unfair

I luv u til u hate me, but it doesn't change the fact that when ur mad I wanna turn n walk away. Thing is if I do I'd miss out on the good times that never surfaced as the struggle still remains. I'm learnin how to luv again n this u should know jus in case I'm not up to part. There's a fear that u didn't cause behind the greatest I've ever been in my heart. Understand I know what it is that stand before me willin to test times luv here n now. N I'm surfacin to show my own will as who it is I truly am speakin without sound. I jus need to be tuned n played with a rhythm that pushes notes as if luv itself thru my veins. I wanna move with ur sway but I'm not sure I know how the movement will leave me if it were to set adrift before the truth of gain. As u want honesty to open up n live n stop this charade of defense that's unfair to u. I know, I should know better by now keeps runnin thru my mind not used. There's a monster within that I confide in that tells me how never to be hurt again. N I'm the one lookin like the azz cuz I listen to the unfair advantage causin the strain. I sit alone when u can't bare to be here with me n shake my head as if I don't get the point of no return. The moment where it's to late that closes the unlocked for with a click n I'm on the outside for I can't seem to learn. Change or find a single life rips thoughts apart way to often. As I choke on the battle inside to jus be n stop worryin bout the poison haltin luv pausin. They're no sense in bein this way, so I'm gonna let loose of a part time that u know as well destroyed me. N jus luv the feelin of havin u closer than I ever imagined s towards u I lean.