a 5'6" smile

settled in my skin.
finally expression a true grin.
happy n content.
nothin left to vent.
smooth edges once jagged.
once feelin fed up n had it.
now sittin ever so still.
on the upside of the unclimbable hill.
climbin n clingin.
for i am believin.
my time has come to be.
i found what it is i truly need.
she stands 5'7" with a smile that wont quit.
n believe me when i say she is the shit.
my other half seein me for who i am.
the better half lettin me express the inner.
teachin me as she allows me to be me.
learnin within of a luv that just must be.
i sit within my skin feelin her.
without touch n in luv with only her.

good morning

sun diving in between the cracks.

bursting in warmth against my back.

laying in the mornings glory.

awakened to live out my story.

cool breeze pushes soothingly past.

breaking and bouncing off my face so fast.

time ticks my comfort away.

so i enjoy it with no delay.

settled in a moment all mine.

relaxed beyond movement as the day shines.

i am one with lifes little gift of morning bliss.

grasping my chance to feel its kiss.

of this

all n the above for this. only if i would've known.

jus for this as it is u i kiss. my luv woulda shown.

i would've been better off. knowin of this instead of clinched fists.

yet i've never been better off. than u n this.

startin all over with u. 2 get where we need 2 be.

from scratch out of the blue. is the way it must seem 2 be.

from the bottom once more. we'll rise 2 the top.

2gether 4ever as we enter a new door. n never stop.

i feel i've let u down. but i didn't know of this.

n i feel me stompin on sound. 2 do all i can 4 this.

the unknown fact of u n i 2gether. was so unnecessary.

yet 2 build this 2 last 4ever. once was so imaginary.

only u can push me 2 want this. willingly as we imerge from the mist.

i want it bad enough 2 feel somewhat pissed. for the lack of this.

it shoulda been us from the start. now look at this mess we're in.

even if now we can never part. in the end we'll win.

u live

safe inna dream is where u'v landed.
deep in tought alone n stranded.
safe from harms unluvin ways.
closed eyes protect u from this worlds day.
sheltered n wanted u live out ur memory.
it's the only way u live inside of me.
embraced by the only thing that is truely left.
existin within each n every exhaled breath.
oh how i wish u could find ur way n escape.
this over rated torcherin relentless fate.
tucked in tight n chained to the walls in me.
u live under the skin of the dyin thee.
if i could pull u out of what's in here.
only give u back what u'v given me without a tear.
maybe then i could let it all be as it goes.
or even be set free of ur unforgotten strangle hold.

in time

all ones life, waitin is at hand as time can't count.
repeatin itself, watchin lifes lil way of givin out.
growin young to old, if given a chance.
as others fall from the walk, livin the dance.
along the way one forgets how to sieze the day.
livin too fast, fallin alone n astray.
in time, our moment will come callin.
seperated from luv, of a life put a hault n stallin.
n the clock will continue to tick its way along.
til we all find our place, where we belong.

everybody has there own path, own reasons, own decisions.

there own gain, own sake, own intentions.

some have a weird sence of comunication, sence of right, sence of wrong.

sence of hope, sence of self, sence of what they feel is gone.

we all need without bein known, without showin, without vulnerability.

without neediness, without pain, without giving the lats iinch of clearity.

can u?

can you see me? fighting to get out.
trying to show u. what it is i am all about.

can u feel me? as i touch you.

as if you were the last. as i am content with holdin you.

can you see this man? speaking without sound, just with eyes.

desiring only you. with no wonders or why's.

can you feel my presence? doing all i can.

just to see you smile. as i stand before you as this man.

can you see my good? out weighing our pasts.
giving us a better now. and how i want it to last.

can you feel the way i do? consuming the internal.

is it mind releasin? the way i cave to you.

can you see the future? and where we may go.

how we may get there. from here as we grow.

can you feel how i love? the way i break down.

i am a man. yet u have me in sighs of wow.

can you see the way i walk? it has changed becuase of you.
the walk i sway. is a reflection of the ways of you.
can you feel me inside? as i touch your secrets.

open you up. and show you now regrets.

can you see i mean well? and have good intentions.

i just want my chance. as we look at photo reflections.

can u feel where this is going? i got you as you do i.

together forever. sayin it is about time!

