a standin man

being ready. not all of us are at the same time. some learn more rapidly. some more in shorteer amounts of time. not our fault. some are jus more advanced then others due to experiences theyve endured. its real situations. some think they got this. some know they dont. breakin down with actions teellin on them. crazy.... people. mind frames set either on idle. others eady for the taking. n some havnt a clue what their in for.. i get it. have for some time. i know why i do what i do. maybe time is key. n i believe this is it. i know. i want this. yyet not eveyone can keep their mind on the bigger picture. if im wrong please forgive me. i am human. learnin to be happy. tryin for where iv been was dark. i am so ready! some have it in them. some say they do til it comes divided. unable to get past issues one didnt cause. words are the cheapest thrill life has to offer. repeated patterns speak of the hearts will. in its good interests. makin all the right fair decisions that may occur. some fuck things up. good things that could be it. some see it happen. see it comin. i guess im one of those who knows what to expect. im no good. all i do. for what. jus how i feel. only for so long i can give it a go. n its not me givin out. im strong enough to make it. others around smile as if they can. u see, im free. in body n mind. im free as a man can be. let loose by self to feel somethin other than hate. i give me n some ask why. jus cuz they dont get it. i figured this shit out. hmmm. some chop another down for self infliction. affraid of bein hurt. some pick away til theres nothin left. as luvers fall into peices at their feet. fightin. communication. mature minds know whats bein said. findin the good n addressin all that conflicts with the will to make it. open eyes feeds strong minds. yet a gentle heart balances the fight. all i ever want is this to last. i give everything. on my knees. eyes focused on what some consider a prize, but a partner as i see it to live. my capabilities are so much more twisted if i lose this. cuz if this isnt it. im done. people in general have their breakin point. if wantin somethin bad enough, they will indeed snap. happy i am. through n through. yet i look into eyes that fade in moments of dyer need to keep it together. failin the test within themself. losin home. im jus sayin not everyone has it in em. n i dont wanna write anymore. ever..... this is a blow that will crush me. n like isaid. i'll be done if..........i am a standin man takin one blow after another as they bounce from my will. cuz i know n have found somethin that is rare to find.... not everyone gets this oppertunity. but its gonna take more than me to get this done....... as 1! as i pour me out with tears i refuse to cry. u know some r willin without bein asked. n its shows. belive me, it shows. n others do it for a lil while n let time take their willingness away. i control my will cuz i know what is i want. everday i give me. all of me. n yes i consider myself a man. yet i have much to learn. but i dont feel i'll ever be more than the moment. n idk why..... its like some people dont really know what it takes. for many different reasons they are to into self to give a flyin fuck or see someone as they drain the day away for the good. i am human. willin. i dont need to be asked. i do it cuz i can. allowed. here is a man standin, damn near without much more to say......

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mature minds makes for luv'n hearts....

I'LL BE ME N U BE U. I BETCHA I CAN BE ME LONGER. U JIVE AZZ TURKEY!

ITS ONLY WHEN U STOP RUNNIN FROM WHO U WERE IS WHEN U FIND OUT WHO UV BECOME!

IT TAKES A GOOD 6 MONTHS 2 GET 2 KNOW SOME1. ANOTHER 2 TO KNOW IF U HAVE IT IN U 2 KEEP IT GOIN. THE YR MARK IS WHEN U KNOW U HAVE A CHANCE. ANYTHING MORE, CONGRADS! U DIDNT WASTE UR TIME.

i DONT ASK FOR ANYTHING, SO PLEASE HEAR ME AS I SPEAK....

I CAN FOLLOW UR LEAD TIL THE END OF TIME. YET I KNOW WHEN 2 STAND MY GROUND WHEN ITS RIGHT IN HEART N MIND.

WHATS INNA WORD IF ITS NOT BEIN SHOWN? HAS IT THE SAME FLAVOR IF ITS NOT FULL GROWN? IS ITS SILENT ACTIONS MIND BLOWN? JUS A FEW QUESTIONS ON LUV N THE WAY IT MAKES U FEEL RIGHT AT HOME...

i USE 2 THINK EVERY MAN NEEDS MORE THAN 1.... BUT IF U HAVE THE RIGHT1, SHE WILL B JUS THAT. THE 1!

i HAVE THIS DRIVE INSIDE OF ME THAT REFUSES 2 LAY DOWN N QUIT! N IM NOT FIGHTN IT CUZ I LIKE IT. ITS WHAT SEPERATES MEN FROM BOYS......

SHOW LIFE WHAT I IS U WANT N GO FOR IT. TIME WILL DECIDE N PLAY OUT. N IF U DIDNT GIVE UR ALL, WHOS FAULT IS THAT? TREAT WHAT IT IS U DESIRE LIKE A RARE GEM OR DIAMOND. TRY! N ALL THAT U'LL EVER NEED WILL BE THERE 4 U...

wHAT IS GAME? HOWS UR MIND WORK? LET ME SPIT THIS AT U. U GOT IT GOIN ON. LOOKIN 4 THAT NEXT SNATCH 2 DIG IN2. GIVIN THE SAME GAME 2 EVERY1 U COME ACROSS. YET ITS THE SAME OL LINES. UR NOT ADDIN ANYTHING 2 ITS ARSENOL. LAME! CHECK THIS GIVE GAME 2 1 CHICK N TRY 2 COME UP WITH SOMETHIN NEW. CHALLENGIN URSELF. COMMIT. LET HER KNOW SHES IT. LET UR GAME GROW. N BECOME A MAN.

