good times n evil moments

Been there since day one n seen some raw shit.
All n all u still remain my fuckin fix.
Good times peeked with the shadows of evil moments.
Together unbreakable we comfort to hold it.
From the beginning I was a lifer.
Now I'm outside my mind breaking down true words deciphered.
Seekin reasons past earning my place.
When the expressions periodically change upon ur face.
When this started I let it be known ur were someone.
To me n through time I've come to feel like no one.
Irrelevant n neglected yet I'm more than you've known.
Willing I've proven myself more than you've shown.
Til the end inside I will hide how I truly cry.
I'm in this position cuz my luv for u will never die.
Broken down beneath ur feet I stand as a man.
N all I need is ur partnership n a useable hand.
From point a to point b I've come to see u different.
Ur true intentions r confusing my intelligence.
Watchin u knowing more than I need to by choice.
I still get comfort outta hearing ur voice.
Jus before u I asked for my path.
I didn't know I'd wind up make u that mad.
My luv is real n my head is in this for life.
I jus don't understand as if I've been cut by the knife.
Not from then but to now I'm always in pain, scared n afraid.
Yet I'm in luv with my best friend that screams in rage.
I'm losing my heart to the defense settling in.
I don't believe in this relationship I will ever win.
I've always do more than my part as I choose to do.
So how is it from time to time, with me, u have no use.
Emotions r fading from ur smile, weakens my days.
Yet still all I ever want is for u to feel the luv that I gave.
Cuz as of this moment we're still destined to be more than lovers.
Yet you've changed into ur true self blending in with others.
A chameleon in camouflage jus trying to fit in.
Lookin in any direction jus wanting a friend.
In time I've noticed the harsh reality on the other side of us.
Everytime u find a new girl friend I feel ur hand so flush.
Waging ur war I have no business absorbing blasts like a sponge.
Luv, even after alls been done I'm still madly in luv.

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