those days

u c, i didnt cum from a good area. daddy was gone. but i remember everyone dat came thru dat door, n i luv evry last 1 of em. dey put bread on da table n taught me sumtin in there own way, Big Tony, light skin cat, Quintins daddy, who now lays in da ground wit him, Tony got shot nine times, still had his life till da pills took dat away. James, Ol man Talley, i wouldnt kno how 2 fight if it wasnt 4 him, he'd clear out da livin room n let us go at it, mama didnt like it, but James always got er 2 give in, we were boys in da hood, we had 2 learn, i remember him chasin my ol man out da house wit a motorcylce chain, wow, he had us eatin cornbread n sugar water, said u could servive on it, Morse works @ walmart, talk every chance i get, u c, he taught me how 2 play spades, not long aftr, mama turned gay? i didnt kno wat dat meant, but Rotanda taught me how 2 live, a chick taught me how 2 ball, how u like dat? if u dont, f.u.,dats as simple as it gets, n im not errogent, i can remember rose, she wasnt human by far, jus a 3 foot long glass tub, opened on both ends, wit a single stemed rose up da side mama use 2 fill wit dat sticky icky from her power hitter, as we took it 2 head, hell i was 6, gettin joints 4 x-mas, there were so many parties, sent 2 play upstairs wit chips n a bad case of da munchies, damn, cops bein called, mama would c em cummin n turn dat sh!it down, lol, mama was crazy, goin toe 2 toe wit any1 dat couldnt let it go, n evry1 knos she couldnt, but it was all good, my friends use 2 call er a warden, we wasnt allowed 2 do wat dey were doin, isolated, turnin inward, a bomb ready 2 explode, but back 2 da story, Brenda, she was cool as hell, still ball wit er nephews, J n Mike, dem r my people, i dont care if our skin isnt da same color, dey treated us like fam, spent many holidays wit em, den there was Deb, ha ha, black chick in cowboy boots, funny sh!t, didnt last long, mama had a 40 inner hand b4 long, its jus da way it was, mama married a woman, but u better watch ur mouth, im a non violent fella, but i"ll let u feel da luv im missin, u c, i went 2 da ghetto schools where i was da minority, but i didnt mind, they were who i was, goin thru da same sh!t, evry1 was lost, n along da way misplace in a coffin, u evr lost sum1? sum1 dat was of no relation, but u missed em cuz dey were from da same hood, walkin da same broke down azz charity newsy shoes, walkin 2 school wit u, theres a void, i learned early dont get close 2 no1, u'll only wind up gettin hurt, hmm, those were da days, playin g.i joes, street football, tackle, b4 1 thought about wat we called ho's, u r where u cum from, but u can learn 2 do da right thing, wish mama wouldve taught me dat 1, hell, wish she wouldve taught me a lil bout sumtin, i luv er, n she did er best 2 raise 4 boys, but sumhow i feel she didnt make dat time 2 connect, n i struggled in confusion 4 so long, lost tryin 2 find a man abscent from witin, no no chance in hell 2 win, jus anothr kid from da ruff side of town, i came a long way, but da sh!t i seen in da streets, SHORT NORTH was crazy, cop chases, bloody bodies, birds in da sky, swat kickin in da doors on more than a few different houses on jus our block, throwin mama n er friends on da ground, n dey didnt do sh!t, how can i resect da police, yet i do, ol man frankie sellin a ball, turn round n smoke1 wit da same mo fo he jus sold it 2, junkies layin in da alleys, shootin up, damn i seen 2 much, wonder y i neva f*cked wit drugs othr den weed, n yes i have sold dat 2 make my bills, hell da kids gotta eat, cant say i miss it, but it was wat it was, only if all of us had da same oppertunities, cuz da teachers i knew cumin up, failed me, i hated school, i felt so misplace, ova looked, i gave up 4 a while, hell mama held me back in da 2nd grade, i wasnt gonna tell er y, shed beat da sh!t outta me, mama hit like man, n if u thought u were bout it, shed swing her ball bat 2 ur head, she didnt f*ck round, its a wonder im not all f*cked up, but me bein me, imma sponge 4 real sh!t, i can learn dat, quickly, mayb its jus da hood in me, servive, common sense, always watchin my back n neva lettin any1 in, @ least til here recently in da last few yrs, dont judge me, i could b so much worse, ghetto as fuck, i jus dont c its worth, yet it still lingers, catchin myself from time 2 time, backin down, cuz i got kids, jus a few words iv neva spoke of, 4 ur lips 2 taste as u read dis f*ck*d up sh!t...its deep

