That dark place...

Forward shadowing back then. Sitting still. Rocking. Looking back. Heads shaking. It's not stopping. Repeating, all I remember are the walls. All I remember are the walls. All I remember is thinking about what's to come. Holding off on life. Stagnant. The nothing owned me there. No memories to claim. Stuck to nothing like a magnet. Hearing whispers chant, all I remember are the walls. All I remember are the walls, all I remember...

Gotta get up. Do something. Make it worth it. Loosen up. Get out. Live. As the gibberish taunted me, I wanted feel alive, I wanna feel alive, I wanna feel. With a fading future. There must be a way. Losing the me that was so pure. People are fake. Whispering to self  it's all for nothing. I don't feel the same. As the gibberish never lies when alone. As the gibberish speaks freely. The gibberish needed to leave me alone...