Alone as bloods faded from thy side.
Reasons untold as i drift on the ride.
Head turnin with unjustifyable tears.
Heart stripped of over shifted gears.
Findin new self in days lived slowly.
Inside emotions redinfine growin.
Wheres the meanin on middle met?
Raised in the same sense of best.
Goin wrong when the right ways fade.
Left wonderin who in the fucks to blame?
With rythmes soul skippin beats.
Spiralin in a sick thought of defeat.
To deal with to resistance of me.
Becomin once was in a dream.
Daddies misplaced behind the eyes.
Slippin tears in the midnights mind.
Crashin on memories killin softly.
Abscent realization in relations costly.
Leanin of a best freind for comfort.
Back steppin with a peddlin torn.
Last stand redirectin the futures past.
N im beginnin to hurt so bad.
Monday, December 31, 2012
Back peddlin
13 count
Pucker up buttercup.
Smooth yet so rough.
Out tha way silent nights.
Tipsy tip 2 down.
It on buzz has been found.
3 n 4 bobbin a nod.
5 set on the spot.
Eyes tinted pink.
Tatsebuds numb to tha drink.
At war with morgan.
Tha captain that concurs sin.
6 times fussin a cus.
Feelin confidences must.
Bouncin towards 7.
No where near 11.
Zomm zoom zoom.
In full bloom.
Rare form kickin it.
8th wonder is my shit.
Shots runnin a slip.
Repeated at tha lips.
Pulsatin reputitions.
9 clinchin intensions.
Double digit life.
10 slurped jus right.
Double fisted weave.
12 then 11 breathe.
Clownin on my feet.
What a 13th treat.
Gone n floatin.
Twisted on my way to Zonin..........
10 9....... .
Down clicks flippin time.
Party smile on the rise.
Hatch flappin gulped like rain.
Another 365 bottles drained.
Smooth sailin floatin booze.
New beginnings old rules.
Turnin seconds tappin out.
World wide celebrations now.
Giggity grins opened swallow.
Chasin yrs shots fill the hallow.
Buzz ripped standin strong.
Bones bouncin rythmes song.
Lined up toasts high.
Clock watchin from the sky.
Numbers change fallin again.
Fuzzy numb thats the plain.
10 9 to the 01 01 13.
Livin lifes ultamate dream........
Sunday, December 30, 2012
Along the way
Beginnings fade.
Life scribbles a phrase.
Along the way.
Routine rattles the brain.
All but tamed.
Knowin the gain.
Time claims.
Once opened lanes.
Walleyed case.
Unused dusty lace.
Playful taste.
Minds a daze.
Crown unpraised.
Hearts a maize.
Luvin feelin fate.
Forgotten crave.
Relations eventually wait.
Pausin for the pain.
Since is a cave.
Losin rythms blame.
Left to hang.
Touchless strain.
Faces in frame.
Whistlin like a train.
Ready n brave.
Rekindlin the flame.
Pullin the mane.
Moanin names.
Knees use of lays.
Before goin insane.
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Figure self out
Are you affraid of what you might find?
Tucked behind the curtains of your mind.
Never digging deep enough to figure self out.
Lacking a peace of mind alone in drought.
Always in the mix of everyone elses ways.
Is it so wrong to become ones defining praise?
With a lil peice of individuallity to let loose.
Going inward looking through eyes to choose.
What is to gain living an others life?
With a void cutting as if a blade on a knife.
Friday, December 28, 2012
Forget me not
If i ever forgot how to luv thee.
Would u take a chance to touch me?
Help me remember what it is we have.
Never giving up on fates endless path.
In years to come if i get side tracked.
Falling away from the gratification matched.
Could u still find it in u to pick me up?
Showing me the rare aspect of how we luv.
In a time different then now where luv fills the air.
Somewhere i possibly get caught up n unfair.
I wanna know will ur willingness bring me back?
Hold on with the might left in ur heart under attack.
If conversation is abscent n im fadin away.
Confused by lifes weight pullin me astray.
Do u think u have it in u to be patient for me?
Standin strong when i fall from a feelin so free.
For the worms
Chipped jus a lil standing rock hard.
Unfazed by this world the hearts chard.
Blackened stone cracked n never broken.
Chained to my soul forever forsakened.
Unstained emotions hardly used.
With no luv to give i can not lose.
Cut short frozen in time.
The eyes never seem to wanna cry.
Holes gapped filled with dirt.
For the worms to eat at the hurt.
Chizzled shape reintroduced as stiff.
Chilled on ice under the weathers fists.
Cut n stitched scars face the cage.
Bitting hands that feel so brave.
Locking the key away from the holes.
My story will forever be ubtold.
For splits that have leaked r sealed tight.
Welded shut in armored nights.
Alone the thumper strengthens.
Losing all purpose of its meaning.
Im witness
Its more than a after hours freakshow.
Deeper than lusts irrelavent sideshow.
I can see it within the patterns of your eyes.
Noticing how you never have to try.
Its the other saide of being free.
As one i hear it as you call to me.
Proudly standing closer than becoming one.
Im witness to how you love.
Its how life bagan with a kiss.
Giving answers to whats always been missed.
I know what you are about.
As ilu springs from your mouth.
Its a touch the clings to my skin.
Allowin you to sink in as it thins.
Feeling the promise as you graze.
Im not use to being craved.
Its hows theres not a doubt in your mind.