petals

lil red petals, plucked n strung from da front door 2 da bathtub, where bubbles pop @ da sight of ur pretty unforgetable smile, as da smell of da candles make ur day fade in an ease unheard of in a single sigh, enjoy ur time alone n relax a lil while, take sum time 4 u, cuz wen ur done, u can find me if u continue 2 follow da path of da petals purposely spread beneath ur feet as if u were royalty, straight 2 da bedroom where iv got a bowl of grapes awaitin ur company, layin bout in da bed keepin it warm 4 u, dats where id b, unda da sheets n more flickerin candle lights, dat r fightin da night off long nuff 2 hear u sing as u moan, im waitin patiently 2 show u sum time, id even throw in a back rub, simply jus cuz u came by 2 c me.

cum round my way

lemme break u off, give u sumtin ur legs cant take.
cum by my way, 4 ur own personal hormonal sake.
lets do those things u wont mention u'll do, but kno u will.
cuz wen da lights go off, ur juices will spill.
n u kno u'll hav no choice but 2 remember my name by da end of da night, n no, i am not ur god.
but my name can b wat ever forces dat uncontrollin shove wen u absolutely need me 2 stop.
cum by my way, n spend a moment learnin how ur body will feen 4 more.
its jus round da way, cum on thru n lemme touch ur core.
climax @ my expence as u lose control.
allow me 2 do as u please n help u flow.

long stares

long stares n i jus cant help myself. it starts wit a glance n i wind up findin myself.
stuck lookin in ur direction, 4gettin 2 mention wat i was thinkin.
tongue tied n deprived cuz ur not by my side.
amazed @ ur beauty n da way it shines, forcin me 2 write so many lines.
layin em out, streched out like id luv 2 c u do, yes i am wantin 2 b dat deep in2 u.
theres sumtin in da way u present urself 2 dis world dats drivin me so fack!n crazy lately.
ur strut, ur smile, da way u do u, so new 2 wat i kno, who knew.
ramblin out words dat say id jus like 2 lay u down, in phrases dat r quiet but o so loud.
so here me say as u read these words, listen 2 da letters n believe in wat uv heard.
cuz wit these long stares id luv 2 giv u a night 2 remember, 1 like u hav never had, n none ever better

lets get dis done

puttin it on da line, wat u wanna do?
u say those things u can do, but i want proof.
show n tell, practice wat u preach.
serve it up, n ull wind up on ur knees.
in more ways den 1 as we find out wat really turns u on.
spare me da cheep talk, unless it dirty n its on goin.
express ur interest, lets get dis done.
get butt azz naked n hav a lil fun.
hope ur not shy, hope ur not offeneded.
but if u r, i got sumtin dat can help u get ova it.
do wat u say n let it show, u got my attention.
watch my face 4 da silly azz expressions.
wat do u say? wanna play in my world?
do u think u got wat it takes? 2 make my toes curl?

lets get dis done

puttin it on da line, wat u wanna do?
u say those things u can do, but i want proof.
show n tell, practice wat u preach.
serve it up, n ull wind up on ur knees.
in more ways den 1 as we find out wat really turns u on.
spare me da cheep talk, unless it dirty n its on goin.
express ur interest, lets get dis done.
get butt azz naked n hav a lil fun.
hope ur not shy, hope ur not offeneded.
but if u r, i got sumtin dat can help u get ova it.
do wat u say n let it show, u got my attention.
watch my face 4 da silly azz expressions.
wat do u say? wanna play in my world?
do u think u got wat it takes? 2 make my toes curl?

