More woman than woman...

It's the way she wares her scars.

As her depths reaches the surface from her heart.

Showing life of how she's lived thus far.

Only thing is those who've touched left their mark.

She's been hurt yet she's still able to function.

Somehow beneath the time worn upon her skin that should've forced dysfunction.

I find her to be beautiful just the way she is.

For she's lived a lil even though she's fought for the chuckle in her ribs.

Damn, she's a lesson in the making of something I've never known.

Someone real and on a level who still has hope.

No matter how deep her wounds needed to be healed.

Her flesh holds it's age with an acceptance to the feel.

She must be super human the way she owns her smile.

And I don't think she knows she fits the perfect profile.

With every blemish adding to her worth.

There's simply no way to explain her in words.

Though the nature of her ways speak on her behalf.

Making it look flawless the way she leaves the bs in her past.

Here n there...

It seems ur too far away for comfort to be felt... Distance separates any chance for the heart to melt... As hope gathers interests that are left to think... N days rotate on with life where the heart hasta find somewhere else to sink... I guess friends aren't supposed to last... That is bcuz even u i havta put in my past... To drift with time not knowing if I'll ever endure a real touch... Where a situation can open up doors to luv... N as moments go without the makings to be kept i linger off on my own... Curious to know where is home... Maybe it's the way things should be... So one can truly find the mends to dreams... As in the present is needed to cling to skin... N fall never the presentations of babbling lips... I believe circumstance has come to settle a decision set in play... N from ur fingertips i fade... Giving u space to allow happiness to come along... So u too can enjoy the peace that tends to pause...

It is what it is...

When a big heart just doesn't feel shit... N there's no plug to fit... Nor a patch to fix the dripping of its contents... Filling it isn't a option for ores been punctured by the ribs... Bottom torn from emotional grips... Sending shutters that crawl upon the lips... As sound changes with wits... As the mind forgets how to live... There's no seam that'll hold what's being missed... N a patch job isn't noting but a twist... A quick second to gain a tick before falling with the drain of drips... Slipping further into skipping over luv's bliss... When passion fades from a wish list... N desires dismiss the feel of just slithe another power trip... Caring is like slitting wrists... Deteriorating from the inside out as if hope is too be fished... When stitches can't help the capacities limits... Risks are feared with nothing left to give... The pump takes one too many hits... Making memories crisp... With nothing deep enough worth the dig... In the endless pit where the fall descends into images n short lived clips... Whispering a fuck damn n followed by a shit... Daily shifts recalculate reasons to remain hesitant...

In the reincarnation process...

Creating illusions through a belief that have no truths... The mind confused by emotions triggered the mute... Gin inward with not much left to say... Just to come full swing to win the game... The heart refuse to think logically begore it crumbles to the floor... Jus to be walked on by a friend that wants it no more... N to live in a make belief thought is the torture of it all... Thinking serif is someone to another when thumbs push pause... Leaving the well being within trapped in a moment tgat wad never meant to last... Unable to get back at life n she away with the past... The figment of the imagination reassues false hopes that are never real... It's a fantasy to trust prior to the emptiness' void of something said to be worth the feel... Like magic in a dark room where alone finds the solitude more appealing... To be tricked into luv is the weakness of over peace betrayed in a moment su revealing... As the one deep beneath the surface awakens to the reality overlooked... Finding each situation of trial n error the only truth written in a life long book... With red ink to stain memories made... Lies from tongues correct grammer feeding every single page... Transforming delusions into facts so harsh change defines a news version of self... Like fly paper clinging to any chance to find help... One gets lost in the self rescue only a miracle can give life to... As words linger without mentions to attempt to regain pieces of dignity put to use... In the reincarnation process there's an up n down to being alone...Hollow heads remember everything like reels spinning outta control... Poisoning mislead passions fighting to survive... In time it'll fade as if sound from voices that once carried an honest vibe...

Get with it...

U have two choices,  u can come around me or u can watch me leave... There's things i don't do as i know the differences between wants n needs... If u choose to be childish asf u can go n post up somewhere else with the bs... U can be free as ur disregard that believes imma endure such heart wrenching grips... My mind cannot allow the forgetfulness of me being as jus as human u... So be real the way u claim n calm down on ur presentation i will n can cut loose... N u may or may not miss me if i havta decide on our fate... Bcuz I'd rather have someone who gives me a true piece of mind than remove me grin within... I've made promises to myself on how i am to love my life in the creation of grins... N if u plan on sharing moments that prove how much u do care... I can only suggest u to feel how ur tone vibes for i need not the complications if u want me to play fair... Do ur part to ensure i wanna remain ur closest friend... Then n only then admit I'm ever so happy to never imagine our untiming end... So be mature enough to realize u cannot just treat me any ol way... That is if ur desires cling to the surge expressed upon my face... We either are or we ain't as one in the middle of this chaotic world as it revolves... Have some self worth n know u are for me as we slowly evolve... N if u could just give it to me the way i am to u that'll be great... I just might look at ur numminess n have a taste...

