Your choice...

Believe it or not there fact remains that we do not havta go through with this. We can skip all the feelings that get messy along the way to wondering where the friendship went. Bypassing the tension of yet another failed attempt to please a selfish luv gone astray. It's not too late to walk away people to the pain settling into the betrayal that vents. At can live to enjoy life instead of having to repair everyone dragged through the trenches like we cannot get though of the feel seasoning time n patience for what lasts longer than a poof. Yeah the memories will never be made but the clarity will shine on beyond reasons never spoken. As we'd never touch the sensitivities in n outta the bed but then again we'd never fall in to fall through silhouettes. Like shadows in the dark. Giving other possibilities the opportunity to create a spark within someone what chosen. Follow my thoughts n imagine all the bs we'd bypass if we'd just not pretend to care. They'd be no bitterness to speak negatively about each other whatsoever now or in the futures then. We could just smile n walk away from the inevitable waiting it's turn to cripple us at will. Or, we can be real with who we are n step up to an honest chance for something that's rarely gained...

One life to live...

Do you wanna stay locked up in your head forever or do you wanna live? Being shackled to the walls beyond closed doors is where fools exist. How is it you'd rather run outta time than free yourself from yourself? Allowing life to pass your by bcuz you're afraid to be felt. Is it you've given up on the feel of will to be? Bcuz there's so much more yet to do while you're hiding from the need to truly breathe. Have you forgotten how depths have a certain tingle that moves the smile? Creating a different sense of joy that refuses to remain in exile. How is it you linger knowing who in the fuck you really are? Having a use to do more than dream of better days that cripple the heart. Are you seriously gonna sit around as memories are to be made? You can't be that far gone as to enjoy the emptiness displayed upon your face. Who is it you've become in those moments you took to gather the pieces to put you back together again? Take a glance in the mirror n accept what you see if you can...

Here I am...

There's no hate to be found n my trenches. I've search to the end of the edges. Turned around within n dug me up. I haven't a single grain of animosity put on hush. I'm free from the weight that doesn't control me. Loosened to the feel of life n living the dream. I move differently since I've changed. Once I figured out only I can disrupt my face. There's no drift that lingers within. Jus a patience that awaits beneath the skin. Chains have deteriorated in time's lag. N here I am with room in my heart putting down the white flag. Easy living has settled my nerves. Giving a peacefulness to emotions so the mind isn't overworked. I have me as I now can open up. Yet to find another at peace with self enjoying the rush. Knowing to give is to be complete before relations begins. Having no distractions so luv can live... 

Wonder wanders...

Crazy about me isn't something that ever lasts. But the curiosity still exists to remove masks. As the wonder wanders on how far another is willing to go. Met in the middle life wanting to go home. With someone who can't seem to ever get enough. Sharing a raw blend of truths that creates a trust. Bonding n living together as foreheads land on one each other. All in with whatever it takes to feel luv'd by a friend n a luv'r. Never to change the mind's free will to be the one. Outright falling further into a truce n having fun. Smiling like the cheesiest grins never sleep. With a comfort that feeds the heart its need. Getting the best of both worlds combined to throw in on life. As every dusk listens to lips saying goodnight...

Raw intent...

When the heart demands to come back to life. As the well overdue wait has never to crossed the line. N emotions stand firm on not wanting to die alone. Forcing a change in the delivery of tone. When the mind collaborates knowing desires must live. As a never spoken understanding tickles the ribs. N a sigh released relieves deep hidden wants. Creating a chance for self to be with more than luv. When the inner makings come to the surface. As escaping is what it'll havta be that is better than feeling worthless. N all or nothing no longer begs n pleads. Bcuz it's ones own that is ready to please. When the determination reveals truths allowed to be exposed. As rare form awaits a touch that feels like home. N there's nothing left to let go of. There's a crave of another wrapped up in arms so there's no sense in being lost...

Like this...

