Nights like this. When all is quiet. I feel myself ease into the silence. Past the darks abscence. Beyond the sights recollection. Findin out more about myself as I slip. Away from reallity. Behind the minds curtain. Losin touch. Deep in the hollow space around me filled with air. Bouncin off my skin. Brushin the hairs layin still. In moments like this I get lost. The better of me drifts. Calmin the level toughts beggin to rest. Still. Waitin to inter a place I don't understand. Within my head. As the motionless shadows hide from light. Sleepin in comfort. Oblivous to life. In my self awareness I cling to to patience. Helpin me relax for a bit. Clearin out settlin differences with this world. Becomin one. An individual breakin. Lackin sound. Slackin. Lastin awake long enough to steal another second. Takin from time another peice of me. Alert n away from dreams that claim reason. Fallin slowly to the peace. Eyes clingin to the comfort in a stare. Noticin the contact in between illusions n depth. Collidin in the middle of what can not be seen. Where the breeze sounds like a ssshh. Before I fall to sleep I get the meanin. Livin to live. Dyin to stay alive. I lay within myself. Peekin out. Wonderin with great presense. How long can I hold on. Its the balance of purpose. Advisin the irrefutable evidence of emotion. I am here fightin for my chance to stay awake. At one with the opperunity. Lengthenin the day. Refusin the early mornin that takes me away..............
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Monday, November 19, 2012
Damned
This is the way it goes.
Rollin off tongues n exposed.
Filth splits into endless confusion.
Left standin still with relentless proof.
The way it is will be.
Meanin bent n puncturin the stream.
Grippin sounds released by the neck.
Self has been carefully checked.
It is what it is.
Nerves cracked n chipped.
Words heard pauses in time.
Droppin emotions in parrellel lines.
It's the way that fits.
Bein the unwanted misfit.
Feelin out of my own place.
Rememberin the uncertain taste.
This is it, in the way.
Is that really my name?
Perfect lil twist slammed.
I guess I'll be damned!
One in the same
Even the pains, worth it in the mornin.
There isn't a sinlge thing about u that's foreign.
It jus makes for the good times, when we're huuurtin.
Somehow it works out we're not all perfect.
I am everywhere you've been, in your dreams.
I belong to ur arms, I know u feel me.
One in the same, here's to us madly in luuuv.
Id have it no other way, but to endure ur irresistable tooooouch.
Its us til or dreams come true.
Always together findin our own use.
Til the gray sets into our roots.
There's no way-aye, we can ever lose.
U know I'm good at fillin my shoes.
Only for-ore u know who-o.
I'll always speak the truth.
This luv always n forever will feel neeew.
U got me singin ooh ooh oohs.
I luv when u do what u do-oo.
Who is it I am to u-oo.
Packed with a punch u r my boo-oooo-oo.
U own me til the end of time.
So happy to call u mine.
Down to every la-ast dro-op.
My luv will never sto-op.
Here n now I stand for u-u.
Ailowy-u.
U n I will always be-e.
Fulfillin all our long lost dreeeams.......
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Somewhere it went
Roaming as a misfit, trying to blend in.
Standing out of times way, within the skin.
Like a soar thumb, noticed without intent.
Normality misplaced, somewhere it went.
Fitting in seems wrong, as avoided is real.
Never the same with others, becoming the feel.
Alone and drifting away, claimed by unique.
Behind the scenes, irrelevant to dream.
Here i live
Here I live.
I am here.
Staring at self.
In a mirror.
Now has come.
Dividing self.
Choosing sides.
Without any help.
In my face.
Reading earned lines.
Deciding my fate.
I can not hide.
Close to the image.
Following movement.
Copy cat motions.
Determined nuisance.
To become me.
Weeding out filth.
Changing reality.
Lifes on tilt.
Direction turning.
Noticed aches.
Back at me.
Never to late.
Asking self.
Questions consumed.
Relating answers.
I stand groomed.
Its me peeking back.
Finding a way.
Pausing dreams.
Redefining a gain.
As a man.
I hear my tone.
Crisp lil noise.
I'm all alone.
Searching for life.
Under the skin.
Tangled in thought.
Here I've been.
Loosely lingering.
Working on flaws.
Under the gun.
Time clinging with claws.
Reading the eyes.
In much disbeleif.
Length of stares.
Un-noticed team.
I'm at war inside.
Good intensions fall.
For better or worse.
Claiming me as mine.
And caring less.
Reasons sit still.
Afraid to speak.
Scared of something.
I can hear them breath.
My task is a battle.
All mine to make.
As difficult as it is.
Its a chance I have to take.
I must find my place.
So I invade my depths.
One foot at a time.
Slow crreping baby steps.
My decision I will witness.
Arranging and in line.
Self as a whole.
Caught in a bind.
My mvp is at risk.
Losing peices of me.
Chipped and nicked.
On a reclaiming spree.
My friend that insists.
Peeking from a reflection.
Inforces a choosing pick.
So here I live.
Am here alive.
Living my own.
Making up my mind.
Digging for answers
What matters the most?
When honsety collides.
Reshaping the truth.
When tongues have been tied.
What's the purpose of 2 as 1?
When 1's lips pucker.
Tearing away an image.
Taking another for a sucker.
What reason could replace the pain?
As confusion reaches its point.
Dividing the well beings truth.
When emotions grow void.
What common ground lasts?
Preserved through repeated actions.
When fingers visualze peace.
When a whole needs satisfaction.
Test me not
Don't do me the favor of easing my time.
Give it to me straight or eliminate your find.
I ain't got it in me to always wonder what you do.
It will only have my love coming unglued.
Test me not for I am not as of yet ingorant.
Wasting my trust is a unreasonable loss spent.
I care not to live a feeling unworthy of 1.
So don't tempt me to evaluate you coming undone.
Who is to say I would have the patience of mind.
I don't like the games that are apparent you hide.
Do you realize I am in this til the end?
Do not ruin the rarity of becoming freinds.
For your past is showing in the depths of ur eyes.
You can not see me behind the untold lies.
Changing your story of what you tell me to believe.
Do you know actions release intension to its knees?
Do not partake in moments in a selfish half step.
Memories are on the line of tripping regret.
Secrets provoke reality parting ways.
Do you have it in you to live by your name?
Know your place and I will know mine.
And the maybe, bodies can cling to the night.
Secrets
Secret worlds as one, individuals rise.
Living for selfs interests, truth hides.
Untold reasons give a face, changing minds.
Not worth a partnership, honesty lies.
Holding out on purpose, destroying time.
Spending trusts claim, emotions slide.
Together wedged apart, living a secret life.
Behind the back, hidden from the eyes.
Constantly unconfidable, questions of why.
Head on collision, loosening the ties.
Beating around the bush, answers collide.
Telling when necessary, a need to live mine.
Two way street passing, noticing with sight.
Alls out for self, losing the fight.
Sneakiness punching the heart, deep inside.
Here figuring out, anothers ablilty so blind.
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Down goes 101
Down goes 101.
Now on the spiraling run.
Dippin behind unclaimed shadows.
Swinging behind the emptiness of echoes.
Danger danger!
Here comes whatever.
Slipping sideways avoiding the cracks.
Back to the good ol' days, reinventing the past.
Awayward argh.
Drifting downwind, sailing apart.
Risking the winds change in direction.
Misplacing miles of ground raising evaporation.
Loose n on the run once again.
Ready for the getting of abscent gain.
Watch yourself I'm out n twisting reallity.
Turning on selfs abused chance of normallity
Friday, November 16, 2012
Be gone
When u figure it out, good luck with that.
When grown things settle in ur ways.
Keep up the good work, n keep it steppin.
There aint a friend here for a knife slicin the neckin.
Be gone lil one unable to reason with reality.
I have somethin better to do than immaturity.
No luv lost by no means if u catch me driftin.
Jus do u away from me standin backside not listenin
This is that moment I could care less, walk.
Be gone, last in ur self richestness losin cause.
Its ur life that I want no part of til the end of time.
I'll stay situated pausin for those I actually luv as mine.
Ur unwanted presense is behind me as we speak.
N as u can tell I'm as firm as dried up tears.
I'm relieved to let u know this is it for us.
I'm free of ur dumbfounded bullshit which is a plus.
Somewhere along the lines
Rubbed raw behind the eye lids by the brail like images burstin with meaning from the pupils that are unread by this worlds misunderstanding of a man puttin in the time to prove himself as he earns his respect in the distant future somewhere along the lines of hopin to make it that far down his own timelines path of uncertainty claimin the best of some that never enjoy the length of a lifetime waitin on no one for it itself is everlastin as we as men r not!
Thursday, November 15, 2012
One by one
Rounding up old memories exacution style.
One by one shot down & tossed in a pile.
Wanting to be rid of the nonsense of lingering thoughts.
Annihilating the existance spoiled within at all costs.
Irrelevant they must pass with times inconvenience.
The repeated images plague my rotting annoyance.
Click click squeezing single falling shells drop with relief.
I can hear the begging sounds ripple the deciest.
Ooh the joy blasting back at shivering nightmares.
Clearing tension settled no longer needed nor fair.
Filtered filth finally released with forced power.
Goodbye longing torcher suckin syllables devowered.
The last laugh is completed with casings set free.
Blowing away the clinging waste attached to my dreams.
Good riddens unwanted moments remembering the pain.
Deliberate with intent I claim me cleansed of the game.
Understand?