Singling out and accepting your find.
As the power of your heart luvs.
Ive become more than a rush.
Sittin still
Crackin spin twisted free.
Iced chill as i lean.
Tilt n fill a drink for me.
Forgotten night unseen.
Blurred darkened lights.
Wibbled stance jus right.
Gimme another aight.
Sittin still movement slight.
Last call numb limbs.
Drunk stagger 2 am.
Another night not banned.
N i cant stand.
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Guided to temptation
Leading u as u follow i guide u smoothly.
As ur feet glide beneath ur soft sway.
I direct intensions into another room.
Come with me as this night fades from the day.
There r many unmentional things to be done.
Allow urself to find urself in total comfort.
I speak not of actions that r their own proof.
Yet i promise as we begin i will only hover.
Tag along as i know the way to ur desires.
All i need is ur approval coming undone.
Stripped down of all others that have failed.
For it is i that needs to be that sensual one.
This way is where ur fantasies await temptation.
Bringing dreams to life in a way secrets will be fulfilled.
Landing in a place as the body falls into a lay.
Playing at first just to see if u can remain still.
Enter with knowing ur pleasure is at hand.
To a world made for ur own selfish needs.
Finding behind a door is a never ending passion.
Locked inside anything u want cums with ease.
Without being asked
Jus tell me what i dont wanna here.
Make it come fron ur eyes honest tears.
Express the purpose i posses in ur life.
Without repeating words time after time.
Speak in ur own tongues cleverish way.
As u break down meaning n begin to say..........
In ur pleasure wher do i fit in?
Enjoy ur thoughts escaping from within.
I wanna know from ur own word of mouth.
Gather the emotions bouncing about.
Without being asked who am i to u.
Can u release the honest to gods truths?
Adding weight
Changes sneak up quickly as the hearts been hurt.
Left to find reasoning in owns self worth.
Yesterdays is different in the eyes of now.
As words pulsate pain with ever syllable of sound.
Cutting a slice is a piece chuncked away from purity.
Adding weight to the petience of reality.
Actions speak in ways of the hearts wonder.
As emotions cling to purpose before the plunder.
Pages turn as the story unfolds a tale.
Will we make it through or inevidably fail?
Faces age as periods of mi fortune hurts.
Only if one knew how hold a tongues blurt.
Never causing an ache unable to be repaired.
For the feeling alone will always remain unfair.
Help is needed
In my hea heavy thoughts break down with patience hush.
Its all my fault n i need an answer how to get more than just enough.
Within the walls in which i cage myself i tear me apart.
There is no end to the damage i do to selfs heart.
Confushion riddles phrases i do not understand.
N i becoming somethin on the lines of less than a man.
Inside my head is where the dungeon chains torture.
Its a battle at stake with frustrations never ending lecture.
How am i suppose to come up with a way in this state of mind.
Every turn rounds a circle n im missin the the center line.
Deep within the layers of life is consumed by questions.
Yet all clues remain silently hidden n never mentioned.
Help is needed for me to complete my choices.
But i cant ask n im stuck in here with the voices.
Calling to my sanity slipping with a fading goodbye.
I feel im coming up short of a man as i hold back the whys.
Drowning in tears this world will never see me shed.
Im lost looking for reality to show reason before i hit my bed.
Wasted time squeezes my smile so fucking tight.
N i can not see whats going on in the middle of this fight.
Blows swing n connect as i remain upright on my feet.
How longs it gonna take until i fall in defeat?
The dome hurts of the strain put into my own will.
N the chest pumps in between each moment laying still.
Relentlessness peeks behind the eyes that r blind.
Lights r out n vacantsy cost more than a dime.
The pain i cause myself it somethin i wish i could shake.
Prior to the ground opening up n swallowing my escape.
Swollen aches pound at the blank stares showing sings.
So far gone trying to figure out how to get mine.
My face is letting loose of emotions i try to hide.
N for once in my life i dont know how to reach for the climb.
Out on the hole dug deep in my brain.
Filling with the storms pourong down rain.
From side to side a swiveling motion takes place.
N if anyone asks no i am not affraid!
Driven with meaning i currupt my own well being.
As i fade with the days tired n dreaming.
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Mommy
Its ur face in a memory.
Flooding the mind heavily.
Pictures that tug at tears.
Seeing u in the mirror.
Its ur voice breaking the silence.
Listening i miss whats priceless.
The sound alone eases the pain.
As the eyes release the rain.
Its the moments spent together.
The good times is what i remember.
The smiles left behind in my heart.
As it appears youve done ur part.
Its the love youve given i still need.
Only finding that kinda comfort in dreams.
Idk if u know what u still mean to me.
Im lost without u mommy.
I can
This is what i can do.
Along side the likings of u.
Jus to take care of ur needs.
Emotionally i can set u free.
Comforting ur interests.
Physically easing a carress.
So u know where i stand.
Mentally balancing times sand.
Relaxing motions weakenings.
Repeating actions strengthening.
Satisfaction i am at ur beckon.
Name ur deepest intensions.
I bow to ur desires adrift.
Everyone youve ever missed.
Adding truth to ur life.
I can equalize ur rights.
Show u the upmost respect.
As u deserve the best.
Forever catering to ur every dream.
Promising ur realities plead.
Never will i turn on ur luv.
With an caring touch.
Never wanna
I dont wanna waste ur time.
