the only one

even though my heart belongs only to u.
I will never surrender it's lonely use.
for the easy it felt on it hand to wind up hopeless.
it's emotion turned on me n find me useless.
with every crave that opened up to ur face.
I gave away what I was without a welcoming embrace.
I'll fever be always in luv only with u in my secrets.
yet ever the chance I'd run away with reason.
I was handicapped to ur relentless will.
turn from limb to limb as I ached ached so still.
I fell into u without a way out cuz I had no need to return.
thought my questions were answered as they were heard.
damn near ran outta my mind without u here.
after holding on to the one I wanted most of all I went there.
like a fool believing in actions that never met reality.
u took me from within n rearranged Luvs stability.
I stood next to u through the thick n thin to be left empty.
knowing a lifestyle took u away cuz I know u still loved me.
n til the day life slips from me I will remain urs.
no one has nor ever will dig that deep down into my core.
as I'll remedy what it felt like to feel u on my world.
Mandy Morgan will always be my only girl.
it's jus sad how u felt u need to go live elsewhere beneath the same sky.
cuz what you'll never know is I carry ur touch with pride.
in my mind I've come to accept what we had is gone.
lost due to ur incapability to realize I was more than a pawn.
yet my emotions are all but done n won't allow u to fade.
tryin to find u in others that jus can't compare to u claimed.
here but absent as the luv awaits goin to waste thank prolly never feel I again.
as it clings to the only present that ever made a difference to this man.
in my quietly kept u reside surfing the waves in my heart.
playing in the horizons display laying with my in the sands doing it part.
one in which u jus don't know exists beneath my expressions.
of why I was forced to save myself from it careless decisions.
the feeling lives one, it's unbound by time to want to luv u.
n I'm guessing you'll go without understanding ur use.
as I'd luv to show u once again who u truly are to me.
n give u purpose of what I mean that u are my only dream.
yet days tic n nights find the void laying next to an other that could never be u.
it's an endless luv that refuses to die that holds the proof.
but to actually live my life out with u was never a sure thing.
we wore the bond that satisfied my desires when u put on that ring.
n I'm falling apart still to this day piece by piece.
cuz ur all I somehow jus for some reason didn't receive.
as if the truth were ever to be told, I'd collapse into u as my kryptonite.
I'd set aside the time ur worth in my eyes to figure u in my sights.
it's a brutal reality lingering on not knowing if ur happy or held when ur sad.
cuz I was there with the weight that was never to heavy as u crashed.
leaving me stranded n dis attached from everything I was tryin to do.
walking amongst strangers trying to find a friend spooked.
that if u could do me the way u did, they will to.
n there only thing I truly wanted was to luv u.
funny how that's exactly what I got once all was said n done.
I shoulda been more specific to the terms n told u i wanted to be ur one.
cuz now I'm the only one in this relationship that no one even u knows exists.
sitting in the middle of life i guess ur the only one that'll ever be missed.