Help is needed

In my hea heavy thoughts break down with patience hush.
Its all my fault n i need an answer how to get more than just enough.
Within the walls in which i cage myself i tear me apart.
There is no end to the damage i do to selfs heart.
Confushion riddles phrases i do not understand.
N i becoming somethin on the lines of less than a man.
Inside my head is where the dungeon chains torture.
Its a battle at stake with frustrations never ending lecture.
How am i suppose to come up with a way in this state of mind.
Every turn rounds a circle n im missin the the center line.
Deep within the layers of life is consumed by questions.
Yet all clues remain silently hidden n never mentioned.
Help is needed for me to complete my choices.
But i cant ask n im stuck in here with the voices.
Calling to my sanity slipping with a fading goodbye.
I feel im coming up short of a man as i hold back the whys.
Drowning in tears this world will never see me shed.
Im lost looking for reality to show reason before i hit my bed.
Wasted time squeezes my smile so fucking tight.
N i can not see whats going on in the middle of this fight.
Blows swing n connect as i remain upright on my feet.
How longs it gonna take until i fall in defeat?
The dome hurts of the strain put into my own will.
N the chest pumps in between each moment laying still.
Relentlessness peeks behind the eyes that r blind.
Lights r out n vacantsy cost more than a dime.
The pain i cause myself it somethin i wish i could shake.
Prior to the ground opening up n swallowing my escape.
Swollen aches pound at the blank stares showing sings.
So far gone trying to figure out how to get mine.
My face is letting loose of emotions i try to hide.
N for once in my life i dont know how to reach for the climb.
Out on the hole dug deep in my brain.
Filling with the storms pourong down rain.
From side to side a swiveling motion takes place.
N if anyone asks no i am not affraid!
Driven with meaning i currupt my own well being.
As i fade with the days tired n dreaming.

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