I'll it like this. So you can hear it before it's all over with. At end of this ride, your still gonna be on my mind. As I go on living my life. Still remembering you in a past time. Not to keep you attached so you're always there. I just want to tell you that I do care. I'll say it like this. To bring to light the feeling of your lips. You're someone to miss n that's no lie. Even though the situation will not allow me to claim you as mine. Even though it was how you touched me made me that made me sigh. As relief came over me prior to me saying goodbye. As I now follow days that don't seem fair. Daydreaming of the moments that made us a pair...

Waiting...

If you never make into words for the world to read. As a story untold bcuz the memories don't even have a chance to leave. As they're not once made for a smile to rise. If you somehow go unfound know I've kept a place for you in my mind. To allow the heart to crave the moment you come along. For a place within me to forever belong. But if you're simply absent here as your lost in someone else's arms. Know imma waiting even if I live alone just to awaken to every mornings alarm. With a new day moving swiftly above. Holding on to nights that just might spark the luv. Though if you aren't able due to you don't know who I am, it's ok. I'll still wear a smile for you upon my face. Just in case you see me out n about whenever you go. You'll know it's me for I'll be the one who feels like home...

No fucks given...

No passion, no pity.

No thirst, but oh so pretty.

No shits, no hope.

No chasing, there's no going home.

No like, no luv.

No interest, fingertips never reach for the touch.

No give, no chance.

No win, no emotions enhanced.

No want, no need.

No trust, sighs never breathe.

No reason, no kiss.

No point, only leaves lonely lips.

No fling, no tomorrow.

No wakey, there's nothing but sorrow.

No drift, no find.

No trying, one lives an empty life...

Creating a friend...

I pretend there's someone next to me. I don't feel alone with an imaginative dream. A friend that doesn't like to get involved with the world. I make believe I have a girl. I don't know what she looks like n I don't even know her name. But the comfort of believing she's near brings a smile to my face. N I may be going for a loop on the coocoo train but I'm content. She doesn't twist my emotions against me nor care of other men. I created her outta thin air as she doesn't really exist. As her absence tickles my ribs. I think she's here n I sleep all night. N when I awake she's just at work so I get on with life. It's a creepy way to hide behind locked doors. Even worse that my heart has much to give n then more. As I tell myself there's no place like home. Knowing damn well I lost all purpose of hope. So I made up a twisted reality that calms my nerves. As I lay in bed beside no one but a thought losing my worth. But oh how the ache has left me be. I have a false presence that sets me free. A silent mute that never talks a peep. A shadow in the dark that vanishes when my eyes take a peek. I'm disturbed in a soothing way that helps me drift. I just wish at some point I could feel my lips being kissed. Or an arm that's slung over my body for the pleasure itself holding on. But here I am in a strange odd sense of a weird azz norm. Fighting myself by replacing a touch with a breeze cast upon the flesh from a fan. Conditioned to die alone I daydream bcuz I can. Bcuz she can be whoever she wants n I don't mind. Even though I don't know the feel of her inner thighs. With a leg cocked over mine as we fade to black. But I can roll over n trick myself  with she's asleep behind my back. N I don't feel so lost in a world I don't fit into when I become the ease. Going under to bring to life my imaginations treat...

No one...

I suffer from, no one ever wants it to last. I'm stagnant n refuse to believe there's any genuine people to create a well earned past. I reside in a stare of never enough. N there's no chance I'll ever find my heart's calling for luv. So I'm conditioned to go at life alone. Drifting further from a more reasonable place called home. I'm just. Without a friend to trust. But I have me at the end of the day. Still standing true to self as I watch age claim my face. Shunned by the introduction of another's smile as I hide. Falling away from the desperation of hope that lies. I have this thing where want is short lived. Making the solo act much easier when never missed. I'm still but very much alive. Fading into my end n losing my mind. I'm a moment that passes over before surgery comes into play. A void unfelt I'm no one to claim. Forgetting I am worth the cause I enjoy my solitude. Knitting damn well if I had a choice I'd call a truce. But I'm on this side of everything being over there. Where needs are met n will does more than care. Without me craving to be someone's joy. Nothing ever becomes of lines so here I am emotions annoyed. Tucked into the shadows that make up the nights untouched. But don't tell anyone that I'm muted to the hush. Looking back at this world as if I've done something wrong. Trying to grasp the concept of his others can be so raw. So oblivious to what I have to give. I wish I was contagious as flatlines find a lift. Spiking a vibe long after the newness wares off. But no, I'm silent in doubt at all costs...

