In between…

Help my mind ease on up. Slow the thoughts down just enough. All I want is to hear your voice in my head. I’m listening, but it’s too loud as if your words go unsaid. I need to rest and you’d make the soothe so fuckin comfortably nice. Just to lay in silence with your whispers and spend a lil time. Lil ol you. I could use. I wouldn’t need to move. Cut me loose. I don’t wanna be mentally incapable of such a beautiful thing. There’s more to life than dreams. Settle all the confusion of relations I shield myself from. I’m done with feeling numb. I’m lost in between the space claiming the depths hidden from ear to ear. As the sound from the outside I honestly fear. But your voice is pleasant to me. I wanna be free. I crave the moment I’m touched by your fingertips and you sink in. Allowing me to breathe again. Forcing the scars I’ve encountered to lay flush. Flow through me with your rush. Open me up and sort out my comprehension of what a woman is. I wanna live. And I feel like I’m off a bit bcuz I’m just one man. But damn how I would luv to understand a woman’s stance. To find a balance in the making to whenever and wherever creates the evidence to drift from my mindset that enclaves me. I’m not begging, but please. Be different in ways you make sense. With this, my heart won’t be afraid and tense. Just speak softly as I fall to sleep in between your thighs. Just don’t lie. A friend would be sweet to sneak in and rearrange a few details that I have gotten wrong. But shh, don’t tell the walls. Let it just be you and I until the sun comes back around. In the now. As heartbeats synchronize. As clarity attempts to spin counter clockwise. To creep with the night that doesn’t want anything in return. Give a lil worth. I’m in between me and crossing over to you. I’m calling for a truce. I can’t keep on fighting myself to be happy. It’s maddening…