1 night

sittin n thinkin wit thoughts spinnin in my head
wondrin bout u climaxin, tryin 2 get away off da end of da bed
how sweet it would taste 2 hav u spread about my face
listenin 2 ur heart race as ur thighs clamp shut on my minds case
squeezin n maonin, doin dem grown folk thangs
patiently workin n waitin 2 hear dat song u neva sang
call me outta name, call me wat u will
cuz i like wen ur body shakes n gets its thrill
quivrin silently yet u make sure i kno
how much u like it, as i begin 2 grow
how bad do u want it, i speek in a whisperin taunt
cuz i kno wat it is, in which u want
becomin 1, combinin in an act of sweat n heavy pantin
strokin n stridin, till theres no 1 left standin
get urs first n i"ll follow thru
1 night alone, only if u knew wat id do 2 u.

13 $ signs

invisible money
barely get 2 touch it
n its gone in da wind.
@ least da bills r paid
least 4 now
stretchin it 2 its end.
wondrin y a nickles biggr den da dime
n its worth less
how is it, it controls r worlds.
stress n happiness relieghs on da balance
of food n heat
wantin 2 go back 2 wen all i thought of was girls.
paperbacks
lil green sheets playin a god
evry1 wants sum.
makes there shpere twirl
swirlin round n round
leavin wit crums.
as da change clinks
deep in da pocket
wit wats left of da lint.
affraid 2 blink
might miss dat chance
2 enjoy a lil spendin
b4 lifes cycle robs u of ur sweat
blood n tears
of fendin 4 all dat mattrs.
down 2 my last buck
ready 2 start sellin again
tryin 2 find ways 2 earn sum dough.
da breads gotta b made
2 keep da meat n tatoes on da table
gotta stay on my toes.
moolah moolah
where'd u go?
cum on home.
seems im squeezin
da color out of it
b4 its 2 far gone.
$$$$$$$$$$$$$
its all bout da rigtheous
$$$$$$$$$$$$$.
13 dollar signs
wish i had it 2 burn
$$$$$$$$$$$$$

home

home, a word used somehow way 2 freely by 2 damn many,
yet home is da only thing worth wakin 2, worth havin,
cuz a home, takes time 4 its neediness 2 rise above all, knowin it wont get hurt as its allowed 2 grow,
slowin down time wit sum1 uv longed 2 get 2 kno, a house is only da foundation of a home, it could neva define wat a home is in a heart,
cuz a home is so much more, home is da lil things wen u do ur part,
home is a piece of mind, i wish i had 1 2 share wit sum1,
cuz home is so much more den jus bein wit sum1,
wit out a home , da house u live will leave u feelin like sumtins missin, like it jus left,
empty wantin more, jus wantin 2 be held, like, home fell completely out ur chest,
leavin u feelin so god damn ovawhelmin alone,
yet learnin how 2 deal wit da tasks in hand is a process dat makes a happy home,
wit out missin sumtin good nuff ud wanna share or wit out da time 2 find urself cryin in ur own lonely wishes,
u may nevr truely understand wat a home can do 4 u, or wat luv is,
home, luv,
makes it all worth da while wen u get it eva so enjoyably right,
home is where u fit in wit dat 1 individual dat gets u, n is where ur days take flight,

after while, fallin in2 bed, landin in da arms of sum1 dat seems 2 make dis world vanish,
home is da right 2 take da time it takes 2 get 2 kno sum1, bein focused,
home is wat u make of it, n can b everything u eva so deep down need,
it is dat 1 thing dat can ease ur days, n put u on urs knees,
home , luv, n time,
time can make a da luv in a home stronger than wats bein thaught,
so many r buyin in2 blurred visions dat keep em blinded n it needs 2 stop,
i dont c y any1 wouldnt wanna build a home 2 enjoy 4 many yrs down da road,
home is wat im yet 2 find, waitin 2 feel my sum1 roll ova in2 me n groan.

good mornin........................... as i fall in......