Fixing...

Missing pieces can always be replaced... Listening to reasons whisper an escape... Drifting with the flow listing time... Pissing away days wanting to crawl outta the mind. Shifting to adjust to a moment that never comes... Resisting chances that fade getting the rush... Lifting the mood that dangles upon the face... Gripping for control the loss beginners a shame. Fitting into the void every do nicely... Digging into self without another laying beside thee... Picking apart the game to finally live again... Wishing for a use holding the hand... Flipping the page to write what is to be... Dipping down into depths demanding to be set free... Fixing the details of the lonely heart. Depicting a better sense of life's lil charms... Riding with worth sitting side by side... Revelling truths unchained that no longer put up a fight...

To be...

To be felt. By a hand that can feel the heart tilt. Trying to get closer to the surface. To connect with a palm playing it safe. With a gentle compression to flow with the pulse. Stealing a sigh that gets caught is a pause. To be heard as if a whisper. Giving a train to the mood to be chipper. All with flush fingertips trying to hold on. Wanting in for there's a need of more. Helping emotion adjust. Creating a balance of like, luv n lusts. To be the reason the mind eases back. As eyes close to reopen with hinges swinging with the bareness of the goodies craving to get attached. Witness is the vibe unseen other than in a stare. Telling self it's okay to play it fair. To be the answer to the last one to ever come along. As strokes tickle the flesh as if playing the body like a song. Fine tuning the nerves to relax. Enticing true intent to rise from depths as friends claim the facts. To be acknowledged as a guarantee. The at last landing beneath layers that hide use insisting to be freed. Feeling the heartbeat bounce from a cheek resting on the chest from dawn to dusk. To be alone with an all around crush. Falling into the deep. Throwing a shoot so the way down is enjoyed outside of endless dreams. As fingerprints touch with a tenderness. Caressing the well being of worth into a complete happiness...

Sizzle...

 Stir your emotions slow like you're cooking something worth a taste. Lemme smell it simmer to create a crave that just can't wait. A your patience is the key ingredient that fills me full. Be the aroma in the room lingering to feel me tug you into a pull. To perfect your luv as the main coarse awaiting the feast. With more than enough to feed the beast... 

Beneath the surface.

Don't look at me like I'm no more than a physical attraction. You're gonna haha get past the only thing your eyes will ever see to find who I am. Just close your eyes as if sight doesn't exist. Then hey to know me as if I'm more than an object you can withstand. Slow me to turn you on being where the light can reach. Just be n listen to the vibe of who comes from within. Don't speak, just move with the current of my energy in its most natural form. Try to listen to a slight chuckle mixed with a sigh that shakes a grin. It's the details of the individual that links to outside forces that connects. Pulsating in another sense that cannot be seen. True interaction that spark a common bond. One that no matter what the friend self will protect. Bring me out with a simple touch to free is soothing in the dark. Most of all never forget the flesh lies to manipulate for selfish gains. It's the inner makings wanting to escape that have the answers to how we react to each other. As it doesn't matter what you call me for I have no use of a name. I am here for only a short time as we coexist. Seeking a chance to ensure luv will last. With a consciousness awakened to the beauty of real life. Where u n I collide as empaths...

In my palm...

