me?

me? i'm just one man somewhere in between dreams. aware that things changed in the happening of me and i'm nothing but a stranger. self is just as confused as you wondering wtf corrupted my use as i look at evereyone as a soon to be danger. and yet, here i am moving in the straight up of trying to get back to me, the man. here i am.

me? all i can say is, "just don't leave". though the circumstances are that's an eventual moment for you to escape for your own cause. as i'll be me as i always will remain stationary slowly moving in a pause. unfazed and living with the memories entangled with all the faces buried deep. coming back to me every so often and quicker than breif.

me? i'll be just fine with chuckling off the good grief. there's things one gets accustom to as life evolves into a different attempt to believe. as strength grows in a more independent mind hanging on until the time is right to escape me. loosening you from me i know you'll find yourself again enjoying a new face. fading from the now happening without the curiosity of me becoming what you hate.

me? i'll know why so it's gonna be ok to to dig deep. lets just enjoy us before the end begins its slow descending creep. but please don't fight the natural feeling to one day be a once was upon my face that doesn't wheep. just say, "weee". and live until we no longer speak each others names. calling out to a new type of stranger as the forgotten friend is that of me left untamed.

me? i'll just breathe and accept where it is the presence lives within me. going from where to there trying to become safe. keeping my conscience as free as luv'rs going on about their ways. as every experience enlightens moments briefly so the heart can feel a lil something special. before moving on to the very next level.

me? please. imma do the only thing i know how to do. stepping into the futures nowhere so it's the now that becomes a norm of use. i'll drift in the shedding of the possibility that from beside me you too will move on. with the sooner or later thought of pain that will slip into the lingering for a bit correcting the inner core. as the loss is for only one of us to feel. that's real.

me? what about me? i'm just here trying to live before i fall into a forever sleep. forget about me...

clean conscience....

you've never seen how hard i cried. not once heard the pain in my sighs. as my heart somehow and in some strange course of events, died. but none of it's equivalent to what's left in my mind. i could only wish you felt the luv i have for you. and how the power of touching you put me to use. but you'll forever go on without the purpose of a dream come true. lost to the cause of the pause as my chest stands accused. beaten with no mercy emotions took every single blow. just for you to ignore i remain the same as the first day before we shared a home. you haven't a clue to the depths poured out in dark corners of rooms where i didn't have the option to pick up the phone. bcuz i fell in to fall through a friend to be left completely alone. even after the shenanigans was over i waited too long to want to see your face. somewhere in the aftermath i was a fool still calling out your name. wondering if my intentions were ever reciprocated before your hate. and all i ever did was react to the situation bestowed upon me by the likings of your cruel gains. yet, with years swept under the rug the past was left in an abandoned me. confused on why i was forced to leave. i got caught up in the middle of absorbing you and i forgot i was finally free. so i stood up and a accepted i wasn't shit in your eyes as i smiled and go back to a simpler way to breathe.