1 toke 2 toke 3 toke 4

1 toke 2 toke 3 toke 4, everytime i smoke my mind unfolds.
trippin on a high givin to me by life, high as a mutha fuckin can fly.
got wat i want tucked in bed, 3 lil heathens with whom i break bread.
my world couldnt get any better, i dont evn need a baby sitter.
da concept of bein single has jus kicked in, n i dont hav 2 worry bout a god d*mn thing.
n it feels good cuz now i have time 4 me, kick back n be free.
kick up ur feet as im talkin 2 me, ur lifeis good i do agree.
found me in da chaos of livin 4 sum1 else, only thing im lackin is wealth.
unda da radar in stealth mode easin back, im in d*mn near pefect health.
got time to work me out, mentally n physically, my time is now.
n its as real as it sounds, typin da letters 2 release n remember so many rounds.
n im hocked 2 my blog cuz dis sh!t is real, i pay my own bills.
i love my three kids wit all my heart, their da reason i had to start.
n no 1 can hav any of dat cuz its mine, u dont get it like i get it, wit a tear running down my face. cuz im missin um on 12 31 2010,
my piece has been said in my life, n i like it! it feels 2wice as nice wen its mine.
n i can do as i please pronounce me living, i am not sh*tting.
L 2 da out loud.lol

1

talk alot of sh!t but im a 1 ladies man, even wit no commitments, dats how i stand.
its safer dat way, 2 keep things movin, 1 @ a time, 2 keep da groovin.
its wat i do, cuz i like my lil buddy, we hav a lot of fun, plus it keeps her from wondrin.
i do wat i do n meet her sexy azz in da middle, sumwhere btween bein busy n keepin it simple.
its how n wat a man sould do, jus 2 show a lil lady dat even thou we r single, trust is not out da window.
1 @ a time, slowin da roll cuz iv learned a few things on my way 2 now, showin my interest in ways i know how.
keepin it real, bein me, its how i stay on da menu, only if u c how i c.
ud c wat it does wen she knows its cool 2 trust, ova steppin lust wit interest in a sexual must.
wen u get it dat good u gotta look @ urself, b urself, ask urself, i s it worth keepin it wit jus 1 dame even thou u pay ur own bills? 4 da better of self.
jus 1 is all i need, dat 1 dats keeps me grounded, lets me b me, n finds sumtin witin me she can confide, comfortable sound..
1, dats it, no more, no less. 1.

n i cant help visualizin her @ da edge of land where da watr takes ovr.

as beautiful as a woman could b starin off in2 da sunset where id b her luvr.

2night

cant think of anything id rather do tonight, den b nibblin on ur ear.
layin round holdin u, ticklin n gettin so comfortable, it feels so real.
wouldnt wanna do anything else tonight, eccept try n get next 2 u.
reachin round jus 2 feel u, maybe do sum things ud like 2 do.
cuz tonight, ur da only thing on mind i seem 2 wanna play wit.
n i was jus wonderin if @ all possible u could live wit it.
u c, im in need of a lil touchin n huggin.
luvin n squeezin, doin dem dirty lil deeds n.
ur da only 1 im thinkin i want by my side wen da night falls.
whisperin, tellin u of all da things i thought of all day.
i jus wanna b alone wit u tonight in my grasp.
helpin u let loose of all ur unfinished tasks.
drop em, n spend sum time rollin round, jus bein wit me.
be dat woman inside tryin 2 hide from men not so much like me.
tonight, lets pretend nothin else matters.
n allow da feelin of da emotion start 2 gather.
let em direct us in da dark where we can b so close 2 1.
enjoy wit me, tonight, b4 its gone.

find da time

come play in my world, lay round for a bit, kick it n talk sh!t bout nuttin impaticular, dabble inside my head n c if theres a room vacant 4 u 2 stay a while, cum on, check in, cuz my memory banks hav been reservin a spot jus 4 ya, wats dat make u think? can I get a lil attention? jus wantin dat chance 2 get 2 know ya, maybe a lil romance, lil shootin from da hip, keepin it in prospective of wat it is, lets chill, talk 4 a bit, it aint gotta b bout rollin unda da covrs? thou dats 1 hell of a thought i hav 2 admit, da truth is wat ull get, no less, n my gaurds down wit a level head, n i believe my heart still hasnt stoped beatin, venture, i bet ud bring me 2 my knees if givin da time, but it must b slow, iv neva done nuttin 2 cross u, n aint rushin 4 a reason, we dont havta b a couple, friends dat keep it btween them, n dat means emotions as well, ud get da whole 9 if u could find da time 2 come n unwind, look me ova, c wat u want n ill show u sumtin ud neva seen, yet im jus a man tryin 2 do wat i would really like 2 do, hav a lil faith n trust me jus nuff, come play in my world where theres no games 2 b played, i wont say no more.