Some of us...

Some of us know what we want n some of do not believe it exists... Some of us are cool with being on or own n some of us had forgotten about how another tickles the ribs... Some of us like having time to self n some of us world like to hear summertime else talk... Some of us are lost in solitude n some of us remember what it was like to be caught up in that unforgettable pause... Some of us are good at moving along n some of us eventually consider opening up... Some of us found comfort in being alone... Some of us don't know what it's like too be liked n some of us found a way to go on wirh life... Some of ur feel jus fine n some of us hate the hype... Some of us just want something real n some of us. Motive how so many refuse to heal... Some of us give too much n some of us have never had anytime to trust... Some of us have it in us to luv another n some of us fear to be touched by a luv'r... Some of us are defined by truths n some of us have never found sometime else to put us to an honest use...

Like leaves n trees...

Going down winding two lane country roads... Music on low... Window cracked... Eased back... With no where in particular to go... Running away from home... Sittin next to a friend... Enjoying the curves that bends... Comfort drifting along outta the window... Smiling bcuz we're not alone... Not caring when we're gonna turn around... As the moment is in the now... With the vehicle in motion... Leaving behind the cities commotion... For a morning made for two... Sippin on some cocoa as the wheels spin loose... Off to anywhere the trees change colors... As hands touch to play with the feel of wonders... Just cruising along... In no rush to have somewhere in which we belong... Simply free with one another side by side... Able to relax n empty the mind... To be as is in a natural state... Just to feel a smile stretch across the face... Looking over for second to connect in the eyes... Knowing damn well we've found the good life... With a real sense of certainty that lingers with the changing of leaves... Stopping in the middle of nowhere to take a moment to breathe... Holding on to each other so we can stay warm... Arms wrapped around u is our luv being worn... As we're just wanting to get lost for a lil while... Out deep in the country acting juvenile... Away from our responsibilities it's just us for a day... Living n laughing for it's us we create... Off to who knows where... Out into the wilds open air... Goin up n down n all around the hills that lead to the straight aways for us to take in the views... Just looking for something new... N how the trees shed n lay upon the ground... Seeking the sights of even an abandoned ghost town... To see the season claim the memory of one autumn day... N how the clinging to the pavement is us needing to a different type of landscape... In our time we roll with the tires leading the way... Amazed that life itself has come to allow us to say each others name... As we sneak in a kiss here n there... N ur lips reach for a nibble on my neck that's naked n bare... We're two of a kind like the trees n the leaves... On a journey as a duo to unknown dreams... Facing reality just riding on the back of distance chased... Reading all the signs that make the drive worth the escape...

Gulps caught in the throat..

 The more i drink the deeper I can feel... Sinking beneath the taste running from everything that can't be real... Every drop take me further n further away... Down goes life in the middle of an endless fade...  Losing sight of reality somewhere in between shots... I sip alone with emotion that cannot help but believe they've been robbed... As the bottom reaches for what's left of my mind... Plucking thoughts outta the blue to water my eyes... I seek comfort every now n again so i can remember what normal is... Without mercy my thirst can't get enough of how the glass touches my lips... Turning it empty by flipping it upside down... Reminding me i did have pieces alive just under the surface of my frown... I go looking in depths for anything that used too resemble who i was... Until the poison is gone n it's back to fuck luv... Pain floats fade down drowning with the bubbles rising to the occasion... Potent n consuming where the mindset drifts with the invasion... As images spark a flame to feel scars that changed me within... For a lol bit i vere orchard of coarse to be a human as scene else just wanting to live...

Yet to meet...

From day one all i wanna do is luv u like a friend... To show u it's u from the beginning to the ends... As sidekicks fighting off the villain called life... To find within each other the simplest piece of mind... Embrace n held so deep as to engrave ur in my heart... To awaken to u daily as my peace that silenced alarms... Though i am get still a stranger to be met behind closed doors... With an emotion free to be more than explored... I wait for the day to witness ur smile save me... To open me up without any resistance to live the dream... So we can get to know why we cannot live unless it's us... Falling deeper into comforts depths as a 100 percent must... It's from the day we first feel the curiosity come to life n play fair... Until we're long gone from a world that face us the time we have to share... It'll be nooo one other than u that gets me in yr rarest form... For u as yourself will become my norm...