LIVE OR ALLOW LIFE TO PASS YOU BY. GRAB LIFE OR LIVE WITHOUT TIL THE END OF TIME.

JUS CUZ UV CROSSED OVA IN2 THE GOO LIFE DONT MEAN UV FORGOTTEN WHO U R. JUS FINDIN OUT WHO U TRULY R. IF U DONT CHANGE UR NOT LEARNIN A DAMN THING! STILL PUTTIN UP WIT THE SAME OL SHIT...

THERE'S ONLY 1 WAY A MALE CAN KNOW HE'S ENTERED MANHOOD. A STATE OF MIND AND FEELING WHERE REAL MEN LIVE AND GROW INTO MATURE MINDS WITH LUVIN HEARTS. THAT'S WHEN A (REAL) WOMAN FINDS IT IN HIM AND REFUSES TO LET GO..... FOR THEY KNOW WHAT IT IS THEY HAVE... VICE VERSA!

im easy goin but dont do well with immaturity........ grow up world!

u ever sat back n watched people? n jus pay attention to actions. yet there r a few iv watched to see who hey r. jus bein cautious. its what i do. watch. cut out drama. b real. jus wanna surround me n mine with possitivity. im not pefect, have alot goin on with 10 kids at home. so if i dont respond or get back atcha right away, no biggie. dont mean nothin by it. my bad. the only thing i do that's iffy. n others jus want somethin. some1 close 2 me keeps gettin the short end n they r a good person. real good heart n mind. yet seems everytime all people wanna do is take advantage of kindness or jus make this person feel like shit for puttin up with stupid shit. people as a species within a few i keep close r a waste....

THERE IS THIS THING CALLED LIFE. N IT IS WAITIN FOR U TO TRY......

U HAVTA LIVE UR LIFE 4 U. N ALLOW SOME1 TO WALK WITH U. AS THEY ALLOW U 2 WALK WIT THEM. LIVIN THEIR LIFE FOR THEMSELF. IT THE ONLY WAY.

SIT BACK N RELAX. ALLOW TIME TO LAY ITS HANDS ON THE SITUATION. ITS IN ONES ACTIONS AS THE TICKIN TELLS ON ALL. U WILL KNOW AS WELL AS THEY. TRUE INTENSIONS...

U CANT FIGHT OFF EVERY RAIN DROP. BUT ITS HOW U STAND DRIPPIN WET THAT ALLOWS IT 2 MAKE OR BREAK U.

if u give em hell, they talk about cha. if u give in, they talk about cha. might as well go for urs.....

COMMUNICATION IS EVERYTHING! LISTEN N SPEEK CLEARLY. ALWAYS MEAN WHAT U SAY N NEVER LIE. STAND FOR SOMETHING AS IF UR NAME WAS AT STAKE. TALK WITH PURPOSE WEITHER UR TEACHIN OR LEARNIN..... CUZ WE DONT KNOW EVERYTHING..

THERE R VERY FEW PEOPLE I TAKE 2........ IF I CALL U BRO OR LADY.. UR 1 OF THEM...

I DONT WARE A CAPE FOR MY POWERS. I HAVE A KING SIZE SATIN SHEET DRAPED DOWN MY BACK FOR THAT. LMMFAO!

I HAVE AN IDEA.... I THINK WE AS FATHERS SHOULD ADOPT ALL THE KIDS WITHOUT A DAD TODAY SO NO ONE IS LEFT OUT, OR NOT CELEBRATE IT AT ALL.....

GOTTA DIG IN2 ONES CHEST TO GET TO CLIMBING TO THEIR DOME, CUZ NO ONE UNDERSTANDS WHAT THEY CAN NOT FEEL OUTSIDE THEIR OWN MOANS!

YEAH... SEEMS THE MAN IN THE MIRROR IS ALWAYS SMILING EVERY TIME I LOOK AT HIM..... LUCKY BASTARD! LMMFAO....

do i? i do!

i choose whom i have in my life, as they do i. not forced to smile, n to happy to cry. jus reversin i do, for the sake of luv. its in two lil words expressed above......

inside

i play around inside my mind. sometimes jus to find what i can find. goofin i enjoy roamin around. hell, its what keeps my feet on the ground. iv been peekin out these eyes of mine. escapin inward as i hide. watchin life roll hardly ever so slowly by. i can control my self cuz i have jus that, a mind thats all mine. yet sittin back feelin my insides from within, i feel alive. n i understand my purpose as i have my time 2 have me til the day i die.

runnin

one way. walkin. runnin down ones desires.

never half steppin. nor trippin. puttin out old fires.

pace makin. stoppin. cravin a touch.

feets beat. numb. wantin a lil thing called luv.

two way collision. empact. set free from the race.

findin my seat. comfort. lovin its taste.

feet kicked up. settled. found my 1.

tickled pink. hmmmm. my runnin is done.