4 so long

wantin somethin 4 so long. i shoulda known. put it 2gether as u were on my mind every now n then. i was always lookin in the wrong places. dealin wit not knowin when i'll get mine. i felt u in ways i never knew. un-attempted, it seemed never 2 exist. checkin others off 1 by 1 at a time 1 after another n repeat. 4 they were'nt u. i never knew this as they disapeared from a growin diminishin list. i felt u without knowin we could co-exist. walkin seperate lives grittin teeth n clinched fists. u lived in me 4 so long. n i didn't know y til now...........

pieces

1 piece at a time.
i gave em a piece of my life.
played my games.
i couldn't be tamed.
half hearted i smiled.
placin em in a file.
locked away before long.
for this i was wrong.
lil pieces of me is scattered.
leavin others shattered
pieces i never needed.
thrown away as they pleaded.
here n there i ketp it movin.
constantly feelin as if i was losin.
game was tight.
fillin my nights.
lyin my way past a smile.
stackin em up in a pile.
knockin em down ever so often.
shit got old as i was unable 2 soften.
1 piece at a time.
i was losin my mind.
all the time i wanted somethin else.
it wasn't about the wealth.
droppin me along the way.
sheddin a lil more everyday.
i gave so much.
yet never enough.
this was me spreadin thin.
losin unwanted wieght with a grin.
learnin the edges of the puzzle was still intact.
n that's a fact.....

fallin, all over again.

seems i'm fallin all over again.
as i stand in fram with a grin.
yet round 2 i have the chance of a lifetime.
speakin what's been left lingerin in my mind.
2 fall 4 the 1 i was suppose 2 hold.
my hearts been baught purchased n sold.
it's been a long time comin.
n am i ever so done runnin.
i'm fallin all over again 4 u.
as i break down my own reality n find i am so deeply in luv with u.
the 1st time we were young n pulled apart.
never had a chance 2 break free in a fresh start.
never had a chnce 2 feel what luvs intentions really was.
never feelin the way it feels 2 be really luv'd.
even though this yrs ago was put in place as it were put aside.
the way i see it we needed 2 learn how 2 luv in our own time.
i'm fallin all over again right now as i breath in.
fallin 4 u again.
i felt u 4 yrs gone wrong.
empty n feelin failin as i kept movin along.
learnin on my way back 2 u.
so i had a chance 2 luv u the way u needed me 2.
never knowin this would ever come true.
stickin like glue.
n i'm fallin all over again 4 that 1 i dreamed of 4 so long.
2 u i've all been drawn.
forced 2 get along without u by my side.
yet my skies were worth the flight.
wonderin of another that could never fill ur shillouette.
waitin 4 our life 2 be set.
i did not know.
time moved so slow.
hadn't a clue.
that it be u.
so know as we stand 2gether i'm fallin.
over u as i slide within the air that surrounds me.
this is the way it was mean t2 be.
u n i 4 a lifetime.
enjoyin more than the night life.
luv'n in our own way.
plantin roots lost 2 stay.
all grown up n day dreamin i'm fallin all over agian.
4 u as i shine n my eyes r no longer dim.

near

i want u near.
kissin my happy tears.
i fell deeper 4 u.
harder than ilu!
i am urs 4 a lifetime.

i need u in my life 4 it 2 shine.

u i'll serve.
now that i got the nerve.
i choose u.
n only u.

priceless

i wish i could heal ur pain as time releases the pasts unwanted gain.
take away the hateful yrs of wasted memories n replace them with me.
instead of the lonelyness we'd fall in luv under the rain, priceless.
take shelter in each others arms under the trees as i'd get down upon my knee.
jus 2 go back i'd give anything 2 feel ur presence 4 a lifetime as our hearts sing.
i wish we coulda been more than we r now as it is my only regret in this world.
then again it fuels us it a future thats past has left us stranded n in2 each other crashed.
yet we r what we shoulda always been in a time where we floated without weights motionless grind.

