The endless cycle...

I lost my smile again today bcuz I don't know where I belong. I have a home but yet it's as empty as a heart pleading with every sad song. As the secret is mine in the making of awakening to each day with hope. Just to avoid other through details so self can remain a loaf. My thrill bottomed out once again. N it's hard to fight even there's nothing to ever begin. Time just keeps going as I feel misplaced so often. As everyday tends to be the same ol same creeping into my coffin. I'm losing me daily n idk why. Reincarnated by morning just to die by night. It's an endless cycle that trusts no one that leads the way. N I haven't felt alive since I wiped a half cocked grin from my face. It just seems pointless to pretend I'm ok. When I collapsed in the makings of being positive by midday. There's no purpose other than to live. N without some sorta thrill emotion had nada to give. Creating a bottomless funk that claims all thoughts. N there's no turning it off once the slip isn't caught. Down I go with the corners of my mouth. Sinking into solitude never to be found. But daybreak will come after I've slept it off. N then maybe I'll break the endless cycle n find a reason to pause...

The idling wonder...

Without a face to comfort the ache. Life slips away with emotions escape. Leaving the mental estate of the mind in wonder to stall. Not knowing where to turn to have a life worth luv's fall. As gain is a confusion once obtaining self. Quit no features for eyes to text upon sight cannot create anything felt. Defining the lone drifter feeling lost within. One in which that could use just on confirming kiss. To be touched from across the room not many can understand. Becoming closer no matter the distance in between the friendship worn like a tan. With the absence of a smile that defines free will. Passion is a pain that has lost its thrill. Having no known whereabouts of who it is that completes the crave. There's simply no one in sight that uplifts the heart to play with the flame. The void is the calm waiting at patience are lost. As giving up on the dream is the ultimate cost. For it's the common use of a friendly gesture that loosens the gates. But where is the one irreplaceable down to shaping of the lips to say their name?

On our own...

All for the sake of nothing... Nothing in return for the all. Welcome to the party known as your life. Paying contributes to phases that get trapped mentally once installed. Everything for the better to end up without. As going without defines moments not lived. Being too busy or secluded to have the will to mingle. There's comfort in the lonely solitude when hating the feeling of single. No good comes from the bad. N yet the bad captures all good thoughts give to waste. With time using up what one can never get back. A chance to create a smile upon the face. Hopelessness starves confidence as the belief is confused. Confiding in no one as hope is lost. Beginning a desperation as days turn into years. Missing out on the details craved by the fall. Straight through like nothing ever happened but the pain. For what does happen is the struggle that pains free will. Knowing one wrong decision is all it takes. N right back to the basics on a solo ride is a thrill less chill. Friends matter when relevance crosses paths. When we each have a path of our own that changes with the shape shifting of a friend. So alone is the true origins of sharing the state of mind. Thinking bonds last forever when in actuality the come n go as if chapters that have an end. Simultaneously the stand wants to enjoy a little bit of something. But something else is a recreation the transforms a simultaneous chance. One that alters as we grow older on our own. As nothing is meant to remain as the same as the day before emotions enhanced. Drifting is the chaos in the head that cannot find a calm. Caught up in the calming of wanting a need to stop the drift. Powerless we're of sequences occurring that are periodically misplaced. As choices made eventually resemble what we become doing the journey of the trip...

Uprising...

Cleaning out the heart, changing up. Taking care of the inner makings, not giving a fuck. Mean, yeah I may be too those who can't get what they want. This dick isn't on tap n thy heart? Fuck instant luv. Checking out, I'm switching up. N muttering nonsense isn't a thing to me, hush hush. Actions through time is a course well taken. No patient? No interest? N I'm gone with the owning of the consistency of the blaming. I'm tweaking who I am to better my life. N the control you want over me just doesn't exist. N honestly I have a choice to enjoy your soft azz lips. Don't play with me. I'm not what you think I am. Respectfully you'll luv to hate me in the nicest way. As a man. Never to spoil your ego feeding on emotion. I got me in every sense of wants are chosen devotions. I'm correcting the mind so what matters sense.  Relations ain't shit without a friend who knows what it means to live. In my own, the world I see doesn't consider the transfer of power. It's more subtle to be genuine by having limits avoiding moods crossing lines every other half an hour. I'm not what you're used to n I'm not giving into the bullshit. There's a unity going on inside of me. With an ease the head n chest collaborated to detail my sacred pled. N you get what's been defined as who it is I truly come to be. So breathe. Accept I'm not your version of a silhouette that sets you free. I have me that craves the feel of life. All silliness aside. My time isn't something taken for granted. Do be dismantled before my eyes in an act of single handed. Nah, I'm flipping the odds n it's your loss. Precious, cherished, it's me as my own boss. A one man army loosening up to my true self. I have a worth n the same ol hootinanny isn't felt. The deeper the dig the more shallow vanity appears. My depths aren't for your fiddling so let's make it clear. Stand on what you believe n do not twitch. One wrong move n you're just another bitch. Flat out. Face to face. Ghosted due to the inconsistency you twiddle with. N it hasn't a thing to do with hate. We are who we are. N I'm riding up to the occasion to present myself. No harm no foul. It's ok to be oneself. As I have me every fuckin day. You're gonna havta like me to luv me bcuz I don't do hate. I'm evolving so I can smile just being alive. Ignoring the rush of someone new who cannot wait to absorb the hype. Not me. I have have better things to do. I come with a package not dead weight. N I won't think twice to have you removed. To become a memory I do not recollect. A part tense particle forgotten at best. As my up doesn't align with your down. So tell me, how does that sound? You tugging on my week being just bcuz you can. Bcuz I allow you to torment the palms of my hands. I need not fingers entangled with such a grip. Foe, if you are, will never be missed. I've glitched n seen the ugliness of who I was. From the other side of wtf I turned on my own gut. N n that I've claimed my sanity that you can never have. Tell me if you will, why shouldn't I sidestep you as a poof in my past?

Clock me out...

Come on clock. I gotta go. There's something I need to do. I can't hold it. I don't wanna. It's explicit but damn it feels good. Clock, will you hurry the fuck up? I'm ready to pop. I can't wait. I feel it coming. Wtf!? Clock!!! Help me out. Send me home. In the privacy of my own twisted grip. Alone n imagining things unmentionable to most. Wanting to play. To jerk. To loosen the fuck up. I'm losing it. The pulsation is too much. Clock me out. I need a release. I'm backed up. Bothered by thoughts. By a desires to do as I please. By golly hrs feel like days. When it'll only take me a few minutes to explode. With long slow strokes to calm my nerves. To ease the tension. To soften my girth. I have anyone but me so free up my time. I'm damn near on the edge. Daydreaming of a rug n a pull. Standing with one hand on the wall. Head cocked back. Grunting. Letting go of reality as I think dirty little thoughts. Until I... Yeah!!! Fuck yeah...

As mine...

As I bury my cock deep inside of you. Finding your hormones moaning to thrusts put to use. Cum on me. Simply put. I wanna feel your pussy pulsate whole I feel your wrapped around my girth. At will, gush. Go hard as I feel every ripple stroke my shaft. All the way down to my balls bouncing off your azz. Get it. Make me feel like a man capturing your crave. Loosening you up until you explode saying my name. With your hair in my left hand n n left it in the other. Testing you nipple n squeezing your flesh as a luv'r. Just listen to our thighs slap as we do us the way we do. As I did beneath the surface to open the gates as we move. I'm n out n in n out n in I keep going hard ASF. Turning a moment of lusts into a night o go luv. Getting closer than fibrosis l fingertips can swirl on your clit. Take me as I take you as we suck a kiss. Feeling twirling tongues going wild with excitement. Groping the body fill of incitement. Like an intoxication flowing with the thrill of orgasms panting a sighs. I was fuck you like I wanna keep you in my life.

I'm not giving in so easily...

Don't cry. Not for me. I was born to live alone. Please don't take pity. N never turn around. Better you can do. I'm just a conversation at best. A loner afraid to make a move. You'll forget me soon enough. Discriminating me in unfamiliar words. All bcuz I cannot feel luv'd. I don't believe in the concept. I don't mean act harm.  I'm just in you way this I know. Complicating the heart. But it's not my true intent. I wish I could trust. N didn't think of hope as a desperation. I tell no lies. Speak only of the facts. N it's ok for you to walk away. Just don't do it so fast. I may not know what I have in you. But you don't havta wait. I'm the lingering one.  Not once teaching for a use. I'm just in my own lane. Trying to find a real friend. N no emotions don't intrigue me. The rush of them is a sure end. So live your life. Go settle down n find your home. I'm nothing to miss. Don't worry, I won't answer the phone. I don't communicate on a daily with anyone. I'm part the point of giving a fuck. Feelings just don't interest me. They pull n they tug. Confusing the thought process of genuine relations. I may need misunderstood. N not many can understand my frustrations. I'm incapable of opening up too soon. So suggest you seek out another source to feed your depths. I won't be mad if that's what you decide. We all have a life to live n I can relate bcuz it's something I once felt. It just doesn't make much sense to me anymore. N to be honest my heart isn't free. My chest is a time capsule waiting. Patiently positive that it'll loosen to the feel of something more than a dream. So don't regret leaving me in your past. I cannot fulfill the urgency to compromise with desires. Not for a quick fix. N never again to be burned by the flaming fire. Sorrow for me isn't a necessity. N maybe I will die in the middle of overthinking shit. But it's ok. I don't make luv outta fun nor meaningless generosity. So you see, I'm a little different that what it is you think you want. N I'm fine with you admitting it as you go on about your way. I'm here all by myself any other day. N there will be no difference in tomorrow when it comes up to play...

Come my way...