Its ur way! Yeah, I know..
Sad to say it, yet fact is this.
My luv has been abused.
& you can't feel me twist.
Imagine that if you would.
Given, truly not to just anyone.
In return, knowing they to should.
One that does not understand.
You see, I'm peicin 2 n 2 together.
& realities settling in, fast.
I need protection from my own shelter.
Truths are told, not everyones lies.
I'm not that nieve, I just smile.
Times telling a tale, it is that one thing.
One in which, that has an honest dial.
Bending breaks, causing the unhealable.
Shown I have, yes I have seen the lines.
This love is your gain, your puppet.
Living with strings made of silent cries.
Wow, the one thing I never thought.
Crossed by you, yeah I know some things.
Yet I watch love, pour from my hands.
Like water, in a fountain with birds chirping.
It is getting away, one day to run out.
As you sit in your world, made for you.
Not even I can enter, but I try.
Understand this my one, I love you!
Try & make sense of that, unplug your ears.
That someone is falling apart at your fingertips.
Taking blows of selfish behavior, yet why?
As slices rip the heart, & beats are skipped.
Words chill in repeated form, freezing emotions.
Scared I hault, affraid of you in many ways.
This is not loves will, collapsing trust.
Yet it is not me that's at fault, not placing blame.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
You crossed my path
It was you. Standing alone inside my mind. Waiting for reason. In time to unwind. There you stood. Patiently still. You created a desire. Now ready to spill. I've seen you for years. Walking in a sway. Lingering about. As I wondered why you stayed. The comfort of your presense. Lended and invented questions self asked. As you stuck to my thoughts. Forever misplaced in my past. Your memory took control. Needing the confort of you. Not knowing where you were. I came looking for use. Why the periotical visions? What was the purpose? Who have you become? Where is us? Here and there I day dreamed. Thinking of your face. Laughing with your smile. In another place. Images never quit. The past still remained. You lived within me. But for what gain? Back when long ago. You crossed my path. Ever since. I've watched you stare at me back. Invading my days at will. Pausing whatever I did. Taking a second to remember. Of a life we never lived. I was lost. You we're gone. I didn't know why. But you remained to belong. Comforting the untold. And I didn't know why. All I knew was you walked with a stroll. Covering ground gathered. Deep inside my mind. Hoping one day to find you. As I layed down my sights. The mystery was there. Yet you were not. I had to know. So I came looking for a lot. Found and seen I rested. It was hard to let go. Only if I could. You still flowed. What was this? Why am I drawn? I witness your realities bliss. And I was truly lost. I couldn't explain my own emptiness. Something was wrong. Not to speak to you. I realized this months after. When it took you to speak to you know who. The questions answered themselves. Through converations length. I knew for a fact. I finally put the peices together of my dreams. Fate spoke with a giggle. Clearifying all. In that moment I felt me slip. As I began to fall. Now I cling with an easy touch. Hoping to remain. To be a part of your life. More than times stain. It was such a long time ago. Seems like forever. When imy eyes connected with you. As you mad everything so much better. So imagine if you will. Understand this stories depth. You are the one. My every breath. The completions been made. We're here and now. To me that's a thing of beauty. Within passions sound. Ilu1! Like no other. You own my hearts calling. Always in love only with you forever.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
A moment
When's the last time interest has taken place?
Stealin a moment to read n turn a page.
Jus to see who it is luv is directin itself towards.
Findin out about the one in which there is so much more.
Enjoyin a noticed moment to realize what it is u like.
Within the make up of another more than along for the ride.
Away from self spendin time on someone elses comfort.
R u capable of knowin whom it is ur with that's truly in ur core?
I am! Am I?
Am I what in ur mind.
Jus a thought over the line.
Un-noticed by actions.
Shown repeated reactions.
Am I him silently still?
That one easin a chill.
Turned on by luv.
Trustin in such.
Who is me to u?
Inside ur chests use.
Lies n pain squeezin a pure heart.
Weakened by sliced scars.
Where within am I?
Belongin to a corner.
A misplaced emotion.
Over n over in the commotion.
Is it I that is a dream?
Told otherwise in screams.
Am I worthy of ur lifetime?
Taken seriously I hide.
Is who I am so perfect?
Words slung n slurpin.
While I am standin here.
Speak me outta fear.
Now n when shall I tell.
N be able to continue as I fell.
How does eyes accept.
Peekin in out the outside.
Interested on the in?
Untold actions with closed chins.
Y unseen for so long?
Really done wrong.
I am a moment enjoyed.
Who is it u destroy?
In self no ones allowed.
I am what with a towel?
It's you of all
I got a question.....................
You're my Woman, & I am your Man.
What better way to say, beside you is where I stand.
I belong to your life my one, my first crush.
For better or worse, you'll have a freind is a must.
You alone, lives in my touched souls core.
Everyday in luv, more than the day before.
Continuing to show trust is, realities gift from me to you.
I know for a fact, "purely uncondtionally true".
I am your partner, forever here in life to help.
Enjoying you here, you're so much more than felt.
I found my one, the one I can not live without.
It's you of all, words easily flowing from thy mouth.
Someone you can stand, as easy as it is to relate.
One without judgement, nor the childish games.
I stand for our meaning, for the luv of like.
Through a conversation desired, I give you my pride.
Always I will need you, to know you are loved.
A companion putting in the time, grasping the rush.
Best freinds with every beneifit, your back is covered.
I'm living my chance with you, different from others.
I am me, a man wanting you as you.
As you are a woman, & I still can't get over we said I do.
We're a match perfectly sain, connected by the joy in fate.
Indeed I am drawn to you, destined to understand the wait.
Yet it is your undenyable presense, pleasing the comfort.
I have the oppertunity, the gain of my honesty that pours.
Til death do us part, stretching lifes spinning hurry.
Living to see the old & gray, memories filled with a story.
? How do you look at it ?
Monday, November 12, 2012
Tied n gagged.
Takin it mad.
Hair yanked n held.
Choked with a belt.
Invadin ur ass.
Best I ever had.
Sexy n thin.
Perfect fuckin sin.
Beggin n muffled.
Laced n ruffles.
My very own peice.
Hearin u scream.
Makin u cry.
Whimpers u can not hide.
Hard I go deep.
Anal stuffed cheap.
Lay still n bare me.
Become my fantasized dream.
Faster I pound.
Louder the sounds.
Animal like intensions.
N did I forget to mention.
When I'm done imma do it again.
Feel me I am man.
Stretchin ur ass.
Errect til the last.
Drop of nut fills ur walls.
Leakin as I pull down my balls.
Abused n tampered.
Never pampered.
I'll have my way.
Over n over as I play my game.
Dark truth
On the dark side of the shadow lays the truth.
Planted n burried away from the lights noose.
With its back against the world it's dragged through the pain.
Scrappin its existance along, disappearin under the rain.
Strugglin to show face, seasons frawn due to time.
Self made dungeon intrappin lies in the mind.
Unable to set aside right from wrongs doin crossed.
It lives in a hidden word where reality is at a pause.
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Differences met
Breakin silence in front of conversation.
Calm n collective as grown as easin relations.
Directin simplicity with mutual understandin.
Callin out to freindship worth a heart landin.
On the table divided as equals to partake.
Minds allowed to forgivingly release in sake.
Holdin grounds respect talkin of positions stand.
All in all just because two as one wants to withstand.
The tests of connection through communications reality.
Starin purpose of need in the eyes avoidin dualality.
Realizin truth in expressions takin the time to relate.
In a collective aspect pleasin the consumin debate.
Bits n peices buildin length of lists.
Read with bent wrists flippin pages.
Fingers releantless findin restlessness.
Twists of read scripts of carelessness.
Fists interferin with the balance of the beast best.
Causin emotional weakness as the fury insists.
Speakin in written slangs curiousness.
Leavin actions seen n gathered pists.
Hopeless n fightin for worths never endin bliss.
Standin unbroken as of yet livin priceless.
Gainin grounds of understandin unclinched fists.
Hatred at a hault for luv has taken interest.
Waitin out the outcomes damn near perfect peicefulness.
Avoidin confusions time of lost n bein missed.
Holdin in the mouths filths of misbehavin selfishness.
Tongue bruises of snipped words chewed n undished.
Knowin the power of hers n his unity as wished.
Workin differences in tweaks claimin yrs of lifes rest.
Alive n vibin to the beat turned on by switches.
Bouncin to the completions of satisfaction noticed.
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Flickerin thoughts dancin with the shadows along the walls.
Light bouncin with the enjoyment let loose for the better cause.
Movement releasin freedom of the mind with a moments gain.
Fire lit room crawlin of the imaginations will to avoid the rain.
Playin childishly under a ceilin catchin a peek at all the illusions.
Eyes settlin in on the confirmation that loneliness is a delusion.
Candles orchistrate the capability reachin for silent entertainment.
As time alone is the only thing taken as payment.
Ouch
Pain. Locked n stiff. Achin. Only if. Still. Movements abscent. Hurtin. Sinkin n inactive. Stretchin. Tightened tears. Frozen. Chokin cheers. Torchered. Go away. Clinchin. Tomorrow over today.
IN
Invade me. Push urself past the chains that bind me. Insist I am what u need. Allowin me to lay down a guard so untrustingly mean. Invite urself beyond the shell protected in time. Dig deep n force emotions to climb. Innitiate contact reachin for the light of luv. Land within me with a simple touch. Interact as self without selfs selfish game. Yet play with what it is u find to tame. Interest urself in somethin behind the eyes. As an individaul waitin on that one that is no lie. Indulge in a conversation made for two. Carryin a tone that eases the hearts use. Inforce ur truth upon my days. N watch how fast I would luv to stay.