Or become a thought wasted in ur mind.
Left somewhere in the pasts clutter.
Once felt in the heart as a flutter.
Windin up elsewhere lost without.
Eventually forgotten on ur happinesses route.
Abscent from memories never made.
Livin in another time n place..........
I never wanna see the day.
We do not exist in luv's blaze.
Visual
Eyes fantasising on the tone of ur skin.
Flowin so smoothly across mental sin.
Glidin on the texture teasin so sweet.
Sinkin into the presense of ur curves need.
Bein noticed n played with in such a way.
Emotions rise to the occasion to escape.
In luv with the silkish glow comin undone.
Sittin still enough feelin a sigh on the run.
Coverin every inch of the visual displayed.
Beautiful satisfaction in the mind ingraved.
I am witness to ur sensitivity lettin loose.
Upon my carressin passion hoverin with truce.
In the beginning
The day we both wind up somewhere else.
Away from this world in a better place.
I'll look for u again in the beginning of eternity.
Running into ur arms as my heart once agian will race.
As soon as this life releases our time.
Makin it on the other side of the golden gates.
Ur smile is the one thing i'll ever need.
With u is where i belong as god himself gave us fate.
Monday, December 24, 2012
Pure
Understand a situation.
Settle the nerves relations.
Know whats before the eyes.
Reason with the mind.
Over the hearts emotion.
Cloudin compatable devotion.
Be in the moment of reality.
Keep facts of honesty.
Thoughts must be clear.
Direct n without fear.
Never once lose urself.
As a partner is felt.
Forget not how to luv.
Live pure as one.
Equal part
They say when a woman says enough is enough, its over.
Yet in a real mans heart, he holds the key as a lover.
In a females heart it takes so much to turn her luv.
Yet as a mans worth is a mutual gain without touch.
Ladys seem to hold the balance of freindship.
Yet if a man finds purpose for him she'll remain on his lips.
So when the feminine side rids him of the pain caused.
Jus remember a man who is real is already gone.
Both side if about it maintain an equal part.
N at the same time no individual deals the cards.
Women luv deeper so it said to be the truth.
Yet if men open up, the power of luv finds use.
In rythm with steps
In a luv locked in a stroll as fingers intertwine.
Walkin with a passion clingin to a moments lifetime.
Swingin arms in rythm with steps movin along.
Memories in the makin that could never go wrong.
Simple sways in the hips led by toes playin in sand.
Findin the meanin of what a woman means to a man.
Jus once
Steppin out. I wanna be like everyone else.
No one seems to care. Worryin about self.
It must be so easy. Never growin up.
I dont wanna be me. Fightin for what i luv.
No one understands. N i dont wanna either.
Jus to never try. Ooh the teeter.
Careless speech. Actions that make no sense.
Livin with an empty head. Never so tense.
Slidin through moments. Dodgin thought.
Turnin on interest. No matter what it costs.
To have nothin matter. Subject to surroundings.
Impressin everyone. Havin no boundaries.
I wanna know what its like. Jus once.
Not to give a fuck. Or other as such.
The way it goes
Lines of willigness.
Steppin on up.
Not everyone crosses boundaries.
Hell, its only luv!
As real as emotions will ever get.
Waitin calmly.
Limits r met.
Breakin down honesty.
Theres a difference in meaning.
Some can not do.
What others already have.
Findin out real truths.
Some things r for dreams.
Not all of em come true.
Two ways headed one.
Some dont put intensions to use.
Rules of luvs interpritation.
Guidlines of becomin one.
Minds seem to be on different pages.
Others r willin to have fun.
Opened til the ends of self.
Yet the edge is to high to leap.
Unable to give to luv's design.
The fall is to steep.
N someone always has to do without somethin.
Tryin to fill a voids cravin need.
Yet thats the way it goes.
Everyone at some point is left findin means....
Unfulfilled passion
I hear what it is u say u wanna do to me.
Is it u think im that shallow u spit words for me to lean?
Am i suppose to get excited when u speak?
Actions never seemed to have been but a dream.
Ur talk a good game toyin me to what i wanna hear.
Yet its shit talkin u do as u try n change my gears.
Im not as easy as u may obviously think i am.
Im nothin like in which youve delt with as a man.
U tell tales of things i dont see ucomplete or even start.
When r u gonna stop leadin me on n do ur part.
Say what u mean jus once or hold ur tongue.
Muted expressions is better than incomplete lust.
What is it u actaully think ur accomplishin?
Cuz im not the one for half hearted promises expirin.
Lady luv come with it or ease syllables tauntin me.
I dont beleive itll ever happen n i wont beg please.
Thing is no one can have the whole package like u.
But to rearrange my wordin, wheres the truth?
Stop playin me for a fool fallin for the games.
I see the angle of will as long as ur cumin like rain.
Through me u go, im not listenin to the part time luv'r.
Sounds hurtful i know as i point out the cover.
Do ur thang cuz i wanna see u do it well.
I'll consider arrousal when letters selected r delt.
In more than a form i can put into a phrase.
Really, who is it u think i am standin before u?
Wheres the unconditional outside of an alphabet?
Spoken to stimulate the hormones that arent met.
Im not tryin to be mean what so ever my luv.
Im jus real noticin empty promises of what?
Loose lips swingin an unfulfilled passion.
I give it to u though, seems ur on a mission.
Tryin to brib with a playful touch or action.