Come on over n snuggle up. I know it's mid day but it's cold out n I wanna warm ur hush. We can get close n feel each other out. Find common grounds n ease back into the lack of sound. As soft whispers communicate in every breath. I bet you'd enjoy the way I'd come from the chest. Pulsating with heartbeats placed upon your back. As you're wrapped up in my arms grasp. Calming you as you're tucked gentle into my palms. Fingertips following across your skin. Just to know how the corners of your mouth create a grin. Come through n relax with me. Maybe watch a movie n set ourselves free. I'm open to whatever may take occur. I just want it to be you bcuz there's no one else is rather defer. Reason with your heart n mind your life. We could be something great in moments defined. Pressed against each other when the world doesn't seem to exist. Just you n I tasting the pleasure upon the lips. Hand in hand gripping the soothe. Feeling every body part twist n move. Swing by n see what we can get into. For a little while we can call a truce...

Emptied out...

The excitement isn't efficient. N when it is lifestyles aren't equivalent. When it's a fit one seeks to need the lasting to remain. When there's a few good ones that'll help emotion escape. N yet situations just haven't that alignment for the heart. As the thought process put in place guidelines so desires can find a spark. The thrill is gone. That eagerness to crave another as time goes on. Witness to those who would mingle every so nicely. But there's a resistance due to certain attributes that aren't timed precisely. Others aren't on the same level mentally n it's a shame. Bcuz if they were the imagination would engine then into the flame. As eyes are opened to see what's free from prior burdens as they linger in life. Willing to adjust with an open mind. Factors are the issue when waiting on a friend to come along. If there not considered relations eventually go wrong. As red flags are triggers to the ugly side of self. So to have patience is truly what's felt. Securing what bad things hurt the most. As tongues flip viciously in a chance to laugh at the roast. The lesson has taken it's toll on how to approach luv. N like is the key to enjoying such. Although many would fill in n live happily ever after. It's just there's more to a good time when lost in the laughter. Will they protect the friendship at any cost? Are they able to check self from lashing out when smiles come to pause? Shits deeper than the flesh that's deceiving in its own. As the anticipation is weakening from the display of others shown. They seem not to be looking in the mirror so they know they're the real deal. To think of who self is so they're worth the feel. The enthusiasm just isn't there where looking from a far. The type that awakens me isn't anywhere healed with scars. Whether they're taken by someone else or distant from the fingertips. I'm so long I haven't felt a comforting set of lips. The passion isn't in it when I do try. There's always something that jumps out as I become the bad guy...

Fresh outta scrabbled letters...

There's nothing left to say. Words aren't flowing today. I hate it when I'm at a loss. But then again that's jus my brain giving me time to hush the cause. I guess it too gets tired of all the resistance. As each n every thought feeds the heart without hesitance. N no I don't wanna talk about it. I'm just bored with life n struggle to live. N if there was something clever to say I'd come clean. Unfortunately I'm just wasting time with black expressions not trying to think. I'm just a case of being prior to closing my eyes. A mute without a memory of life. N I can't find anything worth telling. But if I could I'd find a buyer n begin the selling. Maybe raffle myself off so my lips would move. I believe I've ran outta ways to express my dying use. N now there's just a once was unwilling to partake in the back n forth. As sound is dismissed in the presence of vocal chords. Nothing is all there is coming from the mouth. N how I got here I don't know how. I'm speechless but I like. For once I'm at peace with what I cannot hide. Free in a sense if that's what I am. Content in the silence in my head that let loose on this man. N I move differently with a thought process that is ever so clear. Hushing the noise that reaches for lips tasting tears. I'm weightless in my present state. No longer fighting the confusion of the triangle of games. Sex can go fuck itself getting the need to the floor. Emotional torture I haven't a use for. N I've regained the stability upstairs after all. Things now make sense once I completed the fall. Landing in a situation on needs over wants. Smoothly easing my way along into I someday meet luv...

To be damned...

To live again. Damn. To feel alive. From behind the rhymes. To feel. Softening a heart said to be of steel. To put self to use. Using truths. Gaining a respect. Becoming friends from not than the chest. As the mind calms the fuck down. To be finally found. To come from within. To live. To reclaim emotions proof. Living loose. Allowing inner makings to be seen. To breathe. To drift away from the solitude. To simply call a truce. Damn. To be more than this type man. To sink into a touch. To obtain real luv. To cross back over. To hold a her. To spark the fire that went out. There's gotta be more than the silence of sound. To pull me closer to life. With a surge that doesn't sorry circuit the mind. So thinking isn't pure emotion running wild. Ooh the wonder of such a style. To settle into the thrill. To have free will. Moving in sync with another that co exists. To set aside the shovel that digs. To return from where I had to go. To evolve as me without burying the bone. Damn. To go at it again. To just be. To escape daydreams. Leaving the lessons learned alone. To go the fuck home. To my final place in time. Resting with a mate all night. To enjoy moments lived. To once n for all whisper softly of what I have to give.

The answer...

One. To give a reason of why. Opened up. Defining a stare in the eyes. To have a friend moving with purpose. Having meaning. Someone not so heartless. Not demeaning. Just once. So the heart can thrive. Falling into luv. Somewhere where it's not behind enemy lines. For a face to create a comfort. Sharing expressions. With hands on a nice rumper. Enjoying the bodies dimensions. Feeling the rush. Giving unconditionally to worth. Lasting beyond dreams never hushed. As they stay to be the first. To have a partner to do things with. Everyone to be precise. Tasting on softened lips. Even becoming a better version of sighs. Going from single to willing to mingle. In a different sense of mindsets at ease. Allowing the sensation of the tingle. Actually being able to fuckin breathe. Just to be on the same level n rising. Putting to rest all question of hope. With a truth residing. Never again to be alone. Loosening up to a touch like no other. Feeling the vibe pulsating through the skin. Alive n in motion with a luv'r. Awakening every morning to that familiar kiss...

Time down...

Chasing life will alter the feel of actually living it. Money will steal the heart n leave it alone as time ticks. Then walls close in on the mind confusing the focus. As dealing with the choices made to survive resemble a tad bit hopeless. In a solo act in the middle of life not knowing where home is. Even though there's a roof above there's still no true worth in the ribs. Missing is the unknown version of self when hiding is a thing. Removing all attachments from reach to ease back n away from the scene. So far gone behind locked doors just trying to evolve. Wanting to be appealing in the aftermath of the details solved. All in the same of slipping into a void to remain safe. But hey, who's to blame for all the little mistakes? So why not stabilize in solitude n wait it out? Yet for how long is desires that's been patient to gather what's to be found. Without another sharing space in memories that create a story lived. N that's the kicker of the situation that has forgotten the pleasure of touch through a kiss. All in the makings of digging into a better way. To redefine the comfort from within before ever giving in to a different type of gain. Tucked beneath a front that allows others to believe whatever they want. Telling them all the single life is better by saying fuck luv! But the lie is merely a fib for so long. As the truth trickles through the skin n moves expressions that correct everything that's ever gone wrong. Just to bounce back with an overload that can't wait to get at it again. Although it's costly to think of years spent unaccompanied by a friend hand in hand...

The feeling...

Less than equivalent. More than nothing at all. Somewhere in the middle of life. Trying to stand after the fall. Self is nothing but another face. Years pass into a faded fog. Lost becomes a feeling of comfort. Stagnant settles into a pause. Attempting to define shits within. Talking to the walls. Distant n alone no answer is known. Trapped within the flaws. There's nothing to believe in. No one left to call. Not a single person to confide. Drifting with the feeling of a world not so small. Emotions forgotten n away with the toss. Mirrors aging n afraid to interact. Witness to the truths so raw. Emptied as a person find ever be. Passion is just another thing to gawk. Useless is the inner feeling. Irrelevant to cause. Misplaced n confused missing the point. Unable to remember the feeling of the face placed in a palm. Lower the heart sinks below the surface. Deeper than the eyes will ever talk. Hollow n numb nerves are immune. Breaking out the sidewalk chalk. Damn near dead but still alive. Hanging on to an endless dull. Distant without a reason to crud back over. Hope is gone. The end had come to pass. Every day is just another sideshow that'll never aw. There's isn't much to who used to be. Life changed n the dream broke it's claws. No longer able to cling to the climbinh from from the false. As the enclosure surrounds the pieces  in the smog. Feeling as a thought to others. Beneath the burial of unwanted applause. There sits a loner shaking the head. Moving differently just because. Lacking a purpose in a reality that lives without lies. The solo artist that gave up on being soft...

Free will...

Coming back for seconds. N the enjoyment is what I'll never fail to mention. It says so much when convo isn't the only thing on the menu. Notice intent when words pause to feel the mood. Oh the venture of free will coming up for air. Truth is, boundaries aren't easy to cross when life usually doesn't play fair. N to see it in someone's eyes speaks without mentions. There's just a certain type of ease that breaks through the dimension. N then three n four times the return finds comfort laying still. Wrapped up in the moment of free will. Feeling closer every single second spent with a friend. Again n again. Becoming a norm that fits movements ever so relaxed. Trying to settle in so the world doesn't move so fast. As the wake up one day  realizes luv was in the making the all the while. Living in the stretch of breathtaking smiles. All bcuz two people meet to find a common ground. A stability in the reoccurrence so magical eyes whisper without sound...

Dreamt thoughts...

I get to daydreaming about how you can't keep your hands off of me. Looking at me like I'm the only one who reaches in n touches how u breathe. Stroking sighs to react on such a way u feel weak. Creative u have the strength to see it through bcuz ur free. I drift on the thought of you unable to get enough of who I am. Willing to give every detail of yourself to my hands. Peeking into my eyes as if they're the sunset giving u life. As u lean in to live to exist on the outside of ur mind. My daydreams have me rotating with the scenery of u n I intertwined. But I don't know why it's me you crave. I'm just happy to be in your graces to misbehave. To live a lil better it's forget too fuckin late. I dream in the middle of the day of how you say my name. I feel the purpose reaching for me every time we touch. N for once I believe I am taking back in luv...

Odd man out...