Wooven
To react to luv is not the disigns intent.
Wooven in perfection everyone has someone sent.
Made for a timeline of memories.
Givin all with pure desires with honestly.
Not to act on own free will, the emeotions will run.
Stumblin over those in the peth of fun.
To luv is an unselfish way untold.
When the heart falls uncontrolled.
Uncoditionally provin through actions.
Never waitin on an reaction.
To be shown daily ones worth is the key.
Unlockin the depths of the souls dreams.
Every individual has a connection.
Lost n searchin for the walks mission.
To find such a person is a journey itself.
Without this person there is no help.
Its the pattern of cupids plan.
Constantly knowin where we stand.
Puttin an other before selfish needs.
N if needed gettin down on the knees.
Friday, November 9, 2012
Felt
Slowly creepin.
Into ur easin arms.
Held like no other.
Dazed by ur irresistable charm.
Sinkin in deeper.
Outlastin the moment.
Satisfaction soothin.
A touch so pleasant.
Feelin the luv.
Balanced n equal.
Fallin faster.
With a sinlge sequel.
Repeated when near.
Helplessly surrenderin.
Needin the truth.
Driftin in closer than lingerin.
Holdin on tight.
So complete with the embrace.
Livin forever.
Wrapped n safe.
Hearts connectin.
Felt through vibes.
Pulsatin beneath the skin.
As tears form a cry.
Leakin soft.
Landin n rollin.
Streams of gratification.
Havin the most of ballin.
Within a clutch.
A grasp that can not lie.
Finally accepted.
Thinkin, its about time..........
I wanna show u
I wanna show u a mans way.
As u break me down.
Give u reason to luv.
As meanin makes mountains from mounds.
Jus to take an interesest.
Settlin thy nerve.
Brakin bad habbits.
With somethin that's unheard.
One chance to give my worth.
Openin ur eyes.
So ur heart can last.
I jus simply wanna please.
To become as one in our time.
This man is willin to stand.
Backin ur emotions.
As a friend first I am.
Realize what u have before u.
Opened n able.
Enjoyin the finer things.
Dinner at our table.
Payin attention to details.
Livin a dream so real.
Happily bendin I will.
Tepmtin u to soften the steel.
Seekin within what it is u want.
What u longed for.
Acceptin the facts.
Deep within the core.
One is a purpose of luvs ability.
Findin what it is self is about.
Givin a key to the most precious.
As truth fights to get out.
I wanna show u true luv.
Earnin u everything.
Through the test of time.
Guided by the connection within rings.
Honestly as a man.
Comfirmin all questions that linger.
Easin the belief of friendship.
In a situation of him n her.
Partners bond to communicate.
Eye to eye as cupid intended.
Sharin passion with a sound.
Needin a luv that's endless....................
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
A mans
I recon this is the way I was meant spill.
With blood sweat n tears that drip with the thrill.
On a road puttin in the work away from luv.
Missin in action breifly doin a mans touch.
Worthy of time spent out is a passion filled.
Never skippin a beat stretchin colors of bills.
Days drag as nights ache with lonely need.
Jus to be close to the one that's a dream.
Clicks seem to repeat as grounds been traveled.
Nerves slowly tense as their bein raveled.
How much longer plays out in the mind.
Wantin to read somethin familiar in signs.
In a mans world lives a woman deeper than emotion.
Pullin him home as soon as possible with devotion.
Feelin the strain of miles seperatin truth.
Havin more reason to put the unexplainable to use.
Connected through long distance feenin the warmth.
Appreciatin the gain life has given behind homes doors.
Within a mans core will drives as wheels spin.
Allowin himself to show interest as he gives.
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Just unconditional time spent
Moving freely in the meaning of unconditional.
Standing right or wrong for my own intentional.
To luv with guilt is not luv I'm willing to accept.
Need me for you can never do without luv spent.
Confirm your status showing purpose in actions.
Do not feel sorry for me for I am not a reaction.
Resting in the middle of your very own luvs will.
Allow me to sit and rest with the ability to openly spill.
As real as emotions trigger the effect of worth.
Just be you in a time of becoming one with more than words.
In the centers core where lies can not pretend.
Let me in to show you within me you have a friend.
Who is it I stand before u as that you see?
Landing in your heart I'm falling into my dream.
Catch me and find how gentle I will touch.
As pure as the passion filling a needed rub.
Watch my back as my eyes focus on your blind side.
Share an interest in me as I do in you as my kind.
Riding the desire of having someone like no other.
Unfazed by outside voices fake and undercover.
Know I speak of us in every sense making my day.
Tapping into time spent as forever is on its way.
Have no fear in being who you choose to be.
Just remember I luv u unconditionally.
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Worthy of the while
Sinking in deep under the armor to find the warmth.
Pours opening wide as if I'm an uncloseable door.
Straight to the cores wildest untold mysteries.
I'm feeling u wonder inside the completion of me.
Swimming deeper as u ease a suttle backstroke.
Nerves touched like ripples rolling afloat.
Destination set to concore my untamed smile.
Worthy of the while of making me feel like a child.
Beneath the surface of going the distance.
Ur taking control of emotions without resistance.
Captured by ur luv I'm so glad I let u in.
Then again I couldn't help myself for I need u as a friend.
Only u
Standin directly in the way of harm.
Nothin will hurt u within my arms.
I am that one that fights for only u.
Lost in ur eyes with a luv so very true.
Takin the bumps along with the bruises.
Ur luv my luv I could never abuse it.
Protectin ur happiness as I am.
Stand behind me n claim me as ur man.
Here n now I've finally found u.
Forever always in luv only with u.
I am ur eyes peekin when u sleep.
Watchin those around u as I peep.
These ears of mine listen with interest.
N hear the one that make life so intense.
I am ur will givin an uncoditional luv.
Showin u desire within a warm embracin hug.
This is the way I am with only u.
Puttin self on the line of honest use.
Starin over ur shoulder watchin ur back.
Defendin ur worth of bein my last.
Monday, October 29, 2012
In the dawnfall under the storm.
Findin the shelter away as it pours.
Lays the lessons learned that sticks.
Lifes revealed plan that ease a fix.
Within the mist that falls lightly.
A change in the wind is slightly.
Directin clearity cleansed from the rain.
Becommin face to face with the pain.
Behind the storm comes conclusions.
Steppin out the minds institution.
Free to become one with wisdom.
After the flow all side its peice n done.
Friday, October 26, 2012
Just do it
Here me here.
Now I speak.
Take me there.
To my peak.
Its two ways.
One way street.
In between plays.
Plesureable knees.
Listen at will.
Can you hear?
Imma lay still.
Lend an ear.
I need satisfaction.
From only you.
Where's the interaction?
Meant for use.
Are you interseted?
In taking part.
Because your tested.
Leave your mark.
Just do it.
As I would.
Me your fix.
If you could?
Misplaced somewhere in pretend
If we can't touch as if the pleasure lives within the connection?
What's the purpose of being felt in a moment of intensions?
Where would the interest in contact take place if enjoyment was abscent?
How do you think it would feel to be just in passions event?
Can it be that meaning could be misplaced somewhere in pretend?
Unable to whole heartedly partake in the movement at the end of fingers that bend.
What if purpose retaliated on the sake of pleasures sigh?
What would be that point made once notice changed a mind?
Would u miss what you can not have if your desire craved a tease?
Where does the heart linger if all this ended in a pretty please?
Begging within communication to be given a grope meant for enjoyment.
And if it wasn't wanted both ways coul you give a graze knowing emotions are bent?
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Sexual sensation
Climb as far as u can rise to ur most freakish occasion.
Raise up n arc to the mannor of sins needin frustration.
Speak for I wanna hear u call out to ur fantasies realization.
Peek as u grrr ur best whimper you've ever given to aggression.
Cling to outlastin a moment dragged out by gratifyin affection.
Scream a tale tellin me the secrets u hide deep within motion.
Accept that I am that movement captivatin ur celebration.
Cummin a twitch pulsatin jerks made to justify intensions.
Climax now n let loose of the bodies sexual sensation.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Act lika pro
Work, my pole.
Ri-ide it slow.
Down u go.
Act like u know.
Make me grow.
I wanna say oh oh.
Act lika pro.
Put on a show.
Slow, ya role.
Freak me fo sho.
Ma, Wet ya flow.
Cur-url my toes.
From the bed to da flo.
Grab ahold.
Don't forget to blow.
For that's da way I roll.
Monday, October 22, 2012
Released
Plastered mind sluggishly rockin.
Wicked trim sideways knockin.
Twisted screw unhinged hangin.
Roamin patterns dropped danglin.
Fuzzy cloud poof floatin.
Inhale exhale chokin tokin.
Smashed ease softly soothin.
Fazzed level drftin woozin.
A pointed close
Decisions of a decidin vote.
Will pausin as if a button on a remote.
Pride hurtin n deluted to less.
Rectifyin faults behind the mess.
Conclusion endin btterly sweet.
Likeliness unheard with rapid beats.
Ego bent showin a restarted road.
All has failed blamin a pointed close.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Collidin in the middle
Loose enough to wiggle pleasures outlastin naugthy.