Only if u knew whats goin on inside my reaction......
Sunday, December 23, 2012
I remember
It was jus past dawn.
I remember it well.
Sittin in my room.
Right before my heart fell.
I was thinkin bout u.
Wonderin many things.
Then it hit me.
As the phones rings.
Not knowin whom it was.
I answered n heard.
A voice no easin.
It was a brief few words.
Ooh the sound.
Ur voice was so real.
Speakin to me.
It was u that sealed the deal.
Perfect tone soothin.
I remember sound.
Jus wantin to hear me.
Luv was truly found.
In the way
When the smoke clears.
N realities slow focuses so clear.
Self stands in the way of normality.
Over achieving reponsibility.
When the sighs fill breaths.
N whats seen is whats left.
The cloud hovers n waits.
Beneath the stars hiddin days.
When the cracks feel your feet.
Sinking into the simpler means.
Being felt seems more than a need.
Going with the curve of the dream.
Deep under ths surfaces silence
Once again im lost in the thread count wooven in a tangled mess in the middle of my mind.
Things aint normal even in my imaginations creativity to spring free words to explain the sights.
Triggered emotions creep into the hearts unguided luv tightenin the strains grip of hope.
Findin in the mix of sensors emplodin reason somehow to difficult to break free from its scope.
Right dab in between the battles frustration n the reasons at war deep under the surfaces silence.
Im takin sides so forcefully its apparent my choices r that of right n wrongs divided balance.
On knees i plead with self strugglin to look up as the head hangs for a better way to cope.
As side to side it swings on a swivlin tilt managin the misunderstood vitals that float.
Airs whistle
Depletin winds whistlin from a pin whole lettin loose of lifes breath gaspin for reasons of needles pokin a flatlines equalizin bounce fallin without a rythms exhaled ease of satisfaction givin a moment in times scream to be heard before air is unable to be as fresh as the beat of the hearts constant need drumlinin a thumpin fight for the pitter patter of breathins gift inhalin a ripple flutterin sound that doesnt sneak away without knowin the freedom within is the keys that tap into perection.
Saturday, December 22, 2012
Needin ti be unseen
Duckin into the shadows divin in.
Tucked n rollin further within.
Hiddin behind the colorless sight.
Still n pantin from whats not right.
Backwards i lean inward towards stealth.
Needin to be unseen away from help.
Clickin locks with peep wholes.
Throwin the key through the black mold.
Motionless fear consumes motions.
Fetal ball crawlin to a corners solution.
Deep under the light creepin truths.
Ignorin reasons collective unused use.
Un... stable.
E... motions.
Explodin depths.
Roller... coaster.
Upside down steps.
In... sides.
Collision cycle.
Spin... in.
Middle standin idle.
Two... steppin.
Feelin the tug.
Crack... in.
Directional touch.
Loose... nd.
Bafflin toughts.
Un... stable.
Confused distraut.
Life... less.
On the run.
Break... in.
Comin undone.
Speech... less.
Losin reality.
Si... lent.
Unpleasant screams.
I know now what i needed to know then n still dont know what i need to know later. Jus to know to help me now so later when i knew i can jus say i told ya so. Knowin then that now is becomin laters know how. So to know what is to come eases the knowin now n pleases what was knew.......
Thursday, December 20, 2012
Delt with once
Beyond conversation lays a fork.
Direction splittin apart the road.
Two paths with a mind decidin.
Walk away or throwin blows.
Some things arent worth the time.
Left to simmer in the past.
Delt with once is jus enough.
Repeatin emotions wont last.
Whats done is done is done.
Words cant repair actions seen.
Walkin with purpose firm.
This is not la la lands dream.
Forgotten never come to soon.
Strollin in hogged space.
As the crossroads kick dirt.
Yet time has come to be to late.
Astray from whats missed
Silence..... steppin back n away. I jus wanna be left alone.
Everythings a repeat. I dont wanna be grown.
No one else seems to understand the concept. Pain.....
Awaits in every smile. In a nut shell crackin im tamed.
Def ears allows me jus to be.......... all me.
As serious as it gets. I never had nor made a reason to lean.
Im diggin back in cuz my face isnt the same. Lips laced.
Lord y is this me? Stuck in realities truth n placed.
Stiff armin what ive seen of this world. its selfish.
N breakin chains that bind feels so right. Astray from whats missed.
Sides to choose. Yet no one chooses mine.
Simplist concept. Be true to selfs truth that never shy's.
Its been to long since a face wasnt fake. Who is who?
Puttin in to what hasnt a worth. Words r loose.
Danglin imagination slippin. Family remains insaficiant.
Hidden place is empty. Walkin out on trial as the defendant.
Obligations r freed trough blood. I know what im doin.
In that a way direction. Yeah thats where im goin.
Actin never reactin. The punch lines never that funny.
Stabbin gapes to see. With nothin to spill so runny.
Muted by misunderstandin. Crawlin into me whole.
On a level without blame. N the souls never been sold.
Claim me as ur mine
Tasty luv'n fun.
Gots the tongue on the run.
Slurpin a slit.
Rubbin the clit.
Cummin undone.
Moans bein sung.
Callin my name.
As the flow begins to rain.
Pourin so refreshin.
Touchin a testin.
The body reacts.
How long will it last?
Clocked in n lock jawed.
Nails cling with a claw.
Say my name one time.
My luvs on the line.