I jus am for I don't know how else to be. Living is a thing I do when I escape my dreams. I'm nothing special to the naked eye that eventually looks away. As I truly don't wanna be recognized as a name. Different I am in ways that most don't understand. Complicating relations on the matter of not having a number one fan. Stubborn is what I'm called when there's things I refuse to accept in my life. I believe that ones own defines the character wanting more than a hype. Loose I live to the indescribable crave to open up. Yet the conflict of connectivity always sides with eyes that have been hushed. Deeper I go into depths but I don't want another to friend within me. Emotions do to much n lose the whole sense of self wanting to breathe. I'm no one to anyone bcuz I know it'll take for me to come out n play. I just can't say much on it for chameleons pretending to be fate. My thoughts are heavy and my pulse is weak n faint. As there's more to a woman than exploiting her in between the sheets. So I drift as a loner longing to find a home. I'm no stray but I am lost without the desperation of hope. As in the real world I can relate to the facts as they come. But in my dreams I'm free to luv without the tsunami raping my shores of the beauty I cannot remember when I awaken as such. N even though I'm a lil of a bit of a mystery I'm confused on how others aren't capable to adapt to what life has to offer. As relations aren't what they seem to be into so it's an ease for me to not have a need to walk down the alter. Although I am a human that smiles bcuz I am alive. Even though I'm the first one to waste huge portions of my time. Digging into my downtime I simply want a friend that'll never leave. But it ain't so easy when I am the me they seek. Guarded n alert as I will figure them out. As it could even be situational as that deciphers the coming n going beneath the clouds. Special I could never be for I'm too humble to me arrogant. N fit the life of me I don't know which way the old me went...

The way you insist...

It sounds so good when you're coming on to me. But lil do you know I'll have you on your knees. With my cock in your mouth n then to your twat. I'll even fuck you in the azz as you're begging me to stop. So if you know what's best you'll leave me the fuck alone. Bcuz I ain't got time unless I'm coming in your holes. With a big ol dick to make you moan a lil tune. Talk dirty to me n I'll eventually watch your body move. Grinding as you moan with my tongue between your legs. Just to flip you over until you beg. Not once, not twice, not even a third as you don't want me to stop. Telling me your fantasies is the sound I crave as you climb atop. You say things that speak to my curiosities. As thoughts take form in the shape of you exploring my generosities. To please the words upon your tongue. Rolling over on you to slow down the motions rushed. You best not mimic a thrill by leading me on. I'm not what you think as I'll play from dusk till dawn. Have you sore ASF waiting for your hormones to bounce back. But if you learn the hard way, press the facts. I like how you nibble on my name. N honestly I wanna change the revisions upon your face. As you bite that pretty lil lip. With my fingertips digging into your hips. Moan for me n say not one thing else. Feel the way I am to be felt. Naturally exploiting your inner most desires on the run. Keep on babbling at the gums n imma have dinner fun...

Inward tug...

Backtracking, I'm fading back down that fuckin hole again. Seems I can get so far n then... Into reverse mode I collapse thinking too much. Into the downward spiral I cannot escape I fall away from even lusts. Oh the feeling of the desperation of hope that doesn't exist. I wish I believed in something other than the darkness deep in my very own pits. But yet to descend without a lifeline is what has always been. As the comfort of selfs embrace never lies, but then again. It pretends to be a friend although there's no convo in the silence. Just an echo in my head that gets lost from time to time when I tuck away the difference. Hiding from the knowing of others that I fall apart. Feeling the grasp of the one true thing that comforts the heart. N it's easy to bury the insanity behind the eyes. Countering observant stares everytime someone tells me smiles as if it isn't a lie. Forced upon the face to shield the drifting within. Pulled into the suction of the core that always wins. Wasting time n waiting on tomorrow to come. Maybe it'll be a lil better if with my mind I didn't run...

Going home...

Missing the getting of going home. After a hard day's work. To see that one face that makes a difference. Getting them in a hug with so much worth. There's a void in what life has become. A standby of emotions idling n offset. The thought of going home is an empty sigh. Especially when there's more unused comment buried in the chest. Waiting to open that door to witness a friend. N yet there's a misplacement no matter where I go. Without an answer the question reveals no regards. I jus want that feeling others have of going home. To be someone's they don't wanna attempt life without me. The way I'd return everyday to lay my eyes upon their gaze. Bridging a connection from the heart to the mind. N if they ain't home yet, I'll wait...

Only with you...

There's so many thing that I wanna do. But I don't wanna do any of them if I cannot do them with you. So I sit n wait hoping you don't pass me by. As I'm outta reach of others trying to enjoy moments of my time. Outta sight is prolly where I need not to be. If I wanna do these things I'll prolly havta to be seen. So life can be felt doing everything I've never done. Side by side with you having fun. But I'm afraid to do any of it without you here with me. N I don't know if you're even looking to set yourself free. To enjoy a friend in your time of making it happen. As dreams come true in the makings of laughing. But you're the only one I'd open up all the fuckin thoughts to. To share where I'd wanna be alone with you. Getting lost somewhere in the memory holding on later in life. Recalling all the silly lil things we ran if to that are cherished in the mind. If this you can understand, come out n play. I'm willing n free to show myself to your chuckles day after day. Wandering around the world like we can't get enough. N in every place we drift off to, we make luv. In sync with the thrill of who we are together. Moving our feet to the feeling of riding a shooting star straight past forever. Open to concur the details that make us, us. Waking up to fall asleep every night in luv...

Free will...

You can go if that's what you wanna do. I won't fight your decision to believe you can do better. Nor will I ever play the game to see if I'll try n stop you before you go. What I'm doin has nothing to do with becoming the great pretender. I'll respect your wishes to be left completely alone. We all have the right to find where it is we feel wet belong. N I too one day wanna sink into the findings of home. So please choose in which direction your heart is too follow the beat of a specific song. As a face id indentured as the only one that could ever loosen you up. I'm not in your way n don't wanna be a hiccup in the road. Hey to where your going n I'll applaud you as you fall in luv. I believe in happiness n the makings of trust so passion no longer roams. If I'm not the friend you seek you're free to do so you please. The save way you've been to with our without me in you life. I'm just here attempting the possibility of wants n needs. As me as self with a rare n unusual mind. Backing your every option to fulfill whatever it is you resolve within. Bcuz I know the feeling of lost all too well. So smile for it's ok if our thoughts aren't sharing the same type of grin. Just do it before I drift into the linger of your desires felt. It wouldn't be easy if you crave another n I was left in a memory. But I'd understand even though I wouldn't wanna see you turn away. Never to be seen again by eyes that find you complimentary. Familiar or a stranger is the choosing day by day. With thoughts changing as we grow into who we are to become. Care just enough song the way to reason with a use of free will. As promises cannot be made for we do not know what is to come. Just be clear on intent surfacing in the here n now for me to witness the thrill...

Until...

You're just passing through n it's cool. Here for a bit n them removed. You're not meant to stay long n I can't say that's wrong. But ain't it just another day song. Sharing a lil of your time to ease my mind. N eventually you're gonna be home for life. Damn the thought of getting to know you comeS with a cost. N until then imma live in this pause. 

Enjoying you like there's no tomorrow.

Avoiding the emptiness of the sorrow.

Pretending the stories will never end.

In luv with my perfect friend.

Only if you knew how hard it is for my to let down my guard. It's torcher knowing imma lose everything shit you but the pieces left in my heart. You're not the type that think of me as the answer to your hype. I'm just waiting my turn for the day you say goodbye. One season attached a time like a session soon to be up but I won't cry. Simply put, you're not mine.

So I'll do what I can until the coming of tomorrow.

Bringing in the linger of you to the feeling of sorrow.

I'll pretend that you're my friend.

One that'll last until the end...

Simply put...

What I can do by self. Somehow doesn't mimic what I've been able to do with another by my side. I do better. I stand stronger. I feel it to be fucked up beyond measures of reason. But this is life. Fuck being fair. Just make it happen. Even if the solo act is a bit too much. Stand in the mirror n live as the turn away is laughing. With a way to take care of the inner makings.  With grunts one the side. Knowing worth is more than the single life. But it's okay when the ends are met time after time. Oh the heart doesn't wanna listen to reason. It can't hear. It can only feel. N it's the truest thing to what is real. Reminding the mind of a settling fact. The body needs to be touched. Felt like fingertips that crave to wander upon someone else. Breaking down in the presence of luv. To bare the hidden details no one knows. In an act on wants n needs. Going to waste without the thrill. Only if I could do what I do with another doing what they do to simply breathe...

The next level...

One time. To never turn back. For a willing desire to live on. With luv intact. The dream. Opening a piece of self. For trust to hold. Simply felt. Considered by another. Enjoyed by a smile. Loosening up with life for once. Until the end of ends with style. Just once. To feel depths come to life. Confirmed n complete. Comforted by sighs. In the moment n living. In true form. Moving to the thrill. Wanting jus one thing, a norm. A fair chance to shine. To be as is. With more than hope. Lost in the twist of a kiss. All that's needed is a friend. A partner knowing what they have. Someone who's leveled up. To go in on halves. Damn it would be nice. To outlive what's come to be known. To cross back over. Shedding the feeling of being alone. Expressing true intent. Gradually giving all. Redefining belief. Staring into the eyes that come to a pause. Looking back with a common interest. Smirking just bcuz. The thought is there. N it drives me nuts...

To be taken...