Close rub slidin slips in contacts best ability between bodies.
Holdin nothin back grippin skins clincin hairs tangled.
So into the gasp of becomin meanin in an other dangle.
Bared palms flush fingerin downward in a graspin feen.
Chasin stares collidin in the middle of sights dream.
Facin rapid emotions acceleratin the pulses heat.
Touch makin a scene spread from the head to the feet.
Behind boundaries of comfort tossin a tongues swivel.
Definin a strokes moisture preachin to the souls level.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
I need
Impress me.
Work u out.
Lemme see it.
Gimme ur best bout.
What's up witcha?
Where ur mind.
I see u lingerin.
Eyes made of nights.
Tempt me one.
I can make two.
Lastin in a piece.
Make everyday new.
So u wanna be my last.
Flip ya wig.
Show face.
Correctly invadin space.
I'm willin.
Where do u stand?
Tell me how u want it.
Make me ur man!
Give that sweet sense.
I wanna understand.
Is all else past tense?
I'm a beleiver.
There's someone for everyone.
Be about it.
Stick to ur guns.
How bad u want me?
Cuz I'm feelin ya.
Come with ya best.
I need ya ma.
Loosin up forever.
Gain some trust.
I'm anxious to know.
Who's more than a plus?
Direct n patient.
Franklie I'm in.
Yet I need to know.
Am I livin within?
Or worth other.
Make the call.
Bring it on.
Memories on the wall.
Hook sunk
Bitten tongues.
Holdin luv.
Patience noticed.
Forced focused.
Trust felt.
Hopeful help.
Mouth pointed.
Double jointed.
Smiles awake.
Fates mate.
Standing stares.
Complete repair.
Planted passion.
Perfect traction.
Spinnin hearts.
Doin parts.
Cupids disign.
Gratifyin find.
Vibin care.
Equal pairs.
Hook sunk.
Whipped spunk.
Make ur presense known
It doesn't matter.
I still remain me.
Listenin to laughter.
Sittin a rare breed.
I'm not of importance.
Actions rip away claim.
N I support it.
Yet I know my name.
Reconfigurin thoughts unwound.
Skippin irrelivent patterns.
Takin notice in now.
Constantly climbin a ladder.
I am just.
Fallin into place unheard.
Honeslty feelin crushed.
Yet I see without a blur.
Make ur presense known.
Escape false intensions.
Do what u want all grown.
I'm here fadin with the unmentioned.
Hear me say nothin.
That's the way it goes.
I'll find somethin.
To help me stay afloat.
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Lets say
Let's say I come real with who I am.
Something I've held back for reasons of damn.
I am not who u think I am in our time.
Yet I gave my all and it fucked up my mind.
Let's say I was different with u with purpose.
Watching u constantly do ur part to hurt us.
Dealing with the issues for I need u bad.
U bring out my better or worse as I've been had.
Let's just say I was trying to show u someone loves u.
Just to endure a pain so deep that has no cureable use.
Begging the banging to ease for a brief moment.
Doing all I can do for us and attepmting to hold it.
Let's just say as matter of fact its not my fault.
What u instilled in my souls rebuttle of cause.
I know I am therefore I can survive this show.
Playing along side the words that fake a role.
Let's just say I can't take the betrayal of greatness.
Scrapping away layers of my fortuned happiness.
Living in wills path of failure choking my restraint.
Looking for something worthy to actually gain.
Let's say trust and truth is at the ends of flight.
Gathering intel for the sake of my own selfish rights.
Doing what it is I do best before acting upon what I hide.
Do u know whom it is that truly lays his head beside u?
Let's say I am a fool to a fools eyes ruining the passion.
One that will one day witness the honesty in a reaction.
As I show a face that will never want to be seen again.
Just before the pain settles in between the drips of rain.
Let's say I purposely lost ur trust thinking I had u.
Ignoring the guidlines that make love live loose.
For one day I will give back the past we share just the same.
As recieving is carma doing its job and earning its name.
Let's say for shits and giggles I hide the one I was.
Before u came around and I found meaning in must.
Rotten and unfazed by an other as I was all that mattered.
Allowing no one to mix their blend in the batter.
Let's say time is ticking with hands releasing the lies.
Piecing together the heads rotation as it spins as mine.
Leaving thoughts somewhere lost and forgotten.
Walking away as feet step as nothing can stop them.
Let's say today is the day I become the one who got away.
Stepping on the neck of hidden secrets only delayed.
Rising from the pit u choose to dig for me.
All in the sake of a lifetime with a dream.
Let's say everyone has someone they'd do anything for.
Unable to disguise promises told to the souls core.
As real as air gives a percentage of life to claim.
Do u get the point of the message saying my name?
Whspering through details
Resentment is calling to my character.
Whispering through details caught by the eye.
Forcing the mind to detect the unbareable.
Hearing syllables refute the anger settling why.
Creeping within the nerves sets a horrible explosion.
Ignited by a fools game one isn't good at.
Looks like I'm back to square one with tradition.
Trusting no one and turning again on my accepting lack.
Holding out
Before me stands the fluxuating difference in now and tomorrow.
Blind I am not, yet proof is out of reaches tips of sorrow.
Complex as it is I'm caving silently with the winds change of direction.
I believe there for facts must line up simultaniously withput dedection.
Here watching I've seen the possiblities that trigger the curious questions.
Giggling I refuse to want to face the bare truths misguiding reactions.
Self is becoming one in the same the best I know how onse again.
I'm no fool for I've been around the block and reasons are lame.
I act stupid and listen to tales told to a lent ear caring for a response.
Lmmfao, only if known what I've gathered twists would run backwards at once.
As clear as day yes I've noticed what I shall not speak of as this present time.
But its coming and I feel lost in the future where I stand alone and without a mind.
Its climbing out of me as I swallow the taste regergitating the raw flavor.
And a smile seperates me from a reallity where I come to have bad behavior.
I'm turning slowly as trust in anyone is irrelivent to choice in the matter at hand.
My hearts stopping and I can't feel anything within my own breaking as a man.
In other words I've know for a while past over due smirks that speak the hidden.
Guess I've finally stepped to the plate and at last I know by everyone I've been bitten.
so I fade beaneath the emotions expressed as squeeze the patience.
Holding out for more than words spoken as the fun is upon me awaiting the situation.
Its coming
Its coming so still movement is unseen.
Approaching silence in an awaited stream.
It may take time to show its face of truth.
Telling whits presense of its use.
Slowly it creeps pacing around and about.
Taking its time to reach purposes cloud.
Acting as if intesions should of known.
In reactions over and over were shown.
In arms
Held by arms of secrets hiding face.
Wrapped by half hearted lines traced.
As fingers cling to sufficating the air between.
Feeling the passion in the forward lean.
Flush and compressed to only love.
Lies fill gaps irritating the quiet hush.
Going with the flow of neverending.
Around the body elbows are bending.
Completing a circle of trust untrue.
Seeing imperfections in images drew.
Affraid to be released by a hug so rare.
As the heart will begin to tare.
Dont wanna
I don't wanna be loved by a conscious.
Plagued by guilt givin only one option.
Knowin back in time I've been crossed.
Playin a game of u know who's the boss.
Trickin my worth into beleivin in a fadin cause.
One day to open eyes to a pause.
Cuttin photos of the happiest times ever lived.
Rememberin what it was I was capable to give.
Left rearranged by an others falsehood.
Wonderin could I love if I would.
Forever changed by the hearts misdirection.
Makin the best of the doubtful corrections.
As double sided doors are seen differently.
By eyes on opposite sides as of failed oppertunity.
I jus don't wanna be claimed as a mistake.
In relations I refuse to comfortably partake.
On the ouside fadin back n forth to the inside.
Rockin in a moment made to break the mind.
Visions appear of thoughts unwanted here n now.
Escapin in a withdrawel ignorin the possibility so fowl.
Lookin inward I feel the what's left snappin in frame.
Eyes unable follow the misqued signals before the rain.
Starin at time spent unravellin driftin sequences unseen.
Even dreams are losin touch unconnected with means.
Poppin in n out I seek for hints of truths subconsciously.
For I can not handle the load of facin coincidently.
Pullin from depths I find myself losenin thy grip.
I beilve on this run I may have somewhere slipped.
It is dark tonight
It is dark tonight as I walk in mis air.
I feel the ground beneath but I do not care.
Destination is unknown as yet of how far.
I'm willing to go for I lost the beat of my heart.
Emptiness surrounds the echo about.
Calling to the imaginations repeat of the mouth.
Drifting inward the whole is so real.
Behind me lays the same as I stop and kneel.
Pausing on space I touch my soul.
Palms to souls I start to roll.
Uphill bouncing it is so weird.
Downhill climbing off a peir.
Hollow shadows unseen yet heard.
I am not alone nor can I hear a word.
Lacking sight behind the eyes I linger.
Following misguided fingers.
I am no where fast as I am where I began.
At least it all looks the same according to my hands.
Lost in sight of abscent images.
Tip toeing softly in the blank dimerage.
Sound is not close enough to make.
And their isn't a crack in which I can escape.
It is dark tonight as I lose myself.
I really think I need some kind of help.
Gratifying rubbish
Theraputic lines stretched sideways like the strength of a rubberband.
Snapping letters loose as if a spitball on the minds untamed stand.
Pshycological entertainment spread like silk so smooth on a sheet.
Laying so beautifully adequate before the eyes resting comfortably unique.