spilled

the closet ain't gotta damn thing 2 say.

not 2day tomorrow or of yesterday.

i've said all that fills its filthy mouth.

i spoke of all the things that went south.

my secrets have been spilled from the core.

yet this world is wantin even more.

like the blood that trickles from an open wound.

it feeds on as 1 goes kaboom.

i jus let it be known, what i'm about.

yet........ u'll never know! til it's out.

spilled from blue 2 red.

bruised n finally said.

edges

when it unfolds n the edges of my mind is revealed in that certain way.

u 2 will know how i lost control as i dealt myself a hand i laid down n refused 2 play.

from the scars stitchin me back 2gether from the rips n tears as i am exposed.

i quit n forced self 2 heal as i tend wounds i've created, n now i am exposed.

once emplodin, nicks n scrathes hold in the anger dyin 2 be released.

capturin all the things n i'll never tell a soul as my skin tells only half the stories skinned knees.

beaten knuckles ache in winter months as bulgin imperfections show.

stitchin holes, tryin 2 tell on me as if they can speak of whats been done as i find my flow.

round corners have smoothed my mind 4 yrs past.

yet the rugged edges fray as it's sleek texture will never last.

1 day u will know if i can not control the burstin that repeats.

on the tip of thy tongue as it creeps.

boo

watchin u day by day.
how u go about daily on ur way.
i see what i've been lookin 4.
it makes me want u even more.
ur 1 hell of a woman in my eyes.
a blessin outts disguise.
n u r jus what i was wantin.
u sure r somethin.
the way u wanna be luv'd.
2 the way u wrap me up like a body glove.
i'm urs 4 the way u do u.
imma call u boo.

wish list

on my wish list u lay spread in ink.
n even though i have u, it is u i wish for as i think.
jotted down, stainnin a moment in time.
wishin 4 u 2 forever be mine.

Unknowning

Run. Away in time. Go. Be self in mind. Search. Accept the facts. Find. Point of impact. Return . To the one who was you. Inside. Compair differences. Whom. Came from the other side of fences. Sit. Notice what you’ve become. Where. In which you’ve come. Play. In times window. Cry. Happily under shadow. Funny. Where we go unknowing. Learning. Slowly growing. Looking. Stare into the past. There. In a time that moved to fast. Wishing. Just to have it back. Pages. Written in the lack. Unfinished. Coming around the corner. Showing. Face of years gone with the thunder. Touch. Feel it reach. Now! Let it teach….

Thinkin Of...

jus thinkin of u.
i grin form ear 2 ear.
i luv luv'n u.
as i cry a happy tear.
sittin here i day dream of u.
wonderin how i pulled it off.
i'm jus me n u r u.
when u came along i was lost.
liftin a man back 2 his feet.
like only u could do.
now my heart is skippin beats.
4 a luv u give so true.

Ready

Flickerin lights. Stage is set. Blinds are drawn. Ready in depth. Deeply involved. Liquid substance. Standin chilled. Sounds of luv breakin the silence. Waitin. It’s late. Moment as if it was the 1st. Giving into fate. Hearts ready. Night breeze blows. Coolin the emotional heat. Exciting the mood. Tension builds. Patience strung. Bubbling petals float. Ready to get it done. Bobbing to the beat. Mind pleases the soul. Entering here you come. For mr to hold.

Luv'n U

I Luv U! N only u. 4ever now, 4ever 2ghether. U r my 1. My dream. My world. u r simply spectacular. AILOWY! ilu! til the day i die. I stand by ur side. A luvr n a friend. I live 4 ur luv, ur touch, ur smilin embrace. Til the end. U r more than the air i breathe. releasin a remarkable sence of relief. A new life streamin inside. i break 4 u. 4 the way ur jus willin 2 luv me. my luv 4 u i can not hide.