sumtin i forgot 2 do

Sumtin I forgot 2 do
where r u @, werent u suppose 2 already b here wit me
livin in time shared or did i forget 2 do sumtin
damn, wens it gonna b my turn
hmm?

all i do is keep wakin up reachin
findin i forgot 2 ask a question of questions
dat i kno wouldv been da 1 2 ask
changin everything from our broken pasts

sleep is so abscent, so far from la la land
i cant take it, i cant get 2 my dreams where im holdin ur hand
y did i wait so long n hide it, it couldv been a hell of a ride
we couldv been sittin back enjoyin it, likin it

yet wen lightnin crawls thru da mind da nights r not so dark
flashes of da days leftovrs light it up wit sparks
whisperin ur name of all sounds 2 make deep in2 da night
compairin all othrs 2 u n comin up empty on life

from wen i met u way bac in 94
uv been a dream i thaught id neva get 2 explore
yrs lost as i found ur still playin ur roll inside my head
i gotta get next 2 u say ur name, get in ur head

its a evry bit much a good thang waitin on lil ol u
iv learned a few things on my way stumblin 2 u
standin, understandin, knowin wat needs 2 b done
allow me 2 b dat 1 dat treats u so ud neva wanna run

i dont kno how 2 explain it anymore
look @ me n c if its gotta chance 2 b all but ignored
cuz days r waistin away n i wanna know wat ur doin
still layin round behind evry door in my mind, loungin

i forgot 2 do a lil sumtin dat shouldv changed us
u couldv enjoyed n played wit it all along our way
wow, i really shouldv turned on da charm
u coulda possibly found home in my arms

driftin in da middle of da day evry so often
always wonderin wens it gonna b my turn
now b4 me, ur givin a chance 2 believe in da words i let come undone
n imma make good on them n take my time 2 make u feel uv won

slowly
cuz theres sumtin i forgot 2 do

im done

everydays a new momery n everyday seems 2 change n fade.
evry so often da scenery neva stays da same n more den often im not da same.
wen will da cycle end giv in n giv way 4 me 2 relax n make a friend.
changin day by day n da days turn 2 black i can eccept turnin me i cant.
someday da samething will reaccur everyday changin my face.
im tired of learnin lessons i need 2 kno n its startin 2 show.
freinds r only associates cuz i wont let em in so dey can pretend 2 force a grin.
n many yrs latr down da road imma still b standin alone n wit dis im done.
im tearin down da wall diggin up #s findin sum1 i can trust.
check ur phone cuz im awake jus hope its not 2 late.
iv been a loner 4 way 2 long many yrs lost memories steped on n squashed.
im startin ova again tryin sumtin new breakin my bendless rules.
guards down n im ready hit me up n lets get dis thing done......