Irresistable imagination begging the tempting consciousness the finally speak.
Dropping curves round shapes behind the meaning of fixated insatiable peeks.
Chemically balancing the imbalanced curiosity of depth suffering from curruption.
Confirming self is resistant to the chains unsatisfyed by the torture of disfunctions.
Enthusiatcally combining texture to the taste of purposely tampered theroretical clearity.
Is guidence played by the alphabets maze that is doing so much more than baring me.
Relentlessly cliff diving in the minds clouds of space is a message that bounces off the pupals impact.
Rattling nerve endings cleverly maintaining comprhension of no more than facts.
Imortalizing self as lifes lessons passes by with diddles left alone rectify a rare breed.
Scribbles scrubed with disenfectent of owns once lived troubles and unread dreams.
Gratifying rubbish unseen by forevers ongoing tick of diluting indulgence of pleasures.
I will live after creativity has spoken rationally to the captivating of my own hidden treasures.
Be me for a day,
Cry for me, for my eyes can not see.
The angle of selfishness untangled.
Feel thy pain, ease this hearts dripping drain.
For I am unable to capture the inabled.
Speak my words, for the taste is sour.
Crumbling before ears can hear my core.
Be me for a day, endure the unwanted pain.
Breaking unselfishly as I am as human as irrelativety.
Reach with hands, that clinch my stand.
Losening free will as paths drift yet stand still.
Beg for thy tongue, piercing beleif from the lungs.
Overflowing with desperation and clearifycation.
Comfort real love, expressing actions through hugs.
Wrapped so tight with all ur might.
Be me for just a day, showing interest in more than a faze.
Dazed and confused without a single hint of a clue.
Love leaks
Through the cores cracks I feel the hollow creep.
Alone inside this man lerks self breaking with need.
Partaking in a game so unjustifyable to true emotions.
I as a man am beginning to shut down the everlasting devotion.
Under the skin lays me as human as life exists.
Boiling in frustration of what's been taken from me as a gift.
Love leaks in streams speaking of the pain without.
As words spring to fight for what's fed through thy mouth.
From deep within I call to those that matter the most.
Yet alone I sit begging with this empty pit I feel the most.
The struggle of self is an arrangement of things lacked.
Some in which have change my will, fading to black.
Different I am with more meaning for the point of sake.
Reaching for those cared for, that in, my heart wants to partake.
There I am not, but not by choices of my own character.
Forced hands smacked loose of the clinging barriers.
Lines of which needed not to be drawn so deliberate.
For I know what I am, for this I have the intellegence.
Misguided paths part before reasoning is matured.
Most of all cut short of memories haulted by a detour.
Beneath the passion of this man I am sits still the greif.
Misunderstood, causing so much unwanted beleif.
Seeing with eyes, the reallity of a situation confused.
I am left dangling for this unforgiving world to use.......
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Two sides
Amazing stories lived through trial and error.
Spoken tales from angles different to similarities.
Directions of the minds perceverance unravelled.
Opposite alterations seen so unique with clearity.
Which to believe as the minds speeks of its own belief?
Gathering information stored in only one view.
Set in stone lays two sides conflicting a result.
Combined is the truth told for the walls to put to use.
As mute as the wind without a flow to whistle.
Double edges slice fact nor fiction their seperate ways.
The restless peice of information settles in confusion.
A game of tug of war flat out and simply played.
Blamed!
Pointing fingers stretched beyond repairing conscienceness.
Unbent limbs blaming cause behind irritations misguidedness.
Changing coarse twisting depths abscent before crustating eyes.
Leaking responsibilities own frustration examined by lies.
Landing resentment in frame of mind unrepairable without trust.
Desguising resemblance replaceing matter faking purpose of love.
Turning with resistance hope is all that's failed in a lifetime of knowing characters magical.
Alone and walking past hands that quit lending friendship for reasons immaturely impracticle.............
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
The breaking
Understanding the misunderstood.
Collapsing the mind covered by a hood.
Hiding the confushion snapping the mind.
Answers unwritten are hard to find.
Lost on peices that don't fit near enough.
Reaching for realities lessons coming undone.
Cracks cave thoughts unable to maintain.
Words leak of filth so utterly profane.
Spinning dazes rotate a swiveling blur.
Pretending to have meaning in some kind of worth.
Ends dropping beneath state of minds wealth.
Breaking down silently one needs some kind of help.
Gathered questions stuck in a frozen stance.
Waiting for reason to be given in the outcoming plan.
Struggling within the battle fades the will to rise.
All that's left is the figment of imaginations try.
Beaten below the courage fleeing into defeat.
The cries of a man are unheard as his breath stinks.
Pleading with why's un~naturally resting the head.
Fallen the bobble is gone as the nodding is dead.
Saturday, October 13, 2012
For me
I wanna live like about it is as natural as breathin.
Givin more meanin in a kiss than the fact of reason.
Up early doin what luv could enjoy watchin from afar.
Up close gettin the bigger picture of its own design learnin its part.
Further more all I want is to jus wanna claim my unconditional one.
To be own by the guidence of an others heart doin all it can.
Standin in mind the lifetime that awaits in this cravin man.
Everyday never missin a beat of fillin the pleasure of home sweet home.
Adaptin for there is someone like self that is oh so grown.
I wanna feel the erge to complete the understandin of communication.
Both parties givin self in every way without exadurations.
Mornin to night thru the wee hours of secrets played out.
I want it in a way I'm willin to show I am all in here n now.
Please forever give me my time to do somethin I've never done.
Gimme my desire of confort the individuallity of one.
My words can never express my depth of happiness I need.
For someone to do for me as I would for them on n off my knees.......
The ache
Wearing a face that doesn't resemble my character.
Feeling the strain that makes me appear as an amiture.
Breaking actions hold back true intensions unseen.
Lost in my mine os me snapping out of reality.
Ooh the ache that shows what's going on inside.
Checking self and doing the best I can to hide.
Resistance is appearent to the eyes drowning flow.
Squeezing the life out of what it is I now don't know.
Defeated i run
Its everyone around the walls in which I retreat.
Defeated I run emotions out of the hearts stream.
Sneaking peeks I'm becomming who I was.
Trusting not a single untold word of such.
Locking the gates as no one is allowed to enjoy my thoughts.
Excluding no one from caught outside my own faults.
I gave time and will and found me was not worthy of gain.
Unravelling in frame remains the purpose that has been stained.
Fact of the matter is I am just me unable to feel the comfort.
Hearing lonely chords play a melody fit for me of some sort.
Beleiving in nothing coming from an other for they line boundaries.
Found in me I stand unimpressed and alone with sound of needs.
100
Bigger than I can be, swallowing unheard screams.
A person suffacating on selfs wants and dreams.
No one appears to 100, falling short a few percentages.
Why is it I'm expected to be unhuman with defencelessness.
All or nothing for I know what I have and my capabilities.
Watching everyone around me get lost in currupt abilities.
Its never about me for I can not ask of an others will.
The lack of interest is weakening my very own skills.
Losing movement in the hearts comforting determination.
I feel I'm lost inside myself unable to understand domination.
Actions reflecting true form of character as words cut deep.
I see the meaning with the abscense of me being me.
Does anyone put someone else before their own pleasures?
I can not comprehend why some things they will never.
Is it one just is not good enough to give without asking?
How is it the good is me is turning around and not reacting?
Shutting down of all things as if I do not matter.
It is everyone elses way for what I like would not rather?
I am backed into the corner of my mind hiding from emotions.
Words are ignored like the clearity confuses devotion.
People in general all as one are all the same, I know this now.
There is not a single soul around me that will bend a frawn.
Not for my sake and it shows with great disreguard.
My back does not face the mirror that watches me do my part.
Lines uncroosed for I am nothing to anyones happiness.
My heart feels I am alone on the facts of 100 and restless.
Maybe I should give what has and is being given.
But it only makes for a lifetime of shortened satisfaction in liven.
Friday, October 12, 2012
At the ends of creativity
Running out of the fluent reasoning making sense in my rhyme.
Trying to find words to put in this so called empty pit of a mind.
Tired and strained from the overloaded reallity of endless.
Pages rip unwritten tolds of the overwhelming releantlessness.
Searching details within invisible ink read to tell the whole story.
Needing toughts to fall from more than the forgotten momery.
Stained imprisonment captured by the compelling imaginitive thrust.
Pumping a fulfilling blindness to the naked eye closer than flush.
I'm at the ends of creativity falling short of a shush of sound.
Loosening free will to open up untamable unguided grounds.
Anything away from the norm that leaks temptations uncontrolability.
Something even dreams look forward to, drifting under unstained sheets.
Ahh as the fingers let loose of the extra caricular activity.
Loosening gears grinding with the power processing unity.
Torque spinning the top of the minds everlasting impulse.
Tip tap clicking clacks releasing all the imperfect flaws.
Rounding sphere of knowledge gitty uping the ride.
Digging deeper than the reverse side of what can not hide.
Plunging into an outlet suit to fit the moods creativity.
Again I remain guilty of the fluent charisma gathering activity.
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Turning i pray
Breaking hell open.
Scrapping the erosion.
Long awaited redemption.
Ending unwanted relations.
Holy water sprinkled.
Releasing pains drizzle.
Facing the evil.
Tongues are bilingual.
Standing as saved.
Lords will behaved.
Expression my opinion.
Making real decisions.
Eternity at stake.