I had to test her. I need to know. It was the look have me. I wanted to get her moan. So with one hand I reached for her. N she didn't move. She just did there waiting. N I took my time to work hey loose. Playing with her crave. Tempting her to give in. With a chuckle her eyes dared me. N all she did was lift her chin. As my fingers wrapped get throat. Feeling the warmth of her neck. The pulse racing to my palm. She grinned to accept. My jaw dropped. I squeezed. Her truths sighed. N then the stare changed the way we breathed. It was slow at first. Both surging from within.  Having found a new common worth. She submitted. I began to give her something to trust. As I could feel her coming to life. N my grasp she leaned in to be hushed. To be taken. To come from within the passion of her fantasies. Knowing it was I she had awakened. To play with every inch of her body. She stood still. Groped n fondled in ways my touch completed her. She was good. As my fingertips flowed with her curves. Growing the flesh. Slapping her azz. I'm total fuckin control. She gave me herself as I didn't even ask. It was natural. Real. Something that cannot be explained. It was something we both could feel. As she was spun around n bent over the bed. Back arched. Legs spread. She was a with of art. In sync with my desires to please her at will. In any which way I chose to take her. Her skin was silk. Sighs were like whispers without words. That's when I instructed her to open her mouth. As I climbed up in front of her perfectly hung. With a shh, just suck. She began to speak to me in tongue. No hands. All skill. She was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. My kinda thrill. Mine all mine. As I was her very own Dom. But I wasn't done. I needed to hear her explode like a bursting bomb. As I pulled her hair back n kissed her face. Letting her know I was in charge. As we locked eye to eye. I could see it in her that she didn't expect me to be so large. N I told her I was going to penetrate her until she came. N I want gonna stop until her knees gave in. So from behind her I slide deep within her walls. N the sound of pure innocence made me grin. With one movent she was taken from the rear. Oh she was tight. Motionless n taking every inch. As I fit inside of her oh so nice. Grabbing her hips. Thrusting like animal fucking for the first time. She took it until the shook in her stance. As I pulled out n forced her down in front myself to swallow mine. N with everything in me I twitched. As she sucked. As I came. I believe it was I that got mind fucked...

Ever changing...

What can't be seen behind a smile rests the emptiness hidden in the eyes. Within the design is the details of life taking it's toll on the mind. With muted words never to touch the lips nor gasp in a sigh waiting on a luv'r. What lies beneath the surface is a depth dug to bury one friend after another. In turn as in order from start to finish. As feelings drift in thoughts remembering the undertow of emotions that were made to feel squeamish. What sits just outta view from the knowing. Others need not point at the entanglements defining the overthrowing. For inner content to lay in the shadow only to move like a puppet. To mimic a facial gesture as if a half hearted grin placed upon a muppet. Telling tales of the good put in front of the world to be displayed. As the changing of the stare has no need in anymore games...

Able to chuckle...

Memories have faces that tug on expression when the mind drifts. Visions of prior moments that linger periodically that once tasted the lips. To remember in the down time is a reflection of self evolving in this world that had no remorse. Luv'rs come n go n others last a lil longer to to split always looking for something more. As being alone sits on the mind heavily in a wondering state of, wtf? Looking through the images that never made it into the now hushed. Another upside down shot glass triggers the heart to reminisce. Able to chuckle bcuz good times live in a better place buried in every kiss. Triggering the smile in full acceptance to lift at the edges like horns that never die. Knowing the chaos cannot touch sacred leftovers that have molded truths. N then it's back to reality to continue the journey bcuz ones own still has a use. To be luv'd in due time when the fit wraps emotions in arms. For lessons learned show the maturity grown deep in the stake scared heart. Fit the meeting it out alive has been one crazy azz ride. All with whispering silent childish forever meant goodbyes. For what's good for fit self is what remains every single day. Not in the head trapped n locked away from how pain wasn't meant to wear chains...

When one knows...

Once a person has found n has been forced to let go of someone they could've luv'd forever. They know what it is their heart desires most as anything less is simply a never ever. For the level of happiness that uplifted them is in the way of a sacred bond. A presence that entices will to play with the feel of emotion's sweet spot. It's the linger of a smile n the truth of how the connection is more than a physical attraction. It's the depths of a pure satisfaction. A one in the same type of honesty that lives without trying. With a the rare sensitivity that gives a sensation of fulfillment that becomes defying. It's not a face that claims their place side by side. It's the person within that comes out to be seen in the middle of life. Someone so perfect in imperfections that fits without hesitations. Creating a sigh that lasts in acceptance that opens up the mind guiding memories into their final destination. N there's very few that can cause a surge that triggers the terrible in the eyes. Anything less is nothing more than a moment to pass until a spark ignites the unconditional vibe...

The calm...

Exciting to no one. Fading behind the scenes. Lock doors won't come unhinged. Lost in the confinement of dreams. Thoughts drift in the dark. Unseen is the face. Whereabouts are unknown. Stupid hides in the escape. Into the peace n quiet. Time being the enemy ticking away. Alone n safe from the chaos. Playing not one single game. The calm creates a reason. The silence drives one mad. Listening to the heart pulsate with a pound. Facing the lonely facts. Having not another close enough to touch. To feel the comfort supposedly trusted. Emotion waits on luv. Patience stretch to limits exposed. Purposely avoiding a friend to be made. Attachments linger in choices not so sure. Believing the burn comes from the flame. Not to be found anytime soon. Eyes glance at best. Afraid to make contact with a stranger. Unaware what is contained in their chest. Moving solo is the flow in life. Settled in to the ease redefined. Evading the thrill of lusts reaching in. Letting thoughts clear in the mind. As desires twist into a funk. Frustrated by the lack of trust. The bed seems far to big to be enjoyed. But it's so much better than faking n crushed...

At some point...

I don't wanna see you cry. But damn you if at some point you don't look at me with tears in your eyes. As the luv leaks down your cheek. So overwhelmed in thought just looking at me. Feeling the emotion rush to the surface. As your tongue wiggles in your mouth to sit up my name. With a stare of recognition pausing your expressions. Felt in a better sense of an obsession. Living in the moment of the crave. Able to admit to self life without me just wouldn't be the same. As the heart opens up n it flows uncontrollably. Witness to me luv'n you respectfully. Feeling my thumb wipe away drips away. With a reassurance of I'm here to stay. Bcuz I could only hope I can get that far into you. with a kiss to your fists as you lean in to me calming you woos. Holding you until you come back from that place you just went. At some point of like to know if it's me in which you can vent. Free to release truths that shouldn't be held in. As you didn't chuckle with a grin. Knowing you're such a girl just for me. At some point I wanna live the dream...

It's you...

I wanna touch you. Play with you. Feel you. I wanna taste you. Caress you. Tease you. Fuck you. I wanna release you. Lick you. Eat you. I wanna explore you. Enjoy you. Devour you. I wanna fall into you. Take you. Own you. I wanna be with you. Roll you. Toss you. I wanna embrace you. Hold you. Claw you. I wanna impress you. Win you. Earn you. I wanna rely on you. Believe you. Have you. I wanna escape with you. Lay with you. Cum with you. I wanna crawl on you. Kiss you.  Reason with you. I wanna reach for you. Please you. Free you. I wanna explode with you. Fulfill you luv you...

Fuck fb...

No compliments. Can't oppose interest. Laughs sound off. Fuck the internet. Fake images. Lost in posts. Self righteousness. To no one they host. Suck on self. Ugly through n through. Quietly begging for help. Turning a cheek if lips move. Games out in the open. Claiming other. There is no luv'n. Nor a real luv'r. False presence. Pretending to be different. But oh the hesitance. Everyone just wants to vent. Belittling others that caused then pain. It's a force of habit. Forged intent to save face. Social media is laughing. But can't stand the finger to point back. I'm the greatest getaway of all time. Anyone can be whatever with a phone in their grasp. Slowly losing their minds. Reality no longer exists. The digital world changed it all. No one cares to taste lips. It's just the self indigence that hides the flaws. Tucked into cyber hell. Misleading to gain attention. The ramble at if no one else can be felt. It's all me me me right inspection. Opinionated to the bone. Irritated with life. Is this what humanity had become? Losing valuable time. Caught up in another dimension. Fading from use. Looking for a laugh when chuckles are mentioned. N yet absent from giving proof. For the flesh had forgotten touch. There's just words n no actions hoping never to be exposed. There's no such thing as luv. Just a side step as everyone is alone.

Assert your mutters...

To watch your lips shape the words. Tell me. Whisper of you must. Say it with a desire that crawls through you like you need me. Speak of lusts. Of the Hunger that consumes you. I wanna hear it. As you bite your lip as your mouth moves. Taste each letter nibbled from your tongue. Feed to my thrill to grasp your motives coming out. I wanna be the one you wanna fuck. So be honest with content loosening up n spoken out loud. Suggest your claim in me. State your case. Let the feeling fly my way. As your breath lands upon my face. Let your thoughts come out to play. Allowing your eyes to make me believe in you. How bad do you want it? Express how you want me to put you to use. Words can never lie if you passion fuels hormones on the rise. Declare your deepest crave. N moan a moment as I slide inside...

Losing control...

I wanna tell you I love you. I feel it crawling within me every single day. As your presence is the key to putting emotions to use. Alive I've awakened just looking at you face. I wanna say how I truly feel. So out loud you can hear me come to life. As your name is tasted in a tone so real. Damn, you ready my mind. Settle the anxiety of fighting of this world alone. You're the difference n I know your can set it in my eyes. I believe you too be home. N to you I would never lie. I wanna whisper sighs in your ear. Pull you close n lose track of time. You free me as I have no fear. But since you ain't here, maybe I'll just drift in life...

I'm you in ways...

Maybe I'm not ok. It could be possible I feel just like you. Hiding behind chuckles stretching the face. Who knew. But how could you. I turn a cheek to cry. Tears aren't meant to be seen in the move. N there's times I simple feel like I'm waiting to die. So alone n far from comprehension I bet you feel you don't fit in. But what if you knew I struggle too? When all I really wanna do is live. To fuckin call a truce. Is it me or would a friend be nice? To settle the downward plunge within that sucks me under. But I don't know how to stop the fight. Standing solo n distant from luv'rs. Whoa, that might be a Lil too much. But fuck it right? We only live once. N then we're eventually captured by the urn or the pine. To waste even more away with time. I'm total solitude at if we're not living in it in the now. Making it look good when to be felt would ease the mind. Is it cool if I steal the words hung up in your mouth? As the truth reveals we ain't so different after all. I'm constant wonder of a better way. Before we sit to long n rot being silenced walls...

No?