In These Eyes

Ur BeAutiFuL!
2 ThEsE eYeS oF mInE.
sO lUvAbLe.
lAyIn AbOuT iN mY mInD.
a TrUe LuV.
gIvInG uR aLl.
WiTh CoMfOrTiN hUgS.
iN2 uR aRmS i FaLl.
I aM uRs 4 AlL tIMe.
2 HaVe N 2 hOlD.
aS i WiSh U 2 bE MiNe.
Til oUr BoDiEs R oLd.

Hear Me

Hear me now as I stand breath taken and without sound.
As I try and whisper a rhym for you in which in me I found.
Listen to the man within speak from the deepest untouched cracks.
Where he laid hidden and speechless awaiting on you as my heart attack.
Hear me as I drop a line into your ear as it vibes a beat to my words.
From somewhere under the armor there is a pounding thumping as it’s time to be heard.
Aged like wine waiting on the one to sip the a taste of wisdom exploding.
I softly release the motion of forming emotion after emploading.
Hear me tell a tale of a fool growing up in his time without you.
Falling inward long enough to find the art of sound of loving you.
Preparing a riddled phrase in a form so rare to this world.
I am here now ready to claim my one and only girl.

everyday life

Everyday life has come into foocus long ago. Who to pare up with was so fucking unknown. Playing one to the next I consumed them all. Let only one in and took my very own fall. Life seemed to be always on the low. Not knowing on which way to go. Open eyes looking for just one. But they were all over before it was done. Living life for me. For any other I could not see. Heartless when all said and done. After I had my giggles, chuckles and fun. True player with game that had no game. Go figure and one also knows how to speek for own selfs name. Confusing to say the least. Unless you know how to play with anothers beast. Easy it came as natural as breathing. Constantly giving what was wanted yet teasing. No one could ever truly have me. My intentions had a need. But who am I to blame. Was it my fault they could not beat me at my game. I feel bad at times for breaking a few. But they should of knew. And I got mine in return. Guess my own game I did not learn. Slipped once for sake of feeling. Left standing half kneeling. I am one hell of a man I do believe. Just done some things I could never relieve. Still in frame I gave up and fell inward to the unseen long term lonleyness in which I would leave every one of them. Hurt for the first time I stepped backwards and found myself out of theme. On my way out of control. I was awaken d before I could fold. The one found me after finding her. After not being heard. I was unknown for so long and wondered of. Then and there I gave in and gave up the games and lived within my word. Everday life swings its doors open to explore what is on the outside of ourselves. Needing help.