God I'm claimed.
Devils not needed.
Torn and weeded.
Lied to repeatedly
Always defeating me.
Taking my sins.
Heaven does forgive.
I've found home.
Leaving demons alone.
Protected by faith.
Beleiving thy name.
Fire all around.
Snapping the sound.
Turning I pray.
Evicting Lucifers stay.
Anger rages air.
Leaving without care.
Untouchable by hate.
Clearing the slate.
Stepping from entrapment.
Hole closing magic.
I'm finally free.
Amen I speak.............
All of the suuden
Bam! Wtf? Where'd u come from? U came for love.
How? Why? Here. Who said I was worthy of ur time?
Damn! Hmmm? Bells. Did I wind up the groom?
Wow. Hello. Geez. I become more than ur fello.
Deep freeze
Thin beneath the feet ice cracks uncontrolably weak.
Gapping holes waiting as knees fold with the cold creep.
Slipping balance slides sideways in defiance chilling the rant.
Elements frozen as feet prints by the dozen are a has beens cant.
Deep burrs are heard through a path deserved & well learned.
Solid ground biting toes that pound creavises without a sounds turn.
Reshaping wisdom
Strange occurances ducking in & out of narmallity.
Moments changing the pasts avoidence of dualality.
Grips loosening by ways of disposals conflictions.
Reshaping wisdom walking in opposite directions.
Standing individually understanding self as found.
Ready to live gathered for the better of gaining ground.
Slowly fluxuating meaning in a little peice of mind.
Appreciating time spent determining to confied.
Lasting afloat
Piecing together lifes disign to beat the relentless drwan out struggle.
Standing strong, choosing when to wear the the hush of a muzzle.
Lasting afloat upright & determining very own my own path.
Adding up the perks & completing the mutliplication of math.
Coming together & easing into a lifetime of deliverance of living a dream.
Popping out of sleep, now reallity is tasting so deliciously sweet.
Complimenting right from wrong made by the days actions.
Getting the feed back without asking for a selfish reaction.
Being me as doing self insists of partaking in more than self.
Showing interest in ways I peek with a mornings fastening on my belt.
Pain & pleasure shaping form in whom it is I truly am.
For my loved ones I will always have purpose in becoming a meaningful man.
Monday, October 8, 2012
Sleepin ride
Catch me sleepin. Roll n watch. Slip ur mind. Pick a spot.
Creep in slowly. Sneak a feel. Play at will. Rub a steal.
Soft n easy. Have ur way. As of yet. Do not wake.
Please own self. Take ur claim. Touch with emotion. With hormones unafraid.
Crawl on top. Slide on down. Slippery when wet. Without a sound.
Bring me back. Curlin my toes. That's a game. Naked no clothes.
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Making of a man
In the slow unique process of the making of a man.
Details have been left for him to make his stand.
Alls been given to the soul to search for purpose.
Finding the meaning in self can show more than worthless.
From the beginning man has dtermined his destiny.
If willing to become an individual one can live without intensity.
Own choice molds character into times completion.
Facing the man in the mirror with more than reason.
Correcting mistakes made by misunderstanding situations.
Trial and error shaping a true mans restoration.
Doing what it is he is capable of to be respected.
For he knows his manhood everyday will be inspected.
Moments define a lifetime of a mans gratitude earned.
As actions speak of what it is he's actually learned.
It is not until laying upon his deathbed that he knows.
Looking about the pain expressed before he lays low.
Asking did he do all he could for the ones he loved.
Answering yes as the loss is more than a simple touch.
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Me loves i as i loves me
Me as I n I as me.
Inside of me I am free.
One plus me is the greatest thing.
In me bouncin within my own dreams.
I became me n found my lean.
Breakin the ease of a mind on lease.
Me I bring forth ever so clean.
Blingin my own style n seen.
I am the please beneath breaths on knees.
So excited to be me as I cling.
As me I fling n sling.
Me as I as I as me.
Need the blood flowin in my stream.
Feedin off the pulse I lead.
Vibin on lifes ring of jeans.
Damn it feels good to me as I am me.
Shakin my dinga linga ling.
My everything is me actin as self as me.
I is me in eyes that stare as me they see.
A different breed cuttin loose at the seems.
I am a single beam under heavens wings.
Without greed of the greens temptin tease.
Me as I as I asm me.
He he ha ha ho ho hummin cheese.
Good bad mean n all that's in between.
Singin my own song tuned to days of blue n green.
Never to flee from me as me is I stayin me.
Makin reason in seasons of summer fall winter n spring.
Its me u see pleedin with self never to leave.
Playin in leaves fallen from the trees.
Til the end as I is so happy to be me.
Freinds with the days heat releasin the steam.
Seizin the gift of glee deep in my souls me........
Me loves I as I loves me!
If n would could
If I stood it up would set it out
I'm jus sayin cuz u got me speakin outloud
What if I was truly serious
Would u use ur imagination n be the least bit curious
If luv played its part n found fraction of lust
Willingly to me, would u give it up
For jus a moment to simply entertain
Could u ease into drivin me insane
Let's say I had to have every inch of u
Would u find time to cut urself loose
What if I was good n wanted to see ur bad
Could it be possible to see u mad
Givin what u always dreamed
Findin enjoyment in what it seemed
Under n over rollin silkishly about
N if I wanted u to do more than moan a bounce
Could it be me that you've needed to be free
Cuz id luv for my toes to curl n freeze
If I dared to see u come alive
Is it in u for ur innocence to step aside
Maybe we could play a game for nothin more than the sake
What would u do if u found about me what u crave
To release the power to take control
Doing what u do endin up on my pole
If indeed I were to get to u
Would u if u could put ur body to use
N if I told u what I really wanted
Would I be worth watchin how u flaunt it
For everyone has someone they'd come out of the bag for
Spillin secrets in a nights grind from the bed to the floor
I'm jus askin
Jus would luv a breif glimps of passion
What if I were to allow myself to be ur toy
Would u find me useful as ur sexual void
Maybe what if could never be to straight forward
Would u do more than speak a mumble of ur untamed words
N if u absolutely couldn't help urself
Is it in u to please as I'm being felt
I'm jus wonderin if I could get a hint
Of what it is u want to be bitten choked or clinched
If I overwhelmed ur empty hormones
Do u think u could finally go crazy n act full grown
Pretend u r what u are affraid to be
I wouldn't think less of u if u were on ur knees
If n jus if u were the freak u hide
Yes I know its there stuck deep inside
Could u jus be who it is u actually wanna be
For one night as I am completely under seige
Cuz if u could find it behind an if
Id be forever urs hard n oh so stiff
U see I wanna know the real u that will not lie
Actin out what feels good on this body of mine
So if its possible to lay for a moment
Do u think u could posssible attempt to own it
If that one u tuck inward deep within
Yeah that's the one, I wanna see if she can contend
Its jus a question if u could answer honestly
One in which if u would give in to the effect openly
Friday, October 5, 2012
Rambling truth
As I search for the proper way to say what it is I need to say. Will you find patience in my tone of sound released from the depths of my honesty to wait. I'm going to attempt this verbal acknowledgement with this man I have become to express from thy heart just to tell you the secret that describes my emotion for only you. Opened up to the likes of acceptance and knowing you have finally heard the truth. So as I ramble through the letters I pluck from within and align what is going on inside me seen by acts of will. Please try to find reasoning of someone like myself to love you the way I do sitting so close and trying to remain still. So if you can dig into that sacret place no one is aloud to be, you see I need you to understand the passion that is over flowing underneath the vision of the man it is you do indeed crave. My love I must get to the point and try not to have a loss of words as speech may break down before you today. Do not worry if it may take time to get out the comfort in which you give to me, beacause I would just for once want to direct the attention in a conversation correctly. You see, I do not mind one least bit for you to take up the space within me that has never been filled before. I quite enjoy the meaning you give to the unused purpose I have carried for so long in my core. Hear me if you have the tiime to listen to your man putting himself on the line in a way I am so desperately willing to hold on to. Not that anything is wrong, but to assure you I am that one whom can not help but to love only you. Lady, you receive my best pouring from these lips with actions that speak louder than I could ever put letters into form. For you I give me because you deserve a man who enjoys opening more than doors. I guess what I am trying to say is what I have just let slip out so freely. Wow, seems I did not have to try like the way I love you so easily. Goes to show it is natural for me to give me the way I do. Now all that is left is for you to believe I am so in love with you.........
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
Without you
Your not worth anything to me lost.
All that would be still is in the calling of a pause.
The wording may seem hurtfully wrong.
But I wouldn't know what to do if you were gone.
Surpressed memories broken and ignored.
Losing you deep within my unselfish core.
Your worth my every individual imparticular thing.
Misplacing you just may change the way I think.
Even slipping loose from a rings inner diamiter.
Will leave me alone to show the face as an amiture.
Without you dying alive seems appropriate.
Walking alone I would stand confused and misguided.
Life as I know it could never be repaired.
And all my will misplaced is so easily misfortunately unfair.
According to the obvious facts are apparent
According to your smile breaths are faint around kisses.
Eyes sparkle with a twinkling enjoyment in wed as Mrs.
Language of your flowing sway speeks without a word.
And it is the greatest thing I have never heard.
It is apparent love has settled in to your creases.
By the tone of you voice you have gathered the peices.
Put self back together before me as I watch you live.
And there is not a thing for you I would not give.
Obviously you have found what you have longed for.
