wave goodbye...

You went swimming in the deep end. And back up on the shoreline you left me as a friend. But do you know, I would've kissed you under the water. To give you my last breath and sunk bcuz you mattered? Lil known facts you missed leave the moisture still building up in my eye. And yet z as you've shown, you don't need me in your life. You'd rather cause ripples that crash like waves than swim back to me. Even though I would've been you float to give safety to your dreams. From beneath the surface, I drowned with you, and you didn't even know it. As you struggled for air, I too felt that shit. Bcuz that's what luv is in its natural intent. But you'd know that if someone else you could actually depend. Truths from lies are gasps of survival silently heard. In time to come gives words their creation of worth. As I air here in the aftermath still soaked and defeated. Having to let go of luv that went under in a moment of clarity. Without a reason sighed with sincerity. I watched the tide take you as I was forced to save myself. Got you didn't give a fuck shit me as you needed not my help. I'm not your hero nor someone who was supposed to cater to the selfishness. Your just not my person that will invest in my happiness. This is evident as I accept the sun overlooking the beach. Knowing there's a horizon unseen that'll replace the leftovers of daydreams. Giving a new purpose to a sunset song back. Knowing I'm afraid of the depths water that can engulf the heart so fast. As I'll be anchored in the sand where my toes can curl in peace. For here i can be me...