Pleasin an ease.
Down on my knees.
Overtime well earned.
So u will learn.
Multiples released.
Arrouses the beast.
Swivels to swirls.
Flattened u curl.
Toes bend in satisfaction.
In orgasmic fashion.
Findin the depth within.
Pluckin a fuck eva so thin.
One push gush.
Grabbin the tush.
N im invadin ur space.
As one peekin at face.
Bitten lips n eyes rollin.
Get it now theres no holdin.
Back down vibin a ripple.
Fingers findin a nipple.
Hands roamin feelin around.
Listenin to ur sounds.
Feel my presense have my way.
Enjotin my toys came.
Past tense there it goes.
Here come another.
Pleedin with ur luv'r.
Up the bed u go.
Run gurl never slow.
Clinchin closed thy legs.
Hearin u beg.
No more please.
As i slowly begin to tease.
All over with a tinglin dream.
Ticklin my way as a man.
Here we go again.
Given with kisses.
Game on point n restless.
Climbin inside.
Bangin a grind.
Come with me.
Claim me as ur mine.
Im here for u
No is not an option.
Not my place to tell ya.
Im to find a way.
All because i luv ya.
Life is to short.
Length shortnin everyday.
To have what makes u happy.
Here today.
To go without is unfulfilled.
Wants desires needs.
Its on me to help.
Of what it is u dream.
Partners til the end.
Thats what this is.
Freinds before luv'rs.
Checkin checks on the list.
Two as one enjoyin each other.
N all they can ever be.
Easin in satisfaction.
Set free as easy as it is to breathe.
Imagined life a reality.
Here to stay.
Ask if it pleases u.
Dont be affraid..........
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Abused by chains
Swiveled emotions inside a man.
Hidden from uses drop dead gorgeouses stare.
Scared by unused ability ego plays a roll.
For he might lose control.
Feelings abused by the chains tucked away.
Hogged to self so they can never stray.
Unaware that the tingling feeling is real.
Truth of the matter is no ones made of steel.
How to apply these natural intensions is a mystery.
Seems he is always trying to be made history.
Inadverdent he claims women r crazy.
For they r the oppsite over using their own dreams.
Its a force colliding until both r ready for luv.
A word expressed to frequently to be understood until touched.
Present
When do u get use to ur present life?
When time under the belt n everything seems right.
When does the eyes set on the truth n the mind follows?
When its apperent the comfort of luv doesnt hide in the shadows.
When is it fair to adapt n rid self of what once was.
When the past has led u to the present in which is felt in a touch.
When is not bein use to things an excuse regarding the situation u live?
When all is well and in so many ways an other willinly gives.
When does that day come that two walk in their own memoeries?
When proof has been given at the sake of fates opened mending.
When is the understanding worth settlin the nerve of meaning well?
When happiness speaks loud enough to reach the hearts stealth.
When is the question asked needing an answer to complete the present leading the futures blur?
When is a symboled curve floating on a dot gonna be answered?
This a way
Toss a turn.
Flip it in my direction.
Shake a leg.
Make that azz bounce to perfection.
Spinnin on pivid.
Do ur thang da way u doos.
Work that mutha.......
Bring it this way eva so loose.
Step it up.
Play ya sexual games.
Lust for my eyes.
Triggerin emotion in my brain.
Move a bit closer.
Show me what ya really workin wit.
Teasin ya way inside.
Touch a tease as u sway side to side.
Get it gurl.
Its yo time to bring it strong.
Soft motions.
I gotta tinglin for what unda that thong.
Yeah thats the way.
Make me wanna do what u please.
Take control.
It ur night to put me on my knees.
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Length of life
Attention snagged.
U got me til im toe tagged.
For the length of life.
As youve become my wife.
Doin nothin but bein self.
In this heart u r felt.
So as i sit n stare at u.
Gazin a look of luvin use.
Know youve captured my will.
N u r my lifes greatest thrill.
I would luv to see ur face
I fell asleep n there u were.
Again u looked the same as always.
Beautiful u stood as i staired.
Losin my breath in the middle of a dream.
How many times will it take?
To have this world in my reality.
N as i awake i wonder where u are.
Id luv to know at least that much.
For its been years goin on to long.
Only if i could fall into a drift so complete.
One in which leads me to u.
Because for some time ive drempt.
Ive daydreamed of u n i dont know y.
Where r u as u live ur own life?
Am i a thaught or even a mirage?
Idk if this is even normal.
All i know is i cant get u outta my head.
Lingerin n layin in my subconiousness.
Ooh how i would luv to see ur face.
At least once before my life is over.
Home
Makin home a balanced place in time.
Somewhere luv lives with emotions so fine.
Occupyin walls is gestures stretched so wide.
This is where i lay my head n i draw the line.
My comfort zone lastin over a bottle of wine.
Slowly easin all motions passin with ties.
Surroundin life accepted in between the grind.
Family matters most as truth never hides.
To the other side
Findin my crack in time to slip to the other side.
A crease opened for me to slide inside.
Away from what ive known for so long.
A crevise to a better place in which i belong.
Tuckin in to a slit behind the curtains callin.
For my peice within a slight narrow fallin.
Steppin in to a world through a small hole.
Out of the way of the shiverin wind on this side thats so cold.
From edge to edge the space betwenn is snug.
As i walk n feel my way along the walls my elbows rub.
Out of the way yet never shall i hide.