In me as it shows as looking threw me is no more.
You see me as a relivant way of life showing interest.
The way you cling within a reach tells has me speechless.
Fact of the matter that is as real as emotions shared.
Is that how in one an other we were meant to be paired.
Easing out of me I step away and take a peek.
Letting things be what the truly seems.
Watching the freedom of drifting off to sleep.
Oh how I need to get lost in a dream.
For my face leaks of hope that flees.
As my eyes sees self worn and beat.
Running thoughts meet expressions freed.
Staring I creep back into my own heat.
All but the walls are falling at this point.
Standing like toothpicks in the wind.
Cracking as if my spine can not handle the weight.
I'm almost spent and I'm frightened.
Toughts strain aches bruising thy will.
Confushion settles to the nerves pinch.
Poking at the unseen endings likelyness.
One upon a time I had this thing clinched.
Roofs wiggling looser by the days tick.
Allowing moisture to awaken a drip in the eye.
Pain creeps in between the darks path.
Nails cling to structure in a broken mind.
Floors creek like my body that's so sore.
Bending and hiding vibrations as it lays.
Falling quicker as second claim the night air.
Needing a miracle of support I pray.
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Given a second first chance
Given a second first chance after time has been lost.
Almost as if time was meant to be interupted and paused.
Waiting patiently for the moment of irresistable fate.
Hoping lessons learned never came to unfortubately late.
Love sat still enough in the uknown heart to maintain for truths own.
Leveling heads made to understand we are indeed grown.
Days then years slipped away for the sake the breath taking of us.
Its undenyable that we are meant to be more than a childhood crush.
Here standing and given a second first chance to show selfs acceptance.
Honestly we fell asleep on a dream that was unseen as releantless.
Together we now know why the memory lingered and remained.
Living as freinds first as days go by and there is so much more to gain.
Have meaning in tone
Straight up. As real as alphabets has definitions.
Speak to me. With purpose of words chosen worth a mention.
Showing ur face. Be able to beat a bush into clarity.
To the point. Listening I'm waiting on security.
Taking away uncertainties. Fill me whole.
Be u. Here n now as it is u that unfolds.
Have meaning in tone. Chipping loose the past.
Whom is it u r with? Do u want it to last?
Grab ur claim. Hold the truth as feelings r set aside.
Tell me of all people. Confide n do not hide.
Flush lips only retain. Speech attempting to be heard.
Grasp reallity. Grown n flowing willing to learn.
Speak to me. Release all the things u never say.
Upon my ears. Waiting for a freindship that won't stray.
Trust in my reaction. Be one with ur inner most.
Actions told. N together we can grow old as we coast.....
Sunday, September 30, 2012
A dash of u n a sprinkle of me
Tasty recipe mix oh so ever nicely.
A dash of you and a sprinkle of me.
Stired for the flavor of the tongue.
Spices of truth and honesty dabbed in love.
Thickening sauce of emotions heated.
Simmering slow and sipped to see what's needed.
Perfection is served to warm the soul.
Enjoying the dish before it ever goes cold.
Good life
I'm on my road to the ever so hard to find good life.
N I'm not turnin back in this lifetime without a fight.
My happiness has found its own way to spend its days.
Unforced by the sight of the curve of a womans face.
Times given in to whispers deep within the night.
Held so tight rollin in what's called the goodlife.
Feet claimin ground beneath the undenyable meaning.
Makin reallity from the imagination lost n dreaming.
N there's no way in hell I'm ever gonna give this up.
Fallin deeper by the day covered in my very own true love.
The good life tingles my senses once numbed ability.
Awakening n resting my long gone forgotten insecurities.
Unconditionally I live within my hearts unstoppable purpose.
Finally accepted I don't feel so utterly unsupported nor worthless.
My good lifes here for my chance to be forever as one needed.
Even within the moments so missguided as tensions heated.
I'm never ever gonna ever never quit walkin the walks sway.
Finding ways to make her smile is my lifelong dream to play.
Coming full circle meeting in the middle of being completed.
Giving all I can so she feels blessed n never depleated.
Its the good life laying emotions on the our timeline.
There's nothin wrong with her claiming me as hers as mine.
When selfs allowed to individually grow n live with a voice outloud.
Releasing truth in actions let loose by unspoeken words from the mouth.
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Hand in hand
Interesting situation revealing the obvious in a constant welcoming connection.
Completing tasks of tests falling from the blind sides attempt to intrude with intensions.
The rolling struggle finds nothing but rough edges stumbling into a frozen hault.
Unfazed standing hand in hand we kick rocks out of the way for the better of our cause.
Laughing unbroken we fight to make the moments meant to be remembered.
Enjoying the ride of passion in between the hardest flatlines bent, snapped and dismembered.
Taking seconds back from the day stressing perfect relations that are more than satisfied.
Crossing cracks webbed in zig zag patterns, invisible to eyes that are locked and mesmerized.
All the while growing stronger within loves power of fate opened completely up.
Breathing kisses untamed by tactics against the gentle clinging to hugs colliding to touch.
Releantless angles throwing confushion directed at the hearts willingness to simply give.
Little does the pain know it can not defeat the purpose behind the desire that demands to live.
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Facin the flip side
Bumpin heads with a two headed coin.
Tails between the legs n I don't know where I'm going.
Facin the flip side n callin tails every time.
Losin the toss n going outta my mind.
Rotation in mid air seems so promissing.
Til the landing leaves me imagining.
The equal bounce of metal happening.
Flicked from the thumb of chance.
Falling down to seek a glance.
Peeking to make the right call.
As eyes gaze upon the lengthened crawl.
Pushing forward
Riding on the back of life weighed down.
Feet unmovable, stuck in the soiled ground.
Planted pivit pushing foward yet still.
Muscles ache from the strain of will.
Knees shake in exhaustions ware.
Damn near giving out to what is not fair.
On the backside of the restless gain.
Enduring the best of the chilled rain.
Eyes leak in the silence of night.
Bending for the purpose of the fight.
Face curved to the struggles misfortune.
A timeline given from the start of doomed.
Riddled with the satisfaction of just being alive.
Content with the furry of needing an eased mind.
I ride with patience spread thinner by the second.
Stronger than yesterdays precious moment.
Perfect Morning Awakening
Cracking eyes, awakening to the sight of you drifted.
Lids lifting, staring at the comfort as if in dreamland I missed it.
Opened to a morning filled with the ease of pleasure.
Taking notice to happiness snuggled unbothered.
Pupils adjust to the shape of your face lost in another place.
Watching the rest of a beauty cling to the break of day.
So lovely to see a breath taken so relaxed and peaceful.
It is truly a moment that words find unmentionable.
Splitting to the mornings smile you seek me glaring.
Zoning in contact with the likes of perfection baring.
Emotions slips down a cheek as I'm caught in admiration.
Rolling over to feel the connection of the hearts early morning stability.
Make me
Make me. Me. Make the man I am. Better. Me. Make my will be uncontrolled. By me. my heart needs ur make. Kind. Make up my mind. Mine. Make me believe. I am more than I am. Me. Make me step up my game. Claim me. Own me. My heart wants to be. Make me love. Willingly as me. Make me fall. Doin u with me. Make me listen within actions.calming me. Relaxing me. Easing me. Make me breath you. Me. I want it to be me. Make me your best friend. Its me that will defend. Standing as me. For us. Its me. Make me want to beg. Feening for your presense. Me. Only me. Make me. It wouldn't take much. So make me.
Luv me
Luv me for the passion in the depths of me reachin for u. For the emotion escapin longin to feel only u. For the willingness to show patience for a lifetime for us. For the connection made in between two as one in luv. Luv me because u can't resist the comfort of me. Because I need u the same as u need me. Because the time has come to faal into my arms where u are safe. Because without me lifes flavor could never taste the same. Luv me.
Monday, September 24, 2012
Hands unfolding
Fighting the invisiblity of failure in between the breezes flow followed by a strong wind backing down the struggle in which I am slowly losing.
Grabbing at space and swinging fists clinched that land on absolutely nothing as frustration slices the confusion in halfs causing more than inner bruising.
Hands unfold to defeat as the body aches from severe storms of havic that rip away the will doing more than giving its all for the better of worth.
Changing the face that stares at the game played to win when comfort is on the line of remaining to stand strong enough so life won't hurt.
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Leavin my best
If it were me to go first. If it was I to leave my best. Id leave u one last piece of me to ur smile. So u could to feel it in an others chest. So u can hear it beat as a part of me is alive. Left behind to comfort ur thoughts. To try n ease ur emotions. So it can be as close to so u never feel lost. My heart I gave to u. Carrying the luv of u with every pulse. To hopefully remain in ur life. So time it self dcoenst get stuck in a pause. If I left u here today. Forced to part to rest in peice. My last dyin wish would be for u to never feel alone. For us in ur lifetime to forever be.
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Tomorrow today yesterday?
If it were end tomorrow. Who'd feel the pit of an L? Losin more than what could eva be gained back. As nothin could eva compete with what bein felt. What if today was it? Losin all but memories that could neva go to waste. Who'd be the one needin it more than the other? Unable to find anything remotely close enough to its taste. If it was gone like yesterday. Would u fight for the existance to be reborn as if it neva left? Who's worth would be more than a physical presence? Havin been locked in the heart for a lifetime to spend with.
Monday, September 17, 2012
Lost in disbeleif
Ticking so softly.