Can I? No? Ok. I won't ask again. Damn the battle of being taken seriously. Lost as if there's nowhere to call home. Yeah the feeling sucks. Only if I could come across one. Maybe I'd have a reason to open up. N yet, those I cling to shun me out their life. N others I jus cannot connect with. Hey! No? Alrighty then. Why try? I get it. I'm just a face in the crowd. Someone who's too far gone. I'll just leave them be. Live as a loner. Go without every being truly felt. Nah, I don't want sex. I know you don't believe me. In your mind I'm a player. Hiding behind the front laced in my eyes. Oh, how wrong the thoughts of me. So I'll just make you laugh. Sit back n gather the silence. N wait. Bcuz what's the point? Everyone wants the typical bs with the same fuckin results. Danger I'm the stranger. The psst in the wind. Quiet bcuz not everyone needs to know my situation. But that too you is some sneaky shit. Although if just live to get to know someone before the worried interferes. Seems that's too much to ask. Though I'm said to prolly have more than a few. Ain't that a bitch. Labeled due to looks. For I have shit on the up n up. Or is it they can't relate to leveling up? Fuck. I'm willing to urge success. To grow together n find higher grounds. Aye yo! No? It's what it is. I'm just an azz that speaks up. Scaring off the weak. Realizing not many have truly found themselves. Why did everyone havta be living through someone else? How could they ever be a real friend? It's cool. But. Um. No? Ain't nothing new to me. I'm a freak that just wants to fuck. Believe what you want. Describe everyone with the same tone. N put me at the end of your curiosities. That is if I'm even considered.  More than likely that's a prolly not. Im to different to fit in to the crazy you pretend to be. You need another that feeds your ego huh? The bows, bends n breaks to stay. Maybe that's why you sidestep me. I'm your head I'm an issue that complicates your own games. Are you afraid you won't get your way? That someone like me will challenge you with reason. Are you not ready to toe the line to see what you're really about? Half stepper you just may be. It is it you think I'm above others? If just live to talk. No? Fine, I'll leave you be. Go play the role of emotions that end to fast. Other me. I can take a hint. I'm no one to you. A threat if anything if I must tell it like it is. Then again, I must not be what reciprocation wants. Am I off the walk to you likings? Would you like to chill n figure out who's who? No? Ok, I had to attempt to show you I like you one last time...

The sound of hate...

Throw your rocks n sling your words. But little do you know, I can't be hurt. We haven't gotten they far as to become best friends. Especially with a verbal assault that creates our end. N I don't mind putting you back with the rest of you cannot comprehend this. People don't belittle each other just bcuz they're pissed. Luv doesn't lose focus bcuz it doesn't know how. As possible is not an Allie to move forward with the now. I cannot hear your vocal blades trying to cut me deep. So you can feel better as you make believe. Helping you sheep in your typical type of norm. I'm stronger to wait in likes so my heart isn't torn. Dug from my chest by belligerent selfishness. That will never be for I can't get close to those who suffer from helplessness. I don't feel the fall unless I know I can trust your mouth. With you head over your heart for a use to be found. Taking jabs at me as your guns slap shut off the funniest thing. You actually think you can get to me. So speak you lies n attack my character if you must. Add your name even from my own whispers will be hushed...

...

The thought slips the mind of a time before the loneliness. Before the pain. Before the betrayal. Before the luv. Before ever meeting the one person who changed us for life... N we wonder why.

Even emotion forgets how we felt prior to the linger. Prior to the emptiness. Prior to the ache. Prior to the touch. Prior to ever feeling what we believed we could never go without... Look at us now.

nah. don't say it...

the things one choose not to say on fb bcuz not everyone gets access to certain shit. bcuz some shit is off limits to lips that isn't speaking in person to chuckle with the ribs. it is what it is. some shit is just not for just anyone listening in. deeper goes better when sips are kisses in arms clinched. but even that's a lil too much to say when the inner makings just wanna live. willing to give a lil to feel a hand gripped. there's shit worth a fuck that goes unsaid as the tongue twists. holding back true intent for more than just a lil bit. damn near saying fuck it from time to time so self too can live. but the "nah" becomes of the nitwit as the heart throws a hissy fit. it's just the same ol shit avoiding words that isn't meant to be spit...

out in the open...

who is she lost somewhere in this hectic thing called life? with one whisper i'd fall to a simple lil hi. damn, only if she knew what i'd do to swoop in just to be me. i'm ready n she's out there waiting for not just anyone to come from her dreams. so i gotta step up n get me in tune with more than a thought n find her soon. time's a wasting n it ain't coming back around to have a redo. but where in this huge world can i go to show her i exist? so she knows it's me when i kiss her lips. so where in the fuck is the scared layer that hides her face? or shall i be calling out to her so she can hear my speak her name? i wanna stand in her way so she knows i'm not fuckin any fuckin place without her by my side. as to her i could never lie. hey, psst. her i am! i am your man. the one that's been wondering where you've been. just wanting to help create such a lovely grin. come out come out n play with me in the middle of this crazy ride. we can be who we are n get on how we naturally are defined. flipping birds in the wind behind us as we laugh. oh, it be nice to meet up n talk about whatever as the night lasts. just as slow as the mingle drifts. i don't know u yet but damn if u ain't missed. what are you waiting on? i'm out in the open tooting my horn...

To be happy...

To be luv'd without the leaving. To be felt while still breathing. To have a friend made from a stranger. To allow the heart to feel without danger. To coexist as is. To taste the flesh n lips. To pause is moment worth the reservation. To live in a sense of preservation. To wind up in the same arms night after night. To cross back over to take up a lil space in someone else's mind. To be. To loosen to the thought of free. To outlast a lifetime of luv. To trust what cannot need hushed. To enjoy a smile accepting self. To know they're is help. To adjust to a friend. To break the rules of the single end. To vibe n flow. To grow so fuckin old. To be proud to stand next to another. To desire the passion felt from a truthful luv'r. To fall in n not through once n for always. To believe even if it rains. To lay motionless with someone in sync. To move behind the eyes as sighs breathe...

Emptied n waiting...

Words, in the way of saying the heart's untold truths. Buried depths in the tongue hide the most sacred tales left in the youth. Age, claiming emotion scared to open the gates. As happiness forgets what it's like to believe in fate. Rambles, struggle to find sound to be heard. The voice speaking in circles to avoid relations seeking worth. Silence, twisting the chaos into what makes sense. Leaving a vague adjustment in the aftermath creates a defense. Watching, lifeless reflections react to the not wanting to be seen. Drifting so far away from self dreaming of a day to be freed. Paralyzed, motions damn near have rigor mortis setting in. Feeling the numb blanket the fear lingering within. Fuck, a life lived behind locks that have no key is just waiting on death. With comfort in the thought of it being over sighs so the voices can rest. Chatter, manipulating the face into fake smiles so no one knows. Safety at the end of another day settles the nerves from hope. Captured, belittled n full of tears never to be released. People come to go just to eventually become a tease. Alone, it fades in time spent shutting down in the dark. Afraid to turn the light on to see if anyone is looking to take part. Imagining, a false presence that missed out but it's okay. Lies babble from lips slipping into the relentless escape. Depression, finds a friend never to change or switch sides. N there's nothing left but to die...

Someone like us ..

It's having an inner strength side enough to know I'm here to help. To lift a little weight from your mind so I too can be felt. So your thoughts aren't always pissing out others for there's no space to be filled. Bcuz I too feel the pressure of this world as it's dragged by the thrill. Distorted n complicated for to self just wants a better life. One that's a bit more simpler than the solo act chasing what it can't seem to find. It's the leniency of your heart to believe in someone like me. Knowing I have the same mindset wanting to fulfill all the outta reach dreams. As this is why I think of you in a different way.  Unlike most you can relate n not give up once another comes along n wants to stay. The fight within only alters to have the back watched in times when a friend is most important. N I wonder if you imaging what we could be as fall into luv willing to be absorbent. For our lifestyles are similar n age is somewhat the same to take part. Having in common the decades of lived moments that molded us into who we are. With a shell that shelters the inner sensitivities not for just anyone to touch. N all I want is a chance to choose you as you do I to live beyond the initial rush. Bcuz I could use someone like you to triplicate what I'm ready to put in to an us. That is if you've actually witnessed me in the return of staring n hushed. Awakened to a reason of needs over wants but desiring it in a reverse crave. To enjoy something at some point with someone like us having what it takes...

One bite...

My heart is hungry ASF. But I don't know who to feed to it that enjoy the sauce of luv. Not all luv tastes the same dripping from the lip. But damn if that ain't the truth of regurgitating the bitterness trapped in spit. Empty n hollow the chest is starving for someone deeper than reaching for the surface. Never too try is worse than not at all in which hurts less. As my pulse needs a spike to revive some sorta life. Emotion hasn't eaten in such a life time. But who has enough flavor in a single drop to satisfy passion awaiting to be fulfilled? Savoring a suck to get to the juices spilled. Safety hasta avoid the poison fed by tainted intent. It would be nice to be able to trust a friend. To nibble on the edges of desire for a lil while. As the feast that is soon to follow creates a smile. Seeking the craving so sweet it awakens the pulse. To cook up a treat so delicious taste buds cling to the skin. Licking up the perspiration leaking from the inner makings overflowing to be known. Ohhh. I have the munchies for a real down home meal. N I wanna play with my food until the sun come back up to claim the bellies full feel...

No one's perfect...

We don't havta hate each other. Nor should be despise one another. We can coexist knowing if we get hurt shit happens. So why cause the pain that has a heartbeat flatten? Can we accept we're just trying to make someone outta nothing? At both are equally human n want that rate something. There's no need in resenting a friend as if a foe. Someone's belongs get away from the thought of who we are this at know. So why does the bitterness linger within? Can we not stare eye to eye n realize we just wanna live? To be as close to luv a possible period to living in solitudes nothingness. Is it not what you're looking for us happiness? With reason n level headedness that comprehends no one of perfect? N can we admit that u n I are worth it? That life itself wouldn't be same holding someone else.  Heading that, tell me it isn't felt.  If you can I'll walk away for good. So speak with purpose when you mention your truths...

I'm not him...