ready

i got so lost learnin lessons, confused, tryin 2 find my own reasons, i forgot who i was many times ovr, changin faces, waitin on sumtin 2 show me da way, slowly gettin me 2gethr b4 i broke wasnt so easy, u wouldnt believe da things iv done along dis journey tryin 2 find sumthing i was missin, tryin 2 make sense of wat was goin on, findin a lost cause witin me, ovr n ovr, always searchin, no where near who i am 2day,da man standin b4 u wit wat lil i hav 2 offr. there was so many lies, games, forcin da lack of trust, neva bein truely happy n da face of a friend, lessons well worth da time endured, its sad 2 say, n i wish i could change damn near everything, yet i wouldnt b me, cuz it helped me along my way, as i was hopin-knowin whered id wind up, becomin me has been a task 2 say da least, so many dirty deeds, lost friends, losin me in da fight tryin 2 find wat it is im good 4, helpless @ times, yet i struggled 2 look 4 all da pieces, pickin n dropin them so many times, hidin as many as i could gather, attemptin 2 place da birth of a new man back 2gethr, eventually, n as i tried, i found it was leavin me wit holes here n there, cracked bruised n scared, but in betta condition den those iv crossed, its wat i was, who i was, always feelin so ovrwhelmed wit a lack of luv, a friendless loner cuz no1 was worth da time 2 bring me out da slump of my own tortuerd prison, yet 4 da laast few yrs iv tried rightin my wrong, correctin my past, still i find myself appologizin face 2 face wit those i cant seem 2 face, no1 should havta put up wit wat i delt 4 so long, its a trip da things u learn n become 2 believe, n how 2 treat others on da way 2 realism, n im truely sorry 4 da crud, time passed, doin da same ol sh!t day 2 day, slippin, den i realized i was growin in2 da man i am, 7-7-07, da day i had enough of bein me, willin 2 change n become wat i was meant 2 b, thanks MICKEY, luv u, u gave me me back, helped me c wat was wrong in my life, trustin in ur words gave me da comfort i hav 2day, u c dis woman opened my eyes cuz she saw i had more 2 giv, gave me a gasp of fresh air, n i ran wit it, jus 2 bad she wasnt round long nuff 2 c wat she helped create, a true man @ heart, im always in her debt, now burried n gone, luv u, she touched my heart, dis lil ol lady was da sh!t, bcuz of her i learned witin me where da man was forced 2 hide, witout wastin time i was on a recon mission, we became 1 in da same, n here i am, but not b4 goin thru da changes, in memory of a friend i lost 2 soon, i promised neva 2 get lost again, n wit dat i had a lil more help, c there was a certain sum1 dat gav reason 4 a lil while spent in da way i moved, yet it came 2 close, 4 wat mattered da most, jus didnt click btween 2 worlds, lessons learned, i think i get point, n i think its my time, i dont belive in signs, but 4 sum reason i think i had 2 grow up b4 i could do wat iv been meanin 2 do, n theres sum1 who knows where this is goin, cuz jus maybe, timin is everything, needin 2 live thru da bullsh!t b4 u wake up n join da world, n i believe im ready, a man standin wit purpose, willin 2 bend 4 da better cause of evrything iv been missin 4 yrs.

let me quit

evrytime i think of u, my lips say play wit me.
puckerin outwards, tryin 2 taste thee.
ramblin words i neva knew iv known.
lips samckin, makin me sound all grown.
its jus da thought of u dats gottem bein licked.
evn da tongue wants 2 licka d split.
u make my mouth watr witout shame.
druelin, i cant maintain.
sayin ur name excites my jaws.
wanna nibble wita lick, till ur legs fall.
mmm, mmm, mmm, good.
eyes sendin signals 2 my tastebuds.
u got me drippin from da lip.
wantin 2 rub my juice taster round ur, let me quit.
b4 i get u all wet

shower scene

shower scene, take 1,

steppin in,

watchin u thru da invisable like shower curtain.
takin notice of how da soap bcums 1 wit ur curves,

buildin nerve.
appraochin, pausin, u dont kno im lingerin,
slidin in, as u give me dat look, o yea, shower scene.
take 2,

creepin up on ur back side
feelin da watr bouncin on2 my frontside.
helpin rinse da suds out ur hair,

skin touchin bare.
slowly, reachin 4 da neck ,

lips tastin ur sexyness.

as u moan in acceptance,

doin dat sexy shower dance.

feenin 4 a good dose,
tellin u im cold jus 2 get close.
knowin u heard dat b4,

not carin, ready 2 get it on.
feelin da vibe,

its bout 2 get live.
take 3,

leanin back in2 me grabbin @ ya body wash,
actin like u da boss.
now its on, soapin up ur mooshie,
oh no, i droped da soap! can u get dat 4 me?
laughin, bendin @ da hips,
straightenin up, as i begin 2 cleanse.
strokin u up n down, round n round,
its gettin hot in here as i go all da way down.

grippin my head, its bout da time,
da toe curl stance, as ur mine.
take 4,

tastin da water flowin down off ur body,

tongue uncrulin, ur bodies so luvly.
mixed wit da sweetness of da expression on ur face,
pulse is startin 2 race.
broken toes, as u stand,
feel me if u can, my tongue is all man.
as im becomin da balance ur loosin,
fallin, landin on ur back, saved by da shower wall, oozin.
leg on a hike up n ova my shoulder,
whos is it? now its over.
take 4, da closin has bgun,
lock jaw, its ur turn.
n u kno its all bout u,
takin a load off, lettin me do wat i do.
shakin legs, now wrapped tight round my neck,
jus wat id expect.
liftin, takin ur weight as my own,
common girl, find ur zone.
let me b da support u need,
now sittin directly in front of me.
puttin in a lil ova time worth pleasin n playin,
teasin till i hear da sound of my name prayin.
oooh its time,

