fadin me

What happens when u don't see self in the mirrors image?
When that face you've known since birth has been damaged.
As eyes shy away from the reflection catchin a glimpse in the peripheral.
Walkin by ignorin what the pain has changed within behind the kill.
Where does one turn when a stranger stares empty n hateful?
As expressions go unnoticed n lost missin beyond repairs bulshhhhhh.

my secret weapon

Ur that sensitivity.
That sweet spot if ever touched by another.
With a pain paintin a bigger picture.
Of a loss if lost greater than ive ever known.
A kinda pure luv thats been needed.
Wanted inna sense of reality.
For once in my life comin thru.
I feel cuz u r who u r n my minds blown.
My secret weapon.
Rounds of u ricochet thru nerves.
Cross firin emotional signals.
Rapid fire on my luv.
Ur that collision with the truth.
Flippin switches in our time.
On im turned with a new state of mind.
All in the presence for a moment flush.

funny

I may have lost a step last time around. Yet im one foot ahead gainin ground. Pushed to the limits to stand as a better man. Hangin toenails dug into the pavement damned. Sucked thru the heart n unstable I wasnt sure if have much use. For my own sanity popped its main fuse. Lights out shit went black. N all I remember is it happened s fast. Like a switch clicked off n then back on. I realized that life wasnt where I was goin. Over played, boundaries were erased. Yet every time I moved I crossed imaginary fate. Kickin me in the shins to keep my ignorance at s halt. N that only made the emotions event come to a pause. Cuz there was a freeloader suckin away at my best. But yet I was the one who it was said to be that couldnt pass the test. Its funny how the decieved reacts to the illusions. Caught up in the middle of the confusion.

strange stranger

Its funny how ones presence changes in eyes that makes the difference.
As u stand as the only thing u know how to be in ur deliverance.
Wether it be selfs fault or the truths of another of what they truly want.
Showin the depths of what comforts them awaitin their hand of luv.
Strange things happen along the way that changes the coarse sailed.
Faces in their original shape r witness as someone who's failed.
Breakin down the texture n freezin the moisture floodin the hearts empty.
Strangers as friends at the end of a friendship becomin a stranger acceptin.
Time is the rarest thing to last once the launch runs on fumes.
All cuz one of the two didnt feel the need to refuel the boom.
Explodin the inner walls of emotions as wild as flowers growin in paradise.
N its crazy to say the least that it alway begins n ends with the lies.
Havin withdrawals for someone that couldnt give 100 to the questions.
Fizzlin out luvs existence as if a temporary state of frustration is the attention.

repair

Seized n captured by a run of ol familiar n unbelievable fate.
Held as if secrets could talk freely in arms never to release the pain.
Jus so the healin heart has a friend to wrap the struggle with joy.
As the purpose of luv doesn't havta fill what Is a torn void.
The battle isn't that of their own to fight for what is left.
Yet repaired by the right amount of emotional reason that helps.
Reshapin the feein beatin n severed from the cores worth.
As truth touches the sweet spot that speaks louder than words.

im taken

In u came n down under the norm u went.
Slippin beneath the skin as the needles spit.
A fix u r to the arteries pumpin ur flow.
Felt n easin my passion hopin the vein dont roll.
Injectin my habit I feel the rush of confort.
A luv thatll be the end to my addictions core.
Takin control u tame emotions overwhelmed.
Settlin my nerves cure as the sizzlin in the spoon melts.
My choice of what is to kill me before I stand a chance.
I sit wth the silence calmin thoughts endless dance.
Away we go so magically as everything disappears.
As its u n I runnin from this worlds deceivin tears.
Spikin my reality into the illusion of me bein free.
Take me n show me how it feels to live the dream.

drippin dry

From the fire that melted away the sizzlin pains pleeds.
Disintegrated into thin air blowin with the breeze.
Caught by a cloud floatin along to capture my truths.
Buildin a drizzle drippin drops weighin down its use.
Givin way the release pourin the cleanse upon what is to be now.
Walkin out the storm dry once the lesson has shown me how.

