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 what you didn't witness was how i gave my all.

and the everything in the way i couldn't help but to fall.

there was a unique sting in getting lost.

what you didn't see was me sitting within a long drawn out pause.

it took years to correct the details of self.

i spent so much time locked away without help.

you never had the chance to capture me opening up.

and how the heart felt attacked by a word called luv.

there was a moment where i would've looked weak to the naked eye.

but what you missed was depths dipped in truths evolving with a sigh.

you see i've descended deeper than i've ever gone.

as the only friend i ever found was me misled by pawns.

the harsh reality i aloud was to know true intent.

and in a form of use i hadn't a part to play pretend.

there's things you'll never be able to experience with me.

the pain in relations just isn't my will to live in a daydream.

you weren't around when i found who i am drifting along.

moving in motion that made sense to to everything that went wrong.

as reason surfaced to be able to redefine a clearer purpose in my mind.

thing is you don't havta fix me in the middle of life.

i did me in a way i can see through the fake fading before they even go.

and i don't believe in a desperation called hope.

i'm here in the now as is bcuz i've was there for my wellbeing.

from the trenches of emotion i climbed and i'm not afraid of leaving.

but if you're intact and ready to be an adult there's a possibility to intertwine.

i won't reflect on what you should be by the likings of what i thought i found in others.

i'll stand before and ease into opening up as luv'rs.

as freinds find comfort in the outcome of who we've come to know.

maybe then we can speak of a place called home.

for what you came in late on was an individual getting it in.

to one day be able to rest in the presence of a friendly set of lips.

in a calm that settles the nerves from the wonder of if i'd ever wanna feel again.

in due process making memories hand in hand.

no longer fearing if images in the head will eventually become pointless as fuck.

so you can remain in my norm doing everything you do falling into luv.

We’re us until…

My side of things only matter as long as we’re here in the now. But once we cross back over to the outside of luv wondering how. It’s whatever when until I walk away. Until then be you and we’ll enjoy the smiles on our faces. There’s no in between as I’ll listen to words spewing from your lips. Just passed the line of no return it’ll be epic. As you can show me what I truly mean to you. As your true characteristics come from within to rip loose. But until the end let’s make believe we’re all we’ll ever need. I’ll rest my head on your lap and find comfort for a bit before it all becomes a dream. And then you can taste me down to make yourself feel better all again. It isn’t like I didn’t notice your pattern lending you my hand. Trust until we get to that point is the plan. Giving just enough leeway for you to open up to me as a man. Prior to the promises broken off the tongue that swore you were so much different. Pre us falling from a friendship that fell short of a lifetime spent. You can spit your venom first as you’ll hear my silence willing to get lost. Say what you will for I won’t care for the immaturity of your flaws. Sacred will be the secrets you’ve shared with me. Even after the reason of having you around escapes the way I think. Until there’s no time left to ever tell the truth. Bcuz I am who I am even if for me you don’t have a use…

Mind fucked…

I just want what no one’s ever gotten from you. That sapio side that’s mentally moved. Save the sex bcuz been there before. Mind Fuck me in ways no other could explore. Let’s go deep into thought and get to know who we are. Coexisting and sharing space that drips down into the heart. On another level where the physiological truths get the answers they’ve craved. On the same current riding the waves. On a spiritual quest to make sense of everything we’ve never understood. I’m just me, take a look. We can feel without the physical contact so our aura’s are one in the same. But just for a bit due to just in case. I have me to protect from vanities selfish immaturities. I just wanna be seen as if eyes close to see clearly. Mind Fuck me. I don’t believe you’re someone that belongs in my dreams. Getting away from the spirit within me that’s free to live. Emotion is willing to wait so you can witness what it is I have to give. I’m on some other shit and my patience is sapiosexual. Defining inner desires of a real individual. So if you’d just like to talk I can engage. To mind Fuck you just the same. Bring convo to the frontlines of words sliding off our tongues. As a deeper intent that’s more than a hormonal lust…