wit a grindin sigh.
take 5,

get it girl, let it go,

let it flow.
dats it,

mmmmmm da good sh!t.
now take a breath,

lets get sum rest.
take six,

turn off da h2o,
nah, lemme get dat towel.
no need 4 u 2 get cold,
dryin all but ur soul.
now lets go lay down n talk 4 a bit,
so i can tell u wat u wanna kno,

til u kno im bout it, 4 sho.

slow

got dis smell lingerin, ticklin my man hood, its got me holdin on 2 my pillow, clingin 2 wat jus was, n its all good. feelin da way, leavin ur scent remindin me of a lil ladys touch, its comfortin 2 kno we dont hav 2 rush. jus goin as da flow seems 2 take da breeze, allowin time 2 step up n watch us, as it ova sees. slow n steady, im all in on da down low, ready 2 sweep u, but time will hav 2 do 4 now as we grow. bein as close as friends can b, bein friends as we explore da posibilities of where a laugh may go, layin n talkin, chattin as its happenin, willin 2 take it where eva it go's. u n i, me n u, tryin 2 find a true piece of mind in lil ol u as u do in me 2. ur sum1 iv known 4 yrs past gone, lost n found, i feel my song is finally bein sung. but we cant begin feedin in 2 far, caution is a must so we dont push 2 hard. doin wat we do, jus kickin it 4 a few, yet i got my mind on u. always hav, always will, n its my time 2 try 2 bring a smile 2 ur grill. n im seekin ur scent thru out da day as i wonder wen i can c u again, nose 2 da wind, this time i hope i win. thinkin of all da things iv learned, waitin 4 my moment, n now its time 2 shine, da songs playin, n im groovin 2 da movement. doin wat i can jus bein me, hopin ur smell comes back round my way, gettin eva so close, landin n stickin its pretty lil scent on me, claimin me n wat it feels in da time shared, is time well spent, as we wait eva so patient 4 da day 2 come, where were not so numb from da trust n hav a lil fun. u c, it b so easy 4 me 2 fall asleep 2 wake up on my knees. so imma keep my head, n speek da truth, n tell u evrything no 1 eva knew, 4 it is u.

tastin

time tastin a nibble out da day, cruisin round da way in my own lil sway,
suckin in thin air as i feel da life open my eyes as i begin 2 c y,
im so patient 2 jus b in da moment, waitin jus 2 grab hold of it,
winnin anothr day, now unda da belt, gotta b thankful i still got my health,
stoppin , standin still 4 no apparent reason, but 2 enjoy da seasons,
jus 2 feel da wind blowin cross my flesh, anothr day down, anothr, day i past da test,
feelin it on a regular, eye 2 eye, toe touchin, all up in its face, it tries,
yet im ready 2 do wat dis day can not promise 2 me, live sumtin dat, was neva gauranteed,
day by day, 1 day @ a time, slowly movin, creepin up on da grind,
supprisin it cuz im tired of it takin control of my world, f*ckin wit my hi,
so i knock knock run, like a lil kid wit a smile shinnin as i hide long nuff 2 get da hell outta dodge, its so much fun,
givin it right back, fightin like a mutha f*cka, so i can keep mine on track,
sittin still long nuff 2 relax n take my time b4 i gotta get back @ it,
chasin down a dream fit 4 any1 of us, cuz we aint gonna live 2 long,
1 day gone, n wat do we look back on,
tastin time, taste buds changin, wantin a lil more from da day b fo,
fillin it wit wat i need 2 cope, seein mine all grown up,
acceptin my roll as i glide thru dis world, floatin wit a happy face jus cuz im alive,
da altimate high, tongue tastin da spices mixed in my bowl, n its alright,
bein me in my time, sneakin out 2 play till im clocked outta dis place were unable 2 rewind.

wat is it?