To grab the hair on the back of your head. Pulling it into a downward position as eyes are met. Starting you down as my height allows me to gaze upon your willingness to be luv'd. Oh in that breath I'd collapse into you the feel the rush. Having a need to wind up in someone else's heart. With the feel of u in between my fingers gripped just firm enough to show you I mean your no harm. Just to tilt your kids up towards me so I can taste your luv. I'd come to you resting beneath me so the level of us were to smile within a friendly blush. As a man seeking the confinements of a women simply wanting to be. Entangled with each strand that wraps my hand that will be left intact so u n I can beg a pretty please. To be as gentle as one can be with the contents of the heart exposed. With u in my palm I wanna come home. To reach for more than you've ever given to a stranger wanting it all. Oh to be in a moment with you resting in a pause. Life would make so much more than sense could ever explain. Just to hear your lips shape my fuckin name. Damn the sound would excite comforts unseen by sight seeking approval at their best. N for you I'd come from the depths in my own evolving chest. To be for once with a sigh that explains the long over due wait. With your stare gazing upon me as if you could ever be tamed. Loosening up to simple ol me. What a dream...

Simply put...

 The only thing I regret I'm this world is allowing my kids to feel they mean anything less than what they truly mean to me...

Many never answered the calling...

With so many that's come n gone n everything in between the numbers that cannot be recalled. As faces resides in memories that never made it into the now of raw. One knows what it'll take to open up to interest standing still. For the touch has felt on too many prior to the heart finding a home worth the fill. From whores to hoes to freaks to the boring fucks that got attached. The one thing yet to be found is the reoccurring presence of a friend that doesn't retract. N through the yrs as the pain showed it's bitter ways ever so often. Many haven't gotten closer enough to be felt on levels past sexual encounters for emotion to soften. Looking into eyes that never made it through changes a man for sure. N the older one gets the less appealing hope doesn't seem to be a desperation of a cure. Having too many chances to construct a lifetime of endless memories never made. As the few that got beyond the wall lasted about as long as inner strength standing grounds so the individual didn't fade. Falling only once bcuz unique is in true form giving an unconditional comfort held by luv. Knowing like was never established so a future could gather moments to build on likes from lusts. To crave more than physicality reaching for pleasures lost in the mind. With many things to admit in the dark that has yet to withstand the need of being luv'd in real life. Coming close just once to the fulfillment sight out to take the beast that never sleeps. Oh the secrets of me...

Play fair...

Don't tell me a story of everything that doesn't matter anymore. I refuse to hear of the hanging on to the end that came to pass prior to you picking your heart up of the floor. None of it interests me like my past I have dealt with to get here with you. Understand if you're not looking me in the fuckin eyes u n I simultaneously cannot move. Hold your tongue if the now isn't something you wanna endure. Releasing the hidden treasure within as the heart testicles into a pour. Be a real friend to the present for once. Without it you'll never again be able to fall in luv. Trust me when I say I've learned the hard way as depths needed a drain to exist to live. N here I am standing on my own waiting on an honest set of lips. A luv'r that doesn't just give in but motivates the thrill to give contents aimed at the last person I'll ever feel. Are you healed? Have you overcome decisions that haven't turned in your favor? Am I the crave of your flavor? It's not so complex in the simplicity of the heart willing to come back to life. So what is it that plagues your empty mind? Old or new or something unknown that temps you to loosen up. Truths are in days coming one after another to gain a bond of trust. Open yourself to me as I bare who I've become to you. Be not shy for who you hide will eventually be exposed with each n every clue. I don't wanna hear all the same ol shit spewed into sound waves reaching for me to accept what I have no chance to change. I'm one fuckin man sitting with enough patience so it's me I can escape. But that'll take you a moment to realize I'm willing to come back to life. For you I'd stop drifting with the thought of only being able to chase you through my mind. So take your time n surface with a fresh breath of air. Bcuz if you're on some bs it's you in which I will not longer care.  I just wanna feel your hair in my fingers as I kiss and suck on your neck.