I cross over to the other side.
Friday, December 14, 2012
My luv is urs boo
This is from me to u.
Real through n through.
In words expressin use.
Always speakin the truth.
U give me whoos.
N its u i choose.
Everyday ur luv feels new.
As constantly i'll proove.
My luv is urs boo.
U have me hangin loose.
With u i can not lose.
N ur luv i'll never refuse.
What ever u want i will do.
As heartbeats pulsate a move.
Jumpin in rythms cue.
N my luv for u is over due.
Only to u
Down to the end of the day.
Its been so long n drawn out.
It took so long to get back to u.
I needed ur voice to make a sound.
The comfort of ur luv is real.
So soothin I run to u daily.
To ease the lonely hrs away.
U allow the heart to live safely.
In ur arms i cling so tight.
Ive missed u my luv.
Feel me as i fall into u.
Unbeleiveable is ur touch.
Timeless moments gathered.
I melt when ur near.
Losin even our immediate surroundings.
Ur simply outstanding.
On my way home i hurry.
To feel u close enough to melt.
Becomin one as the day before.
My luv u r felt.
I belong to ur will.
Ur deisres comin alive.
As emotions live.
N them i can not hide.
Everyone causes pain
What matters when everyone causes pain?
How does the mind get back on track after the blame?
Can things remain to be somethin that resembles the same?
Sometimes I wonder what there is to actually gain.
When the hearts been mistreated n somehow drained.
Hows it to heal if if tears mimic the cold rain?
Leavin confusion scramblin thoughts in the brain.
Closest loved hurts the most as if left unclaimed.
All those around causes their own way of sut hfrom the flame.
N it baffles me how i stay strong within my frame.
Consciously witnessin whats tryin to drive me insane.
Copin is the release point of steppin away from the runaway train.
To be honest its sad family is those who shame.
Inflictin repeated greif upon prayors bein prayed.
Missin a face change in times of rememberin a lonely name.
Unrecognizable agin pulls as emotions r tamed.
N in the end whats left of space in between misplaced love that was never gave?
Thursday, December 13, 2012
Not present
Ssshh........
Listen.
Really quick.
Imagine me missin.
Ur here without me.
Away from hypnotism.
How's it feel?
As the minds driftin.
Find my abscense.
Does that catch ur attention?
Its jus for a moment.
R u lonely within?
Is there a void?
Losin a friend.
Easy luv.
Does emotions release tears to the chin?
Maintain thought.
Live stretched thin.
If I was removed.
Does life have meanin?
The angle of direction in which u luv
I got u n u got me.
Yet what does that mean?
Owned under an invisible force.
Both walkin the same coarse.
Meanings, do they differ?
In between him n her.
What defines the reason?
Somewhere in the middle of seasons.
How does the eyes display it to the mind?
In jus a short time.
Is it confusin to the real point?
Blindin eyes fillin voids.
Let's say its receivin an other.
In more ways than a lover.
Who's to say both parties r parrallel.
Holdin ground held.
What is it I am tryin to say?
Pause for a moment within ur day.
Take a glimps at the angles.
As luv before u dangles.
How is it u luv?
Is it a reaction to a touch?
Or the way I feel to the nerve.
Causin somethin that's unheard.
Perhaps its the givin without bein asked.
Maybe a response unmasked?
Is it possible to accept what an other does.
Pullin u into a reflectin rush.
U see it may jus be somethin other.
Simple acceptin luv as it hovers.
Think about this if u will.
What spreads a smile showin ur grill?
Is it the way I do what I do?
Or is it before I did anything to prove?
Here's a bit of twist for u.
Is it all of me I give to ya so true?
Rather than less than what u give.
Woman id die to let u live.
So what is it?
Other than puttin up with my shit.
How do u divide the two?
Where do u stand in truce?
When one shows an interest.
Is I as me the difference.
Which brings forth another question.
One I gotta mention.
How is it u see the direction of worth?
Take it back to ur birth.
Do u luv cuz I truly care?
Or is it irrelevant to what's shared?
Jus cuz u can so u do.
Or do u need a reason to let loose?
For instance, who r u?
When we r alone in a room.
Does emotions change behind closed doors?
Hidin truths of us that's sure.
Wich way r u comin in to me from?
Reborn after done?
Seekin luv before u freeze?
Am I pickin u from ur knees?
Let's think for a second.
Who am I to ur mendin?
Or reversed.
R u tryin to change my hurt?
Jus poderin in thought here luv.
Noticin how u feel my crush.
Can u help urself if u could?
Doin anything cuz u feel u should.
Or do u chose to wind up in my arms?
Meltin to what u call my charm.
Own me n find out what it means.
Is it a friend in which u lean?
Tempt self to visualize why.
The passion floats in ur eyes.
The soul purpose of becomin one.
R u comin correct with a lifetime of fun?
Seekin self enjoyment in ur time.
Maybe showin interest in my mind?
Tickin on how ur ticks itself.
R u here to help?
Or cuz u don't wanna be anywhere else?
Raomin in the presense of felt.
Clarify ur train of thought.
What is it u need from this man at all costs?
Comfort urself on the releasin of us.
Out in the open of trust.
Where do I fit into repititions?
R ya goin through motions?
Flippin to the other side.
R ya wrapped up in my ties?
Fallin in or divin?
Butterflies or tryin?
Wiggle free from restraints.
Is it possible u can't?
