I try not to think about u. Yet to sit down with myself n actually let u go... In all honesty, it would kill me. Havin u or the remains of u drift inside of me without no one knowing is a secret I keep tucked away no on will ever pry from me. It is mine. The time lost in life beside u. I am no longer me witbout u. The kids see it. Yet I've learned to live without u as I quietly remain in luv with walnut is ivthought u were. Yes, u are the one who owns my heart. No other will ever come close enough to bein u. Maybe it was a window in time. Maybe it was to settle all tgexqyestions for yrs if wonder where u were n what u were doin. IDK. All I know is u haven't the slightest clue of the worth my heart feels for u. No lies. No games. I have right to remain urs no matter what til the day I die. Even if u chose not to have me. Yet, something. I touched something inside of u in a way u can not explain. This I know bcuz it is real. So. Whatever it is that makes u smile. Whoever holds the comfort of ur own heart. Jus know, I jus want u to be happy n live like there's no tomorrow as I've placed u back in my dreams to keep me comfort. Seems like you've been there forever.  A lil piece of me I jus can't live without bcuz in some strange way ur a part of me...u r missed. Yet reality is harsh. So until somewhere down the road. I'm AILOWY1!... I HOPE U FIND WHAT UR LOOKON FOR...l