within the hearts crack

I allowed the heart to crack.
Into a shape that smiled.
N as it was chippin away the stone texture.
It was broken beyond repairs matter.
The man within rose n bloomed.
To witness its own doomed.
Trustin an other to fill a void.
Feelins ripped loose as I found joy.
Tearin me apart lil by lil.
Til who I was stood silently still.
The head hangs in the balance of confusion.
Battlin a war that feeds the illusion.
Luv does not exist in eyes that weep.
Tryin to see clearly y time leaves.
Loosened by the pounds that beat my worth.
Listenin to the vibes goin mute to words.
I am jus a man attemptin to feel the gain.
Strugglin to be felt as if I was the rain.
As the opened gate is a lonely defeat.
Once the passion is layed at the feet.
Unrecognizable n beggin for mercies  pause.
I see n have seen the ends lost cause.
N all I ever wanted was somethin as real as air.
To be able to breathe what is considered fair.
Inhalin a females pheromones til the end.
Jus one in which I as self can bend.
Yet the inability of returnin what I give is absent.
Forcin the hole to walk thru me to decend.
Grippin the wrist of touchn go to settle on the surface.
Before the skin melts n im vulnerable to lust.
Seekin self righteousness playin me as a pawn.
From the early light of dusks dawn.
Im left with a war I can not win beneath the pain.
N im bout to even the odds cuz I refuse to go insane.

leanin in

Allowin the heart to think so it knows what we share is real.
As the mind cuddles emotions that care to simply feel.
Takin control n tryin not to be consumed forgettin me.
Leanin in for more than whats needed for self tr breathe.
Yet givin to no extent of livin thru ur smile that gives life to mine.
Jus wantin my moment to melt into ur touches enjoyin time.
That is if u can luv me like ive never been luvd before.
Makin my desire for u never end n wantin so much more.

sealed

I have a scar u could caress with a touch of luv to help it feel as if ur gentleness makes it feel it belongs.
Its depth has earned its placd as of what ::) ot to do if ur interested in how it now understands emotions song.
That is if u care to soften the texture awaitin a hand so easy the difference cant be felt beneath the luv.
As the wound has healed for u know who to stay in the presence of strength buildin a form of character of who it once was.
Theres a sealed slit in which drained what Wasn't needed n closed out what time has undergone thru luvs drug.
Ready n willin to express what never got lost along its wayas the redirection is aimed at u comin undone.. that is if u got I in u to feel the shape its shifted a new way to be seen by lessons eyes.
I gotta deep reconstruction formed that hasnt been truly witness as of yet in my playin out worth with life.

please know I

Jus in case its me that forgets what we have.
Please know I intended never to remember as the past.
Im jus thinkin ahead a bit to soon I know.
Yet if that time ever comes where my faults r at an all time low.
I am in luv with u n enjoy bein that special piece of ur days.
Even if it were some time from now n things jus aint the same.
Keep in ur mind n fresh in ur heart I wanna hold u.
Cuz we all forget from time to time as if we havent a clue.
So by chance its me that lets u down when id never do.
Please know I never meant to hurt u n how much I do luv u.

breeze of change

Listenin to the lyrics riddle at my pain.
As if I fill its void in its empty hands.
Pullin me from within for the world to see.
Tellin the secrets of my endless dreams.
Flowin with the emotions that cling to the melody.
Drivin a spear thru the sweetest depth of the heart.
In a sense of cleansin away the char in the dark.
On display n im unable to hide the rotation.
As It sinks into a severe penetration.
Forcin thoughs to explain the captured tilt.
Spinnin carelessly with the closier delt.
Under the ink spiiled before it attempts to feed the lips.
As truth spills memories that drips.
Hearin my life played within the structure of the beat.
Pumpin my very own words dyin to be relieved.
Relivin times that have unchained the connections plunder.
The chorus rolls inside like thunder.
As the wonder fills a song completin my tangled pleads unraveled.
Im witness to my life n the road less traveled.
The Windows of my own catches the breeze of change.
Releasin the edge cuz a pot to piss in is the echange.
Thrown back to become whole n one with stability.
Grippin the throat of realities misplaced me.

hold the line

Dont let me fall away if I ever seem as if im fadin.
Ur touch has come to speak in a way as if its luv makin.
Hold the line unseen to the naked eyes struggle if I so veer.
Catch my on the downside spiralin outta controls single tear.
 Be that friend I believe u to be in my hearts configuration.
That one who wont let go of destination.
Rally me back to the reality of true luvs piece of mind.
So i will nevr forget the work u put in to make me ur mine.

Tell me

Tell me how it ends. How easy it is for u to walk away. So when that time comes ill understand. That way ill know how to respond within that day. Tell me the reason of u leavin before I get caught up. Losin my mind from the loss. Settin reality apart from what I awaken to as of now. Givin me strength so the heart wont be used as if a pawn. Tell me prior to the date in which all begins to fade. Id luv to know y im jus not good enough. Cuz to be aware of the crumblin memories endin would prepare me. Of how u lost interest in speakin my name. Tell me for shits n giggles. How im suppose to make it till then. Livin with the devastation of u gone. I jus need to gather ho I became someone u don't consider ur friend. Tell me how i win up missin out on u. On us makin sweet cherishable moments that parish in time. Cuz it jus might cushion the blow of how u blew my mind. Not once but twice as what we share is left within the walls of the distructin mind.