back to luv

watchin u fall from the tenderness of my touch.
damn, is this real this thing i feel as luv?
i thought i seen u drift into a life without me.

findin myself tryin to replace a dream.

grabbin a hold of anything that felt like u.

i saw u run beyond eyes that lost sight.

clingin to the walls of my mind.

climbed as i attempted to let u go.

but bein in luv was the issue i couldnt hold.

u drifted on a lifestyle u neva wanted.

now back to finish whats been haunted.

after the run to was every fuckin time.

catchin calls n texts that reminded me of life.

i know u didnt mean to leave.

nor did u eva wanna make me grieve.

countless days i pretended u were dead.

it coulda been at any moment that coulda been the reality in my head.

as i remember when u told me what would i eva do without u.

i hope i gave u enough proof.

the way i clung to my heart in pain.

achin from the luv of my life misplaced.

but here u are n it seems it neva happened.

as my gums for u is still yappin.

crazily n madly in luv with only u.

n all i ask is for u to put me to use.

im jus not me without u in my life.

theres a reason i need u as my wife.

neva to let go even though i tried.

i couldnt bare the feelin if u woulda died.

yet u came back n eased my mind.

as for u i did all to show u ur worth my time.

now back to luv.

n how we feel when we touch.

leavin a friend lost in empty dreams...

words reach for my throat... how could i ever taste whats been choked?.. seems honesty should jus fade behind the eyes... deep beyond the light where the pitch of night hides... makin luv to my mind on what we were suppose to be... yet lost faded back into a life where it only pretends to be a dream.. guess the magic found a way to finally disappear... oh the way breathing was eased cling to what was so fuckin near... livin in a daze of days that lay motionless inside... stirred on the thought of time sneeakin on by... bared n opened was taken for granted witness to the pain.. down the ol familiar road where the roam stayed.. makin it through i could never pull hard enough...  n nothin remained the same as touch eventually lost its crutch... friends vanished in the line of sight to a way of life... as the only thing left is what plays out in my overworked mind... the fame that reminises lingers in between the luv that lived that never had a chance that kept its distance... as real as felt it was captured by a substance that took the image.. the beauty seen fell beneath a crippled truth damaged by lies... as the hate built in the struggle of the fights that did all good in... aimed in the direction of tryin to help hands that were helpless sheddin weight from limbs... jus to leave without knowin how it be if the chaos woulda stopped.. thinkin the drain dripped its last drop... givin all for a moment to save an apology from wakin up alone... n turnin around is a breathe saved that drags the space in the head too far from home... holdin on to the release affected by a good one controlled by the needles rush.. what was i to do when the collapse landed beneath my feet flush?.. but retreat knowin paths must part so u can find ur way.. n thats a feelin that lives as i know u are afraid... gone n reflectin back on who it is i am to u... emotionally doomed... spiralin outta control on ya own battlin life as solo as the ache... as a sorry could never replace the void as the rock that fled from the games... n if u die before u reclaim ur life id carry ur smile til i go... jus so someone in this world remembers u as u were alive without the dope that moans... goodbye shelby... i hope u can wake up from that empty dream...

Breath takin scense...

Dont be surprised if a few pucs are taken jus bcuz its fun... Or find it odd when alone i jus wanna eat u in ways my moyth waters to explore... Im on it when im on my feet n im standin... But when i lay it down the cue in the pitch thrown at the tone to make luv to sound... Its fuckin amazin to hear such beauty in one moment as the visual of u slow fuckin my face upon ur back... Breath takin scenes in our movement that clings to the reality of trust... Ur down right up my alley like the girl next door type that enjoys life... So red flags n alarms aint needed to simply please u comin out to play... Jus ease back n feel yourself happenin to the way ur body craves to be tampered with... I wonder who would get more pleasure if u popped? N i couldnt breathe...  Let up to by climbed on slidin down wet willie so sensitive. Jus know when i go in its gotta be so slow u gush on the size of it pushin in to have u... Yeah... Its a must... i want me some of u at my fingertips so i get my fix... Mmm... N u cant even hear these words come from my lips... Comin at u focused on what we do as we do what we do... Lettin loose... As my hand finds ur throat... Oh its on... Lemme hear u open up n release to me every last desire in which u hide... Imma show u what u are... N u could be good at it... Bein u... Lol...