It's been proven so many times before. So why is it your wanna come banging down my door? There's others that would qualify to fit you better then I can. So how come you wasting the moment coming around here at if I'm that man. The one you've been seeking is hardly who I'll turn out to be. Do yourself a favor n sry your heart free. I'm nothing like what you've ever tried to cuddle up to. N I don't know if I'm the norm gone been waiting to give a truce. It is what I cannot pretend to become. Who me with others who are willing to fall in luv? Why you think I had the answers to your curiosities?  All I am is me in my own individuality. Nothing special to any extent so it's ok to move in now. There's no purpose in the inevitable prolonged by a convo found. You'd be happier knocking on someone else's door. They might just let you in to find what it is your wish to explore. Just lost the thought of the image of me in your head. Save us both from the outcome of ours someone other than I that's to complete you instead. I'm no strong stone for your feet. Not are you too settle for someone like me. Your one is out there somewhere waiting on you to appear. N if you keep showing up in my life you'll never meet your true self in the mirror. Witness to the smoke they create the way no other can. Don't believe it's me n I won't let you down for the way I am  just leave me here to sit with my own wonders that never rest. Go, dream n live n feel the beating pulsating from your chest. I will never be enough. Nor will I be able to live up to your version of luv...

N like that...

N like that, they'll luv you bcuz you feed into their ways. And like that, once you stand for yourself, they'll forget your name. All they care for is to be selfishly satisfied. Bcuz luv is an emotion absorbed into indulgence rectified. As they gain a so called power that entices their ego. Nonetheless it's a battle between trust n deceit that gloats. They'll pretend as their own wants n needs are met. N yet, they'll give just enough as they claim your best. Twisting it into their relentless version of becoming the victim. N like that, you're the one to blame just bcuz you've held them. Tightly as if there wasn't much air left for life. Just to suffocate by emotion gasping I'm sighs. As the game of shaming defines their true intent. To remain the wounded one in eyes lurking that consent. In belief as if character hasn't been shown. N like that, friends are known...

infinite...

as intent changes in thought. with a curiosity rearranging flaws. correcting the making to better self. as the heart directs passion towards someone else felt. specifically aimed at the chosen one. unable to sidestep the wonder that feels like luv. the transformation from single to being involved is s thing of beauty. knowing a smile can erect compassion usefully. just to witness the eyes cater to wanting to know so much more. the face shifts with expressions of acceptance shinning with the truth of the core. exposed is the comfort lingering between the head n the chest. coexisting is the excitements filling voids. quieting the rambling of silent noise. there's a crave ever so often that ignites a thrill. willing to lower the drawbridge n escape with free will. with one in particular person consuming beyond the front that hides emotions on the rise. coming from within with a surge reaching through vibes. as life would be meaningful to mingle in desires loosening up. to fall deeper than the descend plunges into depth that flow with the rush. in a moment of identity one acknowledges the devotion coming to life. from strangers to friends to the possibilities that await time. to be laying flush behind the doors of home. adjusting to the details that have awaited that someone for so long...

It's her cheek..

A man will never understand until his fingertips touches luv's cheek. Creating a response that opens the gates to the mystery of being free. In a moment notice he'll understand the connection of emotions felt in a stare. From caressing a woman's face so soft as he cares. Drawn to her life there's no one else that will ever do. With pulses proving how deep she's beneath the surface of truce. He won't comprehend until her smile speaks. Giving him more purpose than he's ever known to be. As passion awakens within to share with only her. His woman as her man finding a true worth. All with one pause to place a palm upon the cheek. As she leans in to the sinking of a forever in need. Showing truths that cannot be hidden as if it were possible. He'd die for her cause as if he's unstoppable. Willingly cherishing he presence n once he knows she's real. With a single stroke of a woman's cheek a man melts from steel. For she's the missing piece of completing him whole. The one no one can compare to in the comfort of their home. A friend like no other. A perfect luv'r. Someone who looks back to see her own reflection in his eyes. Witness to the same joy he's found in life. A man cannot fathom the expressions that have waited so long. For the answer is her that can never go wrong. It's in the natural pull of yes that occurs. Wanting to be flush n holding on with whispering words. Tenderly tasting kisses upon the neck n lips. Dancing like fingers that ignited the thrill on the cheek that tilted her head to live. As the warmth of his hand calmly braces her willingness just right. Vulnerable is a man's weakness strengthened by a woman's sigh. Damn near taming the best roaming free. It's her cheek. N the way she settles into his grasp so gentle she believes she is safe. Letting go of what keeps his walls upright he releases the restraints. To become the one she accepts as her own. Allowing the vibe to reach for her with a subtle flow.

Digital nonsense...

Picking up the phone at if someone special is gone reach out. Just to put it back down as self is still not found. Seems everyone's waiting on one person that will make life so much better. Like calls n texts brings two people closer together. N it doesn't appear the ringalingding or the bzzz bzzz is gonna happen anytime soon. But the check is to make sure one doesn't miss the opportunity to cut loose. By a pic sent mud day to a message rambling. The comfort another is to give is different than just anyone babbling. So to remain on silent alert is to be ready for if the cell ever lights up. Knowing damn well it's a shot in the dark where patience is a friend of luv. A base holding the flame that captures sight. Whether the cell is on or off the charger one must sleep for another day to live in the light. Peeking down periodically hoping to be someone's thing. Wanting to throw from the digital nonsense n set themself free. With a miracle on the line conversating for hrs at a time. Taking the weight of this world off of an overworked mind. As chatter's sound soothes the heart awaiting an embrace. Vibing for one day to meet face to face.

Glowing horizons...

We can watch the moon go down n then turn around n watch the sun come up. We can sit peacefully in luv. We can spend all day together until the sun goes down. N then turn around n watch the moon come up as we're that much more in luv...

Dimmed lights...

Do I

Wanna know why

Life

Keeps passing me by

Behind eyes

Buried inside

Losing time

Fading vibes

Withholding truths from the hype

I'm depths I climb

Dangling with sighs

Suppressed by the mind

Toeing the line

Awaiting goodbyes

Heartache defined

Fighting the night

Believing the lies

Inward with the hide

Wanting another bite

A nibble n a grind

To feel alive

With luv by thy side

Able to like

N yet they slide

Away from I

Back to the vine

To the thirst of spite

Looking for different signs

As I sit in a bind

Emotions dried

Avoid Hi's

Evading tries

Reasoning with pride

Shutting out all types

Wondering where's mine

Going unsubscribed

Missing the ride

With no one to confide

I hide

Abandonment...

Waking from a dream, scared n distraught from self. Distant n running even from life that awaits when eyes open can't help. Coming back to the feeling of alone that haunts the heart. Lingering from behind the subconscious like a tool used to tare me apart. As sleep isn't a friend for it turns on the fear in catastrophic ways. Nights I avoid yet it's worse in the linger of the length of ongoing days. Wanting that comfort. Running from the a chance to meet a succor. So it's back to dreamland to escape the endless cycle of hope. The desperation in it is just to much just staring at thy phone. Wondering in the fade to darkness will I be subjected to the ache of abandonment waiting in the balance.  It's as if r world outside gives behind the curtain upon the stage that had a window with a valance. One way in n one way out. As bars capture the depths that silently pound. With the breaking under pressure of wanting to simply enjoy life. Even daydreams have a horror about them that creates a total shut down as if I'm blind. I just wanna be free to let loose n concur what hold serious back. So the dreaming isn't the only thing I try to run to when I too collapse. When I too need an embrace to shield me from myself. Extracting the disbelief in others n giving something with being felt. Deep within moments where I wanna disappear at if the wind. Fearful n horrified by an innocent touch that can destroy women n men. I awaken to an eerie presence where I don't wanna know my reality. With the lights off just sitting still bcuz I do not have immortality. This is it, is the thought that I can hear in the dark. This is life n it's not much when there's no flame to be sparked. No connection that teaches without trying to enjoy something more. All bcuz I refuse to trust emotion walls back out the door. As I chase it into lalaland where it every so often decides to hunt. N I'm the one not wanting to be found in my own mind do beneath the trans of rested grunts. Damn if that place n this one aren't exactly the same. As I toss in bed not wanting either to know my name. So the taunting isn't a chatter the stalks me like prey. Whispering in the shadows of how no one ever, as is, remains. N there's that unwanted drift of let downs once again. Playing in alternate worlds that I can't say is my happy place bcuz I cannot make a stand. I'm unable to look into a set of eyes n allow them to lie. The pain it causes is dagger to life. A shattering hour glass that ends it all. As I am motionless n agitated by the slightest fall. Of the descending into luv where truths wait to change. Knowing to die alone is ones own fate. As even years are dried up n never are to be shed in acceptance of how things must be. When all I wanna do is have one good fuckin dream. To come true before the inevitable takes me away. Lost in a foreverness of nothing that replicates the expressions upon my face...

What am I to do?

I'm always gonna be there. Is that what you wanna hear? No matter what you do. Ignoring the red flags, signs n clues. Even of you act like a bafoon. Likes it's a normal thing to put up with you. Imma stay n hero you fix yourself. Bcuz I neither even luv meds help. Is that what I'm supposed to do? Allow you to hit triggers that disrupts my own free will living loose. Just to go along with everything you refuse to fix like you're someone to give to another. For me to carry the weight I do even do for me so you can feel better. What is it you want me to say? That we're unconditional to the point that it's gonna be tougher everyday. Do you think you're deserving of what it is I have in my chest? As you parade about whenever you feel a certain way n fall short of giving me your best. Am I to put myself in another situation that provokes my ugly side bcuz your wanna be typical? When you look yourself in the mirror, so you not seem delusional? What is it you see in your reflection that tells you it's ok to act out however you wish? N I'm expected to go with the flow of the malarkey spat from your lips. When shit isn't so great n times are challenged by the friendship standing in place. What am I to do when you forget that I exist as that one person that is left to decide what to feel upon my face? Are you seriously that self indulged as to dismiss reality bcuz your emotions you cannot control? N where does that leave me as it's you that begins to fold? Is it who you see before you is someone easily replaceable? Or that I won't have with in myself by letting you disrespect me on levels like your irreplaceable. What thought in you hear speaks of what it'll take to gain someone's trust? As the follow up question would be, how do you maintain it when opening up to luv? Do you understand some things are not good for the heart? Let alone the mind that sets off vitals through the memory playing it's part. Where's the I don't mean you no harm as long as I do not havta defend myself? Bcuz of you're all about yourself I'll havta protect me from the you you turn into as I'm no longer felt. Whether it's briefly or long term will be determined by the depths coming to surface. Is all the chaos truly worth it to sit around with a hurry face. All bcuz you refuse to evolve into an individual that has a lil compassion in your eyes. I'm truthfully curious to where I actually got into your life...