Live without my smile.
Goin the extra mile.
All cuz u wanna.
Cuz u know I luv ya.
Reversin the imagination easin up.
Is that y u cave to want?
I cuz I can't tell ya no?
Pleasin the hearts flow.
What's in this for u?
Meaning, what will u do.
R u confused yet on the facts?
R feelins bein matched?
R u about ur own fuzzy feelin?
Findin me perfect n so appealin.
If so, how is it so?
Do u lose control?
Claimed by luvs gentle hand.
Do this if u can.
Ask ur heart its honesty.
What fulfills ur dream?
What levitates ur soul?
Keeps ya warm from the cold.
Is the idea of me doin all I can?
What if I was jus another man?
Would it be the same?
Would u still be untamed?
Is that a possiblitiy at all?
Try n keep up with this if I stall.
R u meetin expectaions when u havta?
Cuz u feel u gotta?
Or is it in ya to do it outta will?
As luv can't help but to spill.
Where in relations is ur possition?
Find in ya mind what makes ur decision.
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Noddin
Is that what u say?
As I find a chuckle in ya game.
Beleived sort of speak.
As long as that's what u think.
I teeter to say the least.
Honesty covered wit a leaf.
Fig to be more precise.
Never tellin what u hide.
Be careful, patience run thin.
N I'm a man of many men.
Tested lines crawl under the toes.
Ten to be exact in a perfect row.
Yeah I'm standin in the dirt.
Minds feelin a bit over worked.
Hearin another round about.
Jus clutter fallin from ya mouth.
Yet I nod as if.
Gears nutralize a shift.
Carin not of the matter.
Jus letters on the ear drum splattered.
Yeah I'm listenin.
Tell me again without me whistlin.
I'm jus a good judge of character.
N I seen a level of u immatured.
Damn I see through ya.
Onlt if ya told ya.
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Slippin further in love
Fragile to ur likings.
Spilled out in writings.
As gentle as speach calms.
Building a bond.
Ooh so tenderly felt.
Expressing emotional help.
Curving the wet tongue.
Words r damn near sung.
Precious passion.
Priceless is the attraction.
Softly easin a grin.
Pleasin in laced trim.
Rare the situation.
Acceptin the gradification.
Pausin with a hug.
Slippin further in love.
Crushin so very hard.
Landin in the heart.
Slow patience protected.
Intensions directed.
Spoiled to the bone.
Within u is my home.
Livin under the radar of the hype
Acceptin nothin less than perfect.
I'm gettin a bit to cocky to be suspect.
My ego's pullin ropes, closin curtains.
Rejectin foolish immature diversions.
Awake n proud of memories on the wall.
Detachin from my own broken down flaws.
Taken no shit when push gives a shove.
Pain abscent taken with dusguised love.
Face easin loose of the strain.
Accepted jus the way I came.
Outta left feild goofy as hell.
My heads startin to swell.
Straight to the point of worth.
Trippin on the feelin of a smirk.
Seriously, I'm over the constant rain.
Drainin me stuck inside strained.
Noticed is folks so childish.
Better off double ill fisted than foolish.
Clinched n ready for sneaky lil games.
Knowin the stand of my own name.
Word is bond as its been born.
Trust never again torchered nor torn.
Surroundin the outside of the dome.
I orbit watchin my backs zone.
Out there so far gone past normal.
Back to the basics never formal.
Hello, I'm out at lunch n I wanna play!
Walk with me through life untamed.
Real as air unseen n felt.
Blowin away the breeze of those that melt.
Into the distance of no return.
Frost thawin the years of blurr.
Come, I'll show u how.
At one with realities pleasure.
Easin into the cores cure.
Peekin as the head rolls side to side.
Nothin but facts on the mind.
Posted up n fightin the war.
A single taste wants so much more.
Only the about it surrounds the one as I.
Livin under the radar of the hype.
Ground zero with a peice of mind.
In touch with inner strengths knowledge.
In between closin a wedge.
Whole again n lungin.
Out from the chain filled dungeon.
On n on I go restless.
Slit back n freindless.
Nothin but truce can be heard.
Awayward steppin back for I've learned.
Self is owns best.
Put to the test......................................
Monday, December 10, 2012
In the wide open
Out in the open in full bloom.
No longer outta range of the scopes zoom.
Easin a moments notice bein me.
Pluckin free the unwanted seeds.
At self with full truce.
Puttin ability to complete use.
Lackin no longer the normality.
Disfuctional is my reality.
Stable in mind n ready.
Holdin own n steady.
Twiddlin a whistle's squeel.
Jus keepin it real.
Crisis revealed fadin.
Steppin into the waitin.
Still standin strong.
Rightin inner wrongs.
Here is me as I.
From within I've climbed.
Sounds r like a breeze blowin.
N the expressions showin.
Calmer upstairs here as of lately.
In the wide walkin safely.
Trillions of bits of thoughts at ease.
Desinigrated n lost on release.
Head clear as airs visual.
Puttin rythm with the lyrical.
On the marks get set.
Never gonna be perfect.
Facin the stare backs involvement.
Crucial facts resolvin it.
Planted boots growin a man.
Survival swung by hands.
Deep in the middle of nowhere.
With room to move n share.
Opened eyes reflects lifes consideration.
Soul connectin to tolleration.
Again doin the impossible.
Acceptin more of the dementional.