Slowly yet costly.
Emotions pound.
Deeper the sound.
Booming vibrations.
Rippling a solution.
Rattling nerve endings.
Shock waves sending.
Confussion to the pause.
Finding cracks in flaws.
Needing not to break.
For thy is not fake.
A strain settles in.
Showing where I've been.
Rips tare by the slice.
Going over it twice.
Lost in the disbeleif.
The ground pulls at my knees.
Comforts abscent here.
Leaving notthing but fear.
Poking at what is left.
Destroying my best.
A lil different is my smile.
Falling on the ends today.
Missing its uncontrolled charm.
Bending into a break.
Puprose losing ground.
Somewhat rearranged.
Trying to protect emotions.
Sticking around fighting the change.
Blank stares silencing my grin.
Dropping hints of the ache.
I'm unable to enjoy this day.
The irritations sucking in the pours in my face.
Drying up the leaking sensation.
Turning me into a man of stone.
Mouth is more still motioneless.
All I hear is whimpers of moans.
Taken from me is the ease.
The knowing of m y happinesses vibe.
Desserted as alone I feel.
Lost in an unknown time.
From ear to ear my smiles been misplaced.
Deliberately disoriented.
Past
Way past words purpose and clinging to you.
Emotions feel the endless in touches use.
On this side of loves never ending calling.
I'm in the middle of actually doing more than falling.
Living in the presense of a dreams true ability.
Becomming more than an ever wanted reality.
No longer behind the closed unseen colors in eyes.
Stepping out side the wonder of my drifting mind.
So far past just wanting u to know I want to know u.
In a holding embrace as one comes from two.
Laying close enough to know perfect comfort.
Outlasting the find in knowing what was always to hover.
Claiming what's willing as easy as it is to be given.
Within times clues of telling what's truly unhidden.
Completions correcting characters ways that play.
Walking a talk that means more than past days that fade.
Calming the nerve of the lack of own selfs worth.
Now before me u stand and am finally being heard.
Within cracks in each incomplete letter slowly reconnected.
Reading what's been written and properly inspected.
Finding interest in more than just a empty lonely title.
Watching steps easing along for their not so vital.
Past the clicking of not knowing shared passion.
I am yours my love to do how it as your heart tends to cash in.
Rich in soul that sings a song pushing throughout.
Above the soil as we are not past our moment to live outloud.
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Love is my find
I got it.
Found it.
In my heart.
Living n alive.
Its here.
Moving inside me.
Filling space.
Completing the mind.
To stay.
Needing me.
Needing it.
Luv is my find.
Opening me.
Throughout this man.
Searching thy good.
With a sigh.
Expressing self.
Accepted as.
Flowing through.
Hearing lines.
Told to comfort.
In beleif.
Relaxed within.
Its my time.
Saturday, September 8, 2012
Is me.
Is me. I don't understand. Words r abscent. Me. Is it? Confused I am. Rotating huh. Me is. I know what that means. Over achiever. Its me. Lost in tolerance. Unjustifyably misunderstood. Is me. Permenantly rounded. Concrete in mind. As me. Turnin pages stuck together. Missin info. Me. Zoning in la la land. Looking for reason. Me as I. Alone when alls failed. Tearing up. I is. Misdirected. Let down. Is I. Interesting enough. Able to make it. I as one. Level headed n ready. Going the distance. One is me. Reshaping a man. Looking for depth. I is. Aching deep. Searching for self. I am. Therefore I know whom. Becoming the unmentionable. Me I is. Giving alls worth. Wanting meaning in a lifetime.
Friday, September 7, 2012
Somethin not so short
I love being tied up with you with fingers locked and wrapped in love as if in a laced pattern that feeds emotions coming alive and takes control of gratified hormones as seconds tick and patience sinlges out true intensions showing interest to please a pleasure worth the time rolling in an complex battle for the top that has two victories fighting for the right to feel a climax like no other as yours vs. Mine in an act so passionate sweat dances around puddles forming on the bed beneath that squeeks with orgasms moaning deeper than fantasies trying to breathe a gasp of survival from the heat exhaled from the lungs as if the inner most cravings boil with perfection made for a god that fills our surroundings with more than the temperature of air rising with the sun in the early morning chasing away the night in which got away from us I believe way to fucking soon.
Asking?
What to do with ends that don't meet?
When emotion are so affraid to leak.
Where's the words that hide from the speech?
Drowning in the throats defeat.
How's one suppose to move as they plead?
Shuffling backwards with their feet.
Who's to say all is will with a please?
Bringing one of the two off their knees.
Why's it always one way outside of dreams?
Holding in the never ending dripping stream.
Lost in you
Endless drifts in the middle of long enjoyable days.
Living in eyes peeking a boo in between sun rays.
Finding forevers outlasting the curious imagination.
Lost patiently in the ways of an others temptations.
Riding emotions that consume everything finally getting right.
Knowing no one else to them can hold a candle light.
Motionless in moments made to be made.
Meeting on the other end of the tunnel still going the same way.
Perfection speaking in smiles crossing lines no other shall reach.
Two as one being what they are being in love as it will teach.
Happy in the mood of what it is for the way it is.
Easing in comforts slow winding breeze catching a kiss.
In the time of where the hearts belong.
Dreams are complete with a face that has been longed.
No more one of these days that never seemed to come.
Finally together feeling rings worn for self is now one.
Understanding what it takes to be with the best thing ever.
Lost in loves desire for passion as it stares back into forever.
With more meaning in purpose than this world knows.
Bending til the snap of a crack breaking for loves equalizing flow.
Going further than invisible lines over stepped to make a point.
Filling more than that irritating lonely void.
Lost in you somewhere between heaven & me I see my life.
Clinging to the compassion & having a need for my wife.
I stand a man compelled by your touch.
As you own the depths of my hearts love.........
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Ive never
I've never seen it outside a dream.
Even there eyes don't speak.
Not the way a stare back calls to me.
So extreme over flowin wells leak.
Watchin happiness drip from ur cheek.
Locked in on the sights of me.
Luvin through a glare that needs.
Lettin loose of emotions that want to be free.
I've never noticed the attention so true.
Not until I ran back into u.
Outside my head where thoughts r used.
Its all in the way u do what u do.
Of this being possible I never knew.
Glanced over n peeked upon it soothes.
Knowin ur following the way I move.
Pupils stuck to me like glue.
I've never seen it that way before.
Reachin out from ur inner core.
U make me want so much more.
Of a luv that tends to lore.
Drainin energy from the pores.
As pulses race n expressions sore.
Meetin behind the closin of the door.
Touchin feelins like musical chords.
I've never witness somethin so real.
Chippin at the stone as it peels.
Made to want to heal.
Its in the way u simply deal.
A luv so comfortin it ceils.
Cracks n breaks along the walls feel.
Makin me out to be more than a meal.
I've never been eased away from being steel.
In a world made for struggle.
Level ur eyes with an other.
Check the height of ur chin.
Or why even bother.
Walking with stress made to break.
Stand ground for purpose.
Bend for the moments.
In rythm with the movement.
Ease along until u find urs.
Enjoy the possiblities u receive.
Go ahead n take a tour.
Live as if u are alive.
In a world so utterly cruel.
Be self til the end.
Yet know u r no fool.
Sunday, September 2, 2012
Held in a frame
Head held in frame workin on a perfect picture.
Behind glass eyes as still as happy features.
Showing smiles captured in a flashes click.
Pausing moments to be seen foreve to nows grip.
Pinned to a walls space of remembrance in time.
Hanging hooks holding the pasts faces that shine.
Saturday, September 1, 2012
Hold it gently
Pick it up.
Give into me.
As my heart lies.
Give it meaning.
Feel its pulse.
Show me u care.
Put it to use.
Give it a dare.
Love my will.
Give it a chance.
Make a friend.
Flow with the dance.
Hold it gently.
Trust its cause.
Open urself.
With a slight pause.
Put it back.
Give it a home.
Be its comfort.
Ur all its known.
So show urself.
Become one in time.
Break free from restraints.
Know ur my kind.
Reaching over the middle
So close I can taste it.
Kinda like enjoying a buzz not so blitzed.
Reaching over the middle.
Open hands outstretched within a riddle.
Helping love live with patience.
Easing into rythm ever so anxious.
Bringing forth equal playing feilds.
Something meant that is only felt as real.
Raising the bar of purpose.
Relaxing unsettled emotion so nervous.
Taking the time to teach and learn.
Giving chance for expressions to do more than yearn.
Two paths crossed marking the spot.
X-ing the treasure where secrets a droped.
Meeting in between wants and needs.
Allowing self to be used like a dream.
Its there hiding behind selfish ways.
Wanting to break free yet so affraid.
Boundaries made were meant to be erased.
Once upon a time we all get fazed.
Pulling an other away from rotting.
Spoiling someone other than self popping.
Bubbles bursting in faith.
Claiming the only thing one has in their space.
Saving the worth in loves undying eyes.
Standing only by an others side.
Family matter
Taking a poke at families irrelivant obligation.
Forced to deal with bloods confusing irritation.
To love them is a real trying over played emotion.
When liking any of them takes so much devotion.
Back and forth along the walls climbing inside erosion.
Hoping relevance slows for the sake of the commotion.
Individualizing last names that represent different illusions.
So far away from the closest thing is bloods restrictions.
Unable to accept one an other as if time lost imperfection.
Picking away at the bound that's strained by intrution.