Open your eyes...

Don't close your eyes. I don't want you dreaming of me. Stay awake n look at who you're with. Memorize them as they taste your lips. Fight the urge to drift of away from reality. Be present in your life while making luv with sexuality. Please stay where you are so you to can have a better life. I'm not one to think of when the hot n heavy begins to grind. Remain in his stare I insist you to be awake. As open as your heart can be so he too doesn't receive something fake. Give him that n be where you are. Do not come searching for me in your head when orgasms bang like alarms. It's not fair when another is giving you that part of themself to chase memories. You'll only create the creation of their very own insanity. Lay still if you must or act out fantasies that turn your on. Whatever you do acknowledge the fact of emotions worn. As facial expressions do not lie to a friend in the middle of pleasure so fine. You havta force yourself to be in your moment for you are no longer mine. Whether it's fuck or fight, allow yourself to gain new desires. It's more then your face he craves when the body heats as if there's a fire. Be one with the flame that lights up your depths in the night. N no matter how much your eyes roll into the back of your head you cannot wish it were me with your when moans turn into sighs. Open your eyes n show him what you want. N if he ain't down for your kinda fun maybe he ain't the one. Just don't use me as a decoy so your jollies can pop. I'm not the one you should be imaging when you mount him up top. Feel him n not a had been as me. Remember how I chose to leave. Hate fuck him if you must if that's your thing. Until your passion drowns out the pain n your hormones begin to sing...

Tasty...

When you look at them n an overwhelming crave creates a insatiable thirst to suck the flavor from their skin. As to feel them sigh n moan from lips crawling upon them with a grin somehow sinks in. With fingertips that memorizes their curves through a touch that possesses desires at their finest rush. Knowing the best of them is below the surface where lusts dig to transform into the presence of luv. Pulling self in further than deep can ever rub her g-spot as acceptance is earned with every movement of truth. As emotions come to life in the mingle of of sexualities foreplay to become closer than thoughts can imagine a use. Feeling trembles in their shivers provoked by caresses barely stroking nerves exposed in free wills satisfaction. When all it takes is to witness them move as the eyes follow the physical details of them swaying as a lovely distraction...

Looking at others...

The wonder of boredom plucks a nerve. As the thought of how soon would it be hear a difference in words. If presence was daily in another's life. As self got lost as their comfort that captures their mind. It's the now gonna reoccur once they've had enough? Slowly letting go of what's just may come to be. Simply having a limit to how long they can entertain someone like me. When always being around is an uneasy feeling lingering within. With days of wanting someone or something else that hang on their grin. Tugging on their heart as of it isn't willing to show me I'm worth the ingoing thrill. When about what time is it that they reclaim their will? Turning their cheek so it's me that cannot be seen. Do people ever truly crave any other or is it a dream? A circumstantial visit to distill they're loneliness briefly until they fall to maintain interests. Spatting on about how everyone's the same. Playing victim to played or game. Demanding others to believe they're so much different than the rest. But do they have it in them to live n chase what's in there very own chest? Finding someone not so far fetched from the Treasury in which they create. Or are they never happy with the terms to give a lil more than walking away from what's intimate? Am I to feel issues like I'm a waste of breath taken everyday? As curiosities linger on with the changing of every other face. After the physical attraction wears off n truths surface of who's who. Is there a such thing as I am more than someone's fool? That self is looked prior to luv ever opening up. Or is it that my legacy to own how I'm forever a once was?

Looking at it from the reverse angle of how others must feel when I step away...

Idk...

What are you doing for income bcuz I can't do it in my fuckin own. But then again, I could. But why would I need you? I don't expect you to max the fuck out. But are you capable of putting in if live as we know it. Knowing it ain't easy being in one's own. Tell me, what's going on in your world that might create a crave. A server of, yes!!! A lil bit of let's see how things go. I'm butt order either so just be you. Winging a moment to take a chance, at least that's what I'm told. To say aside the mental perfections n accept someone for why they are. As that's something I've forgotten how to do. But I'm open to the reality of giving in. To see if you have what it takes to last til the end of time. Butt I'm sure you're asking yourself, who am I? Returned, I'm just. Fighting the urge to get close. Afraid of who I met in to bribe the won't one all over again. N I'm scared. Yeah I'm a man but fuck you. I'm human first. Bare n naked n outta shape. I don't feel like much anymore. I'm not what I used to be. But I have it in me just so you know. N yet, I'm not just for anyone who comes along. But don't let that scare you off. If luv to know if you have a moment to relate. Without speaking of what's already come to pass. I'm not interested in where you've been. It's who is that intrigues me so just be who you are. Ah with knowing a Lil about me, where do you do m stand life? Wtf have your done to better your chances on your own? I'm not wrong sir asking. Not the least one but. Who in the fuck are you? Bcuz I've sacrificed enough. Like your, I don't need another weight holding me back. That is if you're the type that believes without treason the way I happen to do. I don't want you to be anything I've ever known. Not everything I've never have. I'm just, so be whatever your truths can prove. N maybe we can help each other feel like we actually fuckin belong. Without the questions of who in the fuck are you the way you are? As we live to be. Together as a force bcuz we're both ok on our own. Able to reach the better life that calling or names. From a day but as of we could every come so near. With all the bs of who's really who clouding the mind. It's confusing to me so I could only imagine what this world looks like to you. With everyone just wanting to be entertained! Not knowing it goes both ways so smiles cling to moments willing to live. Or have we forgotten in the mix of doing what we havta do that emotion does exist? Don't tell me I'm the only one that faded into the shadows waiting on a fuckin stream that doesn't exist. Or do, I can take it. But if you feel me, I'm here in the wonder running through my mind. As honest as I can speak on the contents of who you do not know in me. In the same as I haven't a clue of you did to we fit into a world that hides to save self....

Tell the truth...

Friends. What is one? Not just the average person that what's the best for self. Not someone in another level in which without them live comes undone. A better half. A please don't go off it were just that. Bests. From an inner place that never seems to quit. Placing all bets to mingle into the tickle of loosened ribs. What is one? How can one tell while being in the run? Of the depths that have in the balance. Waiting to be seen hung from talons. Ready to take flight if the possibility exists. Wanting sighs breathed upon their lips. Who in the fuck are they? In the coming n going of the transformation of faces in a cycle that never fuckin ends. What intent is ever meant? Tell someone who cannot tell what the fuck is going on. A drifter losing the fight falling into porn.... Fuck. Shit. Damn it. It's there a such thing as luv?

I'm no one...

If I make you fight for me, walk away.  You're better than pleasing the expressions upon my face. For if I was in it for the long haul you'd be living instead of grabbing at memories in the loose. That is if it were you in which my inner makings move. Know I know you're worth more than me shitting down. Quietly spoken, I'm just, n that's all. A man that's means something to wind up a stranger once again. N I'm cool with it bcuz I've learned how to feel my smile even though it's upside down. I'm a survivor of luv's constant let downs. N you'll feel me as a thing of the past soon enough. So go with the release that's come to light. As the rambling smacks gums from babbling lips without a rhythm. Just let go n live your life. You'll be happier than awakening to me in the mornings light. Fuck me n move on to who it is that will comfort your heart. Thing is , if I try I'll never be enough so fuck all the charm. Yeah it's raw but it's real ASF. N if you believe anything in my words, trust. I'm no one to miss no matter how much you feel I am. But I still sit back. Root you on like I'm your number one fan. Bcuz that's things about me that has compassion in the way I live. Do you, don't keep me pull you into you during onward lost n clinching your fists. There's better than me if you'd just give it a chance. So please, seat as you dance. Think of me as a stepping stone for you to grow. A piece of the reason to move on for you to believe in hope. As it's ok to forget who I am. Bcuz I'm just a blink in time on your way to dig you toes into the sand...

As useless as it gets...

Problem is, I don't feel like I'm worth a fuck. Issue states, I'm not what anyone wants. Alcohol says, I'm a lost cause. But too hear me say it, I'm ok.

But the fucked up thing is, I'm ok with being alone. Sadly I wish it wasn't so. Behind closed doors I'm safe from relations turning out to be another loss. N as bad as ifi luv to be, I don't wanna be known.

No one will hurt. Not one person can hate me. People will just go on about their lives. N I, lemme tell ya, I can dream.

Bcuz it send that's all I'll ever do. So far gone in my own lol world. Resisting the thrill of another wanting in. It's me n me alone without a familiar girl.

One to share memories with. I'm a fairytale that never lasts. As it's needs over wants until the day I die. Damn that's deeper than I'd like to bury my past.

With a lone over luv mentality that most don't understand. Thy heart is willing to spend life holding out. Reconditioned to expect there's no one coming anytime soon. N I don't pout.

My thing is I truly don't give a fuck. People are who they are. N I don't fit in to the chaos of fitting into the bs that isn't me. N believe me when I say, that shit is fucking harsh.

For I wanna play but I can't seem to find a groove. I'm just moving to a different rhythm that's more unique. Hidden as I hide behind closed doors. As a believer in the joys of of grief.

Twisted I am n I own my own. Distant n confirmed by realities drift. But what I'd die to endure is a real chance. To feel they endless pain placed on my in a single kiss...

Glazed...

The sweat on your body. The way it makes you seem glazed. It creates a crave I've never felt. N I want you all over my face. As you slide down my torso. Raising my inner cores heat. Into we sizzle as one. Damn, for you I have a need. Come getting the deep. As pores leak with excitement. Enticing my very own curiosity. All by looking at you wet asf. I wanna collide with you with sensitivities. As we glide in motion's thrill. Pulsating with a riding heart rate. Touching n feeling our way around every curves edge. Without a shadow playing in the night. As it would be just you n I perspirating as we move to coming from the chest.  Rolling in the splashes upon the bed. Losing sight of everything that isn't us. I'm the dark as we glimmer as if we glow. Shinning with a shimmer like a terrible in the eyes destination of luv...