3d hi fi crisp with peircin sight.
N jus think I was losin my mind....................
Sunday, December 9, 2012
Friends til the end
My lady n I. Standin side by side. Eye to eye with what's in sight. Me n mine as hers is I. Behind the fight. Wrong or right. Ridin tears that cry. Evaporatin in flight. Mind for mind. Understandin the find. Two of the same kind. Why is a question outshined. Havin time to remove boundaries that blind. Lines removed for finer vines. Roots planted n intertwined. Climbin into the sunshines prime. Hidin nothing from my bride. Inside out in stride. Smoothly as we glide. Freinds til the end of time.
Soft pavement
Swimmin in lifes road from the start to the finish.
Wishin the dive was some what endless.
In the middle of pavements solitude as the rain pours.
Rivits move on ahead as I paddle in chase for more.
Strokin patience as fingers cuff a pushin swoosh.
Kickin legs repellin onward thrusts towards whoos.
Breaths stolen are afloat as life lives in gasps.
Needin dry land in the middle of an illusions grasp.
Restrained
Down behind the low.
But wouldn't u like to know.
Movin along rather slow.
Enjoyin the never endin flow.
Under the restraints hold.
Secrets kept so bold.
Two as one no ones told.
N on satisfactions roll.
Havin way bein selfish.
Made out to be a dish.
Checkin marks on the list.
As turn of play is wished.
Movement minamized.
Hormones have realized.
The glory is pleasureable in the eyes.
Of naughty deeds one can no longer hide.
Lines crossed beyond return.
In another willin to learn.
Teasin affections constant yearn.
Gagged with moanin words.
Taken passions force.
Unable to stop what's in store.
Tied to the bed of more.
Diggin into the inner core.
Pullin from within a freak.
Dragged out mufflin speech.
Squirmin around sexual defeat.
Won over truth speaks.
Hidden intensions known.
Never half stoppin full grown.
Beleivin in what's shown.
Of selfs need a nerves moan.
Fightin for touch.
Reachin fingers lust.
Enjoyin ooh so much.
Advantage is on the hush.
Silence golden to play.
Opened up to games.
Invadin empty space.
Givin meanin to sway.
Made to endure the tease.
Beggin please please please.
Some good some bad seized.
Findin out about selfs dreams.
Shame of orgasms fade.
Repeaditly expectaions raised.
Peekin in a eye rollin gaze.
Tampered feelins dazed.
Omg! No more.
Can't take another tour.
Through unmentionable roars.
As the crave pours.......
Friday, December 7, 2012
The defenseless win
Levelin eyes to a playin feild seen before the battle of luv has began. Findin angles of how to capture the heart of the untamed skill as we stand. Movin along the balance of stride as a stance lerks to play. Settin up for the pounce that patiently settles the nerve of fate. Silent motions speak a tale of temptation at it s very best. Creepin in slowly on the attack as walkin away isn't an answer that rests easily in the chest. Causin the commotion as contact has been confirmed by a reaction that was waiting. Cennectin simultaniously with the satisfaction of the games mating. In a tussle tossin as a roll ends in a pinned mount. Both winnin with their own reasons of victory found. Close enough to feel the mutual emotion of seek the days closure. N actually findin that small peice of self misplaced in another is located in stillnesses that confides in the exposure. This is the time of now in the presense of power over ridin defeat. As both have been not only swept but knocked completely off their feet. Landin in a grapple of lettin self be known. As self is as real n defensless of the figure that has fully shown. The same response outta respect clingin to the guts truth. Needin this win for the mind knows it use.
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
The chase
On the e-way's blood stream, runnin with the emotion stolen from my heart. Speedin away in a hurry u grin as drips of me needed has been snatched. Side to side ridin the drifts contentment with the veins curves. Through the traffic clotts u blast through the restless chase pursude by the luv takin after ur playfulness. As the minds eye above has spotted ur presense bobbin in n out a feelins. For the rest of the millions of particles of me to notice the memory displayed is an act of childish like behavior. Tryin to reach the edge of the flow where fingertips slice the breeze before I catch up. Haulin ass u smile at the contact of connection in thought of bein caught, as u play ur game. N I'm willin to follow so I can see where happiness awaits. So close behind u I gain my ground. Earnin my place on this crazy cat n mouse chase. Imma getcha, yet I'm holdin out til we get to where u wanna be captured. Never rushin the way u slide through me so easily. Havin ur way with the joy of me comin up on u fast. Watcha gonna do when ur forced to stop n face the man you've been drivin crazy?
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Some times
There are times in life where things do not seem so clear.
When confusion clouds the mind and smiles are without cheers.
Even sight is a blur looking at the one thing most enjoyed.
Finding everything else surrounding certain situations a void.
Some times along the way of finding self in one owns groove.
Patience and faith is tested for pruposes that evaluate truth.
Complicated moments or periods of time conflict with trying.
And in the middle of breaking down strength stands dying.
Not all of us are able to withstand the pressure squeezing the soul.
Losing grounds and redirecting reasons of why the heart folds.
In windows through life walking through homes comfort.
We peek out as deiguised moving pictures change with the weather.
Yet inside we're protected by love that is fought for day in day out.
Communication is key as time changes without a sound.
Yet verbal connection is not understood periodically.
Needing more information to levels heads of idividuallity.
When dreams seem to be resisting the reallity of will.
All is taken into factor as actions never fade or remain still.