion to soften. Looking into eyes that never made it through changes a man for sure. N the older one gets the less appealing hope doesn't seem to be a desperation of a cure. Having too many chances to construct a lifetime of endless memories never made. As the few that got beyond the wall lasted about as long as inner strength standing grounds so the individual didn't fade. Falling only once bcuz unique is in true form giving an unconditional comfort held by luv. Knowing like was never established so a future could gather moments to build on likes from lusts. To crave more than physicality reaching for pleasures lost in the mind. With many things to admit in the dark that has yet to withstand the need of being luv'd in real life. Coming close just once to the fulfillment sight out to take the beast that never sleeps. Oh the secrets of me...