wats sumtin 99 % of men dont use?
makes dem feel less of a man if any1 eva knew da truth?
turn dem in2 an azz cuz dey neva learned how 2 control it?
yet make em feel lost wen shes had nuff of his sh!t?
wat makes a man bcum sum1 shed wanna b round?
sumtin dat makes da difference in a womans fraun dat could turn it upside down?
wat is it dat hes so affraid 2 show?
hidin it cuz he doesnt want any1 2 know?
wat could he possible hav 2 concor in his manly steel chest?
hes king of his world n he always knows wats best?
damn, wat da hell is is da word im lookin 4?
it makes him feel like hes picked his heart off da floor?
n @ times it bcums ove whelmin?
leavin him @ times, not so selfish?
changin evrthing he knows in a split instant?
goin on pure instinct.
wat has man lost along da way?
dat drives women so far away?
sumtin can b taught?
but neva b baught?
wow, i cant think of wat it could possible b?
but it could break him down n skin his knees.
n dis is y he fears dis thing.
cuz of da pain it could possibly bring.
thinkin, thinkin, thinkin, nothin?
hmm? its this lil ol sumtin?
deep inside makin him wantin 2 fight?
its dat thing dey shove 2 da side?
imma get it in a min.
n wen i do, imma let u in.
its dat thing he thinks he can do witout?
shut it down n rip it out?
fe, fe, fe, fe?
its tippin off da edge of my tongue.
y cant i say it?
fe, fe, fe, fe, drippin as it runs.
wat da f*ck?
wat is it im thinkin of?

FEELINGS, cuz dey keep it real.
showin mans true self isnt made of steel.
makin him human in a womans eyes.
it is wat makes him loose his mind.
n its y he hides n tells those lies of how he neva cries.
always needin 2 b dat 1.
standin strong 4 evry1.
yes its our hearts.
makin us seem @ times, not so smart

man up

yall kill me wit ur evry othr weekend visits n lame azz excuses.
part time dads n ur child support. ur f*ck*n usless.
walkin round like their a burden pullin u down cuz u think wit ur lil d.
do u remembr how hard it was wen u were comin up, or were u dat d*mn blinded?
did u forget da woman who raised ur sorry azz?
do u realize her struggle 2 feed n shelter u wen a mo fo didnt want ur azz?
n u turn on ur own cuz u cant man up, y r u unable 2 c, ur all dey need.
2 busy gettin head n smokin weed, ur usless in my eyes indeed.
wake up n join da world, strap on ur nuts n go 2 work.
yes its hard n difficult @ times, but ur baby mama wont b so evil if spent sum time,
u know, gave more den a few dimes.
take time n teach ur kids, if u dont anothr man will fill in n do ur job.
den again meyb they'll hav a chance @ becumin da man u neva were, of this their bein robbed.
yall make it hard 4 dads tryin 2 do 4 theirs.
ecspecially single dads who r grindin tryin 2 pull $ outta thin air.
causin these women 2 snap there heads round wen dey find dis out.
turnin in2 sumthing u helped create, n i cant blame dem 1 bit.
who wouldnt want sum1 wit a back bone n stability?
a man 2 help hold it 2gethr, joinin her in a lil thing called reallity.
yall aint nothin but sum scared lil punks!
livin da hype in a civilized zoo, sum chumps.
always tryin 2 b cool, thinkin ur cute. wit ur lame azz so called game.
lil hint, game is not playin games.
comin real from da heart n bein a friend.
not playin it smooth n attemptin 2 care as u pretend.
man up. b sum1. like a dad. it would mean da world 2 sum1, like YOUR KIDS.

diddle

words, lil letters in bits n phrases, lines, sentences, comin 2gethr showin 1s true self, stretched n tweeked, spread as thin as da mins allows, expressin evrything from bluest skies 2 da confusion, lay out 2 b read so 1 will neva 4get where they were, blog-poem-writtin-song-or in my case diddle, feelins born 2 da eye 2 view 2 help da mind learn n neva 4get, its an addiction, mind cant stop, 1 word can turn into sumtin so beautiful or so twisted, yet it is me, n i like it, n it is da song u can not hear, deep witin me, searchin 4 da lil squiggly curves da make up da print b4 da eye, helpin 2 undastand wat i hide inside, things dat can not b said, but i found a way, n free they will land on sum1s tongue, 2 taste, 2 accept as they feel it as well, jus like me.