so able

nuts in hand with self settled beneath the skins irritation of bein touched by lies.
told what's needed to be said n the head bangs as if a hangover shuts the eyes.
I've been back n fourth through thoughts that broke the most sensitive dude of a man opened n fragile to Luvs calm.
yet upward my own rose to a place so alone crashin behind doors in muted pause.
in those moments I rotated the train of thought right to left n find reality.
from the depths of stored on by feet that was never were suppose to squash dreams.
I was in my own with self silent n driftin into my heart tilted n shook like a snow globe.
on the run n leavin behind me hire I allowed self to crumble in hands that roamed.
so walkin stepped left right left info the presence of the unthinkable.
side was made n filled quicker than expected for my back was watched so able.
reachin for me I felt what I've missed my whole life long makin contact do soft.
n yet what to do with it I hadn't a clue cuz I was stuck with emotions still limgerin n lost.
Turin on it I fell even harder as it wasn't with me the way it tried to be cuz of me.
as a decision came to surface that punched me in that secret places of truths plead.
learnin what I wanted I spoke n it returned to my surprise to stand close together.
still here today I lean into luv that came back that gives so much more comfort than ever.
luvn the way I luv I'm collapsed to the beautiful kind of pain that eased me back to life.
settling within her I crawled as I never wanna see the day I'd ever havta claim another as mine.