All natural...

Don't say shit. Just be. I don't wanna hear about this or that. Be free. Let go of exaggerations. Over compensations. Remy on demonstrations. For an equivalent evaluation. Live. Trust in yourself. Allow who you are to define a thought. One that's created by how you're actually felt. By loosening up to the moment. Every day as they come one at a time. Chance the reason to be seen. See beyond the hype. Focus on who's within. Surfacing to relate. Able to define as is. Expressing truths upon the face. With no pressure needed to adapt. Attempting to add a new friend to life. Side by side n back to back. In true form refusing to hide. Giving stares when the day settles down. Evolving into kisses as night rolls in. Then come morning to be curled up. Laying in comfort of the win win...

Upright...

One knee down at times. Slow breaths catch up with life. Lifting for soles to stand firm upon the ground. The solo act weighs on hands damn near bound. Struggle, fight, gain an inch. Lil by lil attempting not to flinch. Relentless n using fear as a booster to overcome. No surrender, no defeat is the moto with fists clutched. As it's back to the corner for another round every single day. Rebooting with blinks that close eyes to dream of a better way. Doing ding taking blow after blow with a bob n weave. Swinging with precise precision, pow, bam, sleep. Watching tasks like opponents laying motionless one by one. Yet never bragging with character remaining hushed. Knowing at any moment a set back can come strolling along. Avoiding pour decisions that bang a gong.

Use me...

Inappropriately feel your way around. Touch me in ways you're free to create sighs from my mouth. Do you n enjoy how the urge excites the mood. Get a grope n a caress until fingertips claw me loose. as if digging me outta my own fuckin skin. So I to can come from within as you taste me with your grin. Year n fondle every inch of desire trembling grin the glide of your nails. Then kiss n licky lick hidden moans. Crawl upon me n whisper in my ear of of the things that didn't carry tones. Play as you wish as you insert the tip. Slowly sliding down into the descend where we meet as one. Moving to the motion of how life becomes of luv. Grinding n twisting, take me whole. Deep n hard ASF use me as pants through the air roam. Do we you please n don't stop until you're done. N when you are imma roll you over n give passion a purpose to come undone.

The phase...

 The ache, the wait n the wonder. Seems sense can't be made of how the drift wanders. With how being the positive side of desperation. Yet at night the darkness doesn't move to respirations. Alone, hidden n aware of choices that create the heartache. The mind, the thoughts, provokes love to avoid the games. As friends from strangers fall back into the lost. Feeling the emotional attempt to access sacred nerves with a touch so soft. Around n around n around the faces transform into memories stuck in the head. I'm the descending of protecting selfish wants of the chest. The meet, the greet, the chance of yes or no. Red flags n triggers end the moments on the go. So onwards the picking asks, what is wrong with me? But the mirror had no answers when others create their own dreams. Their own expectations, their own motivations, their own lack of working on themselves. As the shun is the step away from the fans ol routine. Not wanting to help cover up their past seeking a new thing. Bcuz they do not reflect self in any way shape or form.  N yet, desire will forever want so much more. To break the cycle, feel the passion n find comfort in finding something real. The hmm allows  curiosity to reach for someone healed. For relations to witness luv  last. Just after the phase of who's who under masks...

The crackling...

Burning wood creating the mood. Lights shut the fuck off for watching the fire as it moves. Dancing as free as motion can sway in the breeze. Then there's you, n then there's me. Closer than the logs touched my the flame. After this moment I'll never be the same. As the smell of the sizzle ignites our smile. Only getting up to adjust the wooded pile. Popping as we listen in between whispers heard. The room is lit just right. Dim n calm as we come to life. With the scent of the char provoking a kiss. Yes, it's u n I lip to lip. Slowly taking in a friend wanting to fall. As eyes catch the reflection of the blaze in a pause. Smooth like intent naturally feeling the flow. I believe with u I enjoy being alone. Wrapped up in a perfect scenario opening up. The way it should be as the crackle awakens the beginnings of luv...

Vital to the heart...

Who are you kissing when you close your eyes? When lips are met in the middle of luv's life. Scary visual image to you run to in your mine? Who can't you look at who before you deserving of your time? What could be better than the physical presence of sighs? Released face to face on which never tell lies. Until darkness captures the essence of sight. Taking away from the beauty of a true reason of why. Is it the color of the rhetnas or their design? Maybe the shape that isn't the same as a prior hype? The stare is vital to the heart to witness  words say, "you're mine". So tell it the way "use" can comprehend what's on the line. Where do you go when you shut out the real world as you hide? 

Chisel...

You could slide my way across that cool in your heart. With a  chisel to sculpt a masterpiece with your charm. So I can see if the ice being broken has an angle in which I've never known. Through a lil convo to speak of what the eyes hide from what they're willing to show. Hoe thick is your frozen grounds in which you stand upon. Bcuz you can good your breath if your head's in the clouds with a mentality so far gone.  Melt, n lower the platform for the possibility chancing a train of an us. Strangers are only do NCIC they haven't met as of yet. As friends come outta nowhere the hear the drip from the chest. Allowing emotion to move again in ways hands can't grasp. But too quench luv's thirst is the purpose of such impact. Skate your way into my space n lay down your blade. It's ok if you sit for a bit to relate...

Twisted grunts...

I feel like a monster. I believe I'm something that's untamed. A presence that's already spoken for. Something not for all the games. I'm different. An issue that's frustrates most. A likeable yet stubborn stare. I ain't the one but I wanna be. Only if there was someone in which I cared. Then maybe the other side of me could be seen. But until then I'm just a creature in shadows. Hiding just beyond the light. Calm in stagnant but mellow. Parading not what I ain't. Shielded bcuz others cannot evolve. Living with excuses I believe I'm alone. Yet I know that's how the world revolves. Pointing bitty fingers to remain safe n sound. In a corrupt voice behind closed doors. I'm a thing that cannot be explained. N I'm not the only one craving more. From the swells of the eyes died a up. To the mind that witnesses trigger coming on. From the heart I rest in my own free joy. Lonely n drifting, seeking some sorta norm. I I'm not what others think. Or maybe I am as they cling to the knowing. Tampered with, yet, reincarnated to live again. But they know, sexually I need the controlling? Ate up n smiling within I'm no one special. Just another face hidden away. Wanting I am off something on another level...

Help me...

Are you gonna help me? I need someone to help me escape. Don't tell my secret. N trust I'm not playing games. I'm just caught in the mix of the simple life n no drama allowed. It's peaceful here n I'm content ASF. But if honesty was too speak, I could use a friend. Someone in more than attracted to but can relate with as long more important than luv. Can you get me? Hiding n a wasted lose of a life. Rotting slowly waiting on the desperation of hope. Wanting to exit the depths of my own twisted mind. Can you help me surface n live like there's no tomorrow? As the real me is exposed on true form. Fuck, I don't even know who you are. N that scares every bit of willingness back into porn. It's just, who are you? Why me off so others that can give you what you seek? N yet, yell me in not useless. Maybe I'll believe it if words are what they seem. I'm not a lost cause. I'm just a romantic caught up without someone to enjoy who I am. As faces rotate in a cycle that express intent. Help me open up n I'm be something along the lines of daaaamn! Break through my stubbornness n refuse to move outta my way. I know the work put in goes both ways, but if it isn't real? If I'm what's just an attraction none the less. Tell me. I'm listen to what you have to confess.  Just be honest n be present if you can comprehend use. I need not feel lesser than my own worth. Please don't put me through the same ol tests. I'm subtle n humble to say the least. But I'll stand my ground so my smile can shine. Help me the way I could help you evolve. We're not dealing with endless time...

Know me...

Luv me. That is if you can. No one's been able to stick around. N others cut short of the emotion here by the hand. Honestly, only ones ever gotten in. Outta multiples over n over again. It ain't bragging so don't go there. I'm just not for just anyone n yes, I do play fair. So imagine all the luv I have bottled up. If only you could reach it. But I'm not being an azz I'm any sense. I'm just truthful as to see if it's you that fits. I'm just a unique type that goes with the flow. A lil demanding sexually but that's another thing. Then again, if you're not submissive why even try. As there's more to me in depths wanting to breathe. Like me first n the possibilities are too be made. Moving details around to adjust to your own specific type. Intriguing what I hush with a ssh that believing in actions playing out. But ain't that life? Getting entangled in the mix of dancing with the fire. Trying not to get burnt. Creating a chuckle that laughs at true intent. N at the same time wanting to be heard. Feel me loosen up to your hands getting to know the physical me. As patience waits on use in my eyes. Tell it like you give it. How am I as beautiful as you without sight?

Here n there...

Can I just hold on to you. Just every now n again. I don't want much. Just a lil comfort to share a smidge of luv. I ain't trying to complicate things. Don't wanna take up your time. I'm just.... Ya know, asking for second of your time. To feel you pressed against my chest. Sighing. I won't tell no one. N I'm not lying. Damn if I can't hold it together. But I'm damned if the heart isn't allowed to move. As I know there's no such thing as forever. All I want is a here n there. When you can find a moment to need me. I'm be your fall back. That sense off everything that'll never leave. One piece at a time n I won't expect a fuckin thing. Just put me to use however you choose. I'm willing to take part. To be the settling if that's my only shot. N maybe one day, you'll accept me in your heart. As a friend that never said no. Waiting on the shadows watching you get shattered over n over again. Coming to your calling of every other luv'r that left you swinging in the breeze. I'm that man. The one you cannot see. Yet count on when the fall needs stood back up. For you. I'm unconditionally sidestepped n prolly without every having a chance at luv. But the worth is mine too lose, only if you knew. How is be the safety net that catches your emotions from dying alive. N as if you could tell, I'm in for life. For whatever you need I'm not hard to find...