from the lips

spit ur game

as i taste the flavor

enjoyin how juicy

bad behavior

tell me how it is

how u want it

slidin down my tongue

is that ur shit

speak ur brain

n i'll give u head

make ur legs shake

while u lay spread

i'm listenin

ur sounds tellin on u

moan as ur touched

lickin ur sweet spot through

open up n let it be known

truth or dare

let me in i'm ur freak

how much will u bare

ticklin ears with words

pleasin the man i am

whisperin quiet enough to hear

i am all i can

riddle me a session

see if i can figure u out

body motion releasin surpressed emotion

hormones blazin about

free ur expressions upon me

find my intentions

droppin sylables so fresh

mirror relections

u don't have to spell it out

i am grown

jus wanna finish thee

as ur upon my mouth n ur minds been blown

from the lips

bittin n nibblin

releasin screams

revealin what ur sealin

shoutin my name

pleasure is all i have to give to thee

hear urself call to me

drippin from the heat

mood swings of passion

escapin from ur vocals

forcin the issue

grabbin hold

vibe me a rythm

beatin from the pulse down between ur legs

tamin my beast

as i attempt not to beg

paths returning to fork

two paths walked individually-lost and empty through the years-eventually telling self there has to be a fork to follow that feeds a taste something like happy tears-one that is more filling than starving for affection and an endless fear-legs kicing the feet snapping toes that trample away from where one intended to go-unable to return for so long-one knows this road traveled beyond where they wanted to go-chosing a greater path that always has been wrong-somethings always missing and needs to be found-wondering where it has gone and what could fill the void of pains endless crying sound-tomorrow seems to be the same as everyday-unhappy and unsatified-something went astray-so direction has been redirected for yesterday never to repeat itself again-spreading self ever so thin-connecting with someone else that seems to have been misplace for so long-one in which clearifies the inner song that helps one sway and could never go wrong-years gone as if the wind blew them away-floating alongthinking of one another-curious aas they lived-yet time has awaken and has given a chance-making lost memories up as two want to play- the fork at the end of a path has lead them back to point a-thinking and feeling knowing everything will be okay-walking away in luv for it is true-who knew? crossroads meeting at the exact point of walking awya from everything they ahd ever known- leading them into each others arms where the gentleness of happiness feels so grown-giving up on yesterday- finding the past face to face today-it's everything that has ever been wanted for so long-to have their one come strolling speaking from the tongue-soothing the emotion of hope-loosening the stranlging rope.

patience as you take the time with me as i luv you- i feel i've learned my lessons along the way to you-yet you're something else i've never seen coming as my heart is on the floor-how i made it back to you i don't know and i just don't care because you i can not ignore-giving yourself is all i ask in return for what i am willing to do or even put myself through-just to have you looking in my direction completes me in ways unheard of as if you were my glue.

feel

feel whats going on inside-see if its what you seekin your mind-step out side the norm-re-enter and see if it confronts you-comforts you-if it makes you smile as i do as i do-showing teeth-feel teh man i am stuck within-bring him out and have your way-with a stoke the tickles the touch of skin connecting-find what makes a grown man quiver-then watch and se if you can believe their is at least on real man in the world- willing to just live-feel whats trying to escpae into your arms as it wants to lay peacefully-with the absence of games-feel the charm take over the expression on face-i a of only flesh and bone-in need of your luv-feel the beast luv from out of behind the stone this world has put it-feel thy hand as we walk side by side hand in hand back to back-fighting off this world together-here i stand opened up-do you have it in you to feel me? feel me!

watchin luv...

im sittin here watchinn u sleep tryin to steal one more moment with u. because ilu n i know every second that passes is another minute closer to another memory in the past. somethin wanted as it is enjoyed yet never forgotten. knowin our time together is becoming more than ive ever expected, i have fallen so fucking hard 4 u. u r a beautiful person inside n out. ilu jus the way u r. never wanting u to change as im wanting 2 be more like u. i am happy 2 be laying here with u as i allen ray morgan (butchie) as i am given this chance to help ur smile shine. n that in itself tickles me. never let anyone change u baby. u r a rare one to find. someone i wish i could be. n someone i hope 2 become. u r my world, my everything. knowing u accept me the way u do pushes me more to become the man i wanna be. naturally. this thing called love we share is beyond this world. n i believe we were meant 4 each other. so as i slide back down n snuggle along side u, know in this exact moment, this is how i felt n what i was thinkung of. uuuuuu. ILU MANYDY! more than words could ever wxpress. AILOWY, 4EVER.

the word if

what if 2day was the first of many.

if tomorrow was bigger than the turn of the century.

what would happen if one were 2 fade.

drift in time n jus get lost inna face.

what if time stood it's ground.

forced a path not yet found.

if yesterday was all one wanted.

as if the missin had no sound.

what if seconds dropped like memories.

forgotten n emptying.

where's the if that plays it's part.
when an end begins a fresh start.

what if all that was ever needed.

was beyond what we ever intended.

as if the absence left a hole to fill.

after livin in a space that was still.

what if everything was givin 2 one in time.

learnin of self n acceptin the find.

leavin all that's happened behind.

2 finally embrace what's considered mine.

what if the end is the freshest expression felt.

stealin the importance of how it feels 2 melt.

can one find in the word if the meanin of hope?

let it ride as moments float.

connect

lets waste emotions n taste some tears

find ourselves in each other n comfort our fears.

dig deep n feel a luv showin a face never seen.

slow down time n pull it outta our dreams

lead one another into the night with precision.

knowin the dedication intended with invisible puncuations.

it's u that brings me to these words of desire.

ur the one in which i'd build an empire.

feel the cirlce come around n connect.

land in each others chest.

giving away all the good left within our hearts